Title: Smile
Author: Hawk Clowd
Disclaimer: Gravitation belongs to Tokyopop and whoever else
owns the rights to the show and/or manga.
I don't begrudge them that at all.
Honest. The song, Smile, is sung
by Lonestar. I would give you copyright
information and the whole bit, but I can't remember it off the top of my
head. Many sorries.
Blood Type: marshmallow crème.
Started: Monday, July 21, 2003.
Ended: Sunday, July 20, 2003 (It's
possible. Trust me.)
Warnings: PWP--in other words, there's no plot. For details on that lovely tidbit, read the
author's notes. You're going to want to
do that, trust me, because this fic won't make a whole lot of sense if you
don't. Shonen ai (duh) and hints of
Yuki x Shuichi, which shouldn't surprise anyone here. There are also some spoilers, I'm afraid, but very few. I swear.
The story starts a little bit before the anime begins and then continues
through the show.
Archived: just the usual places. The Fish Pond.
FanFiction.Net. Maybe on live
journal or something, if I ever get around to posting it there.
Author's Notes: As I mentioned
in the warnings, this is very important.
I didn't set this fic up like I normally do. I didn't even attempt to create a plot. Here's how it works: people will be talking; usually it will only
be Hiro and Shuichi, but some other people also show up along the way. When the song lyrics show up, there's a time
change and it shifts to a different conversation. This fic is made up entirely of conversations. I apologize if you don't understand it, but
please keep in mind that I was trying to get feelings across, not a story.
---
"Hello?"
"Oi,
Hiro? Have you seen my purple
sock? I may have left it at your place
the last time I stayed over."
"No,
Shuichi, I've already given it back to you.
Last week, when I found it hanging over the showerhead, remember? If you can't find it, put on a different
pair of socks. We're meeting with
Sakano-san this afternoon. Don't
forget."
"Aa,
thanks, Hiro! I won't forget."
"Heh. Keep smiling, Shuichi."
"You
too. Y'know how much I like your
smile."
"So
I've heard. Hey, if you do remember to
show up, I'll take you out to eat, okay?
You can have anything you want, so long as you don't make me go
broke."
"Sugoi! Thanks, Hiro!"
--click--
"You
were late on purpose, weren't you?
Shuichi?"
"Hai... But Hiro, you should have seen it! The way the fountain just sort of fell
across the pavement... It was really
neat looking!"
"I
thought you said it was a fire hydrant."
"Well,
it was. But once I'd knocked it over,
it looked a lot like a fountain!
Really!"
"How
did you knock it over, exactly? By
running into it?"
"Yeah! I would have tried to avoid it if I'd seen
it, but I was really trying to avoid a little boy with an ice cream cone and a
puppy because I didn't want him to drop the ice cream or let go of the puppy
because it may have run away! So I
accidentally hit the fire hydrant instead and turned it into a fountain. I kind of wish I'd done it during the sunset
or something, though, so I could take a really pretty girl over to see it with
me."
"A
girl?"
"Hai! And then we could--are you okay, Hiro?"
"I'm
fine. Eat your dinner."
I
could hold on a little tighter I know, but when you love someone you gotta let
'em go
"So
you and that Yuki Eiri guy really hit if off, didn't you?"
"Eh? How'd you figure that out, Hiro?"
"Just
a good guess. And when you ran off
yesterday, you were mumbling something about him. So what happened?"
"He
kissed me."
"Ooh,
really? Where?"
"In
the elevator."
"…eh? No, Shuichi, that's not what I meant. Where did he kiss you?"
"I
told you! In the elevator!"
"Shuichi..."
"You're
not angry, are you, Hiro? You sound a
little angry. You don't mind it, do
you? Because it was kinda' neat when he
kissed me, even though we're both guys..."
"No,
Shuichi, I don't mind. Just so long as
you're happy."
So
I'm gonna smile - cuz I wanna make you happy
"Hello?"
"Oi, Hiro, it's me! You'll never guess what Yuki and I did last
night!"
"It's
four in the morning; you do know that, right?"
"Hiro! Try to guess! Come on, try!"
"Mm... You made love into the wee hours of the morning?"
"No,
we--wait, how'd you know?"
"Well,
you were a little bit loud, Shuichi..."
"HIRO!"
"Just
kidding, Shuichi. It was a really good
guess, that's all. I didn't really hear
you screaming his name over and over again, I promise. Anyway, I didn't think you would be one to
kiss and tell."
"Well,
I'm usually not, but I figured I would tell you about it just this one
time. See, Yuki came home from meeting
with his publisher and--oh, ohayo, Yuki!
I didn't know you were up!"
"Hn. Baka.
Come back to bed."
"Oi,
I've gotta go, Hiro! Talk to you later,
okay?"
"Sure. Have fun."
