More To Come...
She was an idiot. That's all she knew. SHE... was a bonified IDIOT. How stupid was she to ever think her and Justin could work out. He was with Britney. He always would be with her. How in the hell could she ever compete against her. It was down right impossible. She wasn't a pop singer, she was definitely no singer. She didn't have the cute blonde type looks, she wasn't the type of girl who went out to get her nails done for the hell of it. She hated getting a manicure. She wasn't....cute!
She stopped in her tracks. "What am I doing?" she asked herself outloud. "I'm sulking. I don't sulk." She put her hands on her hips and let out a breath. And she didn't give up on things she wanted either. When Ashley Elizabeth Kennedy wanted something, by God she got it. She would fight that pop princess to the death for Justin, and she was going to do it. "That's it," she said angrily and then spun around back towards the condo.
"Woah," Justin said as she turned suddenly and ran into him. "Ash, I..."
"Justin, what are you doing?" she asked annoyed. She needed SOME time to think about what she was going to say to him. But now she was right in front of him.
"Ash, listen to me, okay? I..."
"No, no..YOU listen," she said as she poked his chest. "I may not be a glamour girl, pretty boy...."
"Ash...."
"And I may not be some... some... POP, princess, but... but... I am my OWN person. And....�
"Ashley, please...."
"If you think I'm going to let some pop diva come in and take you away, well.... you got another thing coming."
Justin opened his mouth to talk, but then shut it when he heard what she said. "Huh?"
"You heard me, baldy! I'm not going down without a fight."
"So... wait a minute... you're not mad at me?"
"I'm FURIOUS with you," she said and then pushed him so hard that he stumbled backwards. "I hated seeing you with her."
"Ashley, Brit and I are just friends."
She let out a laugh. "You expect me to believe that? I saw you two together and it seems almost impossible for me to even TRY to compete with her, but by God I'll try anyway."
Justin almost smiled. He loved that Ashley would have fight tooth and nail for him. "Ash," he said softly as he finally held up the magazine. "You don't have to try. This is why she's here."
Ashley looked at him weird, before taking the magazine and looking down at the picture of Britney with a guy that wasn't Justin. "I don't get it. Who's that?"
"Wade. He's our choreographer." He gently took the magazine away and threw it on the ground. "Britney came here today, because she was scared. The media is making her out to be the enemy, when it was both of us that decided to take a break."
"So... Britney is with that... that Wade guy?" she asked him as the pieces started to fit together.
"Uh huh," he said as he took a step closer.
"And... and... not with you?" He just shook his head and stepped even closer. He lifted up a hand and caressed the side of her face. "So... so, I just made a fool of myself?"
Justin chuckled. "I wouldn't say that, princess." He looked deeply into her eyes as he pulled a loose strand of her hair behind her ear. "I was afraid that I lost you though."
Her eyes softened. "Oh, Justin... I'm so sorry," she said and then leaned up and hugged him. "I'm sorry for doubting you."
He let out a sigh of relief. "It's okay." He buried his face against her neck. "Did you mean it?"
"Mean what?" she asked as she held on tight.
"Are you really falling in love with me?"
She shook her head and leaned back to look up at him. "No, I didn't," she said as she cupped the side of his face. "I've already fallen along time ago."
He let out a shaky breath, before smiling brightly. "Really?" he asked.
She smiled and then kissed him softly. "Really. I love you."
His heart ached at her words as he kissed her back forcefully. He kissed her over and over again, taking in the moment, so he would never forget it. He finally pulled away and rested his forehead against hers as they caught their breath. "I love you, too."
JC walked out on the balcony at the same time, Justin, Ashley and Brit walked out of theirs. "Oh, hey guys," JC said with a small smile.
"Hey, Jayce," Justin said as he continued to smile brightly.
"Hey, you I didn't get a chance to officially hug you," Brit said with a smile as she walked to the railing.
"Hey, beautiful," JC said with a laugh as he leaned over as well and hugged her. "Everything okay?"
She nodded. "Yeah, I'm good. I knew coming here would make me feel better."
"Good."
"We're headed to lunch," Justin informed him as he pointed over to the pool area. "Wanna tag along?"
"Nah, you kids go have fun without me. Mar should be getting back soon, so I"m gonna wait for her."
"Are you coming out with us tonight?" Ashley asked him.
