subliminal

Subliminal Revenge
By Angela J.

"I am here about the apartment," said Jake.

Cedric never expected to see the bully that constantly tormented him
though out high school ever again. He had placed the ad in the local paper
looking for a roommate because his old roommate recently got married
and moved out. He just wanted a roommate to help with the expenses.
But fate brought something completely different. It brought Jake Peterson
to Cedric's front door.

Memory of humiliation and fear flooded Cedric's mind. In his mind,
Cedric could still hear his old nickname "Sissy Cedric." Jake gave him
that nickname when Cedric ran home instead of meeting Jake after school
to fight. The nickname probably would not have stuck, except for the fact
that Jake was much smaller than Cedric. But it wasn't fair. Despite his
small build, Jake was an athlete.    He was the starting quarterback in the
school football team, the tennis team captain, and the starting point guard
for the basketball team. Jake certainly was not the biggest guy in school,
but he was surprisingly strong and was the fastest, most agile and most
accurate athlete at the school. Cedric, on the other hand, despite being
large, was just clumsy. He knew that he never stood a chance in fight
against Jake. So why fight? If Cedric had only known then the
consequences of running from the fight, he would have gladly taken the
beating.

The nickname was terrible. But it didn't end with just name-calling. Jake
and his buddies actually made Cedric wear his sister's panties to school.
They threatened to beat up Cedric unless he obeyed their orders.   To
Cedric's horror, Jake made sure that everyone knew what Cedric was
wearing under his pants. After that incident, the guys barred Cedric from
the boy's bathroom. It got so bad, that Cedric, in desperation, complained
to the principal. But that only made things worse. The principal had a
"talk" with Jake. But instead of stopping the torment, Jake and his
buddies redoubled their efforts after the talk. One time, Jake and his
buddies pulled down Cedric's pants in front of several other students and
each took turns spanking Cedric's pantied bottom. Cedric's high school
days were a living hell after that incident.

But that was all in the past. It should have remained in the past. After all,
allot has happened since high school. He was no longer clumsy. Due to
his dedication to regular exercise, Cedric was in the best shape of his life.
He was even popular and was on the verge of being very successful. He
was a thesis away from getting a Doctorate in Psychology, but it wasn't
the degree per se that promised him a successful career. Through his
research, he found a method of delivering subliminal messages that
promised to be highly effective. All preliminary tests came out positive.
It was a difficult process and required repetition, but it seemed to work.
The secret was fairly simple, the subliminal messages had to be targeted
on the specific individual.

The time and promise of success healed some of the old wounds. But
seeing Jake seemed to remake the wounds. The memories actually pained
him. And the pain made him want something more than anything in the
world. Fate's temptation was just too much for Cedric. He wanted
revenge.

Cedric pictured himself punching Jake. But that thought vanished, when
to Cedric's surprise, he saw no sign of recognition from Jake. That
angered Cedric at first but then at once he knew that it presented an
opportunity. So Cedric forced a smile.

"My name is Carl," Cedric introduced himself using his middle name.
"Let me show you the place."

Jake was not happy with what he saw. The apartment was big enough and
the rent was cheap enough. But it was just too neat. He just moved out of
his girl's place because she constantly nagged him. One of the things she
nagged him about was to clean up after himself. The move had meant that
he had to get a job.   He hated to work and enjoyed mooching off of his
girl. But he couldn't stand another night of complaints.   Job or no job, he
had to get away from her.

Earlier that day, he found a job unloading trucks at a warehouse. It wasn't
the greatest job in the world but at least he didn't have to think. Jake
dropped out of College because he hated to think. He only gave College a
shot because he wanted to be a football star. But he was just too small for
College Football. After three years of sitting on the bench and only seeing
action during blowouts, it was obvious that he was not going to play any
meaningful minutes. He quit the team out of disgust and then quit school.
If he'd only been bigger he probably would have realized his dreams of
becoming a NFL quarterback. Not knowing what else to do, he joined the
army. But that also proved to be unhappy time. He hated waking up early
and having to obey orders. He got out as soon as his service time expired.
After that, it was a string of temporary jobs and girlfriends he could
mooch off of using his boyish good looks.

His latest girl was sexy and gave great head but was not the sharpest knife
in the drawer. She actually believed him when he told her that he loved
her and that he would someday marry her. She was completely shocked
when he moved out.

"You are not some kind of neat freak are you?" asked Jake looking at the
clean living room.

The way Jake asked that question left no doubt in Cedric's mind that Jake
was a slob, a slob that hated non-slobs. "No," answered Cedric, thinking
that he had to convince Jake to move in with him at all costs. "My former
roommate cleaned the place before he left. I am a total slob."

"Good," Jake said, "I guess I will give this place a try. But don't expect
us to become buddies or anything.   I will stay out of your business and
you stay out of mine, understood?"

Cedric smiled and nodded, effectively hiding his hatred.

"Which one is my room?" asked Jake. Jake moved in to the apartment by
carrying his large blue suitcase. And then, without even introducing
himself, walked to the bedroom that Cedric pointed to, and closed the
bedroom door behind him. He was happy to note that the room was
already furnished with a bed and a television. Jake tossed the contents of
his suitcase on to the floor and lay on the bed and turned on the television.
He flipped through the channels until he found professional wrestling and
then began to yell at the screen.

Cedric had all lot of work ahead of him to get his plan off the ground. In
order for his plan to work, Cedric had to be persistent and patient. He
needed to devote full concentration. He made several phone calls to his
friends, and family letting them know that he was not to be bothered. This
of course was not unusual for Cedric. He often took breaks from personal
life to immerse himself into his research.   Now all he had to do was check
in with his mentor professor once a week.

After guarding against unwanted interruptions, he went to his computer in
his bedroom and began programming various images and text that would
provide pay back. He merged Jake's high school yearbook photos with
pictures of a girl that resembled him. He found the girl's picture after
searching through the Internet for the right candidate. She looked like she
could have been Jake's sister.   After merging the pictures into different
stages of masculinity and feminity, Cedric loaded the merged pictures into
a database to create images of the merged character doing different
activities and in different surroundings.

While Cedric diligently worked on his program, Jake got beers from
Cedric's refrigerator without even asking and took them to his room.
After wrestling ended, Jake couldn't find anything that he wanted to
watch, so after an hour of just flipping through channels, he turned off the
television and concentrated on drinking all the beer. His goal was to get
drunk. That's what he did after he broke up with his girls. After several
hours of drinking, he finally fell asleep. The empty cans of beer were
tossed on top of his clothing.

