| A Letter To God |
| why am I alive, when all I want to do is die, Oh God, I have died many times, but only on the inside, no matter how far I dig the razor into my arm, you still let me live, no matter how many times I tie the rope around my neck, you still keep me alive, I'm watching my friends with guns in their mouths, watching them lose everything in their life, but the pain, I look to you God, broken and bleeding, the world doesn't deserve me, my life is so useless, battling the disease of my father, I thought of nothing else, but you, I don't understand why you call me, why do you still want me, This tragic life of death/suicide/pain, is all just more scars for my body, but you have given me a reason to live, a reason to drop the gun, and a reason to take a stand, oh God save me, let me die and live in you, save me, save me, I'm yours, Jesus Christ saved my life, he has brought me out of the hell of my life, to live in him and never die, Jesus Christ, save me, save me, I don't want to die! |
| This song tells so much about myself, and it is extremely hard to deal with writing these words, even though they are just words. This song not only describes me, but it also describes almost all of my friends in some way, whether it involves them by dealing with suicide, thoughts of suicide, cutting, cancer, fathers, worthlessness,or just going through the struggles of everyday life. I hope that this song will help you if any of these things have affected your life in any way. If you have any comments/thoughts/feelings about this song or what it has to deal with please e-mail me at [email protected]. THank you very much for your time and God Bless! -jamie |
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