"I, uh...I dunno I guess," he said as he stuffed his hands in his jean pockets. "Mar and I don't have anything planned really."
"You guys should come, I want to get to know, Mar," Britney smiled. "By the look on your face this morning, I can tell she'll be around for awhile."
JC's heart dropped. Maybe not. She could very well be around for the next two days. And that's it. JC cleared his throat. "Yeah, I guess," he said quietly. "Well, I'm gonna go walk on the beach, you guys have fun." He then jetted out of their before they could respond.
Britney looked at Justin weird. "Did I say something wrong?"
Justin sighed. "Marron might get a job here, so... so, he's afraid that if that does happen they can't see each other as much."
"I never thought about that," Ashley said quietly. "They'd figure out a way."
"I hope," JC said. "But JC has never been good with long distance relationships. Look what happened between him and Bobbie."
"That's different though," Britney said as she watched JC walk towards the beach. "I don't think JC has ever loved Bobbie like he loves Mar. I could tell that just by looking at him this morning."
"Well, we'll let them work it out," Justin said as he put his arms around both girls. "But right now, lets go get some grub. I'm starvin marvin."
While they left to go eat, JC thought about what Britney had said. He plopped down on the sand and lazily began to draw doodles in the sand. He didn't know what to think or what to feel at the moment. He was almost sad. Sad that Marron wasn't with him, but yet angry as well for things not working out the way he wanted to. If he could have his way, he would take Marron home with him and keep her forever. But he couldn't do that. It was her dream to work here with wild dolphins, he had seen the look on her face when he went out with her that one day.
He wiped the heart away he had made in the sand and leaned back on his hands. He was falling more and more in love with her as the seconds went by. And he knew if he lost her to her job, he would be miserable. The more he fell in love with her, the more it would hurt him to see her go. There was no way they could maintain a healthy relationship if she lived out here. They wouldn't stand a chance. He didn't know what he was going to do. Maybe he should just....push her away. Maybe it would hurt less. Maybe if he acted like a jerk and made her hate him, it wouldn't be as hard. Maybe if....
"WHAT are you doing!"
JC nearly jumped a mile when a pair of hands grabbed his arms and let out a breath when he heard Marron's laughter. "Dammit, Mar... that scared the shit out of me."
Marron noticed some hostility in his voice and it made her laughter die. "Sorry, I was just playin."
"Well, don't do that," he said annoyingly as he ran his fingers through his hair. He was being a jerk. He knew that, but at the same time he couldn't help it. He was just so... angry!
"What's with you?" she asked as she touched his shoulder. "You're not your usual cheerful self."
"Nothings the matter with me," he mumbled. "Can't a guy have a bad day?"
"I, uh....well sure, but..."
"But what?" he said angrily as he got up on his feet. "Look, I know it may be a shock to you, but I'm not this perfect man you thought me up to be. I'm human and I can have a bad day, okay??"
"What the hell did I do?!" Marron snapped as she stood up as well.
"Nothing just... leave me alone, I'm fine," he said as he started to walk off.
"I'm not leaving until you tell me what's wrong," she said as she kept in step with him.
"For the last time, nothings wrong!" He stopped and spun toward her. "I just need to be alone, okay?"
She looked up at him, her wide eyes threatening to tear up. This wasn't the man she had been falling in love with. Where was his smile that he loved. Where was his laughter. He wanted him to show. Not this man. This wasn't her JC. Or was it? During this whole vacation, he had been nothing but sweet and charming. A perfect gentleman. But every man has their flaws. Even the famous JC Chasez. She finally nodded as she felt the tears about to expose herself. "Fine," she said, her voice cracked. "If that�s what you want."
JC's heart dropped when he saw the tears start to come. This wasn't how he wanted to treat her, this wasn't how his plan was suppose to work. The last thing he wanted to do was make her cry. He sighed as she turned to leave. "Mar, I..."
"No, don't you dare take pity on me," she said angrily. "You want to be alone? You got it. Come find me when whatever is up your ass has left."
JC watched her angrily stalk off and it only made him more mad. "Dammit," he cursed as he kicked the sand angrily. "I'm so fucking stupid." He then spun on his heels and stalked the other way, walking farther and farther away from Marron.
