Disclaimer
– I don’t own Buffy,
Angel, Willow, or any of the other characters, “although I wish I did” but I
don’t, they all belong to Joss Weldon.
Authors
Note – Angel did
not go to hell but rather, he was killed by Spike and Drusilla. He did not
that’s DID NOT loss his soul because that’s just crap, in my universe
he’s aloud to have sex. This really doesn’t have a season time frame. It’s
about a year after the Wish. Fourth story in my ‘Puppy Love’ series.
Special Thanx – Special
thanks to my “Anime girl” she’s the one that got me started on fanfic and
Anime, so I basically owe all my pieces of fanfic “Especially the smut ones” to
her. And I know she’ll one day own the biggest and most famous Anime studio in
the world, and make about 50 grand a week, so never to early to start sucken
up.
Personal Pain
It hurt. There was no other way to describe it, it just bloody hurt. He tried so hard not to cry or scream out, he knew that that would only make it worse, but each time the whip struck his body he just couldn’t help it. *Oh Gods make it stop! Please make it stop!* He screamed in agony on the outside while mentally pleading for help, for someone to relieve him of the horrid tortures he was being put through. For the pain to stop, even if for just a moment. For his slayer, his savior, his Buffy to come and save him. But it never happened, and she never came. His tormentors smiled at him reviling in their victims suffering. *Buffy.. Gods please Buffy…… save me….*
The
sheets had become a tangled mess as a result of his constant struggling, and he
now whimpered painfully as he sub-concisely continued to try to remove himself
from the entrapment. *Poor thing.* The vampires protector watched sadly as
Puppy once again howled in distress. *It’s better to just let him sleep for
now…… Once he wakes up I can help him……. Yeah just keep tellen yourself that.*
Deeply upset, Puppy’s savior went into the living room to watch TV and wait. It
had been one month since she had saved him and brought him back to her world.
One month since he had moved in to the house with Buffy and Willow. One month
of trying to help him adjust. One month of trying to help him through his
nightmares and memories of everything that had happened to him. One, very,
long, month. Settling on the couch she impatiently flipped through the channels
and waited.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
*No!
Please no more.* “No!” The vampire was jerked painfully back into conciseness
as the images of his nightmare still hung vividly in his mind… Hurt and
frightened he as quickly as possible pulled himself out of bed and went to find
his protector. Cautiously entering the living room of the spacious house he
found whom he needed. His companion perhaps sensing him quickly rose from the
recliner and turned to face him. “Puppy, you shouldn’t be out of bed. Not after
the way you fainted on me yesterday.” Puppy looked at her clearly upset by the
hard tone in her voice. “I’m sorry Buffy.” Not being able to stay mad at the
half-starved, hurt looking vampire in front of her the Slayer immediately
softened her tone. “It’s okay, let’s just get you back to bed.” Taking his hand
she started to lead him out of the room but was immediately stopped when Puppy
gave her a pleading look and began to whimper. ”What? What’s wrong?” But even
as she said it she already knew the answer. *He’s afraid to go back to sleep,
the nightmares are just to much for him.* Not wanting to further upset him
Buffy gave in, and with a sigh of defeat gently lead her guest to the oversized
couch in front of the TV. Sitting Puppy down she suddenly noticed how badly he
was trembling, then realizing that he was only clad in a pair of boxers, got
why. “Sigh, okay, just stay put while I go get something to cover you up with.”
The frightened vampire nodded in response. A minute later she returned with a
warm blanket only to find that Puppy had curled up and fallen back asleep at the end of the couch.
“Hhhh. Demons.” She gently wrapped the exhausted vampire in the quilt and went
back to her movie.
Willow
slammed him down, face first onto the icy concrete floor, her laughing
overriding his groans of pain. *Gods no, please no. Not again.* The dark haired
vampire watched intently as his mate had her fun with their pet. Flipping Puppy
over she ravenously plunged her tongue in to his sore mouth, biting and
scouring his already bleeding lips and tongue with her fangs. He tried
desperately to push her off him, as she promptly dug her claws into his hips
and thighs ripping and tearing his flesh to pieces. Suddenly Willow released
him, gasping with horror, Puppy soon realized what had happened. Xander had
grown tiered of watching his lover play, now it was his turn. Delighting in
Puppys fear and pain, he slowly straddled him, and began grinding his hips
licentiously against his pets’ shaft. He struggled desperately to escape, but
Xander had already removed his leather pants and roughly spread his puppys
thighs. Puppys fruitless struggling was rapidly replaced by loud pained cries
and whimpers. When with out warning Xander plunged his hard
shaft into him, thrusting viscously.
