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I have just spent four hours doing/coding new layout for Anime Rakuen. My back is dead. Really dead..

Dammit..
I forgot something.. I had to change one text in links.. Schei�e.. Moment and I'll be back!

I'm back.. Gosh, something teeny tiny is forgotten and I have to change users and code a little more.. *sigh* I have no strength to write anythin.. ^^

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Manga, manga manga.. Wei�, Wei�, Wei�..
I stopped by at Twinkie's today and got my Wei� CD. It appeared that it's the second Gl�hen drama CD, Theatre of Pain and only includes two songs, but the hell. I got to listen to Shinichiro and others' voices. ^^ I understood it pretty well, considering I have studied Japan only for a year. At least i knew whenever someone was killed. ^^

I also got to borrow the Saiyuki manga and surprisingly enough, understood it! I guess my German doesn't suck so bad. Aside from those two things, Twinkie had bought three 'Daisuki' magazines (Prussian Blue, Fruits Basket, God's Child, Kare Kano and two of some super cute mangas) and kindle let me have them for a while. Al of the mangas they have are heavy shoujo mangas and I'll probably die for all the sweetness, but no can do. The God's Child is Kaori Yuki's and seemed to be pretty. I've always liked her style. ^^

I need to find a full translation to Theatre of Pain... I knwo that the guys have a mission in Italy (guess who just wrote a fic about the four going for a mission in Italy.. ^^*), something has happened to Aya's katana (I think, because they talk about it alot and some obviously ugly guy says 'Knaifu janai, katana desu' or something like that [It's not a knife, it's katana] but it might be that I didn't understand enough.) Some friend of Omi's (Jack? He calls him Jakku-san/kun, so I can't be sure ^^) dies and Yuki Hiro shows how well he can scream in agony. Yotan finds, surprisingly enough, some lady and she, too, dies. sad. Yoji says something like 'bakana onna' (foolish woman..)when she babbles something about something. I think she took some bullets for Yoji or something. 'Or something' is the key here. As said, my Japanese isn't perfect. Far from it.

I want ff.net to work. It has been down for a while now..
Nah, I'll just do some aimless surfing here. It's too hot to go outside.. We need an air-conditioner... *melts*

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Weee!!!
WEEEEEEEEEE~!!!!! I WILL GET IT FOR BIRTHDAY!! TWINKIE GOT THE ASSASSIN AND WHITE SHAMAN MANGA #1!!!!!!!!!!!*cough* Yes, I am happy. Yes, I am very happy. ^________________________________________________________^
I will also get Gl�hen CD. Joy joy joy! Honestly, I am ready to dance right now, but will hold myself back because some neighbours might look at me like a maniac..

I will get Wei� Kreuz manga number one~! Gosh, I'm happy. Happy, happy, happy!
Oh, yeah, Twinkie also bought Saiyuki manga #1. If it's good, I will order it from Germany in September when I'll get all the other anime/manga stuff from there. ^^

And now I'll be like a child on a Christmas eve until the 23rd beacsue I won't have the manga until then.. Oh, well, I will have to listen to the CD and read Saiyuki... *starts bouncing* Dammit..

I need something to distract my thoughts from the manga.. *runs off to read it online*

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*_*
Stardom, where the hell are you??
I really should not spend my spare time watching all these documentaries about how some celebrities have risen to their glory, because they only make me remember how I've tried the same for.. a long time. Really sucks, because here in Finland there is no chance to be an actor unless you've graduated from drama school that has a friggin' high expectations for it's students. Sometimes miracles happen, but you should live in the right place to be noticed. You live 101 kilometers away from that right place and nothing. It really can be irritating. I know that I could make it if I ever was given a chance, but no. What have I achieved while searching for fame? An appearance in a TV cooking show (I can't cook...) and one poem in a three-hundred-page book. I know people, I have been told that i could make it, but no. No, no, no. I don't know what is keeping me from what I'm trying to get. Maybe I just am not what they're looking for, but dammit! I need a one chance. The one that never comes again. I need it. I know that my urge to achieve something big as young as possible is not the smartest choice, but it's what I want. I should come up with something unique, but it always seems someone has already done what I'm doing. I need to make something... Maybe I'll just shoot myself to Mars and return married to an alien. Perhaps that'd gain me some attention. ^^

*sigh*

Ah, dammit, I'll start looking for that chance right now. I swear.