When JC couldn't walk another step he angrily popped down in the sand, still furious at himself for the way he had acted. He still had no idea why the hell he treated her that way, but a part of him thought it was best to push her away. She was getting that job, there was no doubt in his mind. He had to push her away. It would hurt too much if he kept falling in love with her.
JC sighed as he drew up his knees, rested his elbows on them and buried his fingers in his hair. "Then how come I don't feel any better," he mumbled out loud as he stared at the sand. He closed his eyes as the picture of Marron crying came so clearly in his mind. He hated that he caused it. There was nothing worse than to see a woman's tears. They were deadly. Marron was much worse. His heart dropped at the site and he thought his knees would buckle under him. He couldn't stand the sight.
He shook his head clear of the image as he lifted his head and stared at the ocean. He smiled slightly as he remembered the day they had played in the surf. Body surfing all day like there was no care in the world. He shifted on his left side so as he stuffed his hand down his right pocket to bring out what he had been meaning to give Marron. He lifted the thin black leather string up and stared at the sand-dollar he found that dangled from the necklace. He sighed as he started to play with it, casually rubbing his fingers over the smooth surface. The day Justin and him went to the market, he found a place that made necklaces and he made this one for Marron. He was planning on giving it to her the last day they were together, but now she probably wouldn't want it.
He wadded the necklace into his hand and squeezed it tight, before finally putting it back in his pocket. He was about to stand up, but the painful slap of someone's hand came in contact with the back of his head. He lifted his shoulders in pain as he winced. "Ow, dammit," he cursed as he looked up at the person responsible for numbness in his head. "Ashley?"
"You idiot," she said and slapped him again in the same spot.
JC flinched again. "Ow, dammit cut it out," he said as he rubbed his head and quickly stood up so she wouldn't have the upper hand again.
"What the hell did you do?" she asked forcefully and then swatted him on the arm. "Huh?"
JC made a small sound of pain at the contact as he tensed up. "What is your, prob..." He didn't finish her sentence because Ashley pushed him hard, causing him to stumble backwards. "Okay, Ash, just chill," he said once he got his bearings.
"I will not, what the hell did you do?" she asked as she kept advancing towards him.
JC shook his head. "I don't need this shit," he said as he turned away from her and walked away. He didn't get very far, because Ashley leaped on top of his back, causing him to stumble forward, almost losing his balance. "Are you nuts??"
Ashley wrapped her arms around his neck. "NO but you are a jackass," she said as she pulled at him, trying to tackle him to the ground.
"Ash, this is...dammit stop," he said as he reached up to grab her wrist. He pried her arms open without any trouble and flung her off of him as he quickly spun back around to face her. "Don't you dare come any closer."
"Well, start talking cyber prick, or your pop star ass is gonna get severely beaten," she threatened.
JC swallowed the lump in his throat as he studied her. She was pissed. He took a deep breath and held up his hands. "Okay, okay... just don't attack me." He studied her warily making sure she wasn't going to leap at him as soon as he was off guard. "What did Marron tell you?"
"Nothing, she couldn't get anything out because she was crying too damn hard," she said and took a step towards him.
JC tensed and quickly took a step back. "Okay... okay, I'll tell you, just as soon as you calm down and..."
"I AM CALM!"
JC jumped. "Dear lord, I'm gotta say a prayer for Justin," he mumbled and then let out a sigh. "Okay, Ashley. I'll tell you why I'm being a jerk."
Ashley crossed her arms and glared. "This should be good."
"So let me get this straight," Ashley said after JC told her everything. "You love my sister..."
"Yes." JC said with a nod.
"And you're falling in love with her more and more each day...."
"Yes...."
"And you can't imagine a life with out her...."
He sighed, but when ahead and said, "Yes."
"And instead of telling her this you are pushing her away to make her hate you, because of your own selfish reason you believe that it will hurt less if you have to tell her good bye."
"Ummm.... yes?" he said not sure if that was the right answer.
She pondered a second, trying to figure it out and then shrugged. "Still don't see the logic."
"Ash," he sighed.
"I'm sorry, but I don't," she told him. "I mean, all I see is that you are being selfish."
"Selfish?"
"Yes. Selfish. The number one trait of the male species. You are so selfish about your OWN feelings, you don't even care if she gets hurt."
"That's not true," he said.
