What was going on here???  We were all singing…*cough…* I mean really singing.  Not that sing-a-long-in-the-car-singing.  What were we thinking…we had slipped into our PARTYGURLS personas with nary a thought.  BLEH!  Julie was the first to notice this, which was weird.  Usually, she was the oblivious one.  I guess it just figures. 

*HAHAHA….all part of my EEEvil plan HAHAHA* 

MEH.  GO AWAY!  BLEH!  Stupid VOICE has to keep on interrupting my inner monologue.  Anyhoo, So there we stood.  It seems all of us figured it out at the same moment.  But, surprisingly we didn’t stop singing (apart form Jules).  We kept on going.  It would have been very obvious to everyone that we were trying to keep a secret.  We blended our voices together beautifully.  The chemistry that had gotten us a record deal was now blatantly on show.  And boy, did the guys notice.  If they hadn’t figured out exactly WHO we were, they at least now knew the talent that we possessed.  It seemed that out of all of them, Sean, espescially had a secret glint in his eye. 

“Escapade, baby…”, I ended as my voice trailed off in a soft vibrato.

“Whoa, Chelle!”,  Ritchie, my sweet dear friend exclaimed as we finished.

“YEAH…Whoa is the right word”, J chimed in after a pause.  He looked at all of us as if we were aliens from a different planet.  That went for Scott, and Abs too.  Sean just sat there with a contemplative look on his serious face.  “hmm…”, He mumbled.  I wonder what he was thinking?  I sure hope he hadn’t pieced everything together.  He was a quick one, that Sean.  He had figured out the J mess.  It was veeery possible he had already figured out our PARTYGURLSNESS.  During my little observation, Abs, Scott, J, and Ritchie had burst out in excited chatter.

 “Wow, that sounded great!  You girls should shop around for a record contract or sumthin!  Yah.  I’m sure you would get one!”, Abs said in his excited little boy voice.

 Ritchie made his way to Grace and was whispering something in her ear.  I couldn’t make it out, but it made Grace blush…and then she smacked him on the arm and they both laughed…hmm…

In the meantime, I needed to have a little chat with Sean-ee boy.  He seemed way too deep in thought.  I made my way to Sean, ignoring the looks that J kept throwing my way as if to say “I need to tell you how great you are..blah blah”.  I passed Laura and Abs, Jules and Scott and grabbed Sean from the chair he was sitting in. 

 “We have to have a little chat, mate.” I said as I led him to the sleeping quarters.  J gave us a weird look then seemed to shrug it off.  He turned towards Jen and opened his mouth to sing her praises.  Jen was having none of it.  In fact she seemed to be in conversation with Jules and Scott.  Ignoring the poor geezer.

 “So, erm…do you know what this is all bout?”, I asked Sean nervously.

 “Obviously you think so, or you wouldn’t have led me hear, yeah?”, Sean said in his laid back way.  EERR how I wanted to slap him then 

*Go and doet Mate!  You know you want to! HAHAHA.* 

MEH!  Gosh dernit.  “Keep yer dirty mouth shut!”  I screamed in frustration.

“Huh?”, Sean asked confused.

“Nothing”, I replied.

“Is everything alright back there?”,  I heard J call from the front of the bus.

“Everythings fine!  Stop being a worry wort!  We can handle things.”,  I shouted through the curtains back at the ol’ geezer.

“Just cause we’re the youngest…bleh”, I commented to Sean.

“Amen, sister”, he replied in his heavy Leeds accent that I love so much.  And without realizing it, I gave him a quick hug and said, “ There’s only one Sean thank goodness”  Don’t worry I am a weirdo…I do random things.

“Alright Chelle, ya really are a dodgy bird sometimes!”, he said as he blushed.

“Anyhoo, back to what we were talking about, before our interruption by THE VOICE.  What were you thinking about with so much consentration back there?”

