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| I love this background......Anyway, I have noticed throughout healing process both this time and the last time (remember this is my second go at it), that I have good days and bad days. I also however, have REALLY REALLY bad days! Those are the ones that really kick you in the fuckin ass!! Especially when it comes on totally unexpected! Which it can! Trust me!! Thats one of the shitty things about triggers - I mean they are shitty to being with but what makes them doubley shitty is the fact that you don't always KNOW what is going to trigger you! Sometimes life can be very tense living that way! Believe me! You could be having a great day then all of a sudden out of the blue - you're triggered - you don't know by what, or who or why but its happened...and everything goes to hell at a rapid pace!! So what do you do? Well I don't know what would/will work for you but I know that sometimes for me its a matter of just getting through it which in all honesty is all that I can handle at that moment....Sometimes a hot bath and a good cry helps (though I hate crying)...sometimes writing in m journal helps...I dont' know.....I guess it depends....Those really bad days are sometimes so bad that I just curl up in bed under my blankets and cry myself to sleep....I don't know...Sometimes having someone there to just vent to is a help but that doesnt' happen very often....mainly because it can be awkward...I mean if I am in need of venting then I REALLY need to vent and I'm just going to let it all out BUT I don't want answers, I don't want sympathy, I just need a sounding board....but alot of times ppl feel that I DO want answers/sympathy etc so it can be a difficult thing to do.....I don't know...maybe I'll do this page another day..... |