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I ended up getting Cowboy Bebop Movie and Outlaw Star episode 1. Bebop was truly amazing, I enjoyed the whole two hours of it like I hadn't seen an anime movie before.. Outlaw Star was okay, I'll get another episode someday.

Watching Shirley Temple Story on TV. I have to admit that I would be willing to give pretty much anything (key words: 'pretty' and 'much') if I could go back to being five and meeting a person who'd want me to act in a movie or two. I've so badly neglected acting during the past year that it almost makes me cry. I would've had a chance to be in a play or two, but there always was something in the way, like a trip to Spain or something. I am afraid that because of the lack of recent roles, my skills have mysteriously disappeared... I haven't even made any stupid parody shows lately (something my friends and I tend to do if we're really bored).
Well, I always have my second plan, though. Writing, that is. Then again, I have seriously written original fiction last fall. I have two novells in progress and the one I began in Christmas 2001 is one thirds complete and that part has to be rewritten too. It seems that fanfiction and drawing take way too much of my time nowadays. What can you do? I'm addicted to them.

I hate preggy-boy fics. Just a little note here...

I am good at writing short stories. Somewhere around 10 000 words is really good. But then again... Dammit! I need to get myself together...

There are two anime themesongs I am currently listening, almost non-stop. And mind you, I used to hate them both.. Magica Doremi (Don't ask me its English name, that's the Italian one) and Hamtaro, piccoli criceti grandi avventure. I got addicted to them while in Italy... ><*
Yeah..
Am off now..

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Grrr..
I finished watching Wei� Kreuz Gl�hen and now I only have one anime series that I follow, that being Saiyuki. Dammit. I am desperately trying to find something new... One series that I'd love to see is Kazuya Minakura's - the person behind Saiyuki - Wild Adapter, but sadly it doesn't seem to be found. I have now watched the opening, ending and a music video clip from animeart.com but that's all I've managed to find. DAMMIT. I want to see it, I really do. AND I CAN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE!!!!!! *wheeze* God damnit! Why do I always have to be willing to see series that apparently are not a) seen in other places than Japan or b) simply not available. *sigh* I shall not accept this destiny! I shall write the series's name down and searc for it over and over again, no matter how long it takes!

Most likely I'll get tired sometime next December..

Yeah.. Am off now.

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Woke up just before noon, watched some oh-so-targic/dramatic movie called 'The Miracle Worker' on TV1000, came to computer, surfed around a little, considered entering Scarletseduction's seme-Aya contest with 'Melting', couldn't decide if I would, tried to load Saiyuki and WKG ep. 13, failed, began playing The Sims, the game crashed, burned some stuff from my folder to a CD, began playing Sims again, was dragged outside to carry friggin' heavy concrete slabs, lost my both arms, came back inside, ate pasta, sat back down to the computer and here I still am. Very facinating day, don't you think?

I am suffering from an artistic block. A bad one. I can't draw nor write anything. Exception for stuff like this, of course. Sucks, because I'm supposed to get Write It Down chapter 9 out by Monday...

Twinkie didn't have her money with her, by the way. While she lost the 95 � she had with her and I lost the 35 � I gave her for a Wei� Kreuz CD. Their insurance should cover it all though. I wish it will. Call me selfish, but I want to have the WK CD and the 'Assassin and a White Shaman 1' for b-day. I still fee sorry for, Twinkie though. I'm really glad the baddies were stupid and didn't realize to steal her mangas (she has a whole bunch of them with her). Yes...

I got a postcard from my neighbour. From Australia. She wrote she's having really great time and there are Japanese people going around everywhere. They might be Chinese too, though. She doesn't know the difference... ^^

I wanna update my Elfwood galleries but they have a little bit too many tickets in que, so I'll just wait 'till the worst of it is gone.

I'm bored. I kinda would wanna play Sims again, but I should close WinMX for it, and I can't because WKG ep.13 is finally loading.

Yup.. I'm off now...

