| Always in My Mind I try to get away, but I hear it just the same. It may take a brief vacation, but it still plays the same game. Always in my mind, it taunts me with its words. Always in my mind, I can't win, it can't lose. Brandishing all its weapons, it's a fierce opponent in this war. Cowering inside myself, I'm never happy anymore. Why must I be, always on the defensive? Why can't I be a stronger force, less passive? Always in my mind, it taunts me with its words. Always in my mind, I can't win, it can't lose. The voice circles inside my brain, it keeps moving all around. I can't control my thoughts, I can't control my pain, it has left me weak and powerless, and I find myself to blame. I can't control my emotions, I can't control my hands, I beat myself with my sadness, and I know I am to blame. Always in my mind, it taunts me with its words. Always in my mind, I can't win, it can't lose. Using my body against me, I can't stand the sight of seeing myself so miserable, far from any light. Fearing my own shortsightedness, I can't trust my own mind, I don't see the good in me, there is none I can find. Always in my mind, it taunts me with its words. Always in my mind, I can't win, it can't lose. I see what it's doing to me. And I try to destroy it's effect on me. But you see that I am much too weak. You can try, but I don't think you'll succeed. It's stuck on my soul, it's tied all around, clean air can't get through, fair words make no sound. Always in my mind, it taunts me with its words. Always in my mind, I can't win, it can't lose. Push . . . push it away . . . . push . . . make it stay . . . . push . . . I don't want it . . . push . . . it right back . . . Though I seem to hate it, I think sometimes I need it, I have never been without it, I almost even crave it. Always in my mind, it taunts me with its words. Always in my mind, I can't win, it can't lose. Stop it from being, always in my mind. I hate the way I feel when it's always in my mind. I think you could erase it from always in my mind. Please try to take it, no more always in my mind. |
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