| Second Why do I always have to be second? All of the people I am the closest to always put me second! I am always the one you call to cry on if no one else can be found, I am always the one you call to go somewhere only after everyone else has been called and can't go. I am only called when your girlfriend or boyfriend is at work and you need someone to talk to or hang out with. You wonder why I get upset when you leave me to go find someone else or when you leave me to go visit someone else when you just got to my house to see me. I am the one that always has to call you if I have a problem and need someone to talk to, but then we only talk about your problems. I am also the one that calls you to see if everything is going OK in your life and have to pull it out of you because you want to be stuborn and pretend that you don't want to tell me, but if I for a moment act like I am not going to tell you something that is bothering me you imediatley stop asking and could give a damn about what is wrong. I am the one that stays on the phone with you for hours talking about your, at times triffel, problems when I am waging a war inside myself but you don't really give a damn "as long as she solves my problems for me evertyhing will be ok in her life too." This is how my best friends treat me and then wonder why I sometimes just can't handle things anymore and get upset and start to cry or just not talk to anyone anymore. |