Unexpectations
all
words written by former friend and published 2002 by
i like all music, BMI
[
we never said hello
]
running
through a bout of self-doubt in this hall has it made me stronger i wonder
if at all i know sometimes i tend to shy away from some people still looking
for the door i'll take care not to fall excuse me but we never really
ever said hello excuse me but the air everywhere feels rather cold and
if i seem bitter with the emptiness that i've been left with it just might
be 'cause we never said hello watching placid stares rolling over violent
reactions everything i think is half imagination fading pictures on the
walls i've seen them all i've seen a ton what kind of person would deserve
these lonley creations
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[
life like
]
what's
your life like are you bitter are you angered are you fearful what's your
story are you lonely are you longing are you tearful you wanna get a smoothie
let's try a cup of coffee let's try a conversation what we are we are
not to avoid complication we are not what we are is just a conversation
away got a pet peeve did you see the tv don't you have a cd don't you
treat your senses in a hurry you are blurry so many fences are you worried
let's have a shot let's have some pot you sleep on a cot what we are we
are not to avoid complication we are not what we are is just a conversation
away i miss those sandwhiches sal had i would go back i wish it was easy
but the music remains like the stains on my shirt and also like gold coin
in the dirt can a scarecrow and a gopher fool the chicken
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[
impossible friend
]
i
don't have anything to offer you but let's pretend i do for awhile anyway
and i'll lie to myself too so what makes me different from you the way
i try to get through without making faces i'm always leaving too soon
what's that in the corner of your eye did you or i lose sight of what
i don't really know but i know it isn't right well maybe when i see you
next time i can tell you i'm fine with my tongue in my cheek you still
can't have what is mine it's a gift that's been given to me something
from you that i received though i can't define what i don't know it's
one more thing i just can't let go i've said it outloud but it hasn't
been lost delusions and feelings... it's time for me to leave again my
impossible friend i'll try and figure me out though i couldn't say when
but maybe when i see you next time i can tell you i'm fine without my
tongue in my cheek and i will give you what's mine what's that streaming
down your face have you found a place for what i don't really know but
i know it's never right
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[
i love this place
]
okay
so how did it go i was thinking of you know wait no that's not fair yeah
so how did it go not the best i guess we'll just leave it alone i just
want to say at least everyday i love this place so loving so thoughtful
so full of passion so come mitted to cause hey so what do you know how
deep can you go stunning eden below i know let's go every rhyme and reason
season by season i love this place so complete so vernal radiating so
undeniable okay so how did it go i was thinking of you know wait no i
don't care yeah so how did it go did you injure or impress surpress all
that has shown is not real
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[
a mind of my own
]
i
don't have a mind of my own it was taken from me long ago a rumbling murmur
drifts across a mess of sticky air wanting to find a voice but i forgot
that i don't care i don't have a mind of my own it was taken from me long
ago a smear of faces quivering by they blur right past me what's too polluted
now to retrieve everything is empty
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[
were we
]
in
love were we in the strangest way that made no sense at all no comfort
was found with you around and less now that you're gone in love when we
fell apart best friends at home alone should we have taken a little more
time to figure things out on our own in love we walked along in our minds
gripping each other's hands we've both taken risks that ended in loss
we must try to understand in love we stand as we've always been not close
to what it would have been i'll always be here when you need me my dear
sitting right here on the fence
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[
living room ]
the
stains on these flower curtains hinder the light from sifting in no patterns
on the walls no lines to chase but don't look at me directly when i'm
standing in its place i'll sit on this mildew couch while you just quietly
stare at the smoke billowing from my fat fingers shouldn't cadence be
allowed in here we're both unsure because i can't remember who's right
when they claim those things juxtaposing new ideas with old-fashioned
charm grasping desperately at the things they seek i never even thought
of that and when she said it it hit me in the chest and i couldn't breathe
the lazy shuffles across the matted carpet empty coat hangers swaying
in secret soak it all in through our oversized pores but these veins won't
inflate anymore static tones these stinging bells i can't memorize it
all but the stillness floating through this humid room can crush a conscience
too you know what is the appropriate emotion this time i'll just brush
it off before it shows
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[
better left unsaid
]
it's
a secret!