Neon Genesis Evangelion and all characters from therein are the property of Gainax. They are used without permission and we beg the kind and benevolent creators of the glorious show not to sue us. ^_^ Chain Lightning Studios Presents Together We Stand By T. L. Webb And that is how I know When I try to get through On the telephone to you There'll be nobody home Nobody Home Pink Floyd, The Wall []===============[] Book: 1 Part: 2 []===============[] It was raining, again. It had been raining a lot lately, and this was after almost two months of drout. The meteorologists had all but given up on trying to predict what the weather would do next. Ever since Second Impact the seasons had none nuts and the entire planet's weather patterns had been sent on a haywire series of changes. What all this meant was that for the past few years Tokyo Three and the rest of Japan had been subjected to almost random changes in weather and climate. Almost all of mankind's meteorological knowledge was based on decades of studying patterns in the planet's weather. With the entire ecosystem in havoc, those patterns had been shattered and the weathermen were starting from scratch. As far as Kensuke Aida was concerned it was no big deal. if the weather got too bad it would simply make his weekend plans all the more exciting. He was all packed up for his trip and all that was keeping him was his promise to Hikari. He and Touji Suzuhara were still in hock with her over a couple of little incidents earlier that week. Apparently Hikari had seen their little meeting with their class's newest student Shinji Ikari and had not approved of Touji's welcoming gift in the slightest. Having known Touji most of his life Kensuke couldn’t really say he had been surprised at his friends behavior, but he didn’t have to like it. Personally Kensuke was embarrassed by Touji's response, which had been to hit Shinji in the face. Touji was a nice guy, but when it came to things and people he loved his brain simply stopped functioning and instinct took over. It wasn’t the best way to deal with the situation Kensuke knew, and he also knew just how cruel it must have seemed to Shinji at the time. His own response had been rather pathetic and Hikari was still angry with the both of them for that and the other little incident later that day. At the moment it was the former that concerned the two. As they walked through the downpour, Kensuke found himself rambling on about his favorite subject. For a self proclaimed 'military nut' living in Tokyo Three, this could only be related to Nerv. "So what I think," he told Touji as they walked into the apartment complex's entrance, "is that it's not just a robot." "Run this past me again?" Touji asked as he wiped his feet on the provided mat. "Well when I got my stuff back, I ran a file recovery program on the disks and got a little bit of the footage back." "I still don’t know how that thing survived" "It's a full environmental model. Don’t you remember the underwater film I made at the beach last semester?" "Oh yeah... I particularly remember you getting in trouble for the shots of the girls." "Hey, don’t forget you got a third of the money we made off that tape for coming up with the idea. Anyway I took a closer look at the frames when the Eva pulled that huge knife, and I think that the hands had some kind of glove-- because those whip things burnt some of it away." "Right, and this is where you're loosing me. Why does a robot the size of a skyscraper need a glove?" "Ugh...That sounds like the setup to a bad joke, but to answer your question-- I'm not so sure it’s a robot at all! The footage isn't clear, but I think there's a _hand_ under that glove." "Well duh, of course it’s a hand." "No, no, no, I mean like yours and mine!" "Wait a second... are you saying that the thing is alive? Like some kind of monster in armor?" "I don’t know, but that’s what I suspect." "I don’t know where you keep coming up with this kind of stuff, Kensuke. It sounds like something out of... I dunno... Ultraman or something." "You may mock all you want, but I have the proof on tape." "Right, the same one that Nerv will probably lock you away forever for just owning." "Well there is that... what apartment number was it again?" "I think it's on the eleventh floor." "Well then... let's get this over with. I can't imagine Shinji's gonna be too happy to see us... well to see _you_ anyway" "Oh shut up." "Okay then, but one more point on that subject. Just what are you planning on saying to him anyway? He's not going to forgive you that easily for pounding him into the pavement like that." "Don't worry, I think I have an idea." "Touji, its when you get these ideas that I _start_ to worry." "Relax, I think this will work." "You gonna let me in on the big plan?" "Naw, you'll just think its lame and try and talk me out of it." "Well someone's gotta try to keep you out of trouble until you learn some tact." "Tact is just not saying true stuff, I'll pass." "... Remind me again why I put up with you?" []====[] []====[] Misato Katsuragi was worried. She had been afraid Shinji might pull something like this sooner or later, but she frankly wasn’t expecting it this early. From the beginning she had known that Shinji might not be up to the stress his position as pilot would bring upon him. He was shy, meek and polite-- generally a pleasant person once you got him talking, but that was also the problem. A meek, shy person didn’t make for the best pilot material. She would be glad when the Second Child and Unit Two arrived; at least then they would have a pilot who _wanted_ to be there. It was strange that Shinji had such a remarkable talent for Eva. If his training was ever completed-- Ritsuko was predicting that his skills would eventually surpass even the Second Child. That made his unease with the position all the more tragic. Had they found him earlier and had the proper time to prepare him... Shinji might have had an easier time. Unfortunately that had not been the case. Shinji had arrived literally at the last moment as the Third Angel began its attack. The timing could have only been worse if he hadn't arrived at all. Rei's accident shortly before that had necessitated their calling him in. She found it all to be a little too convenient, but Shinji had been able to synch with Unit One the first time in and despite enormous obstacles he had won his first fight over Tokyo Three. The victory had been little consolation to him however. He didn’t want to be there. He didn’t want to pilot. He didn’t want to be anywhere near his father. Gendou Ikari... if it hadn't been for the general resemblance and a similar lack of social skills, Misato would hardly have believed the two were related. The Commander was... cold. That was the best way to describe it. He hardly seemed to display any emotion save an occasional smug amusement when things