--click--
Laugh
so you can't see me cry - I'm gonna let you go in style
"And
then Yuki shoved the ice cream in my eye and it was really cold and I told him
so but he just ignored me so I put my ice cream on top of his head and it stuck
there! He looked up at it--or at least
he tried to--and his eyes crossed funny so I laughed and he called me a baka
and then he--Hiro, are you crying?"
"Eh? Oh...
Yeah, I guess I am. You must
have made me laugh too hard, Shuichi.
Go on; finish telling your story."
"Okay! Well, he called me a baka and then he pulled
me up to his level--I had to stand up on my tippy-toes even though I was
standing on the curb and he wasn't because he's really tall, y'know? And then--"
"Back
to work! No more breaks!"
"Aw,
but K-san, I was telling Hiro about what Yuki and I did yesterday because it
was really funny! C'mon, let me--hey,
put away the magnum, K-san! Hiro, make
him put it away!"
"Those
are blanks, right, K-san?"
"Hai."
"Okay. Shoot him."
"Eh? HIRO!!!"
And
even if it kills me, I'm gonna smile
"Moshi-moshi!"
"Aa,
Shuichi! Are you busy right now? This new arcade just opened up across the
street from my place and we have to check it out before everyone else in Tokyo
finds out about it and hogs all of the games!"
"Gomen,
Hiro, but--Yuki, that tickles!"
"I'm
going to disconnect that phone, I swear I will. Get back here, baka."
"Hai,
Yuki, one minute! Sorry, Hiro, but I
can't go. Yuki is--"
"Okay. It's probably important, so you go
ahead. Maybe next time, right?"
"Right! Thanks for understanding, Hiro! See you later!"
"Okay. See you."
--click--
Kiss
me once for the good-times, baby - kiss me twice for goodbye
"Oh,
I'm so nervous, Hiro! Aren't you?"
"No. Why are you nervous, Shuichi? You love singing on the stage."
"I
know, but this is different! Yuki
promised he would come to watch me sing this time and I wanna sing that new
song that I dedicated to him and I really want it to go well!"
"I
thought Yuki hated your lyrics."
"He
does! But he helped me write this new
one when I asked him to last month--did I tell you that, Hiro?"
"No,
you didn't."
"Aa. Well, he did help me write them. That's why they're so cool!"
"Okay. Oi, that may be Yuki up there, in the
back."
"Really? Where???"
"Shindou-san,
Nakano-san! It's time for us to go
on!"
"Hai! C'mon, Hiro!"
You
can't help how you don't feel - and it doesn't matter why
"Wow! It's been a long time since I've stayed over
at your place, ne, Hiro?"
"Hai,
it has been a long time. As K-san would
probably say, 'what's up'?"
"Your
Americanese really sucks, Hiro."
"It's
English, Shuichi. It isn't Americanese.
"
"Honto
ni?"
"Honto
ni. So how are things?"
"They're
okay. Yuki and I haven't argued about
anything in a really long time, although he did yell at me about toothpaste
this morning. I ran out of mine so I
used a little bit of his but I didn't squeeze it from the bottom of the tube
like he does so he said some stuff and bopped me with his pen."
"Aa,
true love."
"Right!"
Give
me a chance to bow out gracefully - cuz that's how I want you to remember me
"Hello?"
"Oi,
Hiro! Yuki wants me to go to England
with him cuz one of his books is getting translated and stuff over there. Well, actually, he didn't want to go at all
until I mentioned how cool it would be to go to that place with the big
clock--"
"The
Big Ben."
"Yeah! And so he said he would only go if I went
with him and literally dragged him to the airport and to the hotel."
"Are
you going to go?"
"I
dunno. I want to go, but that week is
the anniversary of the day we started Bad Luck and we always celebrate on the
anniversary and I don't want to break the tradition! But I have to decide really quick because the plane leaves in two
hours..."
"...I
think you should go. We'll celebrate
when you get back and paint the town red!"
"You
mean that, Hiro? You aren't mad because
I won't be here for the Bad Luck anniversary this year?"
"I'm
not angry, Shuichi. Have fun in
England."
"Okay! Bye, Hiro!"
--click--
I'm
gonna smile - cuz I want to make you happy
"Hey
Hiro, you look really bummed. Where's
the pink-haired mongoose?"
"Shuichi? He's in England with Yuki Eiri. Book signing or something. He'll be back in a week or two, I
guess."
"But
isn't this your special day or something?
You guys always get really drunk on this day every year, right? And then you run around Tokyo."
"It's
the anniversary of the day we started Bad Luck."
"And
he's in England with his boy-toy? That
must suck really bad eggs, ne? Well,
tell you what... I'll celebrate with
you if you want."
"Shut
up, Yuuzi. And get off of me."
"Jeez,
sorry, bro. Just trying to help is
all..."
Laugh
so you can't see me cry - I'm gonna let you go in style
"Moshi-moshi!"
"Hi,
Shuichi. How was England?"
