Sean sat outside on the balcony of the apartment he and J were sharing,going through some of Five’s lyrics.It had been two days since the meeting with the record company and he had finally made it to learn a few songs,but he knew it wasn’t enough to let him stay with the band.Sean was too lost in his work to notice Sam sitting down next to him.
“Hey,what are you doing?”she asked and Sean looked up startled by the sudden interruption.
“I’m trying to learn but it’s not working anyway.”
Sam sighed and pulled Sean into her arms.
“You know sweetie,even if you have to leave the band,I’ll still love you anyway.It doesn’t matter me if you work or not,the only reason why I wanna fight their decision is because I know it would break your heart if they’d kick you out.”
Sean shrugged his shoulders like he tried to say he didn’t care if he lost his job,but deep inside his heart he knew Sam was right.He would probably never get over it if they threw him out.Right when Sean thought those thoughts an idea popped into his mind and he made a crucial decision.He wouldn’t want the record company to have the pleasure to fire him,he would rather go himself.
“Baby,what are you thinking about?”Samantha suddenly questioned and Sean told her”I just remembered something important.I need to go out for a minute.”
Sam raised an eyebrow and asked in confusion”Where are you going then?They gave you some time off today,right?”
“Yeah,they did indeed but this is important.I’ll be back soon.”Sean explained before he put his coat on and grabbed his mobile to dail for a taxi…
Within half an hour Sean made it to the arena,just in time to see Rob leaving in his sportscar.Sean knew he had to be fast if he wanted to talk to all of the lads and he jumped out of the car and hurried to get inside.The first one he found was J,he actually ran right into him.J looked up in total surprise as he found his best mate in front of him and questioned”Hey mate.What are you doing here?I was just on my way home.”
But Sean decided to ignore J’s question and responded”Can you perhaps get the other lads?I need to talk to you.”
J thought Sean’s request was pretty strange but seeing the serious look on his face he realized it was important for Sean.
“Fine then.You wait here.”J replied before he walked right off to find the other guys.It took J not longer than five minutes to get everyone together in one room and Sean inspected all the wondering looks before he spoke”I’ve been thinking and I’ve made a decision.”
More questioning looks,more worried glances.They all felt something they didn’t wanna hear was going to follow,something they had tried so hard to deny and forget.
“I’m leaving.”Sean finally exclaimed and the four remaining lads shook their heads synchronically.
“Did they sack you already?”Rich gently asked but Sean shook his head.
“But…but why are you going then?”Abs questioned,absolutely not seeing a good reason.Sean shrugged and tried to explain his feelings.
“I don’t want them to fire me.They would like it far too much and I refuse to please them.So I’m going by myself.”
“No,you are not going!”J suddenly protested but he knew Sean’s decision was for real and that he would never change his mind,not even when the four of them would fall down on their knees and beg him to stay.
“So you are certain you wanna do this?”Scott questioned one last time and Sean nodded in reply,absolutely sure this was the right decision for him.
“Then we won’t stop you.”Rich exclaimed and Sean whispered”Thank you.”
The mood was ruined after Sean’s confession,all of the lads more than depressed.They knew Five wouldn’t excist in the way they had always known it anymore and that going on without Sean was an almost impossible task.
“Anyway,I wanna take a last look on stage.”Sean exclaimed in a very calm way,a little too calm for the lads’ liking.They didn’t stop him,though,knowing that the stage was the place where Sean’s heart was.
Sean walked out of the room and towards the large stage in the middle of the arena.It had been Sean’s home for such a long time and knowing that he would probably never stand on stage ever again was killing him,but he had no choice.He went over to one of the keyboards and pushed some of the keys.Sean was too lost in thoughts to notice a sudden cracking sound above his head but once he did realize what was happening,it was too late and a lamp came crashing down right towards Sean…
Sean opened his eyes again,blinking against the sharp lights that were lighting the room.
“Hey,he’s awake.”he suddenly heard and he turned his head towards the sound.He got greeted by the worried faces of the lads and Sean questioned in surprise”Where am I?”
“You’re in hospital,mate.”Abs replied and only at that second Sean realized he was laying on a bed,white blankets covering him and an IV sticking in his arm.
“Why?”he asked again,having absolutely no clue what was going on.
“A lamp fell down onto your head.You’re lucky you’re only having a slight concussion.”Rich tried to explain but he soon noticed Sean still couldn’t recall a thing from it and he questioned”What’s the last thing you do remember then?”
“I fell down the stairs.We were having that fotoshoot and I tripped over something.”
The lads shared a few glances before J asked the question they were all waiting for.
“So you don’t remember a thing from the stuff that has happened the last few weeks?”
Sean shook his head in frustration.“What last weeks?What are you talking about?”
“Nothing really.”Scott smiled,knowing very well that Sean could remember everything of his past again and that it wasn’t necessary to get him confused with the stories of his loss of memory at that moment.”You try to rest some more while we get ourselves a cup of coffee,alright?”
Sean nodded,feeling there was something that the lads tried to hide from him but he was too tired to ask about it.The guys left the room,sharing a few happy smiles with eachother,realizing that everything was going to be fine again very soon…
“Sean,how are you doing now?”the young girl asked him while he and the other lads were leaving their hotel to drive to the arena where they were having a gig that night.
“I’m fine.Thanks.”Sean replied politely while he signed a picture of himself for her.
Sean had heard everything of his loss of memory from the lads and Sam but he still found it hard to believe.He couldn’t remember one thing from it,and to be honest he didn’t care about it much either.He was just lucky that the record company had decided to keep him with the band anyway after finding out that his memories had returned cuz he really wouldn’t have known what to do if they had really fired him.
“Anyway,I’m happy you’re still with the band.Without you Five wouldn’t have been the same,you know?”the girl stated and Sean smiled at her before exclaiming”I’m glad,too.”
“Sean,we gotta go!”J yelled from the bus and Sean ended his little conversation with the girl,running over to the bus just before the doors closed behind his back…