went as he planed... which was often. He hid everything behind those glasses and his favored sitting position, which placed his hands steepled before his face. The bridge crew had a bet going with her that Ikari would never assume his seat in the command center without sitting like that... so far she was making a few hundred yen with each battle. Despite the fact that he was making her drinking money, she could say with total honesty that she didn’t like him. She could also say that when it came down to it, Nerv needed his ruthlessness to stay on top of all the bureaucratic nonsense they had to deal with. That didn’t mean she had to like him, or the way he treated his son. If anyone were to blame for the current situation she would have to say it was the Commander. Shinji had come to Tokyo Three under false pretenses. He had believed that his father was attempting a second chance for them to live together, that his father wanted him again. She hadn't pressed Shinji for information, but apparently they'd had a fight three years before and Shinji hadn't seen the man since. She wondered whether Shinji would have come had he known the truth from the beginning. He might have, but then again... it was difficult to tell with Shinji. He had at first refused to climb into Unit One, and possibly would have left had they not played a trump card on him. One she was glad she had no part in setting up. Rei Ayanami's injuries prevented her from being an acceptable candidate to pilot the Eva for the time being; hence Shinji's arrival. Bringing her out on that stretcher... rubbing Shinji's nose in his decision like that was a cold-hearted move that only Commander Ikari could have come up with. The fact that it worked didn’t make her feel any better. Shinji had stayed on, but the poor kid had continued to pilot under a growing cloud of guilt and regret that was painfully obvious in his manner and attitude. Misato had seen the current situation approaching like a runaway train, but she just hadn't been able to think of a way to prevent it. If Shinji honestly felt the way he said he had after the fourth angel then wouldn’t it be better for him if he was allowed out? Now he had run away. Perhaps it was for the best. It was a shame that Section Two didn’t see it that way. She was thinking of this and polishing off her third beer of the morning when the doorbell rang. []====[] []====[] They had arrived at the apartment that was listed as Shinji's and had barely rung the doorbell when a gorgeous woman they had seen once before flung open the door with a wild look in her eyes. "Shinji?" she cried in a panic before she realized that it wasn’t the boy in question. Touji and Kensuke could only stand there in surprise. The last time they had seen this woman had been after the incident with the robot. She had been the one who spent an hour yelling at them and explaining in painfully graphic detail what would happen if they ever did it again. She had been gorgeous when she was angry, and was even more so now. Recovering more quickly than his companion, Kensuke politely corrected her. "Please excuse us for the intrusion Ma'am, we're Shinji's classmates Aida and Suzuhara." The woman, who Kensuke now remembered to be Captain Katsuragi, went through several facial expressions in less than a second-- this ranged form concerned, to confused, to relieved, to angry, and finally coming to rest with a happy-carefree expression. The smile that came to rest on her face immediately reduced the two young men to putty in her hands. "Oh? Aida and Suzuhara?" Kensuke began to reply in an affirmative when Touji cut him off with a stiff response. "Yes Ma'am, I am Suzuhara!" He said as if he were in boot camp speaking to a drill sergeant. Not that Kensuke could blame him, she was quite the babe-- and that smile was more than enough to send a guy's brains flying out the window. Had he not been so amused by Touji's response he would probably be mimicking it… well more so than he was already. "Hmmm," Miss Katsuragi said thoughtfully, " weren't you the ones who got into Unit One's entry plug the other day?" "Yes ma'am, we are very sorry for causing so much trouble for you mam," Touji replied as rigidly as before, " Ikari hasn't been to school since then and we came by to see how he was doing." Misato chewed on her bottom lip for a moment, Kensuke thought it was the most adorable thing he had ever seen. "I see," she told them, "Shinji... he's... well, at the Nerv training center right now." Had he not been so completely smitten by Misato Katsuragi Kensuke would have noticed how unconvincing this sounded. However, at the moment he was experiencing a common condition males must endure when the blood flow is diverted from the brain to other parts of anatomy-- that of impaired coherent thought. Touji was still standing at complete attention and bowing at every other word, Kensuke on the other hand was a bit more alert. While he was slightly disappointed that Shinji's wasn’t home, but somehow he managed to remember another item Hikari had charged them with. "I see," he said, "Well ma'am if you could give these to him when you see him we would be in your debt, they're the printouts that were building up on his desk." "Oh, well sorry for all the trouble, thank you." She said as she took the printouts in question. "Well we'll be going now, say hi to Shinji for us" Kensuke said pleasantly as he tried not too ooglle the Captain too obviously. Misato flashed the two another brilliant smile as she shut the door. "Ok, I will," she told them, "thanks again, buh bye" []====[] []====[] As the door shut Kensuke looked at Touji. Touji looked back at his friend and they both let out a breath they had been holding in identical attempts to suck in their guts and puff up their chests. "Well this is an unexpected turn of events," Kensuke said in wonder. "She was a total babe!" Touji agreed in a similarly awed voice. "You realize that... Shinji lives with her?" " I can't believe it," Touji said as they walked back to the elevators, "how did he end up with such a gorgeous... this is just... hey did you hear something?" "Hmm? Probably just someone upstairs dropped something. But back to the important part, she 's a heavy hitter in Nerv!" "Wait a sec... you're right for a change! That was _her_ voice in the cockpit!" "Exactly! And --lets not forget-- the most humiliating hour I think either of us have ever had to endure." "I was trying to forget most of that, thanks." "How do you think Shinji managed that? I mean he gets to live with… my God she 's beautiful!" "Down boy! Let's not forget that now we still have to explain to Hikari that Shinji wasn’t there. Think she'll ever buy the truth?" "Let me handle that. You concentrate on your apology to Shinji." "I leave it in your capable hands Kensuke." "Keep that philosophy in mind and you will go far my friend" "Oh get over yourself." Touji said with a laugh as they walked back out in to the rain soaked streets. []====[] []====[] Later that night, as Misato was about to climb into the tub, she heard her phone ring. Jumping back out of the bathroom, she stumbled over a pile of instant food boxes and just barely managed to grab the phone before the machine picked it up. Hoping against hope, she greeted the other person on the line, praying that it was Shinji. "Katsuragi residence!" Misato said with forced cheerfulness. It wasn’t him; the voice on the other end belonged to a young girl-- and sounded vaguely familiar. "Hello, Miss Katsuragi, my name is Hikari Horaki-- I'm one of Shinji Ikari's classmates. Is he there, please?" 