Looking at the syrynge of salvation
The liquid intensifying my concentration
One stab and then a short lived bliss
From the angels, this sympathetic kiss
Feeling the burn grow and fill me
The need churning and growing like a sea
Now with this pain fading slowly away
I don't give a fuck about what i say
But instead of getting warm, i am cold
Instead of feeling so young, i feel old
I wonder what is happening to me
This nightmare making me more empty
Crying and screaming in intense pain
So constant and strong it drives me insane
No, leave me alone dont do this
This time the drug is a deadly kiss
Please help me to just get out
Damn it no one hears me scream and shout!
None of this can happen to me
OD's only happen in cheap movies!
I see hellish things all around
But i can't understand a sound
Oh my god! get my daemon away
I am here because of what he had to say
He is not a friend here to help
He won't let me cry out or yelp
No, just make him put me down
I will die in peace upon the ground
Go away! Leave! Fuck off you all
I am not to frail, not so small
All i need is another friendly hit
Then i will be able to calmly sit
Why is everyone running and crying
WHAT? hell no, i am not dieing
No this isn't happening to me
No i am fine, i don't hurt...see?
Biting and screaming i will get away
I will live to shoot up again another day
No, no hospitals, please the dealer begs
Wait i can't seem to feel my legs
No i am not saying how much i shot
It wasn't a ton...not a whole lot...
Thrashing pulling just to get free
Why are they saying they just want to help me
Oh wait...the daemon has changed to a friend
What i am sure the new cuts will mend
Oh God...this can't really be me
Shaking and cry...just let me be
Relaxing, sleeping, sobbing just hold me near
I can feel every single hot, burning tear
I will be fine now, I promise i am
I just need more heroin, God damn
You can't understand what i am feeling
The drug can be just so fulfilling
Oh please I'll be great, ok?
Just stay with me atleast till day
I love the drug but i love you too
From the ashes i might rise anew
I'll quit, just don't be so upset
But the idea of being clean and i just met
I'll try to sleep, just please don't go
Sleeping, calm, breathing, i must stop this...i know
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