The next day, Jake found his job unbearable. He had a big hangover from
drinking all night. But the worst part was that he hated working. It wasn't
that his job was tough, he just wasn't used to working. It was so boring.
Then, he saw and seized on the opportunity for fun. A guy twice as big as
Jake, was having a hard time with the boxes. He was actually
whimpering. Jake started to make fun of the guy by mimicking the
whimpering and laughing at the wimp. Soon everyone was laughing and
acting like the big wimp. The guy eventually actually looked like he may
cry. This brought on more teasing. Lunchtime was especially fun,
partially because he didn't have to work but partially because his new
friends laughed at Jake's jokes about the wimp.

After finishing the first phase of the program, Cedric went into Jake's
room to install and network a tivo system and a hidden camera. He was
disgusted to find several cans of beer on the floor. Jake's clothing on the
floor was bad enough, but the cans were just too much. The room stank.
Cedric would have to change that soon. After he networked his computer
with the just installed tivo system and the hidden camera, Cedric added
more messages and images to the program in reaction to his latest findings
and waited for his victim to come home.

Jake was glad to be back at the apartment. He hated work so much that he
thought about quitting several times. It wasn't that he hated the particular
job; he just hated work in general. He would have to find another girl or
would have to apologize to his to current girl before his roommate asked
for rent. Jake decided to work one more week or two to get some
spending money and then quit.   He could probably avoid paying the rent
for at least couple more weeks and then he would bail without paying.
He'd probably have to apologize to his girl, but he would worry about that
when the time came.   Jake, satisfied with his plans went to get more beer.
But remembering the hangover, he grabbed a can of coke and a sandwich
from the refrigerator and headed to his room. To his surprise, Jake saw a
tivo system attached to his television. He didn't think that it was there last
night. But then again, he was drunk last night so he probably just didn't
notice it. Without giving it another thought, he turned on the television
and flipped through the channels until he found college football on espn.
As he watched he thought to himself, "both quarterbacks suck, I could do
a much better job."

Cedric felt excitement as he loaded the first string of subliminal messages
into the tivo system "I like to watch television." "I don't want to miss
anything good." "The television should always be on." These and similar
messages were coupled with recently manufactured pictures of the
Jake/girl merged character watching television.   At this point, the merged
pictures showed allot more of Jake's features than the girl's. In fact,
unless you knew that these pictures were doctored, one would think that
they were pictures of a high school age Jake, who had slightly feminine
features. A barely visible background with pleasant images surrounded
the messages and the pictures, and together they flashed for fraction of a
second and then repeated over and over again.

After a short period additional messages, images, and backgrounds were
added. "I like my room clean." "I hate it when my room is dirty." "My
room should always be clean." "It bothers me when my room is a mess."
"I can't sleep in a dirty room." "I like cleaning my room." "It relaxes me
to clean my room." Again these messages were coupled with appropriate
images and backgrounds. Several old pictures of Jake's room in a clean
condition was shown with barely visible backgrounds that were pleasing
while recent pictures of his dirty room was shown with disturbing
backgrounds.   In addition, pictures of the merged character cleaning
Jake's room were shown with pleasant backgrounds. The merged
character, for now exhibited allot more male features than feminine
features. These messages, pictures and background repeated over and
over again in a loop with the messages, pictures and background regarding
the television.

After a short period, additional messages, pictures and background were
added to the loop.   "I like looking neat." "I think this underwear is neat."
"I think this underwear is boring." "This underwear fits perfectly." "This
underwear is uncomfortable." "I like wearing this underwear." and other
similar messages flashed. Images flipped on for fraction of a second to
reinforce the messages. Several pictures of the merged character, that was
more Jake than girl, wearing plain white female underwear was shown
with pleasing backgrounds while several pictures of the merged character
wearing similar plain male underwear was shown with boring
backgrounds.   The pictures with the female underwear was manipulated
to look like the underwear fit perfectly while the pictures with the male
underwear showed images of the merged character struggling with ill-
fitting underwear.

Jake watched television until he fell asleep from exhaustion. It wasn't
until the next morning, when he finally turned the television off.

Jake had another terrible day at work. His hangover was gone but so was
his entertainment. The guy that he was making fun of quit. But that
wasn't the only thing bothering Jake. His underwear was really
uncomfortable. It seemed to get botched up constantly.   The only thing
that prevented him from quitting was the knowledge that it was Friday and
that he would have the weekend to watch television.   For some reason, he
really wanted to watch television. He kept thinking about the
programming that he was missing by being at work.

As soon as he got to the apartment, he went straight to his room, took off
his jeans and removed his underwear and instantly felt better. After
tossing the worn underwear to the floor, he rummaged through his
clothing and found another pair. Unfortunately, it too felt uncomfortable
and looked boring.   He decided to ignore the discomfort for the moment
and finished getting re-dressed.   To help him ignore the discomfort, Jake
went into the kitchen and as expected grabbed a coke and a sandwich next
to it, with stickers indicating that they belonged to "Carl." He just tossed
the stickers to the kitchen floor and carried his meal to his room. What
Jake did not realize was that his coke and sandwich were coated with
tasteless, odorless female hormones that Cedric bought through the
Internet.

To an untrained eye, Jake looked the same as the night before. But thanks
to the hidden camera, Cedric could already see signs of change. Jake's
facial expression indicated that he was bothered.   He still tossed the
empty can of coke and the plate on to floor next to the other cans and
plate.   He didn't like the mess but it didn't bother him enough to do
something about it. So he still chose to lie on his bed and watch television
and ignore the mess.

Jake was pleasantly surprised that tivo automatically recorded programs
that it anticipated he would like. He watched a baseball game and couple
of action movies. The messages and images from the night before were
repeated. But instead of plain white female underwear, the female
underwear shown was peach colored and the merged character was
slightly more curvaceous. Jake watched until late night when he fell
asleep.

Jake woke up in the middle of the night feeling really uncomfortable. He
couldn't tell what bothered him more the uncomfortable underwear that he
was wearing or the damn mess in his room. He got up and took off his
pants and tossed it to the floor, and then removed his underwear and was
about to toss it too, but was momentarily distracted by the television being
on. Still holding the underwear in his hand, he searched in vein for the
remote.

