As stupid as guys can be, I feel bad for them. They have to put up with women like myself. Seriously, all guys may be stupid, but all women are utterly insane. And they have to deal with us! I honestly don�t understand how women can deny this. We expect guys to do all this stuff for us without us giving them more than a couple hints, MAYBE. We�re like little vermin, sneaking around and surreptitiously attempting to make them give us compliments, presents, whatever to boost our self esteem and make ourselves feel worthwhile. And, in the case of relationships, to make sure of their commitment. and then when they answer wrong, because of course they have no idea they�re on trial here and shouldn�t have to maintain a perpetual vigilance anyway, women freak out and think that they hate them, or they�re not committed, or that they�re just plain mean. Of course, the guy has no clue as to what he just did, and shouldn�t have to apologize for stuff he doesn�t even know he�s doing. Yet we persist!!! It�s men�s fault for everything, they are to blame for all the world�s problems. Of course, they are at fault for lots of things, but come on. For one, most of them never learn the subtle art of manipulation that many females prize so highly, and if they don�t know the game how can they play it? But we expect them to. This is a little bit of a guilt relief thing for me here, because I do it too. Except I realize it, so it makes me feel horribly guilty when I as much as think about it. If I love the guy, and I know he feels the same way about me, why do I constantly seek reassurance without directly asking for it? And then get angry (though only in my head) when the poor guy, who has no idea what I�m doing, doesn�t deliver? Of course, the anger then compounds into more guilt because I shouldn�t be expecting him to understand in the first place, or even be trying it. Love shouldn�t be about playing games. So why do I play them? Apparently I�m that insecure when it comes to it, I feel like he shouldn�t care for me, I�m not good enough. No matter how many times he says otherwise, I subconsciously still feel that way apparently. Add the huge amount of guilt building up, and you get into a situation for me to be an emotional mess. Me, the girl that �feels no guilt� is wracked by it. And I can�t get it out of my head.
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