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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I heard something hit the wall and shatter. I jumped and ran down
the stairs. "Michael?" I said quietly looking over and seeing the
phone broke into little pieces. "What's wrong?" I asked quietly,
worried about what he'd found out.
We're Closing
Early
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away...
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Syndara72
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Michael
I put my hand up, not looking at her. "Shut up Maria." I grabbed a
towel off the back of the dining room chair and wrapped it around my
waist. I felt rigid. Anger and guilt, something else. I didn't trust
my emotions right now, so it was best I get the hell out of here. I
walked past her and started up the stairs.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I froze when he told me to shut up. I stared at him as he walked up
the stairs, tears stinging my eyes. What did I do? I slowly followed
him up the stairs. "Why are you mad at me? What did I do?"
We're Closing
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One day I'll fly
away...
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Syndara72
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Michael
I slammed my hand against the wall. "F*ck Ria..I'm not mad at
you..I just..really need you to disapear right now please.." I
glanced back at her and finished up the stairs, going into our room
and slamming the door. My head was chaos, tears clouding up my
sight. F*cking Isabel!
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
Tears rolled down my face and I walked back down stairs to the
living room. I had no idea what was going on and it scared me. I
curled up on the couch and closed my eyes crying quietly. So much
for our wonderful night together.
We're Closing
Early
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One day I'll fly
away...
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Michael
I can say I loved her. It wasn't the same kind of love I had with
Maria, but it was close. I sat on our bed, dressed again, my head in
my hands crying. My shoulders were shaking with grief. I wished I
hadn't said that sh*t to Maria. I needed her. But I was afraid of
looking at her and seeing the end of my relationship with Isabel.
The night at Gina's when I told her to forget we'd ever met.
Memories flooded the pain I was feeling. I never thought she'd kill
herself. The questions were building.
"I'm sorry.." I said
quietly, finally coming down the stairs because I didn't want to cry
alone. Seeing her crying too made me feel like @#%$.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I looked up at him and quickly wiped my eyes and sniffled quietly.
I looked down at my hands and started chipping off my nail polish. I
didn't want to say anything because I didn't want him to yell at me.
"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked him quietly, still staring
at my hands.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie Bitch~
One day I'll fly
away...
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Syndara72
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Michael
I walked around the couch and sat beside her, sitting back with my
head falling back against it. "No." I rubbed my face. I couldn't
talk to Maria about Isabel. She wouldn't understand. I had to tell
her anyway. "Isabel killed herself." The words barely made it past
the rock in my throat.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
Isabel. I'd never liked her. She hated me more though. From the
second I walked in that door. I kept picking at my nail polish. "I'm
sorry." I whispered. I came between them. Who knew if they would
still be together if it wasn't for me.
We're Closing
Early
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One day I'll fly
away...
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Syndara72
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Michael
Was she? I doubted it. They hated each other. I put my arm around
her shoulder and pulled her into me. "I don't know how to feel about
it. I feel all this pain but..I don't understand why. It's been a
long time.." I squeezed my eyes shut, dropping the tears on my
jeans.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I rested my head on his chest and closed my eyes. "You guys were
together for a long time..." I said quietly. I didn't know what to
do. I didn't know how to help him, or if I even could.
We're Closing
Early
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One day I'll fly
away...
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Michael
I stared blankly at the wall on the other side of the room. I loved
Isabel for a long time..a long time ago. "I can't believe she'd do
it.." I shook my head and closed my eyes again. No one called about
the funeral, and there was no invitation. Isabel wouldn't have
wanted me to go. Whatever. "I love you baby.." I whispered, putting
my head in her lap and wrapping my arms around her legs.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I gently brushed my fingers through his hair looking down at him.
"I love ou too." I told him quietly. This was really hard for him, I
felt bad.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie Bitch~
One day I'll fly
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Syndara72
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Michael
I tightened my arms around her legs and cried for a long time until
I got sick of myself and got angry. At Isabel for being so weak, at
me for caring after all this time. I loved Maria with my entire
heart, I needed her. And I guess I needed her to understand how much
pain I was in.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I just kept brushing my fingers through his hair letting him cry. I
didn't know how to help him. I blinked away the tears that were
threatening to surface. It hurt that he was so upset and that I
couldn't help him.
We're Closing
Early
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Bitch~
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Wounded Hero.
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Syndara72
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Michael
I left the couch and walked down the hall to the bathroom to take a
shower and be alone with my headache. The hot water cleared my head.