"I can't find anything is this damn room," he said to himself. "No wonder
my girl nagged me so much. Without her, I am pig." That night, with the
television still on, Jake did something he hasn't done in years. He cleaned
his room.   Jake first took the plates and the cans into the kitchen and
placed them on the counter. It wasn't until he started hanging his shirts
and pants in the closet in his room that he found the remote. But by then,
he was fully awake and decided to continue watching television. After he
organized his shorts, he matched his socks and put them in a corner of the
closet. Jake then had a long look at all his underwear. He just didn't like
them. He decided to go without them and tossed all of his underwear into
a trashcan in the kitchen. He went back to his room feeling somewhat
better. He continued to watch television. As the messages and images
continued, the merged character and her panties became more and more
feminine. In addition, instead of showing Jake's room in dirty versus
clean condition, other rooms in the house were featured.

On Saturday morning, Jake intended to briefly interrupt his television
watch to get something to eat from the kitchen. But once in the kitchen,
Jake could not ignore the plates and cans on the counter. It just looked
terribly messy. He tossed the cans into the trash bag that already
contained his underwear and took the garbage out to the dumpster.   He
then washed the dishes and put them in to the appropriate cabinet. He felt
better about himself after that and rewarded himself by eating a peanut
butter and jelly sandwich that his roommate apparently made and marked
with a sticker that read "Carl's." But instead of taking it to his room, he
sat at the table in the breakfast room and ate his breakfast. After finishing
his meal and cleaning up, he went back to his room to watch more
television. But once he got there, he decided to make his bed and then to
do the laundry.   His clothing stunk and it caused the entire room to stink.
He spent most of Saturday morning cleaning and folding laundry. Finally
satisfied with his work, he ate lunch and proceeded to watch more
television. He watched several football games.

Cedric was pleased with the results thus far. Jake was cleaning and was
eating the specially coated meals. If things continued to proceed well,
Jake would be a sissy in no time.

After dinner, Jake watched a movie that featured several girls running
around in their panties and bras. Jake thanked Tivo for recording the
movie. He always enjoyed watching halve naked girls. Those girls
looked so cute in their respective panties. Some of the panties looked
perfect. He really liked the ones with lots of lace. As he watched the
movie, he started to remember that his girl had several panties like the
ones worn by the girls in the movie. He missed his girl. Perhaps he
wouldn't wait couple of weeks to apologize to his girl. After all, he knew
that she was right about cleaning after himself. He just had to live without
his girlfriend a few days to realize how messy he was.

After watching the movie, he walked over to his girl's place intending to
apologize. Unfortunately, no one responded to his knocks at the door.
When it became apparent that no one was home, Jake used his key to let
himself in to his girl's apartment, planning to wait for her inside the
apartment.   Once in, he was surprised by the messy condition of the
apartment. Was it always this messy? The place really needed to be
cleaned. Dishes were piled up in the sink and various items were tossed to
the floor. The place was so messy that it was making him sick. He really
didn't like being in the place.    Jake decided to write a letter to his girl and
leave as soon as possible. He went into their bedroom to look for a pen
and paper. Once in the room, his girl's dresser caught his attention. He
knew from memory that she kept her panties in the top left drawer of the
dresser. For some reason, he had to see her panties.   His hands felt
sweaty and his heart beat fast, as he opened the drawer. He saw beautiful
panties. They were even more beautiful than the ones worn by the girls in
the movie. This is what he loved about his girl. She always wore sexy
underwear. He let his hands feel the panties. They felt so comfortable, he
had to try one of them on. He quickly removed his shoes and jeans and
put on the panties. It felt so good, so right.

"WHAT THE HELL!" Jake heard his girl yell from behind him. He
turned to face her and heard her say, "You fucking faggot! To think I
wasted all my time with you.   Get out, get out of my apartment."

Jake quickly put his pants back up and put on his shoes and tried to think
of something to say. "I am not gay� I just�"

"You just like to wear my panties, is that it?" his girl said, "Get the fuck
out, you sissy! I never want to see you again," she began to cry.

Jake felt deeply ashamed. As he walked out the door, his girl continued to
yell at him, "Since you like panties so much, take them; take all of
them�" she tossed all her panties at him. "You've soiled them, I can
never wear them again� and take my bras too, you pervert." She then
tossed her bras out the door and then slammed her door shut.

He just stood there, facing the closed door, for a long time.   He was
mortified. "Why did I put on her panties?" He asked himself over and
over again. There was no satisfactory answer he could give himself. But
at the same time, he couldn't bring himself to leave the panties on the
ground. He wanted to wear them. Was he a sissy? The shame of wanting
to wear panties made him hesitate. But in the end, he looked down and
saw the beautiful panties and knew deep inside that he would take them.
He tossed the bras aside and carefully picked up the panties and put them
under his shirt, and carried them back to his apartment.

To Jake's relief, his roommate was out of sight. Jake quickly went to his
room and closed the door behind him. Cedric was really happy to see Jake
carefully hiding his panties in his room. Phase one was a huge success.

Jake spent the rest of Saturday cleaning. He was concerned about his
obsession over panties but wasn't going to ask anyone about that.
Cleaning helped to keep his mind off of it, so clean he did. He vacuumed
all the rooms, except his roommate's, which was locked. He mopped the
tiles and wiped the counters. He dusted the diploma and picture frames.
He even cleaned the bathroom. Cleaning helped him to relax.

Exhausted from the day's activity, Jake finally allowed himself time to
watch television before going to bed. He watched the recap of the college
games on espn. Unknown to Jake, new messages and images were loaded
into his tivo system that night.

"I need to lose weight." "I don't want to be fat." "I need to take diet
pills." "I want to be thin." "I am going to be thin." These and similar
messages were coupled with the manufactured pictures of the merged
character varying in weight.   The merged pictures still showed more of
Jake's features than the girl's. But some of the girl's features were really
noticeable. A barely visible background with pleasant images surrounded
the messages and the pictures of the thin merged character and the diet
pills, while an unpleasant background surrounded the pictures of the
heavier merged character.