“Well…I was thinking how well the five of you sing together, just like the other blokes and meeself…like you had done it before or sumtin, why?”, Sean said with an inquiring look on his face.  Oh he really was a dear soul…he didn’t even know when he had tripped on something that could blow our cover.  WHEW.

“Actually, you sounded a bit like that new girl group…what were they called…the ones that we were listening to in the van…PAR…or sumthing like that.  Meh. Ha.  What a random thought, yeah?”,  he asked as he looked me in the eye.  He really had noooo idea how very “random” it was. 

“PARTYGURLS.”, I corrected him

“Well, yah.  PARTYGURLS…”,  he stopped then.  Then he gave me a weird look.  Too smart this Sean Conlon.  Should have known.

“AAAHH.  I see." 

*hahaha cause I gave him the idea hahah*

DAMNit!

“So…you and the other girls…PARTYGURLS is it?”, and with that he chuckled.

“Why is that soooo funny?”,  I said after a minute or so of his funny giggles.

“Wait a second let me catch my breath”, he continued with his giggles.

“Calm down, fool!”,  I said as his weird giggles caused me to collapse in fits of laughter.  After we had calmed down a bit we both got really quiet and both contemplated the information that Sean had just found out.  Oh geez what have I done?

“Erm, Sean…your not mad at us?  About keeping this a secret, right?”

“Well…now that I think about it…that was a bit dodgy wudn it?”

“There were reasons, believe me….”, I trailed off as I heard the guys’ voices from beyond the curtain.  They seemed to be telling the girls about one of their little adventures…or should I say mis-adventures.  A small smile crept on my face.  I really loved these guys.  They were bomb diggy. 

“I would have done it all over again, the same as before.”,  I told Sean softly.
I’m sure Sean saw the look on my face cause the next moment, “Yah, I bet you would too, Chelle.  Eh, don’t worry about it.  I’m sure you had your reasons.  At least now its out in the open.  Your gonna tell the other guys, right?”

“SEAN!  Are you out of yer freakin mind?”

“Why not?  I wasn’t all blown to bits about it.  I’m sure the others won’t be, either.”

“But, Sean, common!  you know that your more laid back then the rest of the guys.  They might take offense.  This isn’t a tiny secret you know.  This is rather a big thing to keep from your friends.  Wouldn’t you say?”,  I said bluntly.

“Yeah, your right.  Maybe the guys would get a bit aggro over this.  What do you suggest we do then?”

“MEH!  I have no clue…but, I’ll figure things out, or the other girls will.  I’m sure there is an answer to this.”

“Alright mate, get to it then.  This is a big secret for me to keep from the other blokes.”

“THANKS Sean!”, I exclaimed as I landed another Michelle bear hug on him.  What a trooper.  Grace was a lucky gal-OOP…I mean…BLEH!  I guess…maybe Jen, yo?  Heeehe.  I saw the looks…I’m not blind.

“Alright, foolio.  Lets get out there and have fun.  Yeah?”

“Okay ‘foolio’.” 

What was gonna happen next?  I had nooo clue.  All of this was such a jumble.  I mean now Sean knew the secret, but he was waiting for my cue to aknowledge it in front of the others.  And I knew I couldn’t tell the rest of the girls right off, cause first of all the guys were there, and second it would upset them unecessarily.  I had to come up with a plan and quick!
 

     Why was Michelle in the back with Sean?  He better not try anything-nah, he was my best friend and he liked Grace.  What am I thinking?  Lately I’ve been just irrational.  Like the Michelle-Jen situation.  I still didn’t know what to make of that.  Michelle had been avoiding me since they got back…and Jen?  Well, she was being hostile…and made no secret of it…to anyone!  What the hell was going on?  Bloody fuckin hell!  It all started when we met Michelle.  Why dear God did things have to be so complicated.  It was at this moment that I noticed that Sean and Michelle were coming back from the back.  They both looked dead serious.  Their heads were unconsciously bent towards each other, as if ready to whisper sumthin’ at any moment.  Michelle whispered something to Sean, and he nodded and said something back.  Michelle shook her head and started to make large arm motions.  What tha?  I finally met her gaze and she smiled in relief.  She nodded again towards Sean and made a beeline to me.

