It's way too cold out..and really windy. If it weren't for the wind it wouldn't be so bad. I should be used to it..those nasty northeast winters. I'm getting too soft..in that regard anyway.
I miss home..I miss it's safety..
1) It is becoming very apparent to me that no matter what I do--or more importantly, what other poeple do--I have a hard time being happy. I'm just now understanding this? No..I've seen it. I'm just now commenting on it. Are my expectations too high from the people around me? Am I not giving anyone a chance? Or am I just turning into a rat 30 or 40 years earlier than I should?
Am I looking at what I want, my ideal picture, and holding everything against it to see where it doesn't match up right? You'd think that I might have figured this one out by now. Every time I think I have it figured, something changes. Something else comes out and says, "what about this?" Am I going to be a tyrant? All my life, my friends, teachers, people around me who get to know me say how easy goingand non-challant I am about everything. My family and closer friends see the other side of me where my temper flares and there is fire in my eyes. Why am I set off so easily by them? And it's not even big things. I've always gotten into big blow out arguments with my dad about stupid little things. And this is true for anyone close to me..the littlest things just bother me. Do I just not expect them from these people? Or do I just have a problem with having people close to me because I want to be on my own? I don't know..I have no idea..but when I find out, I'm sure I'll get back to you on it..
11/13/2005 - I can't believe it's already November. Only about a month left of classes..which means I should probably start applying myself in Physics. For some reason, things just aren't clicking there, and it's not a situation, considering it IS my major.
There hasn't been too much going on. The fam was down last night and me and Shannon met them for some dinner. That was after the football game..where we FINALLY started playing well. And my seat was sweet..I was finally on stand duty (instead of being stuck in the freakin elevator..again). Stiner had me running around for him while we were waiting for the gates to open and "rewarded" me by sticking me at the gate where he sits (with all the other ROTC bosses)..which is sideline-endzone. I had a grand time.
So..Naval Science paper due Thursday, and I still haven't gotten my topic approved. I found a few options tonight..and I'll talk to Commander Olson in the morning.
Oh yeah..Jarhead was a decent movie..well..I guess not. It was pretty vulgar..and the story was not true to the corps..it just one stupid guy who just wanted the "glory" of going to war..but he couldn't handle it. It was a decent story..but that's about it.
And that's life. Physics test tomrrow..that I should be studying for. I think I might go do that..it would be a good idea I think.
I wish some people would email me once in awhile..or call me..or something. I miss talking to people. I always get on and wonder what people are up to..but I don't want to bug everyone all the time..