Before too long additional messages, pictures and backgrounds were
added to the loop. "I like my body without body hair." "I hate it when my
body has hair." "My body should always be devoid of hair." "It bothers
me when I have body hair."   "My body hair makes me itch." "I like
getting rid of my body hair." "It makes me feel sexy to have no body
hair." Again these messages were coupled with appropriate images and
backgrounds. Several pictures of the merged character without body hair
were shown with barely visible backgrounds that were pleasing while
pictures of the merged character with body hair were shown with
disturbing backgrounds.   In addition, pictures of the merged character
using hair removal cream were shown with pleasant backgrounds. The
merged character still exhibited more male features than feminine features.
But some of the feminine features were clearly showing.

After a short period, additional messages, pictures and background were
added to the loop.   "I like looking neat." "I think this pants is neat."   "I
think this pants is boring." "this pants fits perfectly." "this pants is
uncomfortable." "I like wearing this type of pants." and other similar
messages flashed.   Several pictures of the merged character wearing
feminine jeans were shown with pleasing backgrounds while several
pictures of the merged character wearing similar male jeans were shown
with boring backgrounds.   The pictures with the feminine jeans was
manipulated to look like the jeans fit perfectly while the pictures with the
male jeans showed images of the merged character struggling with ill-
fitting jeans.

As the time passed, the style of the feminine jeans became more and more
feminine. The seat area ballooned, zippers disappeared, the fabric became
more colorful, and floral patterns were added.

Jake woke up feeling terribly uncomfortable. His panties fit fine. But his
pants felt awkward. Jake took off his pants hoping that this simple act
would magically make him feel better. But to his surprise it only
marginally helped. It wasn't just the pants. His entire body felt heavy and
his body hair itched him. He took off his shirt too but that provided no
help. No matter how he scratched his itch, it didn't go away. It was his
damn body hair. He hated how hairy he was. "I am freaking fat hairy
monster," he told himself. "No wonder my pants don't fit me."

After confirming his suspicion that the rest of his pants would be just as
uncomfortable, Jake began to obsess about losing weight and getting rid of
his body hair.    He felt like he was going out of his mind. He fought the
nagging discomfort and tried to forget it by concentrating on the Sunday
morning football preview show.   But the more he watched the more
uncomfortable he felt. Jake decided that he needed to immediately take
care of at least one of his problems, his body hair.    Intending to shave his
entire body, Jake went to the bathroom, covering his panty with a towel,
and began to look for a razor. Jake looked in the bathroom cabinet for a
razor but instead found a hair removal cream and a bottle of diet pills.
"Why did his roommate have this stuff?" he wondered. It made no sense.
But the answer didn't seem all that important compared to his immediate
need to get rid of his offensive body hair, he used the cream on his entire
body, reluctantly taking off his panties to remove his pubic hair. He then
sat in a hot tub as instructed on the cream's jar. After soaking for a long
time, he felt better. He looked in the full-length mirror and was pleased to
note that all his body hair was gone. He now just needed to take care of
his weight problem.

He swallowed two pills as instructed on the bottle and vowed to take two
each day from now on. After cleaning the bathroom, he went back to his
room and hid his worn panties. He put on another delicate panties, and
tried on one of his pants. It still didn't feel right. He began to worry. He
took the pants off and took a good look at his body again. It was
completely devoid of hair. He could see his red panties. "What am I
doing?" Jake questioned himself. "I am going crazy."    Then memory
struck him. The diploma that he dusted yesterday read "B.S. in
Psychology." His roommate was a shrink. He needed his help.

Jake knocked on his roommate's bedroom door and was relieved to find
that he was home. It was extremely difficult to tell his roommate about
what was bothering him. He just stood there having second thoughts
about telling his roommate about anything. It was just too embarrassing.
As it turned out, he didn't have to say anything initially.

Cedric was shocked to hear a knock on his bedroom door. He was
diligently working on the next set of images and didn't expect any visitors.
Everyone knew not to bother him, when he asked to be left alone. Who
could it be? After turning off his computer he opened his door to find
Jake dressed only in red panties. Jake looked totally ridiculous with the
panties and the completely de-haired body. Cedric had to fight very hard
not to laugh.

"Is that women's panties," Cedric asked, faking surprise.

Jake looked down in horror and realized that in his panic and need to seek
help, he neglected to put on something over his panties. "I�I�feel so
ashamed. I saw that you majored in Psychology� I need your help." he
said.

Cedric was amused. The hated macho bully was actually seeking help.
He was showing his vulnerable side. Cedric wanted to hear more.
"There's nothing to be ashamed," Cedric said, "I have studied about
Transvestites and learned that it's actually quite common." "I was just
momentarily shocked by it."

"I am not a transvestite," answered Jake, "at least I don't think I am. Or I
wasn't until recently. I really need your help."

Seeing an opportunity to move along the feminization, Cedric smiled and
said "Let's go sit on the sofa, and you can tell me everything," stated
Cedric, "and then perhaps I can help."

Jake started by repeating that until very recently he never had any desire to
wear panties. He told him that once inside his girlfriend's apartment, he
really had a desire to wear her panties. He confessed how he couldn't
resist wearing them. Cedric slowed Jake down with questions and in
response, Jake explained that he broke up with his girlfriend prior to
moving in to the apartment, and that he found male underwear to be
uncomfortable and was just finding his pants to be equally uncomfortable.
He further explained how he felt about his body hair and his weight.

Cedric calmly listened to Jake's tale and stated that the breakup with his
girlfriend was the cause for his recent transvestite desires. "Deep inside
you are insecure about your masculinity and the breakup just brought your
insecurities into the surface and has manifested itself as transvestism,"
Cedric lied. "You will probably want to wear more and more feminine
clothing and may even want to act feminine."

Jake found his roommate's words disturbing. "What's the solution?" he
asked.

"You have to give into these desires completely," answered Cedric, "only
then will you be able to get it out of your system. This means that you
have to wear women's clothing as much as possible and act feminine."

"But other than panties, I don't have any female clothing," stated Jake.

"Then you will have to buy them," Cedric stated and continued noting the
hairless body, "My old girlfriend left some hair removal cream and diet
pills that you are welcome to, but she didn't leave anything else." Cedric
was happy that he no longer had to prepare special meals for Jake. His
"diet pills" were actually female hormones and would do the trick.

"Buy? But�" Jake began.

"No buts," Cedric stated, "unless you want to be a transvestite for the rest
of your life."

That thought scared Jake but he still hoped for another solution.   "Is there
no other way?"