'What the hell is the deal today?' Misato thought as she answered. "Sorry, Shinji is at the Nerv training facilities, he won't be back for awhile." 'At least it doesn't sound fake this time' she thought. "Oh, I see... well, I needed to speak with you also, Miss Katsuragi... if you have the time that is." The young girl politely responded. Misato was suspicious, but tried not to let it come out in her voice. "Of course Miss Horaki, what's on your mind?" she said cheerfully. "Well, you know that couple of other students and myself were the ones that got caught up in the fight the other day," she said with an almost audible blush, "and the thing is that I saw Shinji after the fight... I feel bad that I didn’t try to at least talk to him after that. I want to let him know I'm sorry but I don’t want to seem like I'm just trying to suck up to him because he's a Nerv Pilot. He got enough of that when the class found out." Misato wanted to believe what she was hearing, but she had believed for too long that if something sounded too good to be true-- then it usually was. "Well I don’t know when I'll see him again, would you like me to pass along anything?" The girl sighed. " I don’t know, I want to, but I can't think of anything that wouldn't sound phony. I've been meaning to talk with him for a week, but my duties as Class rep have kept me so tied up that I've hardly had time to even _think_ about anything outside of school." "Hmm," Misato said thoughtfully, "well... speaking from experience, when you have a stressful job its imperative to keep a time of your day or week open to forget about work and leave all your worries behind. You know... just a chance to let loose and relax." "I wish I had the time, I think I've already overscheduled myself. But I'll bear that in mind Miss Katsuragi." "Oh call me Misato, I don’t mind." "If you insist..." Misato could tell the girl was unused to this-- younger people were always thrown off balance when she insisted on being on a fist name basis. "So tell me," Misato said, now less suspicious of the girl, " what's Shinji like in class? He hardly ever talks about his day." The girl sighed. "In his case that might be because there isn't much to talk _about_. He keeps to himself and hardly ever talks to anyone. To be honest that’s part of the reason I'm so worried about him. He hasn’t given himself a chance to make any friends and now with everyone knowing he's a Pilot..." "It's going to be even harder," Misato finished. She shook her head sadly, "Hedgehogs dilemma..." she added softly. "I'm sorry?" "Oh, nothing, just something someone said the other day. Listen... when I see Shinji I'll let him know you were worried about him. In the meantime I want you to keep something in mind. Shinji hasn’t had many friends in his life and he doesn't really know how to act around people. Just be patient with him ok?" "Thank you Miss Katsu- I mean Misato. Oh, one more thing, did a couple of boys stop by your home today? The ones from the incident I mean." "Yes, Kensuke Aida and Touji Suzuhara I believe." "Good, I just wanted to make sure. Thanks again." "Anytime Hikari, you take care of yourself okay? G'nite!" As Misato hung up and got into the warm bath, she let out a sigh. 'Shinji, you have the worst sense of timing I have ever seen...' she thought as she settled into the steaming water, 'please come back.' []====[] []====[] He had been on the move the entire day and he was exhausted. As Shinji sat in the theater, he tried to let himself relax. Even when he had been on the train he hadn't been resting. It had been the only place he had been able hide at the time. He knew that there were several well-trained security officers assigned to keep an eye on him, and while he was confident they had lost track of him hours ago-- he had no illusions of avoiding them forever. But for the time being he could at least try. Staying on the train all day had been the first idea, and it seemed to have worked. He figured that while one of the first places the spooks checked would have been the stations, they might not check the actual cars themselves. He had bet on them merely watching the crowds boarding and exiting. So he had figured if he stayed on board, they might not find him. That had been around seven in the morning and it was well past midnight now, so he assumed it had worked. Eventually the train had gone out of service and he had to leave. After that he had wandered Tokyo Three for a few hours before coming across the all night theater where he was now sitting. He just didn’t know what he was going to do. He was going to be in a lot of trouble once they found him, he knew that much. It was what would happen after that which had him frightened however. He didn’t want to get into the Eva again. When they took him back they would make him. It terrified him... every time the Eva was hurt he could feel it, and several times he had almost been killed. But that wasn’t the worst of it. The first time out something had happened... something he didn’t remember. He remembered the angel picking the Eva up, and the impact as its hand weapon struck the armor of the Eva's head again and again, but once it had broken through, everything was a blur. They'd told him much later that the Eva reactivated and had gone into a berserker rage. It had ripped into the Angel like a thing possessed and had nearly succeeded in tearing it to pieces before the enemy had self-destructed. When the dust settled the Eva stood victorious amongst the wreckage. Moments later he remembered the lights in the Entryplug turning back on. He remembered the screens coming back to life and a dull throbbing ache above his right eye. He had been looking around, trying to get his bearings when something dark passed in front of the view. As the dust cleared around him he had looked out the viewer at a building beside the Eva. The reflection in the glass showed that the top portion of the Eva's head armor had fallen away, revealing a face beneath. His memory of just what it looked like was unclear, but he did finally remember its eye opening and seemingly staring back at him. That had been when he passed out. That he had lost control