| Quest for Perfection They say We'll love you.............if your perfect. I try so hard and yet perfection seems out of reach. I strive for improvement yet I only find destruction. I put on a mask that hides my frustrations and true identy. I feel blocked from something because I try to impress them ahh yes it's my quest for perfection. It makes me look like a snob and like I look down on them for not doing the same. Even though my life may seem easy and perfect it's not. My best is never good enough for them. I try to be the best I am but dealing with it and everything else it is hard to actually live. Only one or two people actually see past my mask on life. They understand me only if everyone did then maybe I would have perfection. If I reached perfection what would I have to show? Black circles under my eyes from sleepless nights studying. Sore body from straining to play any and all sports I can. Cold heart from lack of love and kindness. Winning can only do so much for a person. It dosen't cover friendship, love, and youth. Youth HA wasted trying to meet thier expectations. What is fun? It was what I had before this foolish quest. I am just going to give up and not be so hard on myself and stop trying to please them. I am Perfect on the inside too bad they don't see it. |