"No," replied Cedric.

Jake nodded signaling his understanding.

"One more thing," Cedric stated, "we need to feminize your name�
how's Jackie?"

Per his roommate's advise, Jackie found himself at the local mall. He
knew that he was there to buy women's jeans for himself but was not
prepared to do so.   Therefore he delayed it by going to the food court.
But instead of the usual burger and fries, he got a small salad and bottled
water. He felt heavy.

After delaying more by pretending to do some window-shopping, Jackie
was finally in a clothing store.   Still afraid, Jackie hung out in the men's
section but could not help but stare at the "miss" section.   It disgusted him
that part of him actually wanted to try on some of the jeans displayed in
the "miss" section.

His plan was to buy one feminine jeans and only wear it in his apartment.
Discomfort or not, he could not risk anyone seeing him wearing girl's
jeans. He slowly made his way into the "miss" section almost as if he was
lost. He began looking at the selection of jeans and was humiliated to note
that he wanted to wear the most feminine jeans. Jackie pictured himself
wearing the various jeans, in an almost daydreaming fashion.

"Can I help you?" asked a saleslady.

"Ah� " Jackie's face became red and he didn't know what to day,
"Ah�"

Instantly the saleslady knew what was going on. This guy was a
transvestite and wanted to buy feminine clothing but was too embarrassed
to say it. She heard stories from other sales staff but never encountered a
transvestite before. She was told not to laugh, that transvestites made allot
of purchases if they feel comfortable.   She smiled and hid her desire to
laugh at Jackie. "Are you looking for some clothing for your girlfriend?"
she asked.

"Yes," Jackie said. "I mean I want to purchase a pair of jeans for my
girlfriend."

"What's her size?" the saleswoman asked.

"I am not sure," Jackie responded.

"Is she about your size?" asked the saleslady quickly losing her patience
with the pervert.

"Yes," Jackie answered, "she's about my size."

"These will probably fit her," she said pointing to a specific section, "but
you can't be too sure unless SHE tries them on." Despite herself, the
saleswoman could not help but emphasize the word "she" almost
sarcastically.

Jackie hesitated and the saleslady became even more impatient. The
saleslady then lowered her voice and winked, "do you want to try them on
or not?"

She knew. Jackie was truly mortified. But at the same time he couldn't
deny it. He had little cash and he was almost at the limit on his credit
card. He couldn't buy more than one pair. And the last thing he wanted
was to come back because the jeans didn't fit him properly. So he meekly
said, "yes, I want to try them on."

Jackie picked out several styles of jeans and went into the changing room.
He knew which jeans he wanted. He wanted the most feminine pair. But
he was still afraid to give into his desire so completely. So in the end, he
chose jeans that he thought were marginally feminine. The jeans were
tight everywhere but his behind, where it was purposely faded to attract
attention.   But in his mind, he actually looked good in them. As he left
the store with his purchase, he thought he heard the saleswoman laugh at
him with a coworker. He quickened his steps to get away from her.

As soon as he arrived in his apartment, he headed to his room and changed
into his newly acquired purchase. It felt great. Finally relaxed for the first
time in his life, he began to watch television. Unbeknownst to Jackie
more hidden messages, images and backgrounds were loaded into his
television. The messages, images, and backgrounds were similar as before
except that they covered his facial hair instead of his body hair and the
jeans were no longer jeans but changed to other types of pants: dress
pants, stretch pants, and even shorts.   By the end of the night, images of
tights and leotards replaced the pants.   The need for "diet pills" was also
heavily reinforced. Jackie fell asleep still wearing his panties and jeans.

Jackie couldn't go to work dressed like this. Could he? "No one will
know," he told himself.   "But what if someone notices," he asked himself.
Jackie couldn't decide. Delaying his decision, he went into the bathroom
and removed his clothing. After reapplying the hair removal cream and
taking two more diet pills, Jackie took a bath. After taking the bath and
cleaning the bathroom, Jackie had a good look in the mirror. To Jackie,
his face was just too hairy. Jackie applied the hair removal cream to all
areas of his face and neck that showed signs of a beard and then proceeded
to pluck his eyebrows. His original intent was to take it easy on the
eyebrows. But before he was done with them, his eyebrows were thin
high arches.

Finished with his toiletries, Jackie walked back to his room wearing a
towel. He quickly and expertly made his bed and then chose to wear a
nice pair of panties. He then wore a large t-shirt and again was having an
internal debate whether to wear his feminine jeans.

Cedric again heard a knock on his bedroom door and opened it to find
Jackie. To Cedric's amazement, Jackie actually looked like a girl, a
tomboy with flat chest in an oversized t-shirt and panties to be precise, but
a girl nonetheless. The plucked eyebrows were the real difference maker.
Cedric didn't realize how girlish Jake looked before due to the thick
eyebrows. Perhaps, Jake was truly insecure about his masculinity due to
his pretty boy face and small stature. Perhaps Jake teased Cedric so much
during high school, in order to defray any notice about his girlish looks.
Jackie really did make an attractive girl. The illusion was only broken
when Jackie spoke in his normal masculine voice. "Can I ask your
opinion about something? Do you think it's obvious that these are girls'
pants," Jackie asked holding up the faded pants.

"No," Cedric lied, "I think they look like regular jeans. I can't tell
whether it's a boy's or girl's pants"

"Thank you," Jackie said relieved with the answer. After putting on his
special pants, he noted how late he was for work and ran out of the
apartment to get to work.

Jackie could tell that all of his coworkers noticed. No one said anything.
But they gave him funny looks and stayed away from him. Jackie was
mortified. He could feel their eyes on his face and body. He wanted to go
hide. During lunchtime, Jackie ate all by himself, if you could call the few
bites he took out of his hamburger eating. He was really worried about
what his coworkers were thinking about him. Did they think that he was a
wimp? He certainly did not want to be the target of jokes. After lunch,
things didn't get any better. Other than stares, the guys still refused to
acknowledge Jackie. The workday seemed to last forever until it
mercifully ended.

On the way home, Jackie promised himself that he would never wear the
female jeans again.    But at the house, he couldn't throw it away.   He
took it off and tried several of his other pants but all of them felt
uncomfortable. Jackie was getting extremely frustrated. In anger, Jackie
gathered all his pants except the feminine jeans he was wearing again and
put them in to the dumpster. He then locked himself into his bedroom and
for the first time since he was a baby, he cried. But despite the depression,
Jackie turned on the television.