When I thought about Isabel there was hardly anything but anger and
pain. And regret. I ran my hands over my face under the water. Maria's going to have another baby. I smiled despite myself and turned
around, letting my hair flatten and soak.
"We'll need a
babysitter. I don't want these kids running our lives." I walked
down the stairs in my boxers. "And Michelle is going to hate this
kid taking attention away from her..so we wont tell her till you get
fat.." I sat back on the couch and flipped on the tv.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I looked over at him and smiled slightly. "Well there's always
Kyle, and my mom as a last resort. I really didn't want any of my
children around her, who knew what kinds of things she'd fill their
heads with. We were going to have another baby...someday. I was
going to get fat again. Fat little stomach. I reached over and
touched Michael's damp hair. "You feel better?" I asked him quietly.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
Brave...Handsome...Hero.
Wounded Hero.
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Syndara72
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Michael
I didn't look at her but kept my eyes on the tv. "Yeah great, what
about seeing a doctor. Did you want to find someone in Roswell? I
want to be there for you this time, through the whole thing. I can
check some people out tomorrow after work." I found a hockey game
and tossed the remote on the coffee table, getting comfortable and
taking her hand in mine.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I held his hand tightly in mine and watched him. "I'll go to the
same doctor I went to when I was pregnant with Michelle. He was a
good one." I ran my thumb back and forth over his knuckles. He
seemed kind of distant, it was because of Isabel. That bitch f*cked
him up.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
Brave...Handsome...Hero.
Wounded Hero.
Better to ask
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Syndara72
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Michael
I nodded and let go of her hand, putting my arm around her
shoulder. "Ok yeah that's cool. Is this guy in Roswell?" I looked at
her and tried to keep my mind focused. On us and our life. Our baby.
Anything but Isabel and the pain I didn't want to feel.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I nodded slightly and wrapped my arms around his waist and rested
my head against his chest. "Yeah, he is." I looked up at him. I may
be selfish, but I didn't want Isabel and her crap to affect us, I
knew that wasn't going to happen, they'd been together for a long
time before I came into the picture, and it was going to affect us.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
Brave...Handsome...Hero.
Wounded Hero.
Better to ask
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Syndara72
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Michael
I wondered if she cut her wrists, or took pills. That seemed more
like Isabel. She hated blood. I thought about her last minutes of
life, if she thought about me or said anything. If she was in any
pain or if.."Great we'll call him tomorrow and get you checked out.
Make sure that uh..you're ok after the accident.." I squeezed her
hand, trying to get a hold of myself.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I nodded slightly. I hadn't even thought of that, when I got into
the accident it could have done something. I mentally shook myself,
not wanting to think about the possibility. I really just wanted to
break down and cry. My husband was hurting, and I knew he was, but I
couldn't do anything. Part of me was even afraid to bring it up, not
wanting to upset him even more.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
Brave...Handsome...Hero.
Wounded Hero.
Better to ask
for forgiveness than to ask for permission
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Michael
I sat with her, numbly holding her hand and staring at the tv.
There was nothing else
BLAH!
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Syndara72
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Michael
I sat with her, numbly holding her hand and staring at the tv.
There was nothing else I could think of to say, to fill the silence.
I loved Maria for not forcing me to talk about it. I loved her
because she was sitting here watching hockey and not complaining.
She understood me. I squeezed her hand on her stomach and kissed the
top of her head.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I played with his hand, staring at the tv. We'd have another baby
and over time things would be better...right? He just needed his
time to grieve. I pulled back slightly. "You want something to eat?"
I asked quietly. We hadn't eaten dinner, too eager to get Michelle
out of the house and onto our night together.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
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Wounded Hero.
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Syndara72
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Michael
I wasn't hungry for the first time in my life. Ha funny Guerin. I
looked down at her, smiling. "I could eat." She was actually getting
good at cooking. I taught her how to use the stove, and after a few
burnt meals she caught on. Beautiful wife. F*ck. This isn't working.
I can't just think about Maria and have it all go away. I'd never
lost anyone before.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I smiled slightly and squeezed his hand. "Ok." I climbed off the
couch and walked into the kitchen and started looking for something
to make him. I stood over the stove making him some speggetti when
the tears started rolling down my face. I was scared of what this
was going to do to us. I wiped my eyes quickly when I was done
making it. I finished fixing it and wiped my eyes again, and took a
few deep breaths then carried the plate into the living room. "Here
you go." I said quietly handing it to him.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
Brave...Handsome...Hero.
Wounded Hero.
