Car
In Memory of Carlos Ortega
Imagine you held so tight your best friend
Left him to fly, and never could reach him
Standing at the peak where two waves meet
Are you just behind the other side of music?
Peering like a flower never taught to grow
Someone fond of living always will remember
We are blessed
We endure
Our eyes always looked dark and the same
What does he see, who returns his smile?
And when Car's a sword it's wit that stings
Now he will be used in our Father's army
Not as one who kills but one who always heals
Can I take his burden, who am I to follow?
We are blessed
We endure
One who travels knows too well the panicked call from the truck stop
I held tight to the phone booth envisioning last night and Car's last mountain drive
We are blessed
We endure
I am blessed
I will endure
Posted by Jeff The Girl at 2000-12-04 22:30:28
hey hey kids, jeff here, thank you all so much for your prayers. sorry i missed those shows (at the end of the last tour), and i am also sorry for what i am about to tell you. i don't want to make any of you unneccesarily sad but i could really use your prayers. my younger brother carlos was in a car accident in the foggy mountains on oct 28 and he instantly passed away. that even feels strange to type, but i know it is reality and it is the type that sets in only for minutes at a time. the good news is i am still so much in love with Christ, even if i want to blame Him or get rebellious His intense peace creates in me a standstill and i realize i am STUCK, i am stuck in love with him, knowing that he does all things for my good and car's good even if i can't see it now. as far as touring goes, i am forced with a very obvious metaphor. often on tour i felt as if i was "wasting" my time. i felt a burden to be home with my family but i also knew that God had a very detailed plan for my life
that involved being on the road. so....i would at times lay in the back of the noisy bus and cry to my family, assuring them that i would be home soon. and...the next day i was able to rock out without feeling guilty knowing that Christ wanted all of me each show and each conversation. well, i guess life is my new tour, and i am determinded to live it with the same zest and steadfastness as ever, though the stakes seem so much higher now. i still miss home, and home to me is basically wherever my gentle brother is, so i patiently wait. again, thanks for the prayers, jeff the girl
Posted by jeffthegirl at 2000-12-05 17:15:27
just so you do know, he was absolutely a firm believer in Christ and i think a lot of his friends are now since the funeral, so you can continue to pray for tem too. thanks again guys, i love you, jeff
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