of such a dangerous weapon horrified him. Just how much control did he have in the first place? Even more frightening-- was it the Eva that had really gone wild? After the fourth Angel he was no longer as certain. During that battle he had lost control of _himself_ then and it disturbed him to know that he was capable of that level of rage. What would happen if it occurred again? Would he have the control necessary to stop before anyone got hurt? Or worse yet, what if it happened outside the Eva? What if _he_ hurt someone? He had never been comfortable with the responsibility and guilt, and each time he climbed into that thing it made things worse. How could he keep doing it when he could barely stand it now? Suddenly-- a movement within the theater snapped him back to reality. Someone was moving a few rows down. As his eyes swam back into focus, Shinji saw that it was a young couple. He hadn't seen them come in, and other than some guy sleeping up front he hadn't known anyone else was there. He heard a giggle drift up and realized that the two were kissing. Shinji had envied other people for many things in his life. Some people he envied the relationship with their parents, sometimes it was the ease with which they dealt with other people, or the fearlessness they showed in the face of failure. As he watched the two making out several seats down, he felt a fresh wave of jealousy sweep over him. He hadn't had many friends in his life, just a few acquaintances when he was younger, and he'd never had anything even resembling a girlfriend. Until a year or two ago he hadn't even considered it. It struck him suddenly that these two were obviously closer to one another than he had ever felt to anyone in his life. A scowl crossing his face, he gathered his things and wandered out into the lobby. Looking around, he quickly found a secluded bench hidden by a snack machine and curled up on it to get some sleep. As he turned to the wall to block some of the light, he found himself thinking about the couple inside. What would it be like to have someone like that? Someone who he could be open and honest with? Someone he could actually trust? 'Shut up' he told himself, 'why would anyone want a coward like me anyway?' After a while he fell into a restless sleep. []====[] []====[] Hikari woke up from her nightmare with a start. She was covered in sweat and her breathing was rapid. While she tried to calm down, she mentally cussed out Kensuke and Touji for getting her mixed up in the battle. She hadn't had nightmares for years, and now she was having them every other night. They all ended the same too-- a giant purple hand would fall from the sky and this time it wouldn't miss... Knowing that it was unlikely that she would be able to get back to sleep, she showered and decided to take Misato's advice to spend some time for herself. Dressing and leaving a note for her sisters she stepped outside and started into town. She didn’t know where she was going, but she didn’t mind; she just wanted to get away for an hour or two and reflect on the past week. Her conversation with Misato had gone even better than she had planed and she felt she had a chance with getting her friends and Shinji to put everything behind them. She hoped Shinji got back from training soon, she needed to let him know that Touji and Kensuke weren't like the poor first impression he had received of them. As she wandered around town, the sun started to rise in the distance, and a rosy tint took hold of the sky. Standing at the outskirts of one of Tokyo Three's parks, she leaned against a rail and watched the sky grow brighter. She was so caught up in this that she almost missed the sound of rapid footfalls behind her. Turning, she was just in time to see Shinji run around a corner and in her direction. Had she not turned and taken a step back too see who it was, they might have missed one another entirely. As it was he was in such a panic that he did miss her and had she not shouted his name, he most likely would have run right past. Hearing someone call his name, he slowed to a stop and his frightened expression dissolved into confusion as he saw her waving from the rail. He stood there across the street for several moments and she saw his hand twitch slightly. Finally he seemed to reach a dissension and walked over to greet her. "Good morning Miss Horaki." "Morning Shinji, no need to be so formal." She replied-- smiling as she remembered his guardian saying almost the same thing to _her_. "Oh… okay then. Good morning Hikari." "That's better. So what brings you out here so early Shinji?" His face immediately changed from a look of shy hesitation to a cold mask that she couldn't read at all. He muttered something that sounded like "nothing" and she decided that this topic might not be the best to start out with. Changing tracks she asked how his training at Nerv was going. This went even worse as he lowered his head and actually backed away. 'Think Hikari,' she told herself ' _something_ has gotta get him interested enough to say more than three words' she knew she had to say something quick-- he looked like he was about to run away. "Hey Shinji, I was about to go get some breakfast, want to join me?" she said, not knowing what else to try. He considered that for a moment, then finally nodded. "If it's not too much of an imposition..." "Not at all, breakfast is no fun if there's no one to share it with-- at least that’s what my mom always used to say." []====[] []====[] "Shinji, we've been missing you at school," she said later as they ate, "how much longer do you think your training session will last?" "Training?" he asked with slight confusion. "Captain Katsuragi told me that you were off at one of the training facilities." "Oh," he said with a nod, as if what she had just told him had filled in a piece of a puzzle, "when did you talk with Misato?" "I called her last night to see if Touji and Kensuke had delivered your paperwork like I asked them." "Kensuke, I remember from class, but who's Touji?" he asked as he reached for his water. "Um..." Hikari started, then decided it would be best to just tell him the whole thing. "He's the other guy who got into the Eva with us." Shinji almost choked on his drink, as it was he barely managed to keep from spraying it everywhere. She could see in his eyes how confused he was. "W-why did he go with Kensuke?" he asked slightly suspiciously. "Well for one thing they're friends, and for another he feels bad for what happened." Shinji shook his head. "There was no way you could know that the Eva would fall like that, it wasn’t any of your faults." "No... not that, the other thing." Shinji's eyes widened and he looked at her closely "what do you mean?" "I-I saw what happened between the buildings." Hikari said nervously, she knew that guys had a weird sense of pride about such things. Shinji bowed