Betrayal

down in a cellar in the corner of the dark and dingy room......
lay a candle .
and i sit there scribbling on a piece of paper .
betrayed .

once i was in love .
we had hopes . 
promises .
desires .
but all that is gone now .
all that is left is pain .

oh why ?
why did i love u ?
Why did i take that flower from you ?
it has wrinkled away as you did .
that flower promised me hope .
unconditional love .
sweet fragrance .
but i forgot that the flower is no good without its thorn .
i forgot that the aroma will betray the flower one day .
i forgot that flower itself will betray the garden .
this is my subtle delinquency .
and for all that i must repent .



Adam betrayed God in the garden of Eden .
and now we are here .
is this world based on betrayal only?
is this actually the punitive mockery of time ?
the truth still remains fathomless.

Motherhood is second to deity .
she bears all the pain .
wakes up the entire night when we are sick .
dedicates her entire life to us .
and what do we do ?
marry a stranger and leave her alone .
betrayed ?

Even Jesus Christ was betrayed .
why should I be vindicated ?
come longinus , crucify me .
My god is waiting for me .
or will he betray me too .
will he give me all that he promised ?
or will he laugh at my sorrows like the rest ?


the candle flickers .
it wont last long .
i hear a distant sound of a bell .
the bell tolls .
i smile .
it wont take long now .
i write the last few words .
even this book that i m writing will betray .
but the words will stay forever in the minds of the beholders .
cuz you will be here when i m gone .
or will you betray me too ?