"Isn't it?" She shook her head. "JC, think about what you're doing. YOU don't want to hurt when this trip is done. YOU don't want you're heart broken, so you push her away. YOU behave like a jerk to her so it could be easier for YOU. See a pattern here?"
"But it's not easier for me."
"Ding ding ding," she exclaimed as she knocked on her head. "He can be taught!"
"Ow," he mumbled as he rubbed his head.
"JC, pushing her away isn't going to help. Go get off your ass and tell her you love her, okay?"
"I can't."
She groaned in frustration. "Why not?"
"I'm scared."
"Yeah, see there it is again? Selfish. Look, if you're not ready to tell her, that's fine... be a wimp. But at least go and get her and apologize. Make things right again."
JC sighed and then looked over at Ashley. "Why are you so smart?"
She shrugged. "It's a gift. Now GO."
He nodded. "Okay, you're right. I was stupid." He got up and then lent a hand down for her. She grabbed it and got up on her feet. "So is she inside the condo?"
"No, I don't know where she is. She ran off down the shore."
JC was puzzled at first, curious to know where she went. But then it hit him. The hammock. She was there. He knew it. "I know where she is," he said and then kissed her quickly on the cheek. "Thanks for beatin the shit out of me."
"Any time cyber boy," she said and then playfully slapped his butt as he ran away. She shook her head as she watched him trot away. "Man, if Justin didn't exist I'd might have to steal that fine specimen of man away from her."
JC slowed his pace once he got to the small trail leading to the hammock. He took a deep breath as he made his way through the leaves, and froze when he saw her. Her back was too him as she laid on her side on the hammock. He swallowed hard as he took his first step towards her, making sure he didn't make any noise, not wanting to wake her up if she was asleep.
When he got to the hammock he peered over her to find that she was asleep, but her cheeks were stained with tears. God, he hated himself for putting them there. "I'm sorry, baby," he whispered as he reached over and gently rubbed his thumb against her cheek, wiping away the tears. He pulled his hand back when she breathed in a shakey breath. She was awake, but did not open her eyes. She wasn't going to make this easy on him.
"Baby," he said again as he slowly eased himself on the hammock. He shifted on his side facing her and gently put an arm around her waist. "Please," he whispered huskily in her ear, causing chills to run through her. "Forgive me."
All she did was sniff.
He continued to gaze at the back of her head, thinking of what to say that would make her turn around and give her a bright smile. But nothing he could say would make her do that. Not any time soon anyways. "I was a jerk," he continued as he shifted closer to her. "I... I was just scared of what..." He swallowed the lump in his throat. "Of what was going to happen once... once this trip was over." He felt her breath in sharply again and saw the tip of her eyelash peaking out, which means he knew her eyes were open. "If I could stay with you here forever and not have to go back to my crazy life I would do it in a heart beat. I..." Just say it. "I..." He paused when she felt her move her arm and then place her hand on top of his hand that was draped over her rest. He closed his eyes and let out a silent sigh of relief when she squeezed it lightly.
"It's okay," she finally said softly. "Everything is going to be okay."
JC pulled her tightly too him and buried his face against her neck. He kissed it softly. "I know that now." He relaxed against her and linked his fingers with hers. "I love you," he whispered softly in her ear and then kissed it. He then laid still, waiting to see what she would do.
Marron turned her head slightly so she could see his eyes. Those beautiful blue eyes had such a strong affect on her. God, how she loved those eyes. "What?"
He smiled gently when he noticed the sparkle in her eyes. "First this," he said as he leaned down and pressed his lips against her soft ones. He kissed her a bit, before finally creeping his tongue slowly past her lips. He removed his hand from her waist so he could cup the side of her face, as he continued to savor the kiss, fully knowing he was far too close from throwing away this feeling he was experiencing now. To think he might have never had the pleasure of kissing her again. He moaned urgently at the thought as he pressed on, making the kiss more passionate. He ran his tongue over her own, over and over again, as the taste of her consumed him. Whenever he told himself to stop, he wouldn't listen to himself. Her lips were too inviting to pull away. He knew the best way to stop was to slow the kiss down, making his strokes gentler and softening his lips against hers Their lips touched once more, and JC sucked on her bottom lip, before slowly pulling away.
Marron looked up at him breathless, feeling a little dizzy from the kiss. "And second?" she finally whispered.
