So, what have you done in the past week? Do you recall? I swear that this week has gone by and I was not a part of it. I've withdrawn into myself, into whatever person I am suppose to be. I hate that I just wrote that..."whatever person I am SUPPOSE to be..."...how is it that I got drawn into that? Fitting into some lil slot that was pre-ordained for me? I though I had a brain of my own to follow, a heart of my own to guide me. Maybe I should just let go then...let what will be to be. I don't know.
Do you ever find yourself pausing, wondering how you got to the thought that you go to? Backtracking, finding out that your thoughts never seem to have direction or purpose? I seem to get caught doing that all the time. I am so lost by my thoughts, left confused, hurt, by my own self. How is that possible? You would think that I would have better control...after all, I have had this body, this heart, this mind for over 20 years. Shouldn't I be able to do something with them by now? I don't know. Oh well, I guess everyone needs goals...aspirations.
Alright, I've had enough of my insanity for one day...and I need to get back to working. Keep your eyes open everyone, and your mind even more so. Bye for now, again...
As Always,
Rora
