| Serapis cont'. As for the past, the recent past, and your not quite knowing where to go from here; a general rule is, to take it to your heart and see if it makes your heart sing. If celibacy makes your heart sing, then it is for you. There is another thing that I think may be related to it. I've had a tendency of holding fat around my hips, I mean I'm not eating anything... that's going to create such weight. Is that related to blockages? You would do well to examine the Taoist and the Kundalini Tantra approaches to this energy. They will assist in the movement of energy throughout your body. Then you will be able to tell if the weight you carry in those areas is due to a sexual blockage... blockage of your life force energy, or whether it is due to something else. Clearly, if you are carrying extra weight there, then you are storing Prana. I've considered other things... trying to help that flow of Prana through and it doesn't seem to have shifted it. There is some imbalance present in you at this time and you need to come to the realisation of what that is yourself. Also check with your partner. You are with your life-partner and the bond between you is very strong and the understanding between you is very strong. Sex for you is a matter of relationship as much as it is an individual thing. It can be either, but because your relationship is involved, there is no harm in seeking the assistance of your partner. Discuss the matter with him. Do not give your power away, however. There is one question I had which may have been answered, but I'll ask it anyway. How can we tell the difference between 'being' in a loving, detached way and being in a state where we are actually denying feelings and avoiding those feelings? That is a matter of being honest with yourself. If you are open, if your heart is open then the underlying truth will come out. You will understand this because your emotions will not allow you to cover that up. It may be that you need to get to this in your dreams if you feel that the answer is not clear in your conscious life. However, someone who has undertaken anything like the twenty one day process is unlikely to be so unconscious, or so unaware, of their feelings in that area for long. Just be honest with yourself. You are still carrying some fear. Allow that fear to go. Allow it. Recognise where it comes from. Thank it for its Service and allow it to pass. Do you feel as if you wish to have a sexual relationship with your partner? I didn't think so before, but lately, yes, I feel like I'd like to. I'd like to explore this area. He's discovering all sorts of things that just sound really exciting. I'd like to join him. When you say you didn't think so before, was there a change? My feelings before were, that I didn't wish to be part of... to be viewed as a 'toy'. It was given to me in a meditation to change that attitude and see myself as "being involved". This did make a little difference, but the feeling, the fear, is still there... As I said to you before, this is not just based on experiences from this life time. Again, you will need to work through this in the way that you choose, to gain an understanding of where this feeling has come from. To recognise it, to thank it for its Service and allow it to pass. You are an evolving being, as are all beings on this plane. Your sexual journey is as much an evolving journey as is your spiritual one. There is no need for the two to be separate. Be reminded of the fact that an obsession in this matter is not necessarily going to help you on your spiritual path. Now an obsession might take either form, an obsession for, or an obsession against. It is, after all, the same energy. That is not to say that you should deny celibacy, but you need to choose. You need to understand whether or not it is your path, whether it is highest wisdom for you, whether it will hasten your journey Home. And whilst sex is a densifying activity, inappropriate celibacy can be more densifying than the appropriate use of this activity. If you see what I mean? Yes, very much. Again, feel if it makes your heart sing. There is no point giving up sex if that choice doesn't make your heart sing. And there is no point undertaking sex for your partner's sake. His sexual journey is his sexual journey, and yours is yours. Since doing the twenty-one day process, it felt like it was a purely physical experience and when you described what sex has done on this planet, that's the feelings I had for it - the activity. I wish to share myself, to express with my partner on all levels, not just on a physical level. And this is where I have come to now. Is there a question there? I don't think so. You seem to have an understanding of your feelings about the matter. I am not sensing a question. I can only reassure you that because you have such a good understanding of what your desires are in this matter, then you are serving yourself well. And I feel like I will find my answers. Only you can find them. Yes. I have another question. How do we move our past life blocks? Is there any specific advice you have? Past life blocks can be difficult to move sometimes. There are various techniques that are in use at the moment that are quite helpful. One of these involves the use of Breath Therapy. I've experienced that. That is a useful tool. But I have found one of the most useful tools is that of meditation. To just go into yourself and ask. All the information is in there. The journey of finding out who you are is the journey of going into yourself - into your past lives; to go beyond the veils. When you can do this, all your past lives will be revealed and then you will have no need to carry the scars from any of them. So much of human behaviour is governed by what people bring into this life with them, either as damage to their etheric body or as the karmic balance, as part of arrangements that they made with other beings in Spirit before they came here. So little is understood; but all this knowledge is carried within. It is in your DNA. When you go beyond this plane, you will find how easy it is to understand this. That is the object of why you are here, to find the answers while you are here. Has that helped you with past life blockage? Is it just the conscious remembering, the conscious recall, that is going to help those things to move? As you travel along your journey, as you become more aligned with Spirit, as you continue your ascension process, more and more of your past lives will be revealed to you. This begins with the phenomenon that your know as deja-vu; a fleeting glimpse of something, that almost as soon as you recognise it, is gone; then you try and grasp for it but it is gone and you can't get it back. Like a snippet from last week's dream, "What was it? It's gone." One of your greatest allies in capturing those moments is your intuition. If you trust your intuition, you will know... you will be able to grasp those moments. To someone who is not attuned to their intuition, such moments, as they get stronger, if they get stronger, may seem like thoughts. They may dismiss them as something that they conjure up in their mind. This is where trust comes in... and surrender. To be able to let go of the concept that, somehow, your mind is running the show; and trust that you are getting snippets from your past life. It's like any of this journey, it is a matter of letting go of the blockage. Half the blockages that you have, that anyone of this plane has, is to the fact that they just do not want to accept that what they are getting is an accurate record of the past. It is too easily dismissed as being conjured up by the mind... fantasy, whatever. We need to trust. We need to open and allow the cellular memory to come out. It's really quite easy. |