When Cedric saw Jackie crying through the hidden video camera, he
actually felt sorry for him. But that thought vanished quickly, when he
began to remember the torment that Jake caused him.   "He deserves this,"
Cedric told himself. Cedric knocked on Jackie's bedroom door. "I can
hear you crying. Perhaps, you will feel better if you talk about it." Jackie
turned down his television and let Cedric in.   He told Cedric what
happened at work and how he ended up throwing away all his pants. "It's
for the best," Cedric said, "as I told you, you need to get it out of your
system. Don't fight it. The quicker you indulge yourself in transvestite
desires the quicker you will be cured of it." Jackie finally stopped crying
and nodded to indicate understanding. Then to both individuals' surprise,
he hugged his roommate. "Thank you," he said, "for all your help."

"You are welcome," Cedric said and hugged back. He didn't know why
but he actually felt good hugging Jackie. After breaking the hug,
however, he felt very awkward in the room. He quickly excused himself
and left the room.

Once back in his own room, Cedric was very happy with phase two.
Jackie was even acting feminine without any subliminal commands to do
so. His program worked better than he anticipated. Proud with success,
Cedric loaded another set of commands.

"I need to exercise." "I need a flat stomach." "I need shapely legs."
"Lifting weights is too hard." "I don't want to gain muscle." "I like
aerobic exercise." "I want to be toned not big." These and similar
messages were coupled with the manufactured pictures of the merged
character.   The merged pictures had equal part male and female features.
A barely visible background with pleasant images surrounded the
messages and the pictures of the merged character doing aerobic exercises
and the body image that this type of exercise would bring, while an
unpleasant background surrounded the pictures of the merged character
lifting weights or having muscle.

As before, additional messages, pictures and backgrounds were added to
the loop. "I like my hair long." "I like my hair to be styled." "I hate it
when my hair isn't properly styled." "My hair should have some curls. "It
bothers me when my hair is a mess."     "I need to style my hair. " "It
makes me feel sexy to have nice hair." Again these messages were
coupled with appropriate images and backgrounds. Several pictures of the
merged character with long flowing hair were shown with barely visible
backgrounds that were pleasing while pictures of the merged character
with male styled hair were shown with disturbing backgrounds.    The
merged character exhibited as much female features as male features.

Within a few minutes, additional messages, pictures and background were
added to the loop.   "I feel comfortable sitting with my legs crossed." "I
feel obscenely exposed sitting with my legs uncrossed."   "My wrists feel
comfortable when they are limp" "It pains me to have my wrists firm." "I
feel sexy when I sway my hips from side to side when walking." "It feels
weird to walk straight. " "When I feel sexy, I like batting my eyes
quickly." "I like touching my hair and swinging my hair," and other
similar messages flashed.   Several pictures of the merged character
gesturing and posing in feminine fashion were shown with pleasing
backgrounds while several pictures of the merged character behaving in a
masculine fashion were shown with negative backgrounds.

After watching television for a few hours, Jackie took a break to eat
dinner. He went into the kitchen and ignored the sandwich that had the
sticker labeled "Carl's." After all, his roommate was being kind and
eating his sandwich would be wrong. Jackie prepared and ate a salad and
washed the dishes. He then decided to do the laundry. Jackie changed
panties and shirt, but noted with concern that he had no other pants to
wear while his girlish pants was being washed. He decided that he would
need another pair. Finally finished with his laundry, Jackie carefully
folded his clothing and watched more television before falling asleep late
into the night watching several programs on aerobic exercise and hair
management.   For some reason he had a new found interest in these
programs and lucky for him tivo recorded several of them.

Jackie woke up late and was already late for work. But despite this fact,
he couldn't just leave for work. He had to make his bed and had to use the
cream to remove any remaining body hair and he had to take a bath and
had to take his pills. He even had to style his short hair.   He spent an hour
on his hair but it was just too short to do anything fancy. That's when he
decided to grow it out. He knew he would look sexier with long hair.
"The girls will love it." He thought.    Looking at the clock and realizing
that he was really late, he began to dress. He wore another t-shirt and
panties but hesitated wearing the feminine jeans. But there was nothing
else to wear, so he wore it and ran to work.

As Jackie approached the work sight, he heard a guy say to others, "here
comes Jane. She even runs like a girl." The others started to laugh. "and
look at her hair."

Jackie looked around to see who this Jane was and then realized that the
guys were talking about him. "Hey, my name is Jackie, not Jane."

"You could have fooled me, Miss." Said one of his coworkers. All the
others laughed.

Jackie was so humiliated that he began to cry. He ran to his boss' office
intending to report the mistreatment from his coworkers.

But instead of support his boss lectured him about tardiness.   "You are
fired," said his boss.   "This is the second time you've been late and you
are too much of a distraction for everyone else." He handed Jackie an
envelope and said, "This is your one and only paycheck. Leave right now
and don't ever come back."

The old Jake would have torn the check, spit on his bosses' face and
would have walked out in triumph. But Jackie needed the money to buy
more pants. So he meekly accepted the envelope and thanked his boss and
left.

It wasn't much. After all, he only worked a few days. But it was at least
something.   He took the check to a near by check cashing place.

"Can I help you miss," asked the clerk at the check-cashing place.

Jackie handed the check and his driver license.

The Clerk looked at the check and i.d. and said, "You can't cash a check
made out to some else. Jake Kardon needs to come here himself." He
was about to return the check and i.d. back to Jackie.

"I am Jackie� I mean, Jake Kardon," answered Jackie.

The masculine voice startled the clerk. He took a close look at the i.d. and
then the person standing in front of him. "You look so different from the
i.d.," he said, "you even move like a girl. But I can see now that you are
the person on the i.d." He exchanged the check with cash and returned the
i.d.   "If I were you, next time you come cash your check I would be less
femme to avoid any confusion."

Jackie ignored the clerk's advice and walked out with his cash and i.d. and
headed for the mall. This time he didn't hesitate. He walked straight to
the miss section of the department store and looked for things to purchase.

"Can I help miss." Asked the same saleswoman as the last time Jackie was
there to shop.

"I am looking for a pair of jeans, tights, shorts, and leotard," Jackie
responded.

