A hunt for my brother Dawud Salim's murderers

Entry for June 26, 2006

I couldn't bring myself to write at the 3-week mark. It's still so hard to believe. Please let them get his killers soon. I wish I had more money ... maybe hiring a P.I. or putting out a reward would help. Tomorrow I will go to visit his memorial (I haven't been in over a week; this last week has been so depressing now that it's finally starting to sink in). I know now what it feels like when people lose hope ... life is so difficult for so many of us that sometimes it's easier just to give up ... I'm fighting it, though ... I've had some dark spots and been to some dark places in my life ...and I've always managed climb out fighting. I hope I have the strength to climb out this time.

2006-06-27 05:09:27 GMT

Comments (3 total)

Author:Anonymous

You may have the strength, but I feel like I am just here......I have yet to speak to a detective, you would think that they would gather as much information as possible, what by calling the woman he spent most of his life with, who knows everything about him, who was always there for him, who's been to the Justice Center more times than anyone in Cleveland, visiting, paying fines, going to court, lifting warrants, etc. It seems now it was all for nothing. What kind of detectives are they, I had to spell Dawud's last name to identify what I was calling about. Is this fucking bullshit or what???
Anyway, I want to talk to Dawud, it's senseless to be angry anymore, It hurts so much and I can't even share it, I will go crazy, I feel like giving up, but my kids need me. I seem to have it together, but I don't, this is so fucking hard.
It's so different now, I feel like this is all a bad dream and one day you are going to call me out of the blue and tell me this was all a plan, that you had to fake your death or something Dawud like. I still can't believe it. No man has made me cry so much in my life and still I weep because of you. The other thing is that I don't seem to choose to remember the bad times, just the good ones, your little jokes and every time you would call my name with that Arabic accent of yours, SAN DRAA!! WHERE ARE YOU HABEEBTI YA NOOR EL EYN HAYATI, (MY LIFE'S LIGHT AS YOU HAD IT TATOOED) and make me laugh telling me the Camels are just outside. You made me laugh as much as you made me cry.....well until now. Watch over us.
Sandra Salim
--Sandoura Salim

2006-06-27 20:59:07 GMT

Author:Anonymous

Well, it's been one month and these guys are still at large, while we all struggle to cope with everything that goes along with this sudden tragedy.

Some days it seems too unreal and I am so angry.....and other days I chalk it up to we are all going to die too.

Maybe heaven means you end up living in harmony with all who you loved and lost in your life time.

Whatever it is, we will ALL find out I'm sure. A part of life is death....and there is a reason for everything in this world.

There is a reason this happened...there is a reason that we hurt and if we question it, it hurts more. I am not giving up, I just feel like I want to be happy in this life, because I don't know when it is going to end. Yes, there will always be a void, but God will teach me to deal with it. God will judge these people who took Dawud's life. I hope they suffer eternally ALL OF THEM!!!!!

--Sandra Salim

2006-07-03 18:18:26 GMT

Author:Anonymous

2006-07-03 18:18:27 GMT

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		On June 3, 2006, my brother Dawud was murdered by a group of punks while stopped at a red light in Cleveland, Ohio.

		Entry for June 26, 2006 I couldn't bring myself to write at the 3-week mark. It's still so hard to believe. Please let them get his killers soon. I wish I had more money ... maybe hiring a P.I. or putting out a reward would help. Tomorrow I will go to visit his memorial (I haven't been in over a week; this last week has been so depressing now that it's finally starting to sink in). I know now what it feels like when people lose hope ... life is so difficult for so many of us that sometimes it's easier just to give up ... I'm fighting it, though ... I've had some dark spots and been to some dark places in my life ...and I've always managed climb out fighting. I hope I have the strength to climb out this time. 2006-06-27 05:09:27 GMT Comments (3 total) Author:Anonymous You may have the strength, but I feel like I am just here......I have yet to speak to a detective, you would think that they would gather as much information as possible, what by calling the woman he spent most of his life with, who knows everything about him, who was always there for him, who's been to the Justice Center more times than anyone in Cleveland, visiting, paying fines, going to court, lifting warrants, etc. It seems now it was all for nothing. What kind of detectives are they, I had to spell Dawud's last name to identify what I was calling about. Is this fucking bullshit or what??? Anyway, I want to talk to Dawud, it's senseless to be angry anymore, It hurts so much and I can't even share it, I will go crazy, I feel like giving up, but my kids need me. I seem to have it together, but I don't, this is so fucking hard. It's so different now, I feel like this is all a bad dream and one day you are going to call me out of the blue and tell me this was all a plan, that you had to fake your death or something Dawud like. I still can't believe it. No man has made me cry so much in my life and still I weep because of you. The other thing is that I don't seem to choose to remember the bad times, just the good ones, your little jokes and every time you would call my name with that Arabic accent of yours, SAN DRAA!! WHERE ARE YOU HABEEBTI YA NOOR EL EYN HAYATI, (MY LIFE'S LIGHT AS YOU HAD IT TATOOED) and make me laugh telling me the Camels are just outside. You made me laugh as much as you made me cry.....well until now. Watch over us. Sandra Salim --Sandoura Salim 2006-06-27 20:59:07 GMT Author:Anonymous Well, it's been one month and these guys are still at large, while we all struggle to cope with everything that goes along with this sudden tragedy. Some days it seems too unreal and I am so angry.....and other days I chalk it up to we are all going to die too. Maybe heaven means you end up living in harmony with all who you loved and lost in your life time. Whatever it is, we will ALL find out I'm sure. A part of life is death....and there is a reason for everything in this world. There is a reason this happened...there is a reason that we hurt and if we question it, it hurts more. I am not giving up, I just feel like I want to be happy in this life, because I don't know when it is going to end. Yes, there will always be a void, but God will teach me to deal with it. God will judge these people who took Dawud's life. I hope they suffer eternally ALL OF THEM!!!!! --Sandra Salim 2006-07-03 18:18:26 GMT Author:Anonymous Well, it's been one month and these guys are still at large, while we all struggle to cope with everything that goes along with this sudden tragedy. Some days it seems too unreal and I am so angry.....and other days I chalk it up to we are all going to die too. Maybe heaven means you end up living in harmony with all who you loved and lost in your life time. Whatever it is, we will ALL find out I'm sure. A part of life is death....and there is a reason for everything in this world. There is a reason this happened...there is a reason that we hurt and if we question it, it hurts more. I am not giving up, I just feel like I want to be happy in this life, because I don't know when it is going to end. Yes, there will always be a void, but God will teach me to deal with it. God will judge these people who took Dawud's life. I hope they suffer eternally ALL OF THEM!!!!! --Sandra Salim 2006-07-03 18:18:27 GMT Site Home