“Hey, Chelle.  What were you and Sean up to?”,  I asked nonchalantly.

“Aw, we were just talking about music and stuff-So, what were you guys talking about out here?  I could hear you from the back.”  She smiled that cheesy disarming smile and I forgot everything.  She grabbed my hand and pulled me over to the sofa and scootched Scott and Jules over so we could sit.  Scott and Jules were VERY close.  They were talking quietly together.  They would giggle once and a while and Jules would flick her hair over her shoulder and smile.  And she seemed to like just touching Scott.  NOT LIKE THAT!  My word, you folks have Sick minds.  No, she would grab his hand and pretend to look at his watch, etc.  Girls were sooo blatant with there flirting.  I proceeded to tell Chelle the potato story.  It’s a long story and funnier if told in person, with me and Abs acting it out.  But, I think Michelle got the gist of it.  She was about falling off the couch with laughter.  It seemed to start after I laughed.  Surely it wasn’t me that set her off, yeah?  NAH.   Course not.  While Michelle was laughing like a hyena, I happen to spot Sean looking at us.  I caught his eye and communicated silently with looks. 

What were you two talking about in the back  ---J

Nuthin that I can communicate with just looks  ---Sean

Well, tell me later…yeah? ---J

Of course mate. ---Sean

 I realized that Michelle had stopped laughing and was observing the little “conversation” me and Sean had just had.  She seemed to be analyzing something, then she suddenly smiled and asked if she could be excused for a second. 

“I’ll be right back.  I just remembered that I need to tell the girls something that Antonio said earlier.  I am such a freak!  I can’t believe I forgot!”  With that she got up and grabbed Grace and Jen…leaving Jules in her comfy position and Laura to talk to Abs.   What the hell was going on.  Michelle looked at me again and smiled reassuringly.  Maybe I was just being a git.  I hope so.
 

So I must have blacked out or something when the bus braked cuz I didn't
remember much of what had happened.  There I was on the floor in the most
profound position with none other than Sean.

"Hmmm"  This is interesting I thought to myself as I quickly glanced
around the room to survey my surroundings.  All the sudden I saw Grace and
I shouted… "Grace, one word for you…snow".

This clearly unprovoked statement startled us all.

What tha?  Why the hell did I say that?  What is going on here?  Were we
singing just a minute ago?  And why the hell did I just yell snow to Grace?
Hmm, something fishy is going on here.

To save myself from further embarrassment I quickly formed a smile on my
face and said "just kidding.  I mean you know when you just have the urge
to say something and you don't quite know why?"

The guys looked at me with quizzical expressions on their faces.  What was
even more surprising than this was that Jules, Laura, Shelbs and Grace were
all looking at me with the same outrageous looks.

"What???"  I thought…hell I may have even said that out loud.  Man, I
guess this is just another one of those "pee things"  But not even Shelbs
looked like she understood me on this one.  Oh well, I guess I am just
weird then.

I slowly stood up and brushed the dirt from my clothes.  This is a tough
crowd  I thought as I scanned everyone's faces for a sign of hope.  But
they all remained engrossed in their thoughts and stared silently at me as
I tried to act "normal".

"Well guys, I don't know about you, but umm you are all scaring me and I
need a nap".  I walked passed Sean and searched for a place where I could
be alone and survey the situation.  But then of course they all started
talking to me.

"Jen.  Hey Jen.  Are you ok?  Get up."  It was Grace.  She was standing
directly in front of me with a scared look on her face.  Right beside her
were Jules, Laura and Michelle.

"How did I get here"  I asked confused.

Jules looked a little shocked that I could not remember this.  "Five
invited us on their bus remember Jen?  Jules said trying to trigger my
memory.

"Oh.  man, I just had the strangest dream…there was snow and everyone
was…"

"Jenneth", Grace interrupted.  "You must have blacked out or something."

