A hunt for my brother Dawud Salim's murderers

Entry for July 31, 2006

thank you to everyone who has posted in my absence. i haven't been posting because i've been in a very dark place about this. it's been almost impossible for me to think about .. no word from the detectives; some rumors and some of the 'well, i know someone who knows someone who knows the detectives on the case and THEY say ....'; and the pressure of not having any money right now to pay for the funeral; and not wanting to talk to anyone to remind me of this happening; and i haven't been back up to his room to finish going through it; and the people who live in the house behind the memorial took EVERYthing, including the live plants (lily, sage, and greenery) that i had in the flowerbox-the only thing they left was the flowerbox itself (guess it won't do them much good, since I have Dawud's name and dates on etched on it); and the flashbacks of seeing him in the coroner's office (God, I just saw him the night before as he was going out ... how could this have happened - and what could I have done to stop it?); and the tears; and the regrets; and the wondering; and the wishing; and I just don't think I'm up to this; it's too hard.

Anyone who knows me knows that I am a woman of action; but I haven't been able to act or do much of anything lately. I still do the ACORN thing; I give the speeches and talk to the press about our campaigns, but that seems to be all I can do lately.

So, starting now, no matter how hard it is, I am going to go back out - post more flyers - buy some more greenery and florals for my brother's memorial and place them there again - call the detectives EVERY SINGLE DAY until they tell me SOMETHING - this inaction and inability to cope is not doing me a piece of good, because no matter what, when I start to think about it, I still cry and there's nothing at all that sitting around moping is accomplishing.

I would never ever wish this on my very worst enemy; the only thing I could imagine as being harder would be to lose one of my children. Please God, take care of my brother better than we did. He had turned himself over to you and was working to get it together to start over. He has his new start in your kingdom ... please let him know that we love him over and over and over and always.

2006-07-31 20:15:49 GMT

Comments (5 total)

Author:Anonymous

Hey Jewels, I have been in the same position. There is emptiness all around. I went to get my son a few weeks ago and it's been hard to cope with the loss of his father. I have told him over and over again that he is around you always and there are signs to prove it. The otehr day we were driving back from the Ocean and there are so many farmers that sell fruits and vegitables on the side of the road. or some reason we turned around to go to this one guy. He was a real farmer, overalls, hat and all. He was about 80 years old and were intrigued by him. We started talking to him and buying veggies and Mini thought he was the coolest, a real farmer. Anyway, right before we left, out of the blue, I asked what's your name. Right away he said with his rough, kind voice, 'DAVID'. Mini and I looked at each other with tears in our eyes and I said see, there are signs all around. He said Mama, 'I think my dad made turn around and stop here.' There are so many instances like this one, but I will not go into them. It's my way of helping my son. I bought him a treasure box to put all of the things his father gave him and he loves and cherishes it.

On the other note about the detectives, I call almost every day as well. He's not in, will be back in, not available. I just want to talk to him hust once. It is approaching 2 months and these fucking people may get away with killing the father of my children. I cannot sit with that. I hate to be this way, angry, hurt and most of all helpless.

The funeral bill is also a part of my responsibility, I receive a call once a week from the Director and I cannot personally help with that, I have a few ideas and I need assistance because I am not local.

Everyone keep praying and take care of your selves. One day we will prevail.

Sandra Salim
--Sandra Salim

2006-08-01 14:24:48 GMT

Author:Anonymous

Due to this sudden tragic loss, it has been very hard, especially not being able to take care of everything at once. Dawud had a beautiful service.

To everyone who wants to help. We are trying to raise money for the remainder of the funeral expenses. Collections boxes are being set up at the Victory Lap, Bounce, and hopefully, the Grid. OR If anyone is interested in helping please contact Louis Ripepi at the Funeral Home at 440-888-0800 and just let him know that you are donating to Dawud Salim's funeral expenses. Anything will be greatly appreciated!!!

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT CAN HELP,
SANDRA SALIM AND FAMILY

2006-08-04 13:27:56 GMT

Author:Anonymous

There are signs everywhere. I am cring int he library, as I've read this. I don't really know what else to say. But believe in those signs.
--ELizabeth
<mailto:[email protected]>

2006-08-09 14:23:56 GMT

Author:Anonymous

For fear of everyone forgetting about what happened, I want to post this today to let everyone know, it still hurts. I will never be the same. I hate these feelings I have and I never thought that I would miss him so much. My son, every night cries himself to sleep, screaming I miss my dad and I have to sleep next to him to ease the pain and hold his so tight. I hope Dawud is watching over us and I hope the pain will subside over time. I don't know what else to say. I hope these people are caught soon so that I can confront them.

Sandra Salim
--Sandra Salim

2006-08-18 15:58:53 GMT

Author:Anonymous

2006-08-24 18:57:15 GMT

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		On June 3, 2006, my brother Dawud was murdered by a group of punks while stopped at a red light in Cleveland, Ohio.

