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And he said, "Damn your independence and your pride!"
He walked away and as his words echoed through my mind
I laid down and cried.

He walks in to see her fall
But he doesn't care at all

He walks right by without a word
Her silent crying he won't disturb

She doesn't see him anymore
She stares out past the empty door

She tries to feel the love inside
But all she has is empty pride

The emptiness of wasted years
Fueling all her angry tears

But she knows all she should
That life will never be as good

Or as well-performed as his
until she's happy with who she is

The worst thing you could say to me
Is that I'm just an ordinary
girl in your world

It hurts to feel forgotten
Lost forever in a field of cotton
Nothing to see, nothing to hear
The only thing I feel is fear

To hear his voice would set me free
If only it could ever be
A thought from his mind and not mine
Though the difference is a thin, thin line

These questions surging through my head
They bring to mind the path I tread
I walk it blindly this I know
But soon enough I'll see the glow

From a light that has been ever there
Hidden by a breath of air
Breathe it in is what he'll do
And let it out as "I Love You"

You need to know how I'm feelin'
So that you won't be believin'
That I am what I'm really not
You never saw all that you thought

She finally found Prince Charming
But when he comes to greet her
He treats her like sister
Cause she's not Cinderella
And Sleeping Beauty waits forever
For the one special kiss
From her True Love's lips
But it never comes
Because now he's found a gun
And he never knows that she is waiting
like the small girl in her room
Singing to the tune
Of all her Disney favorites
But she makes up her own words
To fit her little world
That keeps her from
The man she's meant to love
But she's wrapped up in the fantasies
And she will never get over these
But soon enough the hurt will go
He'll pull her from the wreckage
She'll see the blurry outline
Of a perfect, perfect image
And love will bring her through the smoke
Of love that's lost and ha heart that's broke
And smile again is what she'll do
That girl is me, and He is you.

The stars will fall, the moon will shine
Filling up this heart of mine

With hatred pure and hatred cold
And I will feel that I am old

To old to be within your grasp
Too old to do this endless task

I shall tremble you shall not see
The pain that swells inside of me

You can read but you can't know
The things I have no will to show

I will not let you have this power
For you will never see me cower

I will stay here all alone
Loving with a heart of stone

That can never truly love
Something you never knew of

My anger I cannot reveal
For it is silly and not real

Because there is no real reason
To show it off would feel like treason

Because the anger's at myself
Kept in bottles on the shelf

And I know someday they'll burst
And that is when I'll quench my thirst

At the expense of everyone else
Then I will again become myself

The self that you all know and care for
The same old expressions I always wore

The me I want you all to see
The one that is not truly me

Lucy's smile was the smile of a lonely child
Had a dream that someday she would be worthwhile
Never got a chance before her parents went to trial
'Cause the climate in their house was just too hostile

Now she's gone
Never has to go back home
Now she's free
To be anything she wants to be

When it's all over
When it's all done
Then will be the time
To have a little fun!

Don't put me on a pedestal
And leave me there to die
Don't tell me that I'm beautiful
Please just tell me why

Tell me why you're here with me
Is it cause of what you see?
Or is it cause of me?

You cannot prove your love, only your like
You know nothing of me or my life

Tic-Tac-Toe
Three in a row
Don't let go
Of me.

No time for me
Nothing to see
Just have to be
Myself.

This is your life
Forget your strife
Put down the knife
Today.

Sleep and dream
No 'I' in team
The moon will beam
On you.

When we're apart
You've got my heart
This I impart
To you.

I say goodbye
And you reply
"Please don't fly
Away."

It's just a dream
Knock my esteem
But it seemed
So real.

I'll find a way
Maybe someday
To convey
My love.

Tae Kwon Do
Then you'll know
And not let go
Of me.

Tears of red falling from the sky
Tears of red, it's time to say goodbye
They're blurring my vision, Red is all I see
They're clouding my hearing, I couldn't hear you calling me

Love
The one thing I despise
In everything you've said
I've heard only lies

All alone.
Heart of stone.
Cold and shivering.
Scared and quivering.
Live as one.
'Til day is done.
Then we two
Will make it through
The night.

Life goes by fast
And can be confusing
It's the small things you notice
That make it amusing.

Everything happens
as it should
No matter whether
For bad or good

Things happen
People die
You may feel sad
Or even cry

But just remember
The world is not gone
You are not dead
And life will go on

So take your time
To cry and mourn
But just think, everyday,
A new child is born.

Everyday a new life
Comes into the world
Everyday a new boy
Everyday a new girl

So just close your eyes
And think about them
And hope something like this
never happens again

Was I wasting my time?
Was I wasting my breath?
With all I was doing,
He still met with Death?

Tell me again
I just can't conceive
Say it once more,
I still don't believe.