"Oh weird" I said.

"So what are we doing now?"  I asked hoping to deter the attention away
from me.

"We're in San Jose now"  Abs said with a small smile creeping across his
face.

"San Jose?!??!"  Laura exclaimed with an "uh oh"  look on her face.

I saw the same look on the other PARTYGURLS members faces, then I realized that we couldn't be in San Jose, we had things to do in less than 13 hours in
L.A.  We needed sleep, food…and sleep.

"I thought we were just going somewhere local?"  Jules asked.

"Yeah"  Scott began "well, we got our schedule cleared so we wanted to
show you all this great club in San Jose that we found last time we were
here".  With this said, he moved closer to Jules, putting his arm loosely
around her waist and smiling the biggest smile I had ever seen upon his
skinny ass face.  Oops, no cussing Jenneth, not even in your thoughts.

Anyway, Jules seemed to enjoy this but it just made me sick.  I mean J was
still contemplating which bird he wanted to have.  Well damn already J.  I
thought we had something?  I thought we were close and nothing could tear
us apart, not even Shelbs.  I glared at J while thinking these nasty
little thoughts.  He seemed to notice and at first gave me a frown and
questioning look.  But then his frown turned upside down and right into a
smile. (cheesy)

"Why are you smiling"  I asked in the most polite voice I could muster.

"Well Jen, you just look so funny when you are mad about something".  It
was then that his hideous laugh filled the room.  I couldn't help but
laugh at that.  J did have a crazy laugh that was contagious.

"So anyway, lets go to the club".  Sean said grabbing Grace's arm and
walking briskly to the tour bus door.

Grace reluctantly followed all the while poor Ritchie stood looking as
though his heart had been ripped from within.

Scott and Jules followed suit as did Abs and  Laura, Shelbs and slowly but
surely Ritchie.

That left me alone with J.  (what a coincidence).  We both stood there
staring at each other as if we had something to say.  Nothing came out though.  I looked down at his shoes and started to turn toward the door.  It was then that J said

"Jen, look I have been meaning to get you alone."

Great, this guy is an axe murderer and he wants to get me alone so he can
chop off my head.  Well I guess that is a little extreme, but with the way
J had been acting lately, how could I be sure?

"Oh yeah?"  I replied.  "Why?  So you could tell me everything we shared
was meaningless and you are in love with Shelbs now?"  I found that I was
a little more upset than I had thought I was.

" No, that isn't it at all.  I feel like 'Chelle is a little sister to me.
Really.  Her personality is just so great, I got confused that's all."

"What are you trying to say J?"  (You like how that rhymes)

"I am just saying I might have misjudged the situation a bit.  I kind of
miss you…"

"Kind of?  Well great J.  But I am not into your games ok?  You are 23 now
(?)  you are too old to be playing games."

With that I walked out of the bus and into the club.  I wasn't going to
take J's sick excuse that he had made a mistake…he was confused.  Confused my @$$.

I walked through the doors into the dimly lit club.  Man, they must have
turned the lights out so people couldn't see their ugly dates.

I quickly spotted Jules and Scott dancing to some crazy pop song.  Man,
could Scott read minds?  This was Jules' fav music and we just happened to
show up here.

Not too far from Scott and Jules were Grace and Ritchie….RITCHIE?  But Grace walked out of the bus clinging to Sean, what happened?  Sean,  Laura, Shelbs and Abs were seated at a circular table chugging on what looked to be ale.  Everyone seemed to be having a good time.  They were all smiling, and Abs  was cracking up over something Shelbs said.  I think they were already drunk the way they were acting.  Well I for sure didn't want to go over there and act like I was happy and having fun.  The truth was, I was still sad over J.  Seeing all of my friends having the greatest time made me happy for them, but also sad that I couldn't join in.  I slowly turned around thinking I would head for the door and hope J had left the tour bus so I could have some peace.

Well J had left the tour bus, as I turned around my head landed directly
in his chest.
 
 

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