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Which Wei� Woman Are You? @ Wei� Versa

Yeah, right...*Cough*

It's Twinkie's fault I woke up a little past 9 this morning. She send me a textmessage, telling that someone had broken into their car, stolen her bags (CDs, books, make-up-stuff, etc.) and her fathers laptop. OWCH. Big owch. I would kick the bad guy's ass, if I could... Or perhaps not. I would most likely go straight to some insurance thing and ask how much I get from the lost stuff. If it wouldn't be enough I'd start a rebel agains human society that does not take care of its inhabitants' needs. Or maybe not that either...
Sucks anyway. I really hope Twink' had her money with her. I really do... Of course she did, she always carries that silly little handbag of hers.

My brother came back from Lapland today and took a half an hour shower as a first thing he did. Then he tried to comb his hair with MY comb and it snapped because my bro had forgotten to take a hairbrush with him and his hair was kind of tangled after one and a half weeks. *shakes head* I have an odd thing as a brother. It's nice to have hm back though. ^^

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T-T
Oh god... It really is dangerous going around in YxA mailing list reading fics.. You can bump into a absolutely wonderful deathfics you cry because for a long time. Hint: that just happened to me. I read Trinity Bennet's 'Let me die' and cried like a wacko. Yeah, yeah, the title says 'Let Me Die' but since it was 'loosely based on the song Let me die' I wished it wouldn't include death. At least that well, beautifulli and perfectly written. *sob* I predict that I will be crying alot today. WKG ep. 12 is 48 % complete... And it's raining outside.. God.. I have to go and find some fluff to read.. WHAT?? Did I just type that? God, no, I'm out of my mind...

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"Yoji, don't die!"
Finally managed to get WKG ep.11 with subs. I nearly cried once and actually wept a little once. I can only imagine what it is when I get the episodes 12 and 13 (12 is in the que, 44th..), since I cried after them even without the subs. Mostly because of Aya and Yoji. Hell, those two are my favourite characters, no matter what. I have the right to be emotional when it's about them. ^^*

I fell in love today. I was walking around in the local shopping-mall and decided to go to a record shop to see if I could find CDs I want for Birthday. I was stuck in the shop because of the music they played. I swear I remained there wandering between the shelves for almost an hour. I couldn't leave. The music was too beautiful. Then, me being the slow person that I am, I realized to find out what the music was. It was a duo (?) called 'BlackMore's Night'. After finding this out, I immediately bought their CD and am listening to it at the moment. I love this. The tones are medieval with an addition of Gipsy-like sounds. It completely captures me.

Drew a pretty, pretty pic of Yoji's hips this morning. Yes. I know. I did add the rest of the body later on, though. I really like the picture. ^^

HORMONAL FANGIRL, also known as the Self-Insert!
The only reason this character pops up in
whatever fandom is because YOU, the writer, are
obsessed with a certain character and wish to
get into their pants. Now put down that sex toy
and stop writing stupid stories.

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*cough* Not me... *cough* Never.. *cough* (Don't write self-inserts though, I am not that twisted)

Yeah, am off now.

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ICE is your chinese symbol!

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I have gotten over my iciness, dammit! Heh.. Apparently it'll always be there. Dammit.

Speaking of iciness.. I am desperately trying to write chapter 8 for WID. The key word is desperately. It has been two hours and I've written a little below 700 words. Goddammit!! My isnpiration has taken a vacation, it seems. Dammit, dammit, dammit. I was supposed to write from Yoji's POV, but I didn't. I was supposed to write them two finally to get it on, but I can't. I should post the thing in ff.net by today, but I'm afraid it is not possible. Damn the inspiration-lack to the deepest depths of hell and below!

Besides, a person from who I am trying to load WKG ep.11 with subs decided to go off-line and now I can't have the eppie. I want it! *wails*

God, I'm tired..

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*yawn*
I came home sometime around 2AM today/last night. We were spending the evening with a really insane family with my dear parents. Yeah.. We had really great time, though I am tired as hell right now.

My website has reached over 1000 hits! *dance of joy* Okay, it's been a little over a year since I put it up and therefore 1000 is not much, but I'm happy anyhow. ^^

I should write chapter 8 (god, that's the longest multi-parter I've ever done) for Write It Down, but once again, I have no idea whatsoever what to write. Okay, yeah, I wrote the chapter back at my grandmother's, but it came out so fluffy and.. *shudder* that it makes my teeth ache. So I kind of have to re-write it, so it would fit the reast of the story..