his head and she couldn't see his eyes. She was starting to seriously dislike it when he did that-- it was disturbing. "He went with Kensuke because he wanted to apologize," She told him, "he wanted to say that he-" she didn’t get to finish as Shinji cut her off. "I deserved it," he said simply-- his eyes still hidden. "What?" Hikari said with surprise, "what kid of talk is that Shinji?" "I'm the reason his sister got hurt, I deserved it." "Shinji..." she started to say as he looked up. She didn’t get to finish this either as Shinji stopped looking _at_ her and focused on something just over her shoulder. His eyes widening, he picked up his bag and stood up. "Thank you for breakfast" he said quickly as he handed her several yen to cover the meal, "I need to leave now." And before she could respond he was out the door. Completely befuddled by his behavior, Hikari turned to look in the direction that Shinji had been staring moments before. They had been sitting in a corner booth and there was a window on either side of her. Across the street behind her there was a man on the sidewalk speaking into a cellular phone. He was wearing all black and dark sunglasses. As she turned back to the table, she thought back to something Kensuke had said weeks ago when Shinji had first arrived about increased security around the school. The men there had been dressed exactly the same as the man now across the street. She didn’t taste much of the rest of her food. []====[] []====[] As Shinji stepped off the bus, he decided that this was a good idea. He needed to think. He needed to just sit down and actually try to reason everything out. It wasn’t something he could do while in the city; every building was a constant reminder of the battles he had fought. Even the theater had offered no haven. The closest thing he had felt to being relaxed in the past two days had been earlier at breakfast. He was still trying to register the fact that had actually held something resembling a conversation with a girl, and that until he had seen that section two agent... it had gone rather well. He was somewhat surprised that he hadn't made too much of a fool of himself. For a moment he had actually felt like he could talk to someone else. He thought about what Hikari had told him about Touji. He still felt that he deserved what the other boy had done, but to know that he felt guilty over it… It was one of several things that he needed to think about. As he climbed the steps to the overlook he smiled at the sight revealed before him. He had always heard how beautiful the terraces were in this part of the country, his Uncle's farm had been mostly flat land, and while they had similar constructs-- there was nothing to compare to the scale he was seeing before him now. How much work had this taken? How many years? How many people? It was one of the most magnificent things he had ever seen, even more so than the Eva. More magnificent even that Tokyo Three itself. The entire mountainside had been reworked into the shelf-like levels. He sat there on the edge of the cliff, and as the wind blew around him felt himself relax for the first time in weeks. He knew he couldn't run forever-- he would go back to Misato tomorrow. He had all night to make up his mind what he would do after that. []====[] []====[] "CHARGE!" Kensuke raced along the path he had cut in the tall grass, holding his rifle at ready to fire at the first sign of enemy troops. His commanding officer blazed on ahead of the unit, fearlessly leading the assault. As they broke into a clearing, the enemy opened fire and he watched in horror as the finest officer he had ever served under fell before a shower of molten lead. As the rest of the troops made short work of the cowards who had attacked them, Kensuke dropped to one knee beside his captain. "Sir!" he shouted as he saw the extent of the damage from the gunfire. "Aida," the man whispered weakly, his mouth trickling blood, "you must keep going, finish the mission!" "No!" Kensuke shouted in protest, " I won't leave you like this!" His commanding officer tried to laugh, but ended up coughing as blood seeped into his lungs. His fist curling back, he let loose with a punch that did not feel like a blow given by a dying man. "You fool! Only... The ...mission matt-" with those last words-- the man gave up the ghost. At that point Kensuke decided to take a break. He had been out there all day and he was getting tired. Plus it was almost time for dinner. He wished he could get Touji to join him for once, doing all this by himself was beginning to get dull, and a new perspective would be nice for a change. Taking one last look at the sunset above, he climbed to his feet and started to head back to his base camp. As he stood, however, he saw something a short distance away on the hiking trail. Readjusting his glasses he took a better look and was shocked to see the new transfer student walking back toward the road. 'If I don’t do _something_ Hikari will kill me...' he realized as he waved at the other boy. "HEY Ikari!" he shouted. []====[] []====[] It had taken some fast talking but Kensuke had finally convinced Shinji to join him for dinner. Shinji had no idea why Kensuke was out there, much less why the boy was dressed in camouflage, but the largest surprise was that he had a tent set up a quarter mile back in the field. He didn’t ask why-- at the moment he was still too tired from his own problems to care. Idly he wondered why everyone was so eager to have him join them for meals all the sudden. Kensuke on the other hand was talking nonstop about everything that he had missed following the battle. For most of the evening Shinji tuned him out as their dinner cooked over a campfire, but after awhile, Kensuke reached a topic that Shinji couldn't ignore. "Touji was real sorry about that," the other boy told him, "he told me this morning that his sister chewed his ass off for doing it, she said that it was your robot that actually saved her, and all our lives. She's in elementary so I imagine he must have been even more embarrassed by that than when Hikari chewed us out." Shinji couldn't help but smile at the idea of Touji getting yelled at by a younger girl... and as Kensuke continued on he though about that. If Touji's sister didn’t blame him for what happened... why did he still feel so badly about it? Meanwhile Kensuke was still rambling on. "I like it out here at night-- those Cicadas don't make as much noise. I can't remember it ever being quiet, but lately it seems like the things are everywhere, just chirping all over the place." "Misato... Misato says that its because the ecosystems are returning to how they were before Second Impact." "Under normal circumstances I'd have to make you drop that subject," Kensuke said with a grin "I think we hear enough about it in class, but since you mentioned the Goddess I'll let it slide." Shinji blinked at this, "Goddess?" he asked hesitantly. "I really envy you Ikari. Not only do you get to live with Captain Katsuragi, but you get to pilot the Evangelion!" ignoring the fact that Shinji's expression darkened slightly at he mention of the robot, he continued, "Just _once_ I want a chance to get behind the controls of that thing-- I can't imagine what it must be like!" 