I used to think that I was strong enough
That no one would ever dare call my bluff
No one ever has, but I fear that soon they will
For the winds of change leave nothing standing still

Green M'n'Ms in my hand
I try to get up, but I can't stand
the room is spinning so very fast
Oh, my God, how long will this last?

A green flame haunts my dreams
Is nothing ever what it seems?
My breathing slows, we mustn't waste
For I fear what the fire tastes

A soft green glow surrounds me now
I don't know where, I don't know how
A disconcerting, radiant grace
From the deep, dark, vast infinity of space

My Teddy Bear I fondly squeeze
He makes me feel so much at ease
As my life he slowly takes
It's happy thoughts he easily makes

20 men are coming today
20 men will take me away
20 voices, I hear them say
"You will not live another day."

For 20 people I have slain
This will finally end my reign
20 families' rage will cease
As their loved ones rest in peace

One kiss is all we ever shared
One kiss is all I ever dared

And now because of that one kiss
He'll be the one I'll always miss

My life will never be the same
For I will always know his name

But only first and never last
He'll always be part of my past

Stop it with these games
Cause it's you the devil names

She always gets what she wants
And what she wants is you
But I haven't lost a man yet
Losing just isn't what I do

Darkness hides my saddened face
For you to see would bring disgrace
The only thing I cannot bear
Is to see your cold, uncaring stare

Still holding on to memories of you
Don't know how to let go, don't know what to do
Someone tells me I'll be fine, that I should move on too
I don't think they really know just what I'm going through

I would never tell you how much I really care
But it's only human for me to sometimes err
You see it in my eyes, in the way I stare
But to tell you the truth... No, I would never dare

I see you with her and I hide my face
You're coming towards me, I quicken my pace
She's got so much poise. She's got so much grace
Me, I'm blonde and ditzy, with my head always up in space

To think that once, I had you and you let me go
I left without an answer, but now I think I know
I had no idea that you could stoop so low
I let you in my heart and you played me like a pro

But I'm still holding on to memories of you
Don't know how to let go, don't know what to do
Someone told me I'll be fine, that I should move on, too
I don't think they really know just what I'm going through
 

Bubbles floating through my mind
Take away all thoughts unkind
Leaving steady in their wake
Thoughts of happiness and CAKE!!
 

He said it was the first time
He'd ever seen me cry
and it won't be the last time
Though I'm sure that I will try

He said that he loved me
 and that I'd be in his prayers
It made me very happy
To know he really cares

They promised they'd come back for me
held me while I cried
and whispered in my ear
Don't worry, I promise I won't die

I cry myself to sleep at night
Though I promised I would not
I hope they know, no matter what,
They'll never be forgot.

Your life is but a dream
In someone else's memory
cause everything you do
you do for everyone but you

Life is a book and this is your story
All of your thoughts, in all of their glory
Page by page, the reader reads
All your thoughts, your wants and needs

Page by page; He stops to edit
Your newest thought before you've said it
He reads it all, from good to gory
Life is a book and this is your story

Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
We all must do all that we must
All that we can, 'til we can do no more
Right up until Peter closes that door

Will life get better?
No one knows
Keep moving on
Pick up and go

You've tried before
and it failed
You're worried sick
You're turning pale

It will not work
You've got to see
That this is not
What it should be

Actions speak louder, or so you've heard
They say it's too soft if you use only words
But say it strong and say it loud
And they will know that you are proud

Oh so tired
Had no sleep
Oh so hungry
No, can't eat

Friends are gone
Oh so alone
Cannot speak
Have no phone

Why did you leave me?
Why oh why
well, I'll miss you...
...sigh...
 

He's been gone
Though not for long
I still can feel the pain

The hurt inside
is hard to hide
yet I have found a way

It feels as though
he'll never know
the love I felt for him

but I've been told
as he grew old
my love always shined through

So I will go
and hope he knows
That where he is right now

Is a better place
than the one he faced
when he was here with me.
 

I am myself
and nobody else
can take that away
from me.

So, who are you?
And what do you do?
Don't worry, you're safe
with me.

Truly we live,
not only to give,
but to be who we want
to be.

So, say your prayers,
for there's someone who cares
what happens to you and
to me.
 

Oh child, dear child, you live your life in vain
In everything you see, all you find is pain.
It hurt your pride, you're dead inside, but life will still go on
Live your life for what it is, give thanks for every dawn
    I stop to listen
    What's this I hear?
    You're in the corner of the room
    Paralyzed with fear.
Oh child, dear child, get up! Look around!
It's because of this fear that you've brought yourself down
Now search long and hard, and search very deep
Get rid of this fear that makes you so weak
    Come, come dear child
    And hold these words dear
    For life is good when you are not
    Paralyzed with fear.