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August 15 2003, George and I got married and we both knew right from the start that we wanted children.
We suffered a miscarriage in early pregnancy March 2001 and our hearts were totally broken.
Being diagnosed with PCOS had me thinking that getting pregnant would be almost impossible.
So, when we found out we were pregnant we were both so thrilled!

On our six week visit we were told that our baby had no heartbeat and we would have to undergo a D&C.
After so long of wanting a baby and then to be told that your child has no heartbeat is the most horrible pain anyone can ever be faced with.
Our D&C was preformed and things went well after the surgery.
Of course our hearts were crushed but we learned to get through the pain and go on with life.

Almost two years later after we did get married, we decided to talk to our Ob-gyn about the reasons that I wasn't getting pregnant.
She told me that she didn't see a reason for it, but recommended that we take Clomid!
For those of you who don't know about Clomid, Clomid is a fertility medication that is given to women who have a hard time becoming pregnant.
So, after getting married in August we started taking the medication in September.
October is when we found out we were pregnant again after so long.
I was worried sick that something would go wrong in the early weeks.
However, when we went in for our six week appointment we found out this time that our baby did have a heartbeat!
Both of us were tickled to death....Our due date was July 15 2004.

During my pregnancy things were fairly well, no morning sickness, I mainly stayed really tired the first two months.
Later we found out that I had high blood pressure and were given Norvasc to control it.
Sometime in January I started noticing a discharge with foul odor.
I was very concerned that it might be amnio fluid leaking.
So, I then called my doctor and told them what was going on.
They just called me in a prescription of antibiotics and told me not to worry it was probably just a normal UTI during pregnancy.
Saying that most women do get them.
Things seem to be getting better at least I thought.

February 14 2004, I started having pains in my tummy.
Being concerned I called to let my doctor know and was told that I felt like I need to be evaluated by the ER to go ahead and go.
Well, the pains started that morning and I tried to put it off but I was talked into going now.
When we arrived there were blood test drawn, urine specimen and we were sent straight for an ultra sound.
After about 30 minutes into the ultra sound the u/s tech told me that she could indeed see me having Braxton Hicks Contractions, but she told me that they were normal.
What concerned me the most is that of all my u/s throughout my pregnancy my son was breech.
Out of 16 U/S! This one day he was head down!
I was told "oh its normal for babies to flip all around."
I knew something wasn't right I didn�t care what she told me.
I had that gut feeling.
Obviously you will find out in the end of my story that I was right!
At this point in time I was only a little over 18 weeks pregnant.
The ER doctor came in told me that the baby looked fine but I did have a UTI.
He wrote me out a script of antibiotics and I was sent home.

Throughout the week I was still having these contractions being very spaced out, plus my lower abdomen was very tender to touch.
I figured it was just from the UTI.
I mean I had no side effects of a UTI like you normally do, so when they told me I had one I couldn't believe it!
On February 20 2004 I was laying in my bed at home getting comfortable when I felt my water break!
I was scared to death that I was going to give birth at home.
Thank god my husband was here with me with because I would have really been a mess without his help.

We phoned 911 and were directed that I stay laying flat until the ambulance arrived.
About 15 minutes later they arrived and rushed me to the ER.
I was then taken in and vaginally examined to find out that indeed my water had broke, however my cervix hadn't dilated any.
They also did an u/s and told us that our son still had a heartbeat.
Oh, by the way IT"S A BOY we found that out the week before my waters broke.
Anyway, there was little fluid around him and we were told all the sad news of an early delivery at this gestational age.
We were given the option to either induce labor or to remain in the hospital for at least four weeks on complete bed rest.

The entire time the doctors were in there with me I was trying to breath through each contraction that were now about 3-4 minutes apart.
They knew I was in lots of pain and gave me some Demerol.
My husband and I talked our options over and decided to stay for four weeks.
We both felt like we would be giving up on our son if we just said oh well and induced labor.
At this time we were really praying for a miracle.
As the nurses were preparing my paperwork for me to be moved to a private room is when I really noticed that my contractions were in a steady stream.
They weren't fading in out as they were upon my arrival at the ER.
My cousin rushed out to get a nurse after I told her I could feel pressure.
She rushed in and pushed me straight to L&D where I gave birth to my precious 9oz 11in baby boy.

Baby Hiram lost his tiny life coming through my birth canal.
His body was to frail for the parts of labor that he had to endure.
We were asked before his birth if we wanted to hold him and we both said no.
Then after his birth all of my family was allowed to come in and see him and that�s when reality hit me and I demanded that yes I did want to see my son.
I couldn't go the rest of my life wondering what he looked like.
I have never in my life seen something so precious!
He was wrapped in his tiny blanket and I even made the nurse unwrap him because I wanted to see the details of our child.
I was very groggy from the Demerol, but do remember feeling every pain.
We were given two photos of our son, hand/feet prints as well as a sample type birth certificate.
We only held our son for a moment but have been forever touched by his presence.
George and I had our own private graveside service for family and friends.
It was a beautiful bright sunny day that I will never forget.

Our Ob-gyn told us that from the blood work that was drawn and my blood count being so high that it's more than likely that we had an infection.
This infection was called Choriamnioitis!
He says the likelihood of reoccurrence is almost 0%.
He told us that he didn't see that there would be a problem with us in another pregnancy.

We had lots of support from my family and we would like to thank everyone for there support!
Were still dreaming of becoming parents again and were not going to give up our hopes so soon.
As soon as my body and mind are well we will again start taking Clomid!
Were dreaming of a perfect pregnancy next time around and hope we can deliver a normal healthy baby.
Another child will never take the place of our Baby Hiram, it will only bring more happiness to our lives.

We hope you have enjoyed our story and our heart goes out to you if you have ever had to go through the loss of your own child.
We know the pain and are here if you want to talk. I have found lots of online support through AngelMoms!
Thanks AngelMoms for helping me through the healing process!

We Miss You Baby Hiram!
Love Always,
Mom and Dad

A special thanks to my online buddies for there support!
Cindy ~ Mom to a Beautiful Angel Kayla 3/20/02
Nicole ~ Mom to a Beautiful Angel Hunter 3/19/04

A very Special thank you to my family and God!
My biggest thank you goes out to my husband George who has been the best supporter I could ever ask for.
"Lots Of Love George"