Kurisumasu yo...
It's the first day of December, tomorrow. I need to get myself a chocolate Calendar. ^^
Went Christmas shopping yesterday with Twinkie. All I bough was an orange Aya-sweater I have been loking for for over a year now. We just passed by a clothes department in a store and I fixed my gaze on something orange. Twinkie followed my eye-sight and commented: "That is so Aya." Very amusing. So, I up and bought the sweater. There was only one left, it was 20% cheaper than usually and the size was exactly mine. Talk about destiny. ^^* Now I sound superficial again. I wonder why that always happens...
Gathering a Dir En Grey CD for Sandy. She gave me a list of songs over a week ago and I thought that I could as well get it out of the way. ^^ Which reminds me... I have two of her drawing laying around on my desk. They are there because I should color them. The one of Schuldig is nearly finished, I'm just having arguments with the background and the other one (some random original characters) I have barely started. They have been there for about a month now. That is just sad.
I'll probably get Saiyuki manga #3 from Twinkie for Christmas. Maybe. I shouldn't know about it. ^^
I'm having difficulties with Twinkies present. If I'm out of luck I won't get it before Christmas... Dammit.
I have a day off tomorrow. No school. ^^ Yay!
[Two minutes later]
You know what? The Saiyuki #3 won't be available until January 2004. So I guess I won't get it for Christmas. Damn...
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I've recently found great Saiyuki fic-writer (Sanzo/Gojyo, of course.. ^^) on ff.net and been reading her stuff more than often. Nanatsusaya is the author's name and I just love her fics. She can write fluff without making Sanzo OOC and I think that is pretty talented. ^^
Ah, my exams week is over. I'll have the next monday off because my code six happens to be free and therefore I have no test on monday. Yay! I can sleep late and take back the lost sleep I have gathered during this week because of the tests and my flu. Me happy.
I'll need to learn how to say no. Last week (?) there was this four-foot little boy behind our door selling Scouts' Advent Calendars and I couldn't say no. Now, just few minutes ago there were two teenage girls selling bird-sheafs (I mean the things with oats or wheat or whatever in a bundle that you put out for birds. I don't know if there is an English word for it...) and I bought one, because I couldn't say no. I'll end up with no money if I let myself be fooled by people like that. But then again, if a grown-up comes to our door selling something, I can tell them off. Maybe it's just that I know what a let'down it would be if I were to try and sell something and no one would buy.
Or maybe I just am a one big softie, no matter how much I try to hide it. Maybe I secretly like kids no matter how much I try to hide it. Maybe I would be a good mother no matter how much I try to hide it.
Or maybe not. Kids are good as long as they keep quiet and don't try to sell me anything. Yes.
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Rabbit
Positive: affectionate, ambitious, artistic, considerate, cultured, diplomatic, expressive, honorable, hospitable, intelligent, moderate, modest, peaceful, popular, principled, scholarly, sensitive, talented, virtuous, well mannered
Negative: complicated, conformist, conservative, gossipy, hesitant, hypochondriac, indecisive, indifferent, judgemental, secretive, self-centered, self-indulgent, superficial, timid, touchy
I am not touchy unless I am having a bloated ego. On times like that I grope everything and everyone. Fear. -_-**
Got my literature essay back. 92. Not bad, but could have been better.
Should stydy physics. Gack. No interest. But I'll have to. If I pass (and hopefully will pass) the test, I'll never have to study physics again. Thank god...
Been drawing a pretty friggin' beautiful Yoji for the last three days. I love the picture even though it's not even finished yet. I still need to fihure out a background. Yes, you heard right. I am intending to do a background. Fear.
Re-did my website's layout yesterday. ( Foggy Sky ) It's pretty now. The last one was pretty too but I wanted some changes...
I am now off to avoid studying physics...
Boredom is boring
Went to school to do an exam at 8 AM. Knew nothing. Might have something to do with the flu and fever. Yes, I have fever. Joy.
Watched "Spice Girls Live in Istanbul" video. Tells something about how bored I am.
