| My Ramblings |
| I've had a lot of people tell me that I'm very confusing and complex. So I've decided to create a page (because as most of you understand, I have no life) trying to describe me with lyrics of songs and poetry. If you still don't understand me after this, I could always tell you my life story. What's that you say? You don't want to hear it? Didn't think so. |
| "Let Her Cry" by Hootie and the Blowfish She sits alone by a lamp post Trying to find a thought that's escaped her mind She says "Dad's the one I love the most, But this guy's not far behind." She never lets me in Only tells me where she's been When she's had too much to drink I say that I don't care I just run my hands through her dark hair Then I pray to God "You gotta Help me fly away." (Chorus) And just let her cry If the tears fall down like rain Let her sing If it eases all her pain Let her go Let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow Let her be Let her be This morning I woke up alone Found a note standing by the phone Saying "Baby, maybe I'll be back someday." I wanted to look for you You walked in I didn't know just what I should do So I sat back down and had a beer and felt sorry for myself Saying (Chorus) Let her cry If the tears fall down like rain Let her sing If it eases all her pain Let her go Let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow Let her be Let her be Let her cry If the tears fall down like rain Let her sing If it eases all her pain Let her go Let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow Let her be Oh... Last night I tried to leave Cried so much I could not believe She was the same girl I fell in love with long ago She went in the back to get high I sat down on my couch and cried yellin' Oh mamma, please help me Won't you hold my hand and... (Chorus) Let her cry If the tears fall down like rain Let her sing If it eases all her pain Let her go Let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow Let her be Let her cry If the tears fall down like rain Let her sing If it eases all her pain Let her go Let her walk right out on me And if the sun comes up tomorrow Let her be Oh, let her be |
| My relationship with my parents |
| Part One: |
| "Butterfly Kisses" by Bob Carlisle There's two things I know for sure: She was sent here from heaven And she's daddy's little girl. As I drop to my knees by her bed at night She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and I thank god for all the joy in my life Oh, but most of all For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking little white flowers all up in her hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride." "I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried." In all that I've done wrong I know I must have done something right to deserve a hug every morning and butterfly kisses at night. Sweet 16 today She's looking like her mama a little more everyday One part woman, the other part girl. To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls Trying her wings out in a great big world. But I remember Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking little white flowers all up in her hair. "You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you don't mind, I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time." With all that I've done wrong I must have done something right to deserve her love every morning and butterfly kisses at night. All the precious time Like the wind, the years go by. Precious butterfly. Spread your wings and fly. She'll change her name today. She'll make a promise and I'll give her away. Standing in the bride-room just staring at her. She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not sure- I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl." She leaned over�gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there, Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair "Walk me down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time." "Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry.." Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right. To deserve your love every morning and butterfly kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is. I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses at night. |
| "So Young" by The Corrs Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah We are taking it easy Bright and breezy, yeah We are living it up Just fine and dandy, yeah We are caught in a haze On these lazy summer days We're spending all of our nights just Ah - laughing and kissing, yeah And it really doesn't matter that we don't eat And it really doesn't matter if we never sleep No it really doesn't matter, really doesn't matter at all Coz we are so young now, we are so young, so young now And when tommorow comes, we can do it all again We are chasin' the moon Just running wild and free We are following through Every dream and every need And it really doesn't matter if we don't eat And it really doesn't matter if we never sleep No it really doesn't matter, really doesn't matter at all Coz we are so young now, we are so young, so young now And when tommorow comes, we can do it all again Yeah, we are so young now, we are so young, so young now And when tommorow comes, we'll just do it all again All again, all again, yeah, all again, all again..., Yeah, Yeah, Yeah So young now, we are so young, so young now And when tommorow comes, we'll just do it all again Yeah, we are so young now, we are so young, so young now And when tommorow comes, we'll just do it all again We are so young... (Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah-ie Yeah) We are so young... (Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah-ie Yeah) We are so young... (Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah-ie Yeah) Lets do it all again... (Yeah Yeah Yeah Yeah-ie Yeah) Fade out |
| Mama's little opal Papa's little pearl Mama's little urchin Daddy's little girl Mama loves her baby Your daddy loves you too Precious little angel, We love you |
| Part Two: |
| My relationship with my friends |