The saleswoman did a double take. "Oh my God, you are looking good,
girl," she said smiling. She had heard that transvestites liked to be
referred as girls. "I didn't even recognize you." She said.   She helped
Jackie pick out several outfits.   But in the end, do to short funds, Jackie
could only purchase a leotard for exercise and a red shorts for relaxing at
home.   He thanked the saleslady and left the department store. But before
he could leave the mall, his eyes caught a wig store. Almost mesmerized
by the store, Jackie walked into it. He saw several wigs that he wanted but
knew that he didn't have the funds to buy. Jackie really needed a wig.
His hair was just too short. He hoped that his credit card could take one
last purchase. After trying out several wigs, he brought one that he
especially liked to the counter and nervously presented his credit card.
Jackie thanked his lucky stars that the transaction was approved.

The first thing Jackie did when he got home was to put on the wig. It
looked great. It was long red head wig that had just enough curls to give it
that extra feminine look. He posed this and that way. At first his
appearance made him happy but then he soon realized what he had done.
He spent all his money on these items and was acting queerer than ever
before. He almost took off the wig intending to return it to the store but
something in him stopped him. Jackie realized that he was indeed a sissy.

With tears in his eyes, he went back to his room. In order to distract
himself from the self-pity he turned on the television.   Tivo recorded
several aerobic exercise programs. Feeling a little heavy, he decided to
work out. He changed into his leotards and followed the work out
program. Jackie had to use his full attention to keep up. It was more
difficult than it appeared.

Cedric was surprised to see Jackie home so early. "Something must have
happened at work," he thought. He watched Jackie work out through the
hidden camera and he liked what he saw. The wig made Jackie pretty.
Jackie's body needed to develop but his face was definitely pretty. Cedric
was shocked by his thoughts. Did he really find Jackie attractive? Cedric
feared the answer to that question. So instead of dwelling on it, he
decided to start the next phase in the program.

"I enjoy cooking." "I like to bake." "I love to spend all my time in the
kitchen preparing a delicious meal." "I need to learn how to cook." "I am
a failure unless I know how to cook." "I self actualize when I cook."
These and similar messages were coupled with the manufactured pictures
of the merged character.   The merged character had more feminine
features than male features. A barely visible background with pleasant
images surrounded the messages and the pictures of the merged character
cooking.

As before, additional messages, backgrounds were added to the loop. "I
want my voice to be higher." "I like my voice to be a soprano." "I hate it
when my voice sounds masculine." "I will use softer tones. "It bothers me
when people think I have a deep voice." "I need to speak in a feminine
manner." "I love to giggle." But unlike before there were no pictures.
These messages were instead coupled with appropriate voices.   Jake's
original voice obtained from recordings from the hidden camera was
manipulated to give it a higher pitch.    The higher pitches were coupled
with pleasant backgrounds while the lower pitches were coupled with
unpleasant backgrounds.

Within a few minutes, additional messages, pictures and background were
added to the loop.   "I like wearing jewelry." "I need to pierce my ears."
"I like wearing these type of shoes."   "I need my purse to match my
clothing." "I feel naked without at least a necklace, a ring and a bracelet."
"I feel sexy in heels." "It feels weird to walk without any heels," and
other similar messages flashed.   Several pictures of the merged character
wearing feminine accessories were shown with pleasing backgrounds
while several pictures of the merged character not wearing any accessories
were shown with negative backgrounds.

After exercising, Jackie carefully took a bath, doing all he could to prevent
his wig from getting wet. And then he changed into his shorts for the
night. But instead of going straight to bed, he decided to eat dinner.   In
the kitchen, he saw his roommate looking in the refrigerator for something
to eat. That's when Jackie felt a little guilty for stealing all of his
roommate's food. He felt grateful that his roommate thus far didn't make
a big deal about the food. Since he couldn't afford to buy grocery, he
decided to show his appreciation by cooking dinner.

Jackie cleared his throat to get his roommates' attention, using a higher
pitch then normal. He braced himself for the reaction from his roommate
for the wig and the shorts. But his roommate didn't seem all that surprised
and better yet did not show disdain.

Cedric was pleased when Jackie offered to cook dinner and readily
accepted. As Cedric observed, Jackie tried to go to work.   But as he
prepared to cook, Jackie realized that he didn't know how to make
anything. Jackie felt embarrassed that he was a terrible cook. After
stalling a bit, Jackie finally boiled spaghetti noodles and warmed up the
bottled spaghetti sauce. Not happy with his inabilities to cook spaghetti
from scratch, Jackie vowed to at least do the best he could do. He cooked
and cut up a sausage and washed and chopped several vegetables and
added them to the sauce.   In addition, he made a garden salad to go with
the main course.

As they ate dinner, Jackie explained what happened that day. He told
Cedric all about the workers making fun of him, pointing out that they
even nicknamed him Jane.

"Why, I think that's a lovely name," responded Cedric. "Until you are
cured from your transvestite tendencies, you should adopt it as your
name."

"But," Jane protested.

"Don't fight it," said Cedric, "you must let it get out of your system."

Jane nodded her understanding and continued with her story. She told
Cedric about getting fired and how she couldn't control herself from
spending all her money. The thought occurred to Jane that revealing her
financial fortunes to her roommate could be dangerous. He could decide
to kick her out of the house. But she couldn't bear to hide it from
someone who was so nice to her. "This probably means that I can't pay
my share of the rent this month. I understand if you want me to move out
immediately." She said.

Cedric actually felt sorry for Jane. "Don't worry about this month's rent.
I know you are going through a hard time. I will cover for you."

"Thank you," said Jane in a voice that was higher than ever before, "thank
you so much," and she hugged Cedric again. She began to cry. "You've
been the only nice person since my nightmare started."

At that moment, Cedric had doubts about what he was doing. He really
felt for the person hugging him and the thought that he was causing her
torment caused him pain. He hugged her tight.

"I will make it up to you by cooking and cleaning the house and I promise
to find a job as soon as possible," Jane stated and kept her first part of the
promise that night by washing all the dishes and cleaning the house once
more.

Cedric thought about what he was doing to Jane, long and hard. But in the
end decided that there was no turning back. So that night, as Jane watched
several cooking shows so that she could become a better cook, more
messages about cooking, accessories and exercise filled her head.