Also drew the Gl�hen Wei� guys. I started the drawing last night. I fucked up Yoji's face when outlining the picture. The sketch looked pretty friggin good, but I had to up and spoil it. *silent cursing*
P.L. Nunn wrote another chapter for Shadow Games. I just love that fic. Some people can write such great fiction. Why can't I? *sniff*
I'll go to school at 11.45 AM tomorrow. Joy. Can sleep late. But then again, I'll have to listen to Swedish since I have Swedish listening tomorrow. *le Sigh*
Any ideas what I could do?
[Later]
I finished the picture. It turned out quite okay, exception for Yoji and his seriously odd/awful expression. The odd thing is, that Ken looks good in the picture. I don't even like Ken that much and he is (aside from Aya) the only one who looks good in the picture. And I don't mean good but Good. -_-* Omi looks like a girl. Seriously. And according to Twinkie (I took a picture of the original with my digital camera and sent it to her) it seems that I am - without knowing it myself - a closet All X All fan. (So what if Ken is groping Yoji's leg and hugging Omi. So what if Yoji's groping Aya. You can't claim that everyone wouldn't like to... At least I would.. ^^) Perhaps I am. As soon as I hit the 'Save' button I'll run and find some steamy, delicious All X All fiction.
*receives odd stares*
What? It was a joke. Ha ha ha haa? You know, that kind of thing...
-_-*
"You doth protest too much," as Twinkie put it.
Case closed. I shall never mention this again.
But I'm not All X All fan...
... *cough* ...
When I woke up this morning, I couldn't speak. The joys of having an evil throat. It took me a glass of water, a cup of tea and lots of coughing to get my voice back to business. Joy, indeed. I still don't have fever, but the throat kills me one of these days.
Twinkie "stopped by" yesterday. We watched some Malice Mizer videos and then browsed through some stuff I'm planning to throw into the basement. Found a box in which I had thrown all my pair-less Barbie shoes. ^^ Yes I have some really old stuff laying around. I also tortured Twinkles by presenting her my stone collection. Yes. I have one. No, they are not just some granite and such. I have jade, quarz, amethyst and such. And I've paid a hell of a lot money for them. I had a huge obsession for jewelry stones as a kid. I knew everything about every single type of stone and could almost explain how they have been born and wher. I used to drag one of my friends into a stone-fair every year and buy some really expensive stuff. My friend was always at the edge of a heart-attack. ^^**
What else did we find... Yes, my jewelry collection. Once again, I have loads of them, I just never wear any. I found (for example) a silver chain with beautiful tiny leaves - a necklace which has belonged to my mothers great-aunt in the late 19th century. And I had it in amessy little box. If a single jeweller heard about how I mistreat the valuable stuff, they'd most likely come and skin me. What can one do to one's sloppy nature? ^^*
Began gathering a J-pop/rock Christmas CD yesterday. I have songs that are exactly Christmassy and some songs that just remind me of Christmas such as Ogata Megumi's Sayonara wa Mirai no Hajimari and Heart no Kiraboshi Sakashitare from Fushigi Y�gi. Aside from those two I have Gackt's 12Gatsu no Lovesong, Yuki Hiro's Ordinary Life and Paper Snow, Wada Koji's Minna no Christmas, Misty Eyes' Snow Planet, Once Upon a December from the movie Anastasia (I know it's not J-pop, but it's just too Christmassy to be left out. ^^) and Daisuke to Ken no Kaimono Carol from Digimon. The lst-mentioned is hilarious. Honestly.
Now I need one or two more songs and the CD will be perfect. ^^
Morning...
I had fever last night. Only barely, thank heavens. It seems my body temperature is quite normal now, but my throat is killing me none the less. Dammit. Exam week next week. If I feel like this, I can only imagine how the tests/stydying for them will go. Damn. Oh, well, I still have the weekend to get well.
I surprised myself positively yesterday (again). I dug up a beginning of a fantasy novel I began writing approximately two (I'm not sure. It might have been earlier...) years ago. It's no more than about 29 000 words (54 pages) but it's a start anyhow. The blabbering aside, I read the sketchy version of it and was stunned. The text really was good. I actually had made some pretty smart remarks and some minor mistakes I found (sometimes the "minor mistake" was a whole chapter, but anyhow...) can be fixed with no too much work. I actually have already began re-writing the beginning of the story. Yay for me.