"It
was awesome! Yuki really didn't want to
do anything after the book signings were over with and we didn't have a lot of
time to do much, but I convinced him to go sightseeing with me! He didn't like it very much because he's
already been to England, but I thought it was cool! We saw a bridge and a bunch
of people and we rode a really funny looking bus and we saw the big clock
thing--"
"The
Big Ben."
"Right! Are you laughing at me, Hiro?"
"Yes,
Shuichi, but only because I'm glad you had a good time. Get some sleep; we've got an early day at
the studio tomorrow."
"Okay! Sleep well, Hiro!"
"You
too."
--click--
And
even if it kills me, I'm gonna smile
"Oi,
Hiro? Have you ever been in love with
anyone? I mean, really in
love? Like absolutely positively really
in love?
"Yes,
Shuichi."
"Honto
ni?"
"Honto
ni."
"Honto
ni honto ni?"
"Honto
ni honto ni."
"Honto
ni honto ni honto ni?"
"Shuichi?"
"Hai?"
"Shut
up."
"Heee... Sorry, Hiro."
"Why
did you ask me that, anyway?"
"I
was just curious. Was it
Ayaka-chan?"
"No,
I was never in love with Ayaka-chan.
She was really pretty though."
"I
didn't think it was Ayaka. So who was
it, Hiro?"
"That's
my little secret, baka."
"Oi,
stop that! It tickles! And you're messing up my hair!"
"Like
it needed my help."
"HIRO!"
I'm
gonna smile - so you can find the courage
"Shuichi,
are you all right?"
"Gomen,
H-Hiro..."
"Aa,
Shuichi, get inside and tell me what's wrong!
What happened to you? Your eye
is really messed up, you know. You're
going to get a black... What
happened?"
"Aa,
I... I fell."
"On
your eye?"
"Hai."
"Shuichi... Never mind.
Look, don't be like that. What
happened, honestly? Did Yuki do
something to you? Did he hit you?"
"Yuki
was having a nightmare so I woke him up and... and he accused me of being naïve
and innocent and that it wasn't good for me because someone was going to hurt
me really badly and I'd end up being mean and bitter like him but I told him
that he wasn't mean and bitter at all so he got mad and he hit me and then he
looked like he couldn't believe he'd done it and he fell back onto the bed and
curled up and started clutching at his head so I ran all the way here!"
"That
bastard. Do you want me to rough him up
for you?"
"NO! Just...
Just let me stay here tonight? I
can go back to Yuki tomorrow because it'll be okay and he'll feel better, but
just for tonight, can I stay here?
Please?"
"You're
going to go back?"
"I've
gotta. I love Yuki. He just scares me sometimes, when he has
those really bad nightmares and he gets angry, that's all. It doesn't happen often, really."
"...
All right, Shuichi."
Laugh
- so you won't see me hurting
"That's
not funny, Hiro!"
"Yes
it is... You just aren't looking at the
situation properly! It really is funny
and you know it is, Shuichi."
"Well... Maybe a little bit."
"See? How did you get the phone booth to tip over
like that, anyway? I'm not even going
to ask how you managed to fall off the bridge while you were still inside of
it..."
"Aa,
it's all Yuki's fault. Hey, stop
that! What are you doing?"
"Checking
for bruises and scratches, silly."
"Oh. D'you see any?"
"Not
one. So you called Yuki; what did he
do?"
"Well,
when I called he picked up the phone and I asked if he missed me while we were
on tour and he told me to stop calling him every ten minutes and I told him
that it'd only been half an hour since I'd last called and he told me I was a
baka and I said 'that's why you love me, though' and he went 'yes, I guess
that's true'! Yuki said he loves
me! He's never said that before! Well, I was so happy and so surprised that I
fell over and I guess the phone booth fell over and then it started to roll
around and then it fell off the bridge!
Isn't that--Why are you laughing?"
"Because. Congratulations, Shuichi."
I'm
gonna let you go in style - and even if it kills me...
"Hello?"
"Oi,
Hiro, it's me! Have you seen my blue
shirt with the really big red dot on it and the yellow stripes? I can't find it anywhere and Yuki threw a
pillow at me when I tried to wake him up to ask if he knew where it was! He's been sleeping in really late ever since
his last book got published... Did I
leave it at your place or something?"
"The
blue shirt? No, but I found one of your
socks."
"Great! I'll just wear a different shirt, I guess,
and come over and get my sock! That
means I'll have to go over barefoot and carry my shoes in my hands, though. Okay?"
"That's
fine, Shuichi. Don't step on anything
sharp. When you get here, I'll treat
you to lunch, okay? Anything you want
on the menu."
"Sugoi! Free lunch!
I'll leave Yuki a note and I'll be right over, okay?"
"All
right."
"Great! Oh, Hiro?"
"Eh?"
"Thank
you. For smiling. I like your smile!"
"So
I've heard. I like yours too,
Shuichi."
"Heee! Thanks!
I'll be right over, Hiro!"
--click--
I'm
gonna smile