		Entry for July 31, 2006 thank you to everyone who has posted in my absence. i haven't been posting because i've been in a very dark place about this. it's been almost impossible for me to think about .. no word from the detectives; some rumors and some of the 'well, i know someone who knows someone who knows the detectives on the case and THEY say ....'; and the pressure of not having any money right now to pay for the funeral; and not wanting to talk to anyone to remind me of this happening; and i haven't been back up to his room to finish going through it; and the people who live in the house behind the memorial took EVERYthing, including the live plants (lily, sage, and greenery) that i had in the flowerbox-the only thing they left was the flowerbox itself (guess it won't do them much good, since I have Dawud's name and dates on etched on it); and the flashbacks of seeing him in the coroner's office (God, I just saw him the night before as he was going out ... how could this have happened - and what could I have done to stop it?); and the tears; and the regrets; and the wondering; and the wishing; and I just don't think I'm up to this; it's too hard. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a woman of action; but I haven't been able to act or do much of anything lately. I still do the ACORN thing; I give the speeches and talk to the press about our campaigns, but that seems to be all I can do lately. So, starting now, no matter how hard it is, I am going to go back out - post more flyers - buy some more greenery and florals for my brother's memorial and place them there again - call the detectives EVERY SINGLE DAY until they tell me SOMETHING - this inaction and inability to cope is not doing me a piece of good, because no matter what, when I start to think about it, I still cry and there's nothing at all that sitting around moping is accomplishing. I would never ever wish this on my very worst enemy; the only thing I could imagine as being harder would be to lose one of my children. Please God, take care of my brother better than we did. He had turned himself over to you and was working to get it together to start over. He has his new start in your kingdom ... please let him know that we love him over and over and over and always. 2006-07-31 20:15:49 GMT Comments (5 total) Author:Anonymous Hey Jewels, I have been in the same position. There is emptiness all around. I went to get my son a few weeks ago and it's been hard to cope with the loss of his father. I have told him over and over again that he is around you always and there are signs to prove it. The otehr day we were driving back from the Ocean and there are so many farmers that sell fruits and vegitables on the side of the road. or some reason we turned around to go to this one guy. He was a real farmer, overalls, hat and all. He was about 80 years old and were intrigued by him. We started talking to him and buying veggies and Mini thought he was the coolest, a real farmer. Anyway, right before we left, out of the blue, I asked what's your name. Right away he said with his rough, kind voice, 'DAVID'. Mini and I looked at each other with tears in our eyes and I said see, there are signs all around. He said Mama, 'I think my dad made turn around and stop here.' There are so many instances like this one, but I will not go into them. It's my way of helping my son. I bought him a treasure box to put all of the things his father gave him and he loves and cherishes it. On the other note about the detectives, I call almost every day as well. He's not in, will be back in, not available. I just want to talk to him hust once. It is approaching 2 months and these fucking people may get away with killing the father of my children. I cannot sit with that. I hate to be this way, angry, hurt and most of all helpless. The funeral bill is also a part of my responsibility, I receive a call once a week from the Director and I cannot personally help with that, I have a few ideas and I need assistance because I am not local. Everyone keep praying and take care of your selves. One day we will prevail. Sandra Salim --Sandra Salim 2006-08-01 14:24:48 GMT Author:Anonymous Due to this sudden tragic loss, it has been very hard, especially not being able to take care of everything at once. Dawud had a beautiful service. To everyone who wants to help. We are trying to raise money for the remainder of the funeral expenses. Collections boxes are being set up at the Victory Lap, Bounce, and hopefully, the Grid. OR If anyone is interested in helping please contact Louis Ripepi at the Funeral Home at 440-888-0800 and just let him know that you are donating to Dawud Salim's funeral expenses. Anything will be greatly appreciated!!! THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT CAN HELP, SANDRA SALIM AND FAMILY 2006-08-04 13:27:56 GMT Author:Anonymous There are signs everywhere. I am cring int he library, as I've read this. I don't really know what else to say. But believe in those signs. --ELizabeth <mailto:[email protected]> 2006-08-09 14:23:56 GMT Author:Anonymous For fear of everyone forgetting about what happened, I want to post this today to let everyone know, it still hurts. I will never be the same. I hate these feelings I have and I never thought that I would miss him so much. My son, every night cries himself to sleep, screaming I miss my dad and I have to sleep next to him to ease the pain and hold his so tight. I hope Dawud is watching over us and I hope the pain will subside over time. I don't know what else to say. I hope these people are caught soon so that I can confront them. Sandra Salim --Sandra Salim 2006-08-18 15:58:53 GMT Author:Anonymous 2006-08-24 18:57:15 GMT Site Home