Now my dearest brother is breathing on my neck and I need to let him to the computer. If I feel like writing something else, I'll write it later. Now I'll go and re-read the re-written beginning of my story. ^^
Ich habe beschlossen, dass ich meine Deutsch verbessern muss. Ich habe Deutsch f�r f�nf Monaten nich studiert und f�hle dass ich mich nichts erinnere. So, darum schreibe ich auf Deutsch. Sie mussen mir verzeihen ob ich wirklich unrecht klinge. Oder so...
Ich habe fanfiction auf Deutsch gelesen und ich verstehe gantz viel. Irgendwie, muss ich mehr studieren. Vielleicht sollte ich meine alte Deutsche B�cher suchen und durchgelesen.
Okay, back to English. I can only imagine how much fun the people who actually speak German quite fluently will have when reading that pathetic blabbering... But it is true that I really should try to remember the grammar and such, since it has been quite a while... And besides my German teached said last year (crying... It was our last lesson...) that I should read the grammar. I am intending to. Yes.
Ficcage
Okay. Some things to mention about fanfiction, today:
1) I read my very first Yoji/Omi-fic today. No, I have not gone totally bonkers. It was a fic written by Sandydandy's twin-sister and Twinkie and I - the lovely and friendle people we are - agreed to beta it. It was actually quite good, aside from some typographical things and minor grammar-errors, to be someone's first fanfic. *applauds for Sandydandy's sister*
2) I simply had to read the Wind of the Past fic I began writing somewhere around last March and was, to my utter surprise, surprised. I remembered that it was much worse. It actually has some potential, depending on if I put my head to it again and worked it into a shape that would be proper to publish. (Un-logical)
3) I think I might, just might, really like my Momentarily Dreaming.
That's it for the fic-rant. Almost. ^^* I think i should re-do a spell/grammar/point-check for my London-thingy-fic. (No, I still haven't come up with a proper title, thank you very much) I actually like that one, too. How odd is that..?
The Rum Tum Tugger is a Curious Cat
Saw Cats yesterday. Even though there is not much of a plot to speak of, I must admit that I liked the show. The bad thing was that because there are absolutely no proper musical theatres around here, the performance was held in an ice-hockey stadium and the whole damn hall was full of chairs and the stage was in the furthest end of the hall. I, being not much taller than an average person, didn't see too much. Luckily there were two big screens, though.
The first half of the show was very tiring, but I am happy that the second half had something more to it. I absolutely love the Rum Tum Tugger. =^.^= The moment I saw him (too bad it wasn't the #1 cast, I would have wanted to see John Partridge do the role...) an image of Yoji in the RTT's costume invaded my head and kept haunting me until late in the evening when I drew it out. It became pretty nice, even I say so myself. Too bad the scanner is an ass. I could have scanned the pic... Heh... The text next to Yoji in the picture says "Balinese is a curious cat" and as Twinkie put it, Yoji is a curious cat. As in "come one, come all", if you know what I mean.. ^.~
I have decided not to continue the WID sequel I started last Monday. I re-read it today and I detest it. there might be potential, but I don't have the interest to write. Too bad.
Let the Sun Shine In
I just came back home after having seen the musical Hair for the second time. I apologize beforehand, for I am intending to be very childish and fangirl-ish.
I completely adore the guy who plays Woof's role. Yeah, yeah. Has hair like Miki Shin'ichiro and according to my aunt (with whom I went to see the musical with) he looks more like a woman than a man. I love Woof's character and I absolutely love it when he is played by mister I. ^^** Anyhow, at the end of their encore song, "Woof" decided to jump into the audience (I was sitting on the sixth row. Can't you already guess where this is going..?), climb across some benches and stop about a meter or so away from me and then start throwing flying kisses to some people nearby. Me included. I shall now melt into a puddle of fangirl-goo. I will be grinning like an idiot for a week, now.
