280903
Generally pissed off
Things I should do before tomorrow:
-Plan my essay about the use of pictures in media
-Do/Understand some math exercises
-Finish the giddamned Art project
Out of these three I have somehow managed to fulfill the second one. My head could as well have been made of wood at the moment. Trying to come up with things to write to the friggin' essay is impossible. (Nearly. I shall keep trying.) My Art thing stinks. Big time. Maybe I should start a new one. Actually I should get it done by Tuesday. But it still feels impossible.
I feel stressed. I never feel stressed. Gack!! I'm thirsty. That's how you know I'm stressed. I shall go and get something to drink..
270903
Good morning...
The French test was quite OK, except that there were many things I did recall studying but couldn't remember in the test itself. I just remembered that I wrote the word 'stamp' as 'temps' which means weather. The teacher'll will have hell of a good time reading my answers.. Oh well, as longs as I pass. I don't need to study French again... Grateful for that.
I should finish my Art assignment. I still need to figure out how I could place three more people, four lights and tables in to the picture. Easier said than done..
Twinkie won't be going to London with me. Budget keeps her home. Well, damn. Oh, well, I'll just have to go by myself and discover all the comic book shops all alone. *sniff* No really, I'm not that disappointed. I'm a grown.. person. I know how to handle things. ^^
Drew a terribly fluff pic of Aya and Yoji in the rain last night. I couldn't help but to laugh at myself because of it. I'll blame Trinity Bennet's West Kantou Theme Park part 3 for it. It put me in a fluffy mood yesterday. But was damn good too. God, I need to better my writing. I wan't to make people do OOC things just because they've read my fiction. Then again, what do I have but time?
Breakfast. Breakfast sounds really good at the moment..
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*blanker than blank*
English test today. Pitifully easy. Did stupid mistakes, if I may guess. French tomorrow. GACK! I don't like the irregular verbs.. They are so.. irregular. German irregular verb nearly killed me few years back and now I'm supposed to study even more irregular verbs. Luck is not on my side nowadays.
Poor Twinkles. Poor poor you and your softie-self. *pats head*
Well.. that was odd..
If things go well, Twinkie and I will be going to London in about a month. *crosses fingers*
Je n'etudies pas francais. Je suis fatigu�e. I am an idiot, really. That's pretty much all I know. And besides in 'francais' in the letter c there should be that little hook thingy, but I have no idea where to find it from the keyboard..
I have absolutely no interest in studying French at the moment. I know that once I pass the test it'll be over for me (French that is) but it still is hard to find my motivation.
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*blank*
I did study. I did manage to write a two-page-essay about the birth of the solar system and the way it works. I also wrote an essay about volcanos and why they do what they do, but the sad thing is, that when I thought volcanos would be something I really remembered, it turns out I couldn't write even a whole page about them. I must hope there is at least something correct in the solar system thing. *crosses fingers*
Also had English listening comprehension today. Was bored to death. Test on the same subject'll be tomorrow.
I came home twenty minutes ago and in another twenty minutes I should be sitting in a bus on my way back to town. At five, Japanese lessons and at six (sadly I won't be able to go there before half past six) Art School. Yay. At fiften past eight I'll be on my way back home again. I love the hectic life I live. ^^;;;
220903
*wide yawn*
I actually have studied geography. The bad thing is that when I tried to read and rememberize the basic facts about the ozone layer, I completely fell asleep. That is just sad. The exam is on Wednesday, with two essays and word-explanation-stuff, and I'm falling asleep while studying. I should cry now. But then again, I won't. I know that when a star dies, it first turns into a red giant. Then, because its insides shrink and outsides bloat, it turns into a supernova and from the supernova-phase it can turn either into a black hole or... dammit, I forgot. But I do remember more than I did yesterday. That is progess. In Wednesday I can tell about the destruction of a star without any flaws, but with my luck, nobdy will ask anything about that matter..
I might have to skip Japanese lesson tomorrow to study geography. Wednesday I can go to Japanese lesson, since it's English test on Thursday, and I'm not planning to stydy too much. I take this as a proper way to practise. ^^
On Friday it's French, and because I am intending to pass it even though I'll quit studying the damn language after this course, I really need to read like there'd be no tomorrow.
Next Monday it's Literature, and a simple text to write. Tuesday Maths, which should be fairly easy. I do understand it. (This is where everyone should stare in awe.) And on Wednesday, Religion/Ethics whatever-the-hell you wanna call it. That'll be it for this period, and the next one will be easier than I have had since starting school. I'll have nothing else but Sports, Music, Literature, Physics (That I could skip..), Swedish and something I don't remember.. Mondays will be almost legal, with nothing but Sports, Music and Literature. I will have lots of time during the next five (?) weeks to write, aside from school-work. Maybe I can actually finish the infamous 'London-thingy-fic' I strated last October. I began re-writing it last night. Had a blast. Sound like an idiot. Need more sleep.