'He's obviously not going to believe the truth...' Shinji thought as he watched Kensuke mimic a fighter pilot flying a plane. 'And that’s just about Misato, if he knew how she lived...' "Its not as great as you think," he told Kensuke, referring to the Eva, "it's very dangerous, and besides, I think your mother would worry if you did." "Oh... don’t worry, I don’t have one." Kensuke said. "I'm sorry?" "A mother, I don’t have one, I'm the same as you." "...How did you know that?" Shinji asked with surprise. "Oh, well when you first got here I realized you might work for Nerv and took a peek at your transfer papers. By the way, food's ready" "Thanks," Shinji said as Kensuke filled their plates with the rice he'd been steaming over the campfire, "um can I ask you something?" "Sure, go ahead." "Do you do this a lot?" "Yeah, every other month or so." "Is it training for guerrilla warfare or something?" "Oh no," Kensuke said with a laugh, "what could I do with these toys?" he nodded over at the rack of plastic and wooden guns, "This is just for fun. I love the military... hey, why don’t you like piloting the Eva? Most kids our age would give an arm and a leg to do it." "...Well, it's complicated," Shinji replied, wondering what he could tell the boy that wouldn't get them both in trouble, "For one thing, you’re linked to it, so when it gets hurt you feel it." "Hmmm that makes sense-- I mean there didn’t seem to be enough controls in there. So there's a neural link..." "That's what doctor Akagi calls it I think. But the worst part is that every time I go out, someone seems to get hurt." "But Shinji... it’s a war, if we don’t fight back-- people wont just get hurt, they'll die." "That doesn't mean I have to like it." Shinji said bitterly. []====[] []====[] "So then what happened?" Touji asked excitedly, "what else did he say?" It was Monday morning and Kensuke was still feeling depressed. As he relayed the events of the weekend to his friend he couldn't help but feel sorry for Shinji Ikari, the kid was in a situation far, far beyond his control. "He didn’t say anything else that night," Kensuke said, " he'd been out all day and was tired so we both turned in." "Well that sucks," Touji said, "so he wasn’t training at all then?" "I'm not going to repeat myself Touji-- this is what you get for blowing off my camping invitations all the time," he paused a moment then continued his tale, "Anyway as I was _saying_ that’s when we turned in. The next morning I'm just coming around when I hear someone outside the tent. I opened the flap and there-- right in front of me are three Nerv Security officers in full-on MiB uniform. I didn’t even have time to flinch before Shinji steps past me and stares the first guy down. I couldn't believe it, he didn’t even seem to be scared at all!" "So the goon starts talking then, and he says 'you are Shinji Ikari, correct?' and Shinji just nods like he doesn't even care. Then the guy starts quoting... let me think, um ' In accordance with clause eight of the Regulations for Public Security, we will now take you to Headquarters. Understand?' and Shinji just say 'yes' and goes with them." "Didn't you even try to help him?" Touji asked, shocked that his friend had given up so easily, "you just stood there and let them take him away?" "That's easy for you to say, they were Nerv intelligence-- trained professionals! I wouldn't have stood a chance." "Don’t you have any balls at all?" Touji demanded. As he heard a couple of the girls in back whispering to one another about that little outburst, Kensuke rolled his eyes. Touji would never make it in a military situation-- he had no sense of subtlety whatsoever. If he ever came under fire he would probably charge in and get himself shot instead of thinking his way through it. To that end he decided to enlighten his friend to the better part of valor. "Only an idiot fights when there is no chance of winning. Balls have nothing to do with it." About that time Hikari strolled in from some errand or another and asked what was new. As Kensuke told her she smiled... up until he reached the end of his tale. "So he's been taken back in then?" she asked as she sat down in one of the chairs nearby. "It seems so," Kensuke replied, "I hope he's not in too much trouble." "From the way he was acting the other day I think he might be." She told them about her meeting with Shinji earlier the same morning and how he had run off when he saw the security officer. As she finished, the three of them grew silent. It wasn’t like there was much they could do for him at the moment. None of them had any way to get in contact with him outside Captain Katsuragi, and she was most likely working. As the teacher entered class and everyone went through the morning ritual of standing and bowing, Hikari realized that there might be one way to find out. []====[] []====[] For the first time she could remember-- Hikari hurried through her lunch. Once she was done she started roaming the school grounds. She didn't know if she was on the right track or not... Kensuke was _usually_ reliable on these things, but he also had a nasty habit of letting his imagination get away with him. Her current idea revolved around a thin hope that he had told the truth about something that had happened earlier that year. Particularly a funny little story about Rei Ayanami. Apparently she had dropped her ID once, and before she picked it up he had caught a glimpse of the Nerv logo on it. His theory that Shinji was working for Nerv had been based off his earlier one that Rei did. It wasn’t the most believable story she had ever heard, but with everything that had happened lately, she thought it was at least worth a try. Also, it gave her the excuse she had been looking for to talk with Rei. She finally found the albino girl sitting on a bench not too far from the escalators. She was sitting in the shade and reading a book. Hikari smiled a bit, if Rei _was_ working for Nerv then she and Shinji had a great deal more in common than she had thought. She would have to approach this about the same way she had with Shinji-- which meant not giving up when they tried to back out of the conversation. 'Well' she thought, 'I can't just stand here all day.' And with that she stepped off the escalator platform and began walking toward Rei Ayanami. "Good afternoon, Rei." She said pleasantly. Rei looked up briefly and Hikari smiled. This smile fell, however, as Rei went right back to her book. This obviously wasn’t going to be easy... Hikari walked over and asked if the spot beside her was taken. When Rei didn’t respond to that-- she went ahead and sat down beside her. Without looking up, Rei turned the page in her book. 