And don't come telling me that he just did his job. Let me, at least for a while, think that I attract pretty men. (I know I don't, but we don't have to say it out loud...)
My Japanese teacher happened to be in the same place at the same time and even sat just behind me with his wife. During the first half of the show I noticed that there was a familiar looking Japanese man sitting behind me but didn't pay any further attention (Hey, there was a stage full of hippies, how do you expect me to pay attention to such trivial things?). Once the first half ended, I recognized the man to be no one else but our Masuda-sensei. I skillfully first ignored him, planning to greet him once the half-time was over. Obviously he noticed me before I remembered to say hello. He freaked the crap outta me.. I had just sat back down when he decided to tap on my shoulder and say a casual "Hello". I replied with a intimidated "Oh, hi!" ... If he will ask me anything about it on the class on Tuesday, I will most likely say that I already forgot everything... Or so... What? "Hai, ore wa I-san ga honto ni suki desu! Ano kata wa totemo kawaii desu yo!" He would stare at me like I was an idiot. I'm not an idiot...? ^^** (and yes, I use 'ore' instead of 'watashi' because I think the latter one sound too girly...)
I sound like a teenaged boyband fangirl. That is sad. I can only imagine how I would have acted if it had been Shin'ichiro-sama throwing me a kiss.. I shouldn't even think such things. I am, anyhow, just a pathetic little girl...
^^* I think I should go to bed now...
Yay!
My most beloved parents brought me five DVDs from Stockholm. They stopped by there for a change.. ^^ Anyhow, the thing was that I asked them to bring me the rest of the Wei� DVDs, and if they couldn't find some of them, they could bring me some Saiyuki. Well, they brought me three Wei� DVDs and two Saiyukis. I saved two of the Wei� DVDs for Christmas. ^^* Now I own the whole WK series on DVD. Yay!
I'll be going to see two musicals at the end of the week. Hair on Friday (I have seen it once, and loved it) and Cats on Saturday. Very good... ^^
I should be off searching for some information for out mental health project-thingy. The question we are supposed to answer is "How do the surroundings effect mental health?" Or something..
Am off.
Insert blankness here
I finally began writing Write It Down's sequel. Boy, that took me no more that five months. Yes, I am a lazy bum. No, really, I have had no idea where to start from. Not until now. I am actually writing at the moment. Or would be if my brain hadn't gone on strike. In other words, I lost the track of thought after 504 words. I still need at least 1300 more before I am satisfied with myself. Why am I writing only shor sentences? I don't know. Maybe it's because I have lost my writing skills. Only temporarily, I hope. What is the best way to refresh thinking? 
You are a freeform writer. Individualistic with a
sense for the different and challenging, Walt
Whitman and his poetry lacking meter and rhyme
is just what the doctor ordered. You're quick
to write something that the rest of the world
doesn't accept as poetry, quick to separate
yourself from the average joe. An author with a
true sense of self, you have confidence in your
abilities and aren't afraid to show it. :) GO
YOU!
What's YOUR Writing Style?
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[Later]
1061 words so far... No, I haven't been writing all the time. I actually spat the next 500 words out just like that. Didn't really even think about it. I don't know if this is going to be any good. Reading Write It Down's reviews was quite inspiring. At least it made me remember that there really are people who liked WID. Or at least said they did.
I'll brush my teeth now (feel like I've eaten a rat and don't know why) and then return to my fic..
[Even more later]
*tear* Surfing on WKML. Found out December's Side B translation thingy. About Yoji. He returns Aya's katana. Gives it to Ken who he - of course - doesn't remember. And Aya... he... he says that it is okay as long as Yoji is happy. I know that it is once again about nothing else but a silly little manga, but that line made my heart clench and brought the tears to my eyes. Sure, I knew that it would be his (Aya's) reaction - I wrote Past Denied, Past Forgotten, anyway - but seeing it in the official version was heart-aching. Very much. I am an ass, I know.
Father's day. At least in here..