You know where I know that Summertime is very good? When I can eat breakfast in the patio, in the sunshine and listen the birds chirping. That, if something, is truly wonderful... ^^
Yeah, I'm off to laze in the hammock.. ^^

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Yay!
Happy July 4th for all the Americans out there! ^^
Not for me, though, for I am not American.. Hehh..
But happy B-DAY, Fujimiya Ran! ^^V
I am not sending out birthday congratulations to a non-excisting anime charachter.. Me idiot. Me knows it.
I noticed something last night when I was playing tetris: Not a single sane person would play tetris and then sign the high-score tables by a name of an anime charachter. Really. It is not sane. Which leads to the conclusion that I AM NOT SANE. I honestly signed the high-scores by the name of a Weiss guy. First Aya, then Yoji.. then Omi and Ken.. I really need therapy.
But, you know, signing the high-scores like that actually has inspired me to write a fic sometime way back when. Until the Batteries Run Out (UtBRO) it is called. Has no more than two or three reviews in ff.net. Cruel, I'd say. People don't understand tetris addiction.. ^^;;;

It's a nice day outside, and what am I doing? Sitting by the computer and writing about how my sanity is cracking..
Now that I typed 'It's a nice day outside' the clouds hid the sun. They always do so when I'm planning to go outside and enjoy Summer. Weathers are agains me!!

I really should start taking medication of some sort.
Oh, but admitting problem is the first step to get rid of it!
Oh, joy, I am almost healthy!

That was not a conversation between me and me. It just looked like it...

[Edit]
Completely re-did the layout of my website. Now it's all pretty with Weiss Kreuz-goodness. ^^ I also (temporarily?) changed its name from Green Foggy Sky to Red, Foggy Sky. It was a nice way to spend my morning.
Now I'm reading Aya-Birthday fics and planning to draw an Aya-Birthday pic. Yes. I know...

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July!!
Wee! It's July!! And we all know what that means, don't we? Yes, in 22 days, it's my birthday! Talk about self-centered.. ^^ It also means that now that Twinkie took off to Europe, I'll hopefully have that An Assassin and A White Shaman manga numero Uno for birthday. It's MAYBE and I try not to get my hopes too high. It's just a bit difficult not to. And yeah, I gave Twinkie enough money to buy me either Die Bleibende Erinnerung, Weiss Kreuz Gl�hen or Das Ewige Dasein CD. I wish she could bring me the both, the manga and the CD. I really do. I am a Weiss Kreuz Fanatic, I know, and pretty damn proud of it. ^^

My brother will be leaving to Lapland today, Twinkie is in Europe and that girl next door is in Australia. Twinkie'll come back some time around the 17th, my brother after a week and the neighbor the 25th. So guess who is kind of out of company?
No fear! I decided last night that I'll go to my Grandmother's for a while. I need to sew that Aya-style shirt and who else could help me better than my dear Granny? ^^ Though she did sound kind of suffering when I asked if she wanted to help. ^^ She is a nice Granny, she won't complain. Besides she likes it when there's something to do. I don't think any of her usual hobbies are possible in Summer. Or taught more likely. She does all kinds of things from gymnastics to wall-cloths. Silly old woman. ^^

Yeah, and I want to go visit my aunt, too. The other one of her labrador retrievers almost drowned last week (!!!) and I have to go and check if she or the dog suffered bad traumas... Plus that she's getting to take care of a one-year-old labrador for a week and I wouldn't miss the chance to meet the little terror.

Yup, I'm off to do something useful. (Like what?)

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You see same-sex relationships everywhere, and even
when you don't, you create them. You see slash
(yaoi) in all your favorite books and T.V.
shows--you believe Ron and Harry have far more
chemistry with each other than either of them
has with Hermione, and you don't know why
Relena wastes her time stalking Heero since he
obviously belongs to Duo. Nor do you understand
why Jessie and Misty waste their time on James
and Ash, respectively--the two redheads
obviously belong together. In short, you write
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I only slash Potter up because Twinkie keeps blabbering about it. And I think Pok�mon is too innocent to be slashed. That thing about Duo and Heero is true, though.. ^^*

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