| Dec. 30, 2002 ~ Happy Birthday, Brittani Burd! Anyway, today has been melancholy. The little boy I babysit got his finger caught in the hinge of a recliner today and had to have surgery. They thought he wasn't going to get to keep his finger (the right index), but thank God he's okay. It hurt him pretty bad, but it missed all the nerves and he will just just fine in time. On a lighter note, I got a haircut today, so now it's all short and pretty and curly, and that's how I like it. Yup yup. Tomorrow is New Years Eve, and right now I have absolutely no idea what I'm gonna be doing. Either I go to my cousins w/Adam and Bryan and our other friends, or I stay home and talk to Brit King, or I go a lock-in with Brit King if she goes. Too many decisions. And people know all too well that I can be sooo indecisive about things. I just can never please everyone. School starts back on Thursday, and I am almost looking forward to it. I enjoy some of my classes, especially English. yeah, I miss my friends who I haven't seen or talked to, which are few and far between, but there are a few. This break has been much needed, but unproductive in the worst way. Science fair junk will start back up again as soon as I walk through those big glass doors of FHS, and THAT is not something I look forward to at all. My chemistry teacher must believe that all high school students have a supreme lack of lives. I do...but that doesn't mean everyone does! I'm rambling, prolly b/c I didn't sleep so well last night and it's already past 1:30 in the morning. Happy New Years Eve, everyone. Less than 24 hrs to 2003. Wow...hard to believe. Ok, enough of the rambling. I'm going to bed. Jan. 7, 2003 ~ Only 9 months until my 18th b-day!!! HOW CRAZY!! :) I just had a fairly interesting experience tonight...one I'll probably never forget. While I was online joking with Brittani, gabbing with Amie about chemistry class, and reading Adam's newest poem, a friend I hadn't chatted with for a while sent me a message. I was excited to hear from her since it had been a while, but then I learned why she had decided to talk to me... On October 20, 2000, I was sexually assaulted by a close friend of mine...someone I thought I could trust completely. Thank God, he didn't rape me. Truth be known, he really didn't get the opportunity to do much of anything because I managed to get him out of my house. It took me over a year of praying and multiple counseling sessions to get over the hurt of that day. As a matter of fact, I was at a church hanging out after a football game when he popped up. Amie saw him coming and tried to calm me down, but it was just such a shock to see him again. But I've forgiven him. Then this friend of mine messages me and tells me that something similar has happened to her. I feel horrible, I can't make it go away. But I am SO THANKFUL that I have had that experience...that I'm able to share with her what got me through the pain and the guilt. What a terrible experience...but what a way to turn it into a ministry. Jan. 8, 2003 ~ Wow! Look at this! 2 days in a row of writing! Amie was deathly ill today, so I was really kinda lonely in 6th and 7th period (where we usually hang out). I hope she's better tomorrow. 1st semester is already over for my Jr. year...from this point on it all goes by so quickly. I'm already working on graduation gifts for the boys, which they prolly won't like, but I don't care! I'm working hard on them and they better at least pretend to love them! I'd hate to get brutal. :) I can't wait for this year to be over, and then I scream at myself for thinking about wishing away the last 5 months that I have with my cousin and so many friends. I know I'll still have them...they'd never just go away (lol), but it's so different knowing they won't be there everyday, walking with me down the halls or hanging out with me at lunch. I was just talking to Adam Holbrook about senior trip and how I'm planning on doing a mission trip for mine next spring. NEXT SPRING!! I graduate in a year! KCC in a year. Grayson, KY in a year...this is insane to think about. Jan. 12, 2003 ~ Last night I was looking around on the web and found some really cute cartoon dolls, which is what sparked my new found obession about them. They have taken over my page! lol Check out their arrival on the index, the home page, and the buddies page. I've got more plans for the other pages and such, but I have to download more dolls to add more. So...we'll see. I haven't updated my page this much in FOREVER! And more than anything, it's for my friends since they have nothing better to do than check out my page. hehehe (luv you guys!). I'm thinking about doing another, for those of you who just can't get enough of me. More like just an enourmous journal, without all the different junk I have floating around on here. Maybe after the guys graduate I'll keep up with them via the page...hard to say. It's really all I do on here anymore. Sickness has overcome me...thanks to Wyatt, who I played with while daddy played w/his lil bluegrass group on Friday evening. Wyatt is the little boy I wrote about over Christmas vacation who had to have surgery on his poor little finger. Life has been so entirely boring lately! I've been writing almost every day though, even working on a story. Romance, of course...but it's the first one that I've really worked on in over a year. I'm debating on whether or not to post it on here for you all to critique for me. What do you think? This story is one of the few I haven't based on personal experience, so I'm not afraid to let everyone read it! lol |