Buffy
quickly ran back to her friend as he let out another scream. *How much longer
are these nightmares going to last. Well I’m not going to listen to the poor
thing whimper and scream for another hour.* Making up her mind, Buffy gently
started to shack Puppy awake. Not quit reaching full conciseness he howled in
distress and shied away from the concerned slayer. “Puppy. Puppy, it’s me. Look
at me baby.” Cautiously he opened his eyes and tried to push the last bit of
his nightmare away. Unable to do so though he trembled slightly and closed his
eyes again. “ You okay?" Taking a deep breath Puppy slowly reopened his eyes.
"I'm never going to be okay," He whispered, trying to shake away the
horrid memories of his reality. She took his hand, trying to offer some kind of
support and comfort. “Sure you are. You just need a little more time.” “No.
It’s never going to stop.” She could see by the look in his eyes that he was
serious. He truly believed that he was never going to be better after what had
happened. “Let me help. We all care about you. Why won’t you let any of us help
you? Why won’t you let me help you?” “Because…… I’m afraid.” “Of me?” He shook
his head no. “Of being hurt again?” Again no “Of eternal damnation?” Another no
“Of the Teletubies getting their own movie deal?!” That got at least a small
smile out of him. “I think everyone with any sanity is afraid of that.” “Then
what Beloved? Tell me so I can help.” She saw the tears start to sparkle in his
eyes. “I can’t.” He threw himself into her arms and cried desperately, she held
and lovingly stoked his back as he shivered and sobbed. "Puppy, it's okay.
Everything will be all right. I promise. Nothing is going to hurt you.” He was
so scared and pathetic, just like he had been the night she had saved him.
"You’re safe Puppy, every things okay. Let me help you please, beloved.”
He whimpered and clutched on to her tighter in response. “It’s gonna be all
right honey. Please tell me what’s wrong.” “I… can’t.” He gasped out between
sobs.
After
he had calmed down somewhat Buffy gently wiped the tears from his face as he
stared up at her, a confused and frightened look in his eyes. “I don’t know
what to do Buffy.” He had stopped crying now, but still whimpered softly “Why
can’t you tell me what’s wrong, what happened to you?” “Because….. Ilvyo..”
Buffy was sure she had miss heard him. “What?” He looked at her longingly. “I
love you…. I.. I just…” She gently lifted his head so that their eyes meet.
“Puppy…if you love me tell me what’s wrong.” “I can’t.” “Why?’ “Because..
you’ll send me back.” “Baby I’ll never send you back.” She gave him that Buffy
smile that always made his heart melt. “Kiss me.” “I … I want to.. kiss you...
but I.” But she didn’t let him finish, deciding it was past time to take
control of the situation she softly kissed him on the mouth. Having never been
kissed so gently before he slowly gave
in, closing his eyes and opening his mouth he allowed himself to relax and
Buffys tongue to enter. *This is so good, Gods, don’t ever let me go. Oh Buffy,
Buffy, love me, please Buffy I need you. This is so right, this is right……… no.
This isn’t right this isn’t fair to her… no I can’t let her do this.* She felt
him tense as she ran her hand down his thigh. * Relax Puppy. Relax and let me
love you.* Deciding he had to stop now before things went any further he
quickly ended the kiss and pushed him self to the other side of the couch,
tears slowly streaming down his face. “What? What is?!” “You shouldn’t touch
me.” He said it so quietly she barley heard him “Why?” “Because… I’m disgusting
I.. you shouldn’t have to touch me” Buffy instantly felt her heart ripe in
half. “Puppy I know that you’re a vampire. I don’t care, I know that aside from
the fangs and dietary habits you’re a good person.” “No… that’s not why…” Again
Buffy was taken aback, she recalled how that had always been what worried her
Angel. And figured that that was what was wrong with him. “If that’s not it
then what?” He hung his head in pure shame. “They.. fucked me.” It hit her like
a sharp smack in the face. “What?.. Who?” Even though she had a repulsive
feeling she already knew. “Willow and her mate…. Some times the master…” *Oh
gods I never even considered that they had done anything besides beat and
torture him. Idiot! Why didn’t I think of that. Oh Puppy, I’m so sorry!?* “Oh,
Puppy.” Once again he threw himself into her arms, and sobbed and once again,
she held him in her arms and comforted him till he calmed. “Tell me. Tell me
what happened baby.” He considered it for a minute, then decided he had nothing
left to loss, he curled up against her and began in a trembling voice. “It was
so cold. I was in my cell…… they held me to the ground and ripped my clothes
off. I tried to get away… but they were to strong…” He choked back a sob. “They
beat and clawed at me for hours at a time, some times my bones broke or they’d
lick the blood off me with their slimy tongues.” He stopped for a minute trying
to keep from bursting into tears again “But then they got bored so they started
to fuck me. Willow would hold me down and touch or lick me while her ma… Xander
fucked me. It hurt so much, and I couldn’t do any thing but scream and cry.”