210903
Peace, man! ^^V
According to VH1 it's Peace day today. Well, Yay! Cheers for peace! Peace is a good thing, but it is utopistic to think it could ever be fully achieved. People will keep on fighting until the end of the world, but dreams are always nice to have.
That's it for the deep and meaningful me for today...
I want to write a sequal to Write It Down. I want to write our favourite assassins in their mission mode. I wanna write a great plot. I want to receive worshipping reviews. It's nice that I wanna have so many things but when I come to think of it, the hell, I don't feel that much like writing at the moment. I never feel too much like writing if I have read great fanfiction (this time is P.L. Nunn's Price for Madness, stayed up until early this morning, reading it. Loved it. Yes. Don't understand why I haven't read it earlier.) But still, I need to write the damned sequel. It might be that I'm trying to come up with excuses to keep myself from studying geaography or sketching my next work for Art. Just might. But really, I honestly should drag my ass upstairs and open the cursed geography book and read all the 144 pages of gibberish. Out of all the many, many subjects I should understand by wednesday I understand weathers and volcanic activities (does that sound a bit odd?). So yay. And I know what happens when a star dies. It either turns into a supernova or... something.. Damn.. I really need to study..
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Blank..
Left school a bit early roday. Not feeling too well.. Ack..
What Yaoi Stereotype Are You?
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You're usually the kind who is the leader in whatever you do. Even so, socializing isn't your forte. You'd much rather be alone somewhere reading a book or working on something quietly. People just tend to be unnecessary distractions, and you could more than do without them. At least, that's what you'd like people to believe In truth you are actually rather scared. Though, not even heavy torture would get you to admit it. You just don't know how to deal with people, because you've never really had much experience. It's because of this that it usually takes an outgoing, experienced person to knock down some of your walls. They are everything you aren't; friendly, popular, and self-assured. And, after all, opposites attract. Relationships with other Switching Stoics tend to fizzle out rather quickly because neither of you know what to do about how you feel. You need someone to help you understand these strange emotions called love and desire, and to let you know it's ok to express them. As a result, you usually end up uke. Well, at least to start out. Maybe after you get a handle on how things are done you will switch your role. Hence the title.
Likeliness of being seme: 40%
Likeliness of being uke: 60%
Some fellow Switching Stoics: Ran (Weiss Kreuz), Sanzo (Saiyuki), Heero (Gundam Wing), Hisoka (Yami no Matsuei)
^^V Well.. yeah.. Who knows.. Except that Ran, Sanzo and Heero are all more seme than uke. In my opinion at least..
This is hilarious. ^^
140903
Sunrise
Woke up moments before the dawn today. Not suppesedly, but anyhow. I happened to look out from the window and saw the sky bathing in soft pastel tones just before the sunrise. The view literally awed me. Natural beauty is far greater than anything human can do. So, I walked downstairs, very silently, so I wouldn't wake up the entire household and then out to the yard. Our white car seemed to be some color between light pink and purple and the whole scenery had turned into a dream-like shade of reds, purples and blues. I remained there, standing in the yard for a long time, just watching the sunrise.
I have yet to decide which is more beautiful; the sunrise or the sunset, but let's just say, that this morning began very well.
After I came back in, I noticed I didn't feel sleepy, even though it was something around 5.55 AM and so I walked -silently- back to my room and turned on the computer and pretended to be Zeus for a moment. (Master of the Olympos - Zeus, an obsession.) I watched my happy little Utopia for a while and the nearly fell asleep on my chair. That was when I decided to sleep some more.
It was a good decicion. I had some very interesting dreams.. Other part of them included my entire family in a small boat as an elephant (???) swam by, creating monstrous waves and so threw all my precios possessions into the water. The situation was solved somehow, I think..
This was followed by a dream including Sanzo-ikko. Sanzo (poor him) had a problem. He had lost his powder. He refused to go outside before he found his powder. Don't ask. Well, he found it and received some very odd looks from the other three. Then there was some almost-SanzoXGojyo-stuff. And I also noticed that the guys were speaking English and so pushed the pause button and changed the dialogue to Japanese and subtitles to English.
We can all make our assumptions now. How many of you think that I watch too much anime (on DVD)? *looks around* Uh-huh.. What about my deep liking of yaoi-stuff, how healthy is that? *looks around again* O-kayh..
What the hell does 'faux pas' mean?
130903
Anniversary..of sorts
I've been a fan of Wei� Kreuz for exactly a year now. Yay for me for sticking up with a series this long and still being nearly fanatic. ^^ Except that there's no more fanfiction that'd interest me that I haven't read.. Okay, P.L.Nunn's newest post-Gl�hen thing is ongoing, but the keyword is 'on-going'. Only the first chapter up. But it's amazingly good, though. Yeah..