Got our daddy-o a lovely brandy-warmer-thingy. It was my idea, I had seen one that wasn't too expensive, and my dear brother bought it. Too bad it was from another store and it was therefore much more expensive. Oh, well. Anything for our dearest daddy. ^^* I know, I know. I've always been a daddy's girl. What can you do when he is the one in the family who has the same interests as I do.. Writing, art, acting..
We'll be going to see Grandpa today. I haven't seen him in a while. I think it's nice. We'll probably stob by at the Graveyard on our way back. To take some flowers to my mother's father and her grandfather. Very interesting. It's a duty.
Watched Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles with my brother. (Gosh, this Sunday really sounds like something a lovely 50's family might have..) Turtles wasn't the same. It's some new version, based on the movies and I don't think it's better than the original thing. And besides the theme song is not nearly as cool as in the original. ^^
I don't know if I mentioned it, but I wrote an-all-too-cute Omi ficlet last week. Yesterday I had Twinkie beta it and put it in ff.net. It seems that people actually like it. And because of that I also got reviews for Squirrel and Until the Batteries Run Out. Yay... ^^
I hate my scanner
... more than anything at the moment. It's the same with all the computer-related stuff I have. Whenever I actually need them, they decide to go on strike and stay that way. Yes. I got the scanner home, but getting it working is a whole other story. I am pretty sure I've tried everything and it still doesn't want to work. I have a bunch of wonderfully beautiful pictures drawn by a friend and I promised I would get them scanned this weekened. I would also like to scan a picture I drew today. GRAAH!!! Why must electronical things hate me? Why? I know this is not because I can't handle computers, because I know I can. I think it might be because the sanner is old - and I mean OLD - and so is the computer... The new printer works though... ^^
Yes, I mentioned I drew a picture today. *waves flag* I actually drew a picture. It's the first proper one since the Abyssinian one. Okay, yeah, it was a week ago, but for me that is quite a long time. No need to ask what the picture I drew is about.. ^^ Aya ended up looking like Kurama, because I wanted to draw him in his original Gl�hen person - with long red hair that is - and Yoji looks like he has been watching too much Saturday Night Fever and has so copied John Travolta's style. Of course, I am able to ignore those minor details because I like the picture in general. The only thing that bothers me, is that Yoji's expression is somewhat dull. Once I managed to get Aya looking good (He actually looks good) Yoji decides to go bad. Dammit.
Have I been complaining about not having any good fics to read? I have. Well, I will stop it now. Scribblemoose had gotten her confused!Yoji smut fic up and I drooled all over it and once again worshipped Scribble's writing skills. Paxnirvana had also put up a beginning for a very interesting looking fic. I am happy now. Very happy. ^^
Except that I still hate my scanner.
Random quick rant.
The quality of the fics in FanFiction.net has gone terribly low. Especially (or more likely that's all I know) in the Wei� Kreuz section. There are way too many incorrectly spelled stories (I'm not saying that mine are perfect, but I have them proof-read ..) and too many of those things from what you can see that the author can't actually write proper, understandable English. Such as 'the' written as 'da' or 'd' and 'at' as '@' and so forth. That is very annoying. Of course it's great that people write; it's a great hobby, but I think it's kind of cruel to do such awful things to the wonderous art that is writing. I am ranting, I know. ^^*
Japanese lesson. I should go to the bus stop. Not in another ten minutes though.
[10.01 PM]
Art school was the same old torture. I couldn't get the oil obey me. Instead of settling down to the canvas it decided to attac my black coat. Well yay. And no, it would not have been any help if I had worn an apron. It's the sleeve that's all blue. That's because anytime I draw/paint I have a bad habit of laying on the picture. then my clothes get dirty.
Boy, did that sound shallow...
Twinkie has suddenly decided that she needs a man. Very amusing to hear her musings.
It has made me think though. I have had no "action" what-so-ever in that particular section for over a year. And you know what? I am actually quite pleased. [Ignore the fact that I sound like a teenage girl ranting about all the cute boys, here] I don't really feel the need to have a relationship. I feel like... I don't know how I feel. I just... don't need that kind of a thing. *shrug* I deny being in denial.
This has been officially named as The Most Shallow Entry In Foxie's Journal.
