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October 1, 2002
Wow, I am so on top of things that I have this actually started on the first day of a month!!!  Especially astounding since I didn't realize until many hours into today that it was October (oops).  I was wondering why MSN was talking about Halloween.  I haven't done anything for Halloween since I was I think 13.  My dad said I was too old.  My mom was also upset, because she always loved doing my makeup.  Speaking of my parents, I wonder if they have checked this page in a while.  They made a big deal of making sure they had it bookmarked everytime we had to redo their computer, but I don't think they come here.  Ah well.  It's no biggie--nothing huge on this place.  So you all know the updates--if I haven't talked to you about stuff in a while---I am going to the doctor tomorrow so that they can tell me my blood test (the one where they messed up my arm) is normal.  I wonder if they will diagnose me with diabetes again?  That's always fun.  Maybe I should go along with it.  Anyway, on Friday I will then go and see a psychiatrist who will probably diagnose me with GAD.  It's getting worse everyday, so I am superexcited for Friday since I want to start getting better.  I don't know how much longer I can deal with feeling like I am on crack.  Oh yeah, so you all know, in about a month, I am going to start being boring, so cancel your friendships now ;-)  On other notes, I have updated parts of my site--I don't feel like telling which parts--go look for yourselves!  I must add that as I am making the updates today, I am going through a second straight listen of "Home" (the Dixie Chicks).  It is such a great album.  I recommend it to everyone who can stand country music.  My school grades are perking up some, which is very nice.  I am also still busy with random events--hopefully a concert this weekend--oh please please please I have been so good, come on let me go!!!--and also a play on Saturday evening at CSPAC (a girl from my dance class is going to be in it).  We got to do a jazz routine in dance the other day, and I looooved it.  It makes me want to take jazz with Connie next semester or year or something.  But, I think she is leaving after this semester <cries>.  I missed her performance and the other dancers last weekend because I got to see another friend perform with the chorus groups on Friday, and then Saturday was the football game and then I went to Virginia after the game.  I have also been reading books (I missed that last year) and doing logic problems--thanks Sarah ;)  I think this has been a long enough update, so I love you, buh-bye!  (reference to Animaniacs . . . go here for more clues to my references for that show)
October 7, 2002
I hate missing people.  I wish that when I wanted to see someone, I could just snap my fingers and they would appear.  Or better yet, I wouldn't even have to snap my fingers.  But I suppose that could be mildly inconvenient for that person, depending on what he/she was doing, but meh!  I suppose a bunch has happened since I last posted . . . first off, I updated some stuff on my Silly page.  Other things I have been doing involve this internet community I am in--I have become more active and I keep getting higher ranks--it's so cool!  I suppose that since I have sort of mentioned another new thing, I should discuss it here some---I was recently diagnosed with GAD, and according to the list of characteristics for it, I fill all of the categories overwhelmingly so.  As some of you know, I have been really sick lately, and it is because of GAD.  I have always had it, but it was never picked up, probably because I didn't think it was a big deal.  Anyway, I am now taking medicine for it.  It hasn't really kicked in yet---but I can already feel its effects some.  I think tomorrow I will find out how I did on my Diff EQ exam, and I am really anxious to know---I think I might have done well, but we shall see.  It was nice not to have any homework for the class this weekend, especially since I was knocked out from all sorts of excitement and the medicine.  Hopefully this Friday I will be able to go to the mall like I had wanted to do this past Friday---I'm keeping my fingers crossed!
October 15, 2002
Yeah, this is going to be a negative entry.  After coming off of yesterday's high, I feel even lower.  I figured this would happen, but I was too happy to really understand.  I have a bit of a cold, and I wish it would just go away.  It hasn't really changed for better or worse, and it's annoying.  Another annoying thing is always having to be the one to wonder, to worry, to wait.  I wish I could just not care about things.  When I get serious about something, I think about it too much, and then I get into trouble.  I should end beginnings and begin endings.
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