Running red lights

Oh I had it up to here.
simple is the way I wanted you from the beginning
but you won't stop dying and I need some love,
I need some time to be with my self and find out
where I belong and where it belongs.
Cause that is where it all goes. 
It all goes down to the endless way, the way it should. 
the black lines endless
in the pursuit of barring me from my emotions. 
where they are held captive. 
Where could they be. 
Do I have the tools to release them.