| "Best Friend" by S Club 7 I remember when we was young, Playing pool, after school, keeping it cool. People say we were the troublesome two. I know the girls liked me and you. I can never forget the times you've covered my back, You helped me out and covered some slack. There was nothing you'd never do, It was all about me and you. Bridge: You're my brother, you're my sister, We'll stick together, No matter what, no matter what. Chorus: Best friend, never gonna let you down. Best friend, always gonna be around. You know, whatever life puts you through, I'll be there for you. We all need a best friend to understand, A best friend, to take your hand, You know whatever life puts you through, I'll be there for you. You remember the days when we would Kick back, lay back. We'd be chilling with the ladies. Those times were the greatest. So don't worry about a thing my friend, Cause you can count on me, thick and thin. Cause I'll be there right til the end (til the end). Bridge Chorus Come on, come on, best friend (x 4) Bridge x 2 Chorus to end |
| "If you live to be one hundred, I want to live to be one hundred minus one day so I'll never have to live without you."-Winnie the Pooh |
| Part Three: |
| Part Four: |
| My relationship with God |
| For any man that will ever love me |
| "As Christians, we live to die, and we die to live."-Unknown |
| "The Room" Unknown In that place between wakefulness and dreams, I found myself in the room. There were no distinguishing features except for the one wall covered with small index card files. They were like the ones in libraries that list titles by author or subject in alphabetical order. But these files, which stretched from floor to ceiling and seemingly endlessly in either direction, had very different headings. As I drew near the wall of files, the first to catch my attention was one that read "Guys (girls) I have liked." I opened it and began flipping through the cards. I quickly shut it, shocked to realize that I recognized the names written on each one. And then without being told, I knew exactly where I was. This lifeless room with its small files was a crude catalog system for my life. Here were written the actions of my every moment, big and small, in a detail my memory couldn't match. A sense of wonder and curiosity, coupled with horror, stirred within me as I began randomly opening files and exploring their content. Some brought joy and sweet memories; others a sense of shame and regret so intense that I would look over my shoulder to see if anyone was watching. A file named "Friends" was next to one marked "Friends I have betrayed." The titles ranged from the mundane to the outright weird. "Books I Have Read," "Lies I Have Told," "Comfort I have Given," "Jokes I Have Laughed at." Some were almost hilarious in their exactness: "Things I've yelled at my brothers". Others I couldn't laugh at: "Things I Have Done in My Anger", "Things I Have Muttered Under My Breath at My Parents." I never ceased to be surprised by the contents. Often there were many more cards than I expected. Sometimes fewer than I hoped. I was overwhelmed by the sheer volume of the life I had lived. Could it be possible that I had the time in my 20 years to write each of these thousands or even millions of cards? But each card confirmed this truth. Each was written in my own handwriting. Each signed with my signature. When I pulled out the file marked "Songs I have listened to," I realized the files grew to contain their contents. The cards were packed tightly, and yet after two or three yards, I hadn't found the end of the file. I shut it, shamed, not so much by the quality of music, but more by the vast amount of time I knew that file represented. When I came to a file marked "Lustful Thoughts," I felt a chill run through my body. I pulled the file out only an inch, not willing to test its size, and drew out a card. I shuddered at its detailed content. I felt sick to think that such a moment had been recorded. An almost animal rage broke on me. One thought dominated my mind: "No one must ever see these cards! No one must ever see this room! I have to destroy them!" In an insane frenzy I yanked the file out. Its size didn't mattered now. I had to empty it and burn the cards. But as I took it at one end and began pounding it on the floor, I could not dislodge a single card. I became desperate and pulled out a card, only to find it as strong as steel when I tried to tear it. Defeated and utterly helpless, I returned the file to its slot. Leaning my forehead against the wall, I let out a long, self- pitying sigh. And then I saw it. The title bore "People I Have Shared the Gospel With." The handle was brighter than those around it, newer, almost unused. I pulled on its handle and a small box not more than three inches long fell into my hands. I could count the cards it contained on one hand. And then the tears came. I began to weep. Sobs so deep that the hurt started in my stomach and shook through me. I fell on my knees and cried. I cried out of shame, from the overwhelming shame of it all. The rows of file shelves swirled in my tear-filled eyes. No one must ever, ever know of this room. I must lock it up and hide the key. But then as I pushed away the tears, I saw Him. No, please not Him. Not here. Oh, anyone but Jesus. I watched helplessly as he began to open the files and read the cards. I couldn't bear to watch his response. And in the moments I could bring myself to look at his face, I saw a sorrow deeper than my own. He seemed to intuitively go to the worst boxes. Why did He have to read every one? Finally He turned and looked at me from across the room. He looked at me with pity in His eyes. But this was a pity that didn't anger me. I dropped my head, covered my face with my hands and began to cry again. He walked over and put His arm around me. He could have said so many things. But He didn't say a word. He just cried with me. Then He got up and walked back to the wall of files. Starting at one end of the room, He took out a file and, one by one, began to sign His name over mine on each card. "No!" I shouted rushing to Him. All I could find to say was "No, no, " as I pulled the card from Him. His name shouldn't be on these cards. But there it was, written in red so rich, so dark, so alive. The name of Jesus covered mine. It was written with His blood. He gently took the card back. He smiled a sad smile and began to sign the cards. I don't think I'll ever understand how He did it so quickly, but the next instant it seemed I heard Him close the last file and walk back to my side. He placed His hand on my shoulder and said, "It is finished." I stood up, and He led me out of the room. There was no lock on its door. There were still cards to be written. |
| "I thank God everyday for having you in my life."-Phillipians 1:3 |
| "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Phillipians. 4:13 |
| "For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son, and whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."-John 3:16 |