The corner of his mouth lifted. "Second thing..." he said as he moved his hand down, shifting more on his side towards her, forcing Marron to turn back completly on her side. "Is this." He rested his chin against her shoulder as he reached around her and dangled the necklace in front of her.
"Oh," she gasped as she saw the familiar sand-dollar. JC, its your sand-dollar."
He chuckled and kissed her shoulder. "Well, YOUR sand-dollar now," he said as he handed it to her.
Marron took the sand-dollar necklace and rubbed her thumb over the smooth surface. It was better than any diamond earrings or, emerald necklaces that Cevin had given her in the past. This meant more to her than anything in the world. "It's perfect."
"I'm glad," he said and then gently took it from her. "Here, let me put it on."
She smiled. "Okay," she said as she pulled her hair to one side so he could see what he was doing.
JC unclasped the necklace and then pulled it over her head, before clasping it securely around her neck. "There," he said and then kissed the nape of her neck, and felt her tremble beneath his mouth.
Marron turned back on her side so she could completely face her. She smiled up at him as she lovingly began to strum her fingers through his hair. "I love it," she said and then brought her hand to his rough cheek. "And I love you."
His heart soared with happiness. "You do?"
"I do. Very much." She then leaned up and kissed him softly. She reached up and cupped the back of his neck as she shifted on to her back and pulling his body down on hers. They both groaned at the feel of their bodies pressed together, loving how perfect they fit.
"Baby, I'm so sorry," he said, feeling he needed to apologize again.
"It's okay, sweetie," Marron assured him and then their lips met again.
JC trailed his hand down the side of her body as he continued to kiss her and felt her shiver when his hands slipped underneath her shirt. She felt her pull back when he started to raise her shirt, and at first thought she was protesting. He quickly found out she was pulling back so he was capable of pulling the shirt over her head, revealing one of Ashley's string bikini's she borrowed. "God, I love Ashley for making you wear these," he said he buried his face in her neck.
Marron just chuckled softly but then groaned when his tongue rolled over her skin. She shivered when she felt his fingers tug at the bow tie that rested against the nape over her neck. "I love you," she heard him say huskily against her neck as she felt the strings loosen.
She closed her eyes and buried her fingers in his hair when his lips made its way down. "I love you, too."
"I'm sorry I couldn't stay for dinner," Britney said as Justin and Ash walked her to the door.
"Its okay, I have a pretty good understanding on how the music business is like," he said with a wink.
She laughed. "Well, call me when you get back, okay?"
"Will do," he said and then kissed her cheek. "And don't worry things will be fine."
She nodded and then smiled at Ashley. "It was nice meeting you," she said and surprised Ash by hugging her. "Take care if the big lug, k?"
Ashley laughed. "I will."
"Bye guys," she said with a smile.
"Bye Brit," Justin said before closing the door behind her. He smiled at Ashley before taking her in his arms, and nuzzled her neck. "Mmm, alone again."
She chuckled as they started to back themselves up towards the den. "We sure are."
When they got the couch, Justin twirled around so he could sit down and then playfully pulled her on his lap. She smiled down as she straddled him and then leaned down for a kiss. "Love you," she mumbled against his lips.
He smiled. "Love you too," he said and then took her mouth with his. "Now...no more talking."
"Fine by me," she managed to say right before Justin cupped the back of her neck and pulled her back in for a kiss. He deepened the kiss, loving the way her mouth felt against his. He would never get tired of kissing her. As much as he loved being here with her, he couldn't wait to take her back to Orlando. He wanted her to meet his family... especially his mother. He wanted the rest of the guys to meet her, so they would know how great and wonderful she is. He wanted to take her out on dates, whether it was eating at a fancy restaurant, or cozying up to her with a good flick. He couldn't wait to do all those things with her.
He traveled his hands down the sides of her body and slipped his fingers under her shirt He pressed gently against the small of her back, so he could get closer to her. He finally left her mouth and traveled them down her neck as his hands wandered over her skin. After awhile, Justin finally let up from her, out of breath from their fervent kisses. "I hate to stop, Ash, but you need to get in the shower."
She gave him a look. "Are saying that I stink?"
Justin laughed. "No, of course not. You're scent drives me nuts. But we have reservations at seven."
"Reservations?"
Justin nodded. "Yup, JC and I are taking you girls out tonight." He leaned up and kissed her softly. "So go beautify yourself and wear something nice."