'Oookay...' Hikari thought, 'maybe she _isn't_ just shy like Ikari.' She wasn’t about to just give up so she tried once more to open a conversation. "Rei, I need to ask you about something." This finally seemed to catch the girl's attention and she finally turned to look at her. It was still just as disturbing to have those red eyes fixed upon her, but Hikari stood her ground. Apparently realizing that Hikari wasn’t going to go away, Rei spoke up. "Yes Representative Horaki?" "You know Shinji Ikari right?" "Yes" Rei said simply. "Um... do you know when he will be coming back to school?" Hikari asked hopefully. "I do not have that information," Rei replied. "Oh..." talking with Rei was obviously going to take some thinking, the girl seemed to answer with phrases that deliberately gave as little information as possible. "Well could I ask a favor?" "Why?" 'Ok... how in the world do I answer this?' Hikari thought. After a moment of pondering this she tried again. "Some of us were worried about him and I was hoping that you would know when he was coming back, or if he wasn’t-- where we could go see him to say goodbye." "I see." Rei said, then turned back to her book. A few moments of uncomfortable silence later, Hikari realized that Rei was not going to say anymore and it was unlikely that she would reply to any more of her questions or comments. With a defeated sigh, Hikari said goodbye and went back upstairs to the classroom. 'Well it was worth a try.' She thought as she looked back at Rei. []====[] []====[] Later that evening as Rei Ayanami was following Dr Akagi and Commander Ikari to another testing lab-- she listened to their conversation. "So the Third Child is leaving tomorrow..." Dr Akagi said, she seemed to be disappointed in this event, or perhaps it had more to do with the fact that Commander Ikari was not only allowing it but seemed relieved in it. "We will reconfigure Unit One's core data for Rei," he said, not bothering to look back at the woman he addressed-- the woman Rei knew he was having relations with beyond work. " Regardless of the results of Unit Zero's reactivation, we'll start with that Unit." There was a long silence and Rei thought back to her activation test with Unit Zero. Something had gone wrong and the Eva had broken free of control. She had been injured, and so they had called for Pilot Ikari. She vaguely remembered seeing him during the attack as she fell to the floor. She had been nowhere close to proper condition for battle, but she would have gone anyway. She did not understand the commander's reasons for calling her out that day, but it had been an order. She had even less understanding if Pilot Ikari's change of mind in the matter of piloting. Perhaps he did not know it had been an order? As she thought of this she heard the commander speak again "According to the Marduk Organization's report, the Fourth Child has yet to be found." Dr Akagi seemed to ponder this for awhile before responding. "So we can't get anymore pilots as of yet." As the escalator reached the top, she thought back to Representative Horaki's visit at school earlier that day. []====[] []====[] Hikari had just finished brushing her teeth and was about to turn in when the phone rang. Jumping slightly as she was directly beside it, and panicking a bit at the late hour of the call, she grabbed the phone and answered in a soft voice. "Horaki residence" The other end was silent. "Hello?" she asked, wondering if it was a prank call. "Representative Horaki." A familiar voice said from the other end. "Rei?" she asked with no small measure of surprise "Pilot Ikari will be leaving Tokyo Three at fourteen-hundred hours tomorrow afternoon." With that, the line went dead and Hikari was left there looking at the phone, trying to convince herself that Rei Ayanami had really been on the other end. []====[] []====[] They hadn't even let him say goodbye to Misato. He didn’t know if she even wanted to see him right now, but he would have at least liked to say goodbye to her. She had been kind to him during his stay. That might have been part of why he was so nervous around her, he was... unused to kindness. His Uncle had mostly just tolerated his presence and ignored him when he was around. Other than the music lessons the man had paid for- - Shinji couldn't remember ever having much to do with him if the older man had been able to avoid it. Misato on the other hand had not only seemed to enjoy having him around, but had gone out of her way to try and make him feel at home. Not that _he_ had tried very hard. It had just been that Shinji couldn't really believe that she was actually happy he was there. At first he tried to convince himself that she just wanted someone to do the chores, but even if he _did_ do most of them, it was just too farfetched. She had been so disappointed with him. He didn’t know how he could have explained it all to her when he still didn’t have it figured out. "If you hate all this so much; just leave!" she had said "Just forget about Eva and us and go back to where you came from!" He had been selfish. He was only worried about himself, he knew that on one level, but he still couldn't stay. He didn’t have anything to stay for. Everyone at school would be disgusted with him for running, but he really didn’t know anyone there so it didn’t matter. No one at Nerv would mind. Ayanami was almost healed, and she could pilot the Eva. They really didn’t need him anymore. 'Just who are you trying to convince?' he asked himself as he climbed out of the car and into the light. As his eyes adjusted, he saw something off to his right and turned just in time to catch the bag he had left in Kensuke's tent as it was tossed to him. It took three blinks of his eyes to convince himself that he wasn’t seeing things, and even then he didn’t believe it until Touji spoke up. "Hey Ikari! Ya left these behind." He, Kensuke and Hikari were standing there on the steps. What were they doing there? He turned back to the guard, who nodded and took a couple steps back Before he could even slow his thoughts down enough to ask anything, Kensuke tuned to Touji and pushed him forward. "Well, do it!" Hikari said sternly from behind the taller boy. Touji looked back at the two with much annoyance before tuning to Shinji. He had a grim look of determination in his eyes. Shinji couldn't even begin to think of what he wanted to say. Finally his unspoken questions were answered. "Look Ikari... I'm sorry I hit you. You have to hit me back." Shinji's eyes widened, and he looked to the other two, who seemed just as surprised as he was at Touji's words. "B-but I can't do that!" he said in a panic, as he unconsciously took a