| "I'm Like A Bird" by Nelly Furtado You're beautiful, that's for sure You'll never ever fade You're lovely but it's not for sure That I won't ever change And though my love is rare Though my love is true Chorus: I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is (and baby all I need for you to know is) I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is All I need for you to know is Your faith in me brings me to tears Even after all these years And it pains me so much to tell That you don't know me that well And though my love is rare And though my love is true Chorus It's not that I wanna say goodbye It's just that every time you try to tell me, me that you love me Each and every single day I know I'm going to have to eventually give you away And though my love is rare And though my love is true Hey I'm just scared That we may fall through Chorus x 3 |
| "Turn Off The Light" by Nelly Furtado It's getting so lonely inside this bed Don't know if I should lick my wounds or say woe is me instead There's an aching inside my head It's telling me I'm better off alone But after midnight, morning will come And the day will see if you will get some Chorus: They say that girl ya know she act too tough tough tough Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light They say that girl you know she act so rough rough rough Well it's till' I turn off the light, turn off the light And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down till' you see all my dreams Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems I looked above the other day Cuz I think I'm good and ready for a change I live my life by the moon If it's high play it low, if it's harvest go slow and if it's full, then go But after midnight, morning will come And the day will see if you're gonna get some Chorus I'm searching for things that I just cannot see Why don't you don't you don't you come and be with me I pretend to be cool with me, wanna believe That I can do it on my own without my heart on my sleeve I'm running, I'm running, catch up with me life Where is the love that I'm looking to find? It's all in me, can't you see, why can't you, why can't you see it's all in me All in me Where is your logic? Who do you need? Where can you turn in your delicate time of need? Follow me follow me down down down down I do not need I do not need nobody Where is your logic? Who do you need? Where can you turn? |
| "If I have any more heartbreaks, I'll be sure to make the Guiness Book of World Records." |
| "Most girls want a man with the bling bling, got my own thing, got the ching ching. I just want real love. Most girls want a man with the mean green. Don't wanna dance if he can't be everything that I dream of, a man that understands real love."-"Most Girls (Real Love)" by Pink |
| "I just can't believe in anyone who doesn't believe in me"-Molly Ringwald in 'Pretty in Pink' |
| "And these three remain: Faith, Hope, and Love. But the greatest of these is Love." |
| "Don't Think I'm Not" by Kandi Now I don't have to question Where you were last night Cause I already know what you will say I already know you lie But I can't be mad at ya Cause there's something that you don't know That when you're gone, I do my own thing And I catch a bone while you're doggin' me (Chorus) When you're out in the club, don't think I'm not Even when you're out makin' love, don't think I'm not When you're feelin' good in somebody's spot Gettin' hot, don't stop Just don't think I'm not Cause I'm out gettin' mine (Repeat Chorus) When I try to get your attention You ignore me everytime You are so caught up doin' your dirt That you didn't notice mine Well I couldn't put up with ya scheemin' And I couldn't put up with ya lies They say two wrongs won't make it right But it's suitin' me just fine (Repeat Chorus 2x) Don't be surprised to know that Sometimes women play the male You may not believe it, but it's real The game is so real (Game is so real) So real So real (Real) Oh don't think we won't do it When you're out in the club (Repeat Chorus 2x) When you're out in the club, don't think I'm not Even when you're out makin' love, don't think I'm not When you're feelin' good in somebody's spot Gettin' hot, don't stop Just don't think I'm not Cause I'm out gettin' mine When you're out in the club, don't think I'm not Even when you're out makin' love, don't think I'm not When you're feelin' good in somebody's spot Gettin' hot, don't stop Just don't think I'm not Cause I'm out gettin' mine (Mine, mine) |
| "Don't put me up on a pedestal, just hold me close to you." |
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| "Story Book Love" from The Princess Bride Come my love I'll tell you a tale Of a boy and girl and their love story And how he loved her oh so much And all the charms she did possess Now this did happen once upon a time When things were not so complex How he worshipped the ground she walked And when he looked in her eyes he became obsessed (Chorus) My love is like a storybook story But it's as real as the feelings I feel My love is like a storybook story But it's as real as the feelings I feel It's as real as the feelings I feel This love was stronger than the powers so dark A prince could have within his keeping His spells to weave and steal a heart Within her breast but only sleeping (Chorus) My love is like a storybook story But it's as real as the feelings I feel My love is like a storybook story But it's as real as the feelings I feel It's as real as the feelings I feel Now he said, "Don't you know I love you oh so much And lay my heart at the foot of your dress?" She said, "Don't you know that these storybook loves Always have a happy ending?" Then he swooped her up just like in the books And on his stallion they rode away (Chorus) My love is like a storybook story But it's as real as the feelings I feel My love is like a storybook story But it's as real as the feelings I feel |
| "Bad Day" by Fuel Had a bad day again Said I would not understand Left a note and said "I'm sorry I, I had a bad day again" She spilled her coffee, broke a shoelace Smeared the lipstick on her face Slammed the door and said "I'm sorry I, I had a bad day again And she swears there's nothing wrong I hear her playing that same old song She puts me up and puts me on And had a bad day again She said I would not understand She left a note and said "I'm sorry I, I had a bad day again" And she swears there's nothing wrong I hear her playing that same old song She puts me up, and puts me on Woah and I've had a bad day again She said I would not understand She left a note and said "I'm sorry I, I had a bad day again." |