Close your eyes
Give me your hand darling
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming?
Is this burning
An eternal flame?
She looked at him, tears filling her eyes. How could this have happened? How could she have been so stupid? She felt as if the floor had come out from under her, and she was spinning rapidly in space. She felt as if her walls were about to fall down around her as his gaze met hers, and she pulled her knees close to her chest, wondering if he felt the same.
He could see the tears in her eyes, and blinked, wondering if he were seeing things. Was she actually showing emotion in his presence? In the split second that his eyes opened back up, her tears were gone and she was looking at him, a deep curiousity in her eyes. He swallowed, wondering how everything had come to this. Wondering how he�d been so blind� how he never noticed it until now.
She felt as if this were some kind of dream� a horrible dream, where she�d wake up any second only to have this all be fake. But in a way she wanted it to be fake. In a way, she was scared of all this. Of everything behind the three words she wanted to say to him� of his response to her.
�Justin, I--,� she began, looking down and breaking his stare.
�You�re scared?� he questioned, leaning his head against the headboard and folding his legs into an Indian style position.
�Yes� I�m terrified��
He took her hand and placed it over his chest, which was covered with a baby blue muscle tee. She could feel his heart beating rapidly, and his stare on her as she looked at her hand.
�I am too.�
She looked at him again, wanting to say the words, but too scared to actually hear them come off her lips. Her hands started to tremble and he removed her one from his chest, still holding it as he took the other.
�We�re going to be okay, Mir,� he told her.
Her head nodded a bit, and he pulled her into his lap, giving her the most complete feeling she�d felt in a long time.
I believe it�s meant to be darling
I watch you when you are sleeping
You belong with me
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning
An eternal flame?
The light from cars� headlights shown through the window as they passed by the small apartment, their wheels making a bit of noise as they hit the bump just off the sidewalk.
She rolled over, and felt his large body stir in protest to her moving, and her breathing sped up. Her eyes slowly adjusted to the dark, and she could barely make out the bumps in the covers, rising up and down in a sluggish, sleepy manner. She ran a hand through her dark brown hair and gulped.
Her light blue eyes closed and she felt an arm wrap around her, pulling her closer to him. Her eyes opened again to see his, looking at her, shining like the largest diamonds in the world, a smile creeping across his lips.
Justin could see the fear in Miranda�s eyes once again, and kissed her forehead. He then pulled her even closer, wrapping both of his strong arms around her, and rested his chin on her shoulder as her hand fell on his bare chest, sighing deeply.
He took her hand off his chest and held it in his, bringing it to his lips, kissing her finger tips. He knew there was nothing in the world that was more right then this� he knew they were meant to be. But the thing was� did she know?
Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
My whole life, so lonely
Then you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
ohhhh
A tear escaped from her eye as she turned her head, closing her eyes and listening to the heater go on with low clanking noises. Her whole life was passing before her closed eyes, much like it does when someone is about to die, only in her case� she was being brought back to life.
So much pain� loneliness� suffering. And here it is, one human being can walk right in the door and make all the hurt go away. How on earth did that work? How on earth could someone be so frightened of something� but have it happen without them knowing consciously? How had her heart allowed her to fall in love again? How had such a wonderful man just fall into her lap, like this?
Justin felt something warm and wet hit his skin and shifted, so he was looking at her. Her eyes were a little swollen and bloodshot, indicating she�d been crying.
�You okay?� he whispered, sitting up with her still in his arms. She nodded slowly.
�Just thinking,� she told him, her voice cracking.
��Bout what?�
�My life� and how impossible it seems that someone� s-someone like you, can just� make ev-r-ything go away, just like that.�
Say my name
Sun shines through the rain
My whole life, so lonely
Now you come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling
Ohhhh
�I know exactly what you mean,� Justin whispered into her hair, tucking a piece behind her ear.
�Before I met you� God, Mir, I thought I�d never love again. I lost it all thanks to my stupidity� my problems. The fact that I couldn�t swallow my pride and realize that I was human too. I had pushed, and pushed away� no one ever bothered to push back. Until you came around� you were the only one who had the balls to push me back. You opened my eyes, Miranda. You made the hurt go away.�
He could see the tears in her eyes, and wasn�t sure if they were tears of joy, or tears from being afraid of what he said. He hoped he made her happy� he prayed he could keep her heart, and make this feeling last forever.
Miranda�s eyes shut and more tears spilled onto his chest, silently thanking God he understood what she meant. Finally� someone understood her, and her crazy thoughts. She thought she�d be alone for the rest of her life, left to fend for herself.
Close your eyes
Give me your hand
Do you feel my heart beating?
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming
Or is this burning an eternal flame?
Justin closed his eyes, feeling her sigh in relief, against his body. He inhaled her scent deeply, taking her hand in his once again, and kissing it.
�I love you, Miranda. Tell me I�m not dreaming, and that you love me too��
Her head snapped up, looking at him once more. Did he just say what she thought he did?
She felt the butterflies in her stomach, urging her lips to speak the words that were on the tip of her tongue, but her throat was dry. She swallowed and licked her lips, closing her eyes when she felt tears come.
Justin�s hope faded when she ducked her head, eyes closed. He gulped nervously, still waiting her response. He felt his stomach tie in knots, wondering what was going through her mind� if she even liked him.
His hope was restored when she looked back up at him. She bit her lip.
Justin leaned down and kissed her softly, unable to handle the urge anymore. His tongue pushed past her lips, and her eyes closed slowly. She placed her hands on the base of his neck, pulling him so close that his body was right up against hers. Her tongue massaged his smoothly, sucking his lower lip and probing his mouth. They separated slowly, moments later, and she looked at him with wide, but loving eyes.
�I love you too, Justin,� she spoke, barely audible. �Just tell me this isn�t some fling� tell me it�s going to last forever��
He ran a hand through her hair, nodding. �It will.