Life starts today! It really does.

Sorry about the break. You maybe noticed that I've been working on the interactive fan fiction. Parts of it are working, parts aren't. But it's still worthwhile checking out. All the important things should function.

Why does life start today? Because yesterday I was too tired to start my life. I mean a new kind of life.

The day before yesterday I came back from that 10 days course in my old school. I was learning facts about writing a novel. That's an education I need. That's an education I want. But it's so hard to get. Saturday was fully emotional experience. It was so far my last days in a school where I lived for nine months and learned so much. I had to say goodbye, not forever. But when I go there the next time, it won't be the same. There will be different people, that's what makes place different too.

I had serious conversation with my teacher about my future and life just before I left. And sitting four hours in the bus with the cat, it really makes you cry. When I got home I was tired, hungry and having little hangover left. And all I could do was to listen to the music, lay on the bed and cry. Already now it seems little comic but it sure didn't feel that way then!

Back to the real world. This isn't real. This is holiday. Waking up at 9 am, eating breakfast, reading e-mails, surfing in the net, watching MTV, not hurrying anywhere. Thinking about things I could buy to my new place if I'd have money which means I should get a job. And what do I do? Write down my thoughts so that some occasional visitor can read these.

LIFE STARTS TODAY!

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