A Goddess among the living, looking at me...
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| A Journey of Transcendence | ||||||||
| In an evening of particular lucidity, I decided to stay sober, amongst a crowd of celebration and allow my mind to push itself to what would be a familiar limit. I was able to focus and build this cloudy, floating energy that swirled inside me. It was building like pressure in a balloon, until I had to purge it. As I did, I could feel my skin get hot and my mouth barren with an insatiable urge for anything. My mind was in complete and perfect harmony with my body. It just happens that way sometimes. So I prepared myself for whatever my subconscious mind was going to show me. In the meantime, I was getting prepared for what I would use to fuel my body with energy. I slid my arms comfortably into leather and relaxed, as I felt every tug turn into a relentless cocooning of leather around my arms. Although this kind of distraction usually is difficult to ignore, I was able to focus on it and harness it with ease, as I was already in such a harmonic meditative state. After some time, I was surprised with the prospect of feeding from the energy of two people rather than just one. Suddenly, I found my mind quickly distracted and made a few jokes to relieve the thoughts in my conscious mind, and refocus. It worked perfectly. The two wonderful women led me back to the play space, where I was to be kept. As the blindfold slid over my eyes, I realized just how in harmony my energy was. I could feel their presences and could almost perfectly anticipate where they were, as if I were watching. As I felt my body begin to approach muscular exhaustion from the torturous tickling, I began to pull and center all the energy I could. Every sensation built energy that I was able to transform and almost mold. After building this up, I shot it right up into my mind and let go. What followed was not something that I could have possibly anticipated. I soon lost conscious awareness of the textures of what was happening to my body and felt only boosts of energy that I used to feed my mind. It began to surge with a scent that grew to captivate me. That was all my mind needed to launch into a dramatic new fantasy of passion. Filled with images of tender caresses and kisses, my mind actuallized the sensations into real physical sensations of actuality. I felt every tender touch, whisp, and sound that my mind imagined, with every possible sense that made it as real as anything I've ever known. It quickly began to venture beyond, to an emotional yearning that engulfed me. My heart began to pound with the thunderous echo emotional passion that is only found one place. It was the freefall known to only one cause. I was falling in love. I found myself unafraid and willingly swimming in this bliss. I could have stayed that way forever. In her embrace, I was an angel of purity, with my wings tenderly wrapping us into unity. Here is where I stayed for what seemed like hours. Then, as with the eternal warmth of sunrise, the light blinded me. And yet, with this unforgiving piercing force, my eyes began to adjust and capture an image that I could only feel but not describe with reverence. She stood before me with eyes that held a gaze of everything I could possibly imagine. A Goddess among the living, looking at me... |
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