Distance

�� For:� S. M.

We met each other a year and a half ago,

but we lived over 1,000 miles apart,

Still, we believed that we could make it,

To both of us, it seemed a matter of the heart,

Keeping in touch every week on the phone,

we embraced that sliver we had of a chance,

that though apart we could grow a friendship,

that might someday transform into romance,

But you never quite trusted me with your troubles,

or gave me the key to the secret of who you are,

You put up towering walls, slinging words that hurt,

and expected me live up to a your high standard bar,

You were defensive and even rude sometimes,

Keeping all your feelings locked tightly inside,

I waited more than a year to hear some kind words,

But you kept me out no matter how hard I tried,

� Refrain:

I was just looking for someone to care for,

some laughter and a few smiles,

It's obvious that the distance between us,

was more than just in miles.

I shared my dreams, my hopes and fears,

and sometimes you couldn't hide your inner child,

I wanted to help you with your private pain,

but your fear of closeness made you seem wild,

You acted so lonely and lost sometimes,

I wanted to help find peace for you and me too,

Despite your problems, I thought you could be the one,

Ending our solitude seemed the best thing to do,

I lived for those moments when your tongue would slip,

and you would say something that made me smile,

You were honest about your feelings by accident,

and your confessions made it all seem worthwhile,

You came to visit and we had so much fun,

I forgot the condescension I get when you're gone,

You were finally here, being charming once more,

Your arms were warm and safe, I was no longer alone,

� Refrain:

I was just looking for someone to care for,

some laughter and a few smiles,

It's obvious that the distance between us,

was more than just in miles.

When you left, all the distance came back again,

I tried to help lift you up out of your self-pity,

But you need to be on a pedestal in everyone's eyes,

And you wouldn't wait for me to move to your city.

Not a compliment for me because I'm common next to you,�

So egocentric you won't share your feelings even with me,

All I get is a miasma of depression wrapped up in itself.�

Hiding the superstar hero you just know you should be,

You still don't appreciate my loyalty after all my support,

All I wanted was encouragement and applause from my man,

I just wanted to feel special but you talked about other women,

I realized then fully I had always been just a back up plan,

I shouldn't be disrespected because I can't live with you now,

After all I've done I deserve love, so I will depart with dignity,

Be heartbroken, go with someone closer, stay stagnant, or grow up,

But know you have killed a dream I held of the man you could be.

� Refrain:

I was just looking for someone to care for,

some laughter and a few smiles,

It's obvious that the distance between us,

was more than just in miles.

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