step back. Touji's eyes never wavered. He stood tall and spoke up again "you have to, otherwise I wont be able to let this go." "But..." Shinji said, completely befuddled at the taller boys request. Meanwhile Kensuke had decided the entire situation was highly amusing. Stepping forward and leaning around Touji slightly, he spoke up with a grin on his face. "He can be really embarrassing huh? But if it puts an end to this whole thing, you ought to go ahead and do it." Behind him the Nerv Security officers were checking their watches. As the seconds ticked by Touji frowned. Hikari was muttering to herself that she didn’t know either of the boys with her. "Hurry up, you don’t have much more time!" "...Okay, but only once," Shinji said, resigning himself to getting it over with. "Good, lets do this." Touji said as he planted his feet and braced himself. Shinji set his bag down and drew back. As his hand started arcing forward however Touji shouted for him to stop. Confused, Shinji froze in mid swing and looked to the taller boy for an explanation. "Don't hold back," Touji said with a determined growl. Shinji nodded, and for the first time in his life, pulled back and threw a real punch. He felt the impact all the way up in his shoulder as Touji stumbled back. His hand stung a little, but he couldn't honestly say the experience had been a bad one. In fact, as Touji regained his balance and touched his cheek-- there was a slight grin on his face. Behind him, Hikari and Kensuke were shaking their heads in wonder that Touji had actually done that. "How did you know I'd be here?" Shinji asked suddenly. "Once I found out you were leaving," Hikari said, "it wasn’t too hard to figure out where." "Yeah, " Kensuke added, " we've seen a lot of classmates leave lately." "Since you're leaving..." Touji said, still rubbing his cheek," We'll probably be going too before long. I can't really blame you, we all saw how you suffered in the Eva," his expression sobered suddenly, but it was mostly mock seriousness, "but if anyone _does_ try and blame you, I'll give 'em a boot to the head" Shinji didn’t know what to say. They were really sorry that he was leaving. He stood there for a moment slightly shaking his head and trying to come to terms with that fact. As he stood there, Hikari stepped up to him. To the three boys' surprise-- and possibly the MiBs, although it was impossible to tell-- she gave Shinji a hug. "Thank you for saving our lives" she whispered in his ear. Shinji found that at that moment couldn't move, or even speak. Coherent thought was also an activity that he found difficult, but he did manage a nod as she stepped away. Before he could try and say anything, the Security officer placed a hand on his shoulder. "It's time to go." He said as he led Shinji away from the three. As he and the two guards made their way into the train station, Shinji saw the three following them to the base of the stairs. Panic swept over him. Had he failed them? Was he doing the right thing? Was he really absolved from the guilt? No, he had to take responsibility! As he rounded the corner at the top he pulled back from the two guards and managed to lean around the corner as they pulled back. "I'm the one who deserved to be hit, not you!" He shouted as the two guards tried to restrain him, "I'm mean, cowardly, dishonest... and a wimp!" Before he could say any more, his guards managed to get a decent hold on him and haul him back up the stairs. Down below, Hikari, Touji and Kensuke watched this, completely stunned. They didn’t know what to say to that. []====[] []====[] Not very long afterwards as the three sat and waited for Shinji's train to arrive Kensuke spoke up. "That was your big plan?" "Huh?" Touji muttered, having been startled from some deep thought or another. " 'You gotta hit me back'... this was your brilliant plan to apologize?" Touji frowned and looked indignant. "Well yeah, what was wrong with it?" "If I have to tell you, then you will have learned nothing-- you'll have simply been told" Kensuke said sagely. "Well at least I didn’t 'glomp' the kid like the class rep here did!" Touji said under his breath. Unfortunately he did not say this low enough and he was immediately hit on the head by a thrown shoe courtesy of Hikari Horaki. Kensuke chuckled at that and shook his head, "If you had-- I would have been mad that I didn’t bring my camera. That footage would have made me a mint." "Stop it you two." Hikari said softly, without much conviction. She was looking up at the station sadly. The train had just arrived. "Hey Hikari, you look more gloomy than Shinji did. What's wrong?" Just when he though Hikari wasn’t going to answer she spoke up. "We never really had a chance to be his friends, I wonder if he had anyone back where he 's going that could be one." "I don’t know," Kensuke said regretfully. Before he could say anymore however, a blue car rocketed around a corner just as the train pulled out of the station. As they looked on, it screeched to a halt and Captain Katsuragi climbed out, looking at the departing train with sadness. "Hey! It’s the babe!" Touji said excitedly, and would have received another shoe to the head had Hikari not seen something inside the station as she stood up. Touji and Kensuke's eyes were riveted on the Captain, and until she looked up at the station itself and her jaw dropped open, they didn’t even see what Hikari had been looking at. As their eyes followed the path of the two girls amazed stares-- they saw Shinji standing at the terminal looking back at the Captain. After a long silence, as Shinji began to make his way back to the front of the building. Touji and Kensuke heard her whisper something--seemingly in response to his decision to remain. "He didn’t run." []==================[] To be continued... []==================[] Authors incoherent babbling Whew! Well there's part two, and thankfully from here out we wont be running so much off the scripts and episodes. Oh as I said before some events such as the Angel attacks wont be changed much, but the stuff that happens in Shinji, Hikari, and Misato's lives will be altered by this. Expect a lot of Hikari's family, a lot more of Touji and Kensuke, more classroom chatroom antics (I'm too much of a chat addict to pass this up) and in general just more of life in Tokyo Three. As far as Touji and Hikari, well I want to get something straight. While I do believe Hikari was fond of Touji, I don’t believe her interest was romantic until sometime after the halfway point of the series. This is mostly just guesswork mind you and my way of working it into the story. Apparently the class has known Rei since at least 1st grade (according to the literal translation series scripts) it is not too much of a stretch to say that Kensuke and Touji have know Hikari that long. Hotwire Chain Lightning Studios http://www.chainlightningstudios.com