Got Kazaa last night. I think I like it better than WinMX. Most likely. Who knows. Maybe it just likes to be nice for the start and then turns out to be a total monster..
I need to have the Saiyuki OAV translations. Sad thing is that nobody seems to have them anywhere. Damn.. The good thing is, that I'll get Saiyuki ep.22 in the matter of.. 33 hours! Yay for fast downloads.. And I need more of 35/53 fiction. Sadly the mojority of it is in Japanese and as far as I'm concerned, I don't understand the language too well. Life is a bitch.
Why the hell have I done nothing but bitched in the past three posts?
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I am tired... So very very tired.
Went to a outdoors concert last night with a bunch of friends and returned sometime pat midninght. Not a bad time, but if you've woken up at 6 AM it kinda does feel tiring..
Anyway, the concert was fun, if you don't count the hour or so during what I franctically searched for two of my friends who I feared to be too drunk to realize who they were. The other one of them wasn't but.. Yeah. Why the hell the only thing I stress myself about is my friends if they happen to have drank something stronger than soda? Don't know.. That's why I should never go along with anyone who is intending to drink. I end up worrying over them in a very mother hen-ish way...
I should go to school...
[Later]
You're a Dialogue/Character Writer!
What kind of writer are you?
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Too much play-writing?
070903
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So called "Night of Arts" last night. In English it means lots of drunken people and music you don't want to listen unless you are drunk. Well, I wasn't. Not my style, not at all. Anyway, had a nice Time with Twinkie and a bunch of other friends while walking around downtown, laughing at the twelve-year-old kids drunk as hell and looking for anyone familiar who we could say hello to. We found some, smelled their alcohol-y breaths and listened to their lovely stories about their life and what they've done. Very interesting. When the walking around became tiring, we went to Twinkie's for tea and sympathy. There wasn't too much tea, but there was lots of sympathy.
My dear brother called me sometime before 11 PM and informed me that he didn't have anything to do and asked me if I could go back home with him. I agreed and a little past 11 we drove home.
Maybe if I would have the habit of drinking myself into oblivion every weekend and possible occasion, I might have stayed longer, but since that just isn't my style, leaving before midnight is just fine. Yes, I am boring. Yes I am an abstainer and yes, I have heard from many sources that my decicion is just plain stupid. Well, I don't see what is so smart in drinking and then remembering nothing. Now I'm bitching. I shouldn't be bitching. Damn...
Came back from Sweden, too, yesterday. I bought three DVDs... Two Saiyukis and one Wei� Kreuz. Twinkie's supposed to come by today and watch them. Yay!
030903
Mup.
Mup is the word the book I'm currently reading begins with. It says that 'mup' is the sound TV makes when it's turned off. It's a great book. Truly.
Our French teacher didn't appear today, so we had an hour of free-time during what I did absolutely nothing. Tried to do my Japanese homework but my goo-full head refused to co-operate. Sad.
I hate it when I feel like drawing and have multiple ideas in my head, but when I put the pencil down to paper, nothing good comes out. It really irks me.
Will leave to Stockholm tomorrow. Yay! Will be there on Friday morning and the run to Science Fiction bokhandeln and take some DVDs with me. ^^
Yeah...
I am off to do something...
You are Angst!
Which Stereotypical CLAMP emotion are you?
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Am I still angst? *ponders*
020903
Flu..
Yes, my head's full of icky stuff, my throat has decided not to co-operate with me and other lovely stuff like that. Yay! -_-**
Got my Geography pop-quiz back today. I should most likely have listened to the teacher wehen he was telling about the magnetic field of the Earth and the Sun, but instead I scribbled a doujinshi and got a lovely little D. Eh.. Oh, well. Fury up and took an A. Very cruel. She was paying exactly as much attention as I was, but apparently she's either lucky or just knows the stuff..
Twinkie and I had our first Japanese lesson today. Poor Masuda-sensei. Twinkie and I were once again our-hyperactive-selves and remembered pretty much nothing about the whole language. Okay, I remembered scary much stuff, actually. Anyhow, we predicted that Masuda would leave quickly after our lesson was over and head to the restrooms to cry for a moment and then go for a nice strong cup of coffee. He will have a nervous-break-down because of us at some point. But then again, he did laugh sincerely when I told Twinkie that 'Anata wa honto ni baka desu' after she had translated some sentence to mean something completely different than what it actually meant. Plus that Masuda spoke to his computer. Yes. Twinkie and I speak to computers. We growl at them. As did sensei. ^^ Omoshiroi..
Vocabulary test in French today. Went bad.
Tea... Like I haven't drunk enough tea lately. I wanna get rid of this damn flu..