Good Night.
Tired. Still.
The presentation went well. I am ashamed of my fellow class-mates who seemed to have no idea who Richie Blackmore is and what actually does Deep Purple mean. *shakes head* Poor ignorant youth. *ignores the fact that she could be as well categorized as ignorant youth*
Speaking of which I bumped into a group of super-stylish-teens today. Three girls and a guy (that's how it always is), two of the girls wearing similar clothes - it looked like they had been talking on the phone in the morning just to look cool together. Now I am the one sounding bratty. Damn. Anyhow, that group caused my annoyance to nearly reach it's peak. I nearly shook them to this world.
Here I am, talking about how people should wake up to reality. At the same time I can't stand the fact that there are people whose reality differs very much from mine. What an ignorant fool I am...
Got the Scanner home today! ^^ *hugs Scanner* Even though it's a piece of old crap and likes to argue with me, I still love it. ^^*
Useless note: My father just noticed that he likes Malice Mizer's music. At least in some level. Am afraid.
Tired
I am very, very tired today and have absolutely no idea why. Maybe it's because of the weather; the air is heavy and it has been looking like it's about to rain for the whole day, now.
I'll have my Blackmore's Night music-presentation tomorrow. Today I went to buy their first CD, Shadow of the Moon, but ended up buying The Best Of... I really need to get myself a new pair of eyes. And a new cash card. I really hate it. The card, that is. In places it would actually be accepted as a method of payment, it decides not to work. Joy. I'll cut it to tiny shreds one day soon if it is not about to start co-operating again...
Dear sports teacher announced that we're going winter swimming tomorrow. Well yay! Thankfully I have a medical reason not to. It's a sickness with one of those 10$ names.. Anyway the main thing is that if I go someplace too cold, a lake, outdoors in the coldest winter or something like that, my blood-pressure drops and so does my consciousness. Not too nice. That is why I don't do swimming unless the water is at least as warm as the air. And I mean warm. It's not healthy to float around unconscious in freezing water. Very unhealthy, actually.
The good thing about the damn sickness is that everyone is always shocked to hear about it. It's always me who gets the stuff no one else has... Damn. Why the hell am I blabbering about sicknesses here? *shakes head* I must be getting old...
Now I must go and bravely do my physics homework. Nine more times 75 minutes and one two-hour test and I shall never again be forced to study physics! *raises arms in victorious way* What a happy person I am...
Odd
It has been an odd day. Or maybe two. Many things have felt odd, lately. Like staying up until 4 AM with Twinkie, talking about everything and nothing. Felt odd, but nice, anyhow. The person we happened to mention many times during the four-hour-conversation, calling me when I got home was odd. He never calls me unless I have talked about him to someone. That happens without exceptions. Very odd. Just... odd.
In the middle of all the oddness I went to See Pirates of the Caribbean, again. It was still good. Very good actually. I almost began reading PotC fanfiction, but after having started on a fic and having read it nearly through a "What the hell am I doing?"- feeling struck me. I don't read movie fiction. Very odd.
I was browsing through my picture folders and happened to find a silly little MS Paint sketch of Aya. ( wtf.bmp ) I think it's kind of funny. It has been quite a while since I've drawn anything with Paint. And I think it has done no-good to my Aya-drawing-skills. I used to be able to draw him even with my eyes shut, but now that I try it.. *shudder* You don't want to know. Or if you do... ( abyssinian.jpg ) I hate that face of his in that picture. Gack..(t) ^^***
Which reminds me. Twinkles sent me a funny video where Gackt tries to kiss some talk-show-host. The look and the host's face is priceless when he slaps Gack away and backs away. (repeative use of the word 'away') Very amusing.
Hit me if I show signs of abandoning my rabid Shin'ichiro-fan-girl'ness. Especially if it seems I'd switch to Gack. I mean, he signs good and looks extremely droolworthy in one picture, but that's about it. And the fact that he is the one responsible for the song 'Vanilla'... Shin-sama is still my number one. ^^** Am I pathetic now? Yes I am pathetic. That is just sad.