Better to ask
for forgiveness than to ask for permission
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Michael
I grabbed her wrist and took the plate from her. "Why are you
crying?" I asked her slowly, narrowing my eyes at the tear stains on
her cheeks. My grip was stronger than I noticed and I let go before
hurting her. "Don't..cry Maria. I'll get over it." I looked away
from her and picked the fork up, debating on actually eating or not.
BLAH!
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I just stared at him for a second. My wrist didn't really hurt, but
I could still feel his hand around it, even though he let go. It was
more just from surprise. God he didn't need my crap and worrying
about it right now. "I'll be right back." I walked down to the
bathroom and washed my face then dried it. I looked in the mirror.
It didn't look liked I'd been crying anymore, except for the slight
red tinge to my eyes. I took a deep breath and walked back out to
the living room.
We're Closing
Early
~Smut Puppy # 5~Cookie
Bitch~
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Michael
I was done with my plate by the time she came back, hungry after
all I guess. She looked better. I looked at her then away. I felt so
out of control right now. Dangerous. Like grabbing her for no
reason. She wasn't safe and maybe she knew it already. Or not and I
should leave. But I remembered leaving her that night when I had to
work. I wasn't doing that again. "Maria.." I started, unsure exactly
what I was going to say.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I picked up his plate and started back to the kitchen to finish
cleaning up when he said my name. I turned back around and looked at
him. "Yeah baby?" I asked softly.
We're Closing
Early
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Bitch~
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Michael
"I'm going to go someplace for the night. I need to think baby and
I can't do it here." I sighed and closed my eyes. "I can take you to
Kyle's so you won't be alone. Michelle probably misses you anyway.."
I got off the couch and turned, walking down the hall silently.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
The last time this happened I was gone for six months. I was scared
that it was going to happen again. I shook my head. "No, Michael
please don't." I had this fear in the pit of my stomach that it was
happening to us again. That I was going to lose him again. Tears
welled up in my eyes again. "Please don't leave..." I said, not sure
if he'd even heard me.
We're Closing
Early
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Bitch~
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Michael
I stopped halfway down the hall. F*ck this sucked. I hated making
her cry, you wouldn't know it I do it all the time. I had to be
alone tonight. I had to do some things I didn't want her to see. But
all she saw was a repeat of the last time we broke up. I went into
the bathroom and when I came out I walked back into the living room
and up to her. I put my hands on her cheeks. "Go to Kyle's. I won't
even be gone all night. I just don't want you here alone baby.." I
looked in her eyes, tears in them I f*cking hated.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I stared at him for a second before pulling away and walking down
to the bedroom. I slammed the door and got dressed. I couldn't
believe he was doing this. I asked him not to and he was still
leaving. I walked back into the living room and grabbed my coat and
my keys. "I'll drive myself to Kyle's." I knew I shouldn't have
gotten mad. He was grieving for Isabel. He had to deal with it. But
damnit! I was trying to help him! I stormed out to my car and drove
to Kyle's crying the whole way. He knew I hated not being with him
at night. He'd always known that, and still, he left me.
We're Closing
Early
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Bitch~
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Michael
I ran out after her but she was already down the street. "F*ck
Maria! Maria!" I shouted after her, she was too far away. I walked
back into the house and grabbed my jacket, leaving in my car for
Kyle's. I forced the tears to f*ck off as I drove. You can't be mad at me baby. I couldn't take her being mad at
me tonight.
BLAH!
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Whits
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Agent Zia
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Maria
I got to Kyle's and he let me in. Michelle was already sleeping. He
asked me what happened and I told him about Isabel and how upset
Michael was. I walked down to David's room where Michelle was
sleeping to and carefully picked her up in my arms so I wouldn't
wake her up. I just needed to hold her right now. Since Michael
wouldn't let me hold him. I walked back out to the couch and laid
down with her against my chest and watched her sleep, combing my
fingers through her hair.
We're Closing
Early
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Bitch~
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Michael
I pulled into his driveway with another car right behind me. I got
out and saw Tess getting out of her car and walking up to the house.
I stopped her. "Hey what are you doing here?" She glared at me for
no reason I could see. "I was just about to ask you.." I glared at
her. "Maria is in there so..I think you should go back to where you
came from." "F*ck you Michael. My kid is in there too and I don't
give a sh*t what Maria says." This had to be a f*cking twilight zone
moment because I had no idea why we were fighting. She walked past
me and knocked on the door, I followed behind her and grabbed her
arm. "Sh*t Tessa don't go in there.." I pleaded with her. "Back
off.." She snapped at me and I let go.
BLAH!
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