Puppy rested his head on her shoulder and allowed the tears to come. “Puppy, I’m not them. I’m not going to hurt you. And neither are Will or Xander.” “I’m not afraid of you hurting me, that’s not why…… How can you possibly want to touch me after finding that out?” She gently pulled him away from her so she could look him in the eyes. “Is that what this is about? Is that why you think I don’t want to touch you?” He looked away with shame filled eyes and her heart again nearly broke in half. “Look at me. I love you.” He saw the sincerity in her face as she said this. *Gods, she really means it.* “I love you, Buffy.” “I love you Puppy.”
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~
Every muscle every instinct screamed at her to take
him, that this is what he needs, to help him she needed to love him. Running
her warm capable hands over his cool body, she slowly parted his lips and
slipped her tongue back into his mouth. Thankfully he didn’t struggle or pull
away this time, but let out a quiet moan and allowed Buffy to lye him back onto
the soft couch and continue her fondling. Taking a moment away she quickly
pulled off her tank top,
tossing it on the ground, and exposing her crimson red bra. She then undid her
skirt, slipping it off and onto the floor by her shirt, displaying her black
lace underwear as Puppy watched intently. He took a moment to simply admire his
saviors beauty before pulling her long blonde hair back from her shoulders.
Knowing what he wanted she slowly
unclasped her bra as he watched her dropped it to the growing pile of clothes
on the floor, before continuing to put soft kisses on each of the scars that
still remained on his body. “Mhmmm, Buffy.” Seductively sliding her hands to
his waist.
“Shhhh. I love you.” Deciding that now was the time to prove it. She cautiously slide her warm hands in and along the inside of his thighs. Unable to restrain himself any further Puppy released a long suppressed half growl half moan of pleasure as he arched his hips and lower back slightly off the couch begging for attention. More then ready to give him just that, she moved her hands off his thighs and to his organ. He let out another low moan of pleasure as she stroked and caressed him in all the right places. “I love you, Puppy.”
Finally having enough of the for play she released
his shaft and pulled his boxers along with her panties off and toped off the
pile of discarded fashion on the ground. Then after carefully positioning
herself, she slowly engulfed him. He thought he’d faint from the sensation alone.
"Oh, more," he
growled. Buffy looked at her lover amused. “Giving orders now are we?” He
looked at her, his shamed expression returning. “Not saying I’m not happy to
oblige.” With that they both came fast and wild. Puppy thrust harder, licking and
nipping at Buffys flesh as he did. While his lover delighted in kissing and
pawing at every inch of his body, claming and marking him as her own. Until
climax finally came and they both went over, clinging to one another. Happier
then he had been in what seemed like an eternity, Buffy heard Puppy start to
growl, *no not growl, but almost…… purr, that’s what it was, it was a mix
between a soft growl and a low purr.* She couldn’t help but smile at that while
she gently stroked the vampires silky black hair as he shifted slightly to lay
his head on her stomach. Left with not much else to do she decided to sing him
to sleep, going with the song from B*Witched he liked so much.
Eight
o’clock on the morning that you left
The
day was dark, I sat in my room
They walked in and told me that you’d gone
That moment on I knew you’d be our angel
Knew you’d be our angel
That day I spent
Was the hardest day ever
Trying to paint a picture for you
Before my eyes
There’s so many colors
Just for today they all seem blue
Heaven, heaven was calling you
Heaven, heaven needed you
We’ll join our hands again some day
And trade kisses before night
And talk of times we had
We’ll be together oh someday
And watch over the stars at night
And laugh at fun we had
It was our day
I’ll lay a rose
Beside you forever
And light a candle to remind me of you
Here in my heart
You’ll be on my journey
Where ever I go, what ever I do
Heaven, heaven was calling you
Heaven, heaven needed you
We’ll join our hands again some day
And trade kisses before night
And talk of times we had
We’ll be together oh someday
And watch over the stars at night
And laugh at fun we had
It was our day
The
End