The next day, Cedric watched Jane as she got up from bed and started her
day by making her bed and exercising. The effects of the hormone pills
were beginning to show. Cedric saw that Jane's behind was slightly larger
and there were the beginnings of puffiness on her chest. Cedric found the
vision in his computer monitor captivating. He couldn't take his eyes off
of the loveliness.

After finishing her exercises, Jane invited Cedric to join her for breakfast.
To Cedric's surprise, she expertly made omelets.   After cleaning up, she
went into the bathroom and an hour later appeared prettier than before.
She changed into her jeans and nice looking shirt and stepped out to look
for a job.

Unfortunately for Jane, she was having a hard time getting a job. All the
usual places that Jake had gone to find a job was not working for her.
Construction sites, warehouses, and car repair shops were not interested in
hiring someone that looked like Jane. She went home tired and dejected to
prepare dinner for her roommate. She took solace in the fact that she was
now a decent cook and was pleased to see that Cedric enjoyed his meal.
During dinner, she talked about her day and shared that she was having
difficulties finding a job. Cedric advised that she should probably look for
a more feminine job. "You can apply for a secretary or a receptionist
position." Jane listened to the advice intently and had to agree that it
made sense.

After cleaning up, Jane excused herself to her room and watched more
cooking shows. She was really thankful to tivo for recording shows she
wanted to watch.

That night more messages were loaded into the tivo system. "I like
wearing skirts and dresses." "That dress makes me look lovely." "This
skirt makes me feel pretty." "I look sexy in this dress." "I love to show
my legs by wearing short skirts." "I like it when men stare at my skirted
bottom." These and similar messages were matched with the
manufactured pictures of the merged character wearing various skirts and
dresses and with a feminine voice repeating the messages out loud.   The
merged character looked like a female with some minor male features. A
barely visible background with pleasant images surrounded the messages
and the pictures of the merged character wearing the various skirts and
dresses.

As before, additional messages, pictures and backgrounds were added to
the loop. "I like wearing lipstick." "I have to wear foundation." "Blush
makes my face come alive." "Long eyelashes make me look sexy." "I feel
naked without makeup." "Eyeliners make me feel adorable. " "I love it
when men admire my perfectly made-up face." "My fingers need to be
manicured and painted." These and similar messages were matched with
pictures of the merged character wearing and putting on different makeup
and a feminine voice that repeated the messages and pleasant
backgrounds.

Within a few minutes, additional messages, pictures, voice and
background were added to the loop.   "I want to have breasts." "I like to
wear bras." "I think this bras is especially sexy." "I hate having a flat
chest."   "My dress would look so much sexier if I had breasts." "I like it
when men admire my breasts," and other similar messages flashed.
Several pictures of the merged character with breasts showed with
pleasing backgrounds while several pictures of the merged character with
flat chest were shown with negative backgrounds. A feminine voice was
added that repeated the messages.

Jane woke up having a need to shop. She really needed jewelry, shoes,
purses, skirts, dresses, lipstick, fingernail polish, pantyhose, more panties,
jeans� and on and on. Bras, she really needed bras. She felt so
inadequate in her chest, a bra could conceal the fact that she was flat. She
could kick herself for not picking up all those lovely bras when her
girlfriend through them at her. But it was too late for that and she didn't
have any money and her credit was probably maxed out. If only she had a
job. She quickly made her bed, exercised, took care of any stray body
hair, and took her pills, and took her bath. She cut one of her shirts so that
the neckline was lowered so that the upper part of her chest was showing.
She wore the altered shirt and her red shorts.

As advised she tried to get a job get a job as a secretary. But as soon as the
hiring person found out that she couldn't type and had no experience as a
secretary, she was told that she was not qualified. After driving around
town aimlessly looking for a job she saw help wanted sign at a truck stop
restaurant and decided to give it a try.

She was hired a waitress and was given a waitress dress to wear. It was
hard work but she decided to tough it out. But as the day progressed into
the evening she was having doubts as to whether she could handle her job
duties. The waitress part of the job was hard enough, but the terrible part
was that a few of the customers were not gentlemen. Some of them would
drop their forks or napkin and stare as the waitresses bent down to fetch it
for them.   Jane had to admit that part of her actually enjoyed the attention.
A few of them went further and pretended to accidentally rub their hands
against the waitresses' behind as they walked by their table.   This made
her sick. One old guy nicknamed the spanker actually spanked the girls
lightly when they bent down to pick up various items. She hated the old
fart. All the patrons would laugh at the old man and tease him for being a
pervert. To Jane's surprise all the waitresses took these incidents with a
smile. When Jane asked another waitress about this situation, the waitress
replied, "if you want to get tips then play along." So Jane played along
and smiled to hide her humiliation.   She even took the Spanker's special
with a smile.

But after her shift was over, Jane's emotion spilled to the surface. She just
couldn't take it anymore and had to excuse herself to the ladies' room to
hide her tears of shame. Luckily, Charlene, another waitress, came into
the restroom and gave her comfort. When Jane admitted to Charlene
about her financial condition and her inability to buy some of her
necessities, Charlene offered to help her out. Charlene collected from
other waitresses some makeup and other feminine items.   "I know it's not
much hone, but at least it will be a start," she said. As she left the
restaurant for the night, Jane thanked all the girls.

She came home still wearing her new waitress uniform. She carried her
shorts and t-shirt and various makeup in a bag. It was late evening and she
was tired, but she decided that she still needed to make her roommate his
dinner. So diligently she cooked the best meal yet and offered it to her
roommate.

As Cedric ate, Jane told him about her day at work.   It angered him when
he heard how the customers treated Jane. She didn't deserve that type of
treatment. He told her to quit her job immediately.

But Jane refused, telling him that she needed the money.

"Is it the money or are you enjoying being felt up by men?" Cedric said.

Jane looked hurt by Cedric's question and began to cry. "I hate them. It
disgusts me when they touch me that way but there's nothing I can do. I
need a job and am not qualified for anything else."

Cedric could kick himself for asking such a mean question. What
prompted him to ask it? Was he actually jealous?   He quickly apologized
for his stupid question.

Jane accepted the apology and stated, "It's not your fault. If you were
dressing and acting like I am, I'd probably ask the same question."

Cedric hugged Jane to give her comfort and she accepted the hug. That's
when Cedric realized that he really did care for Jane. He liked Jane. He
wanted her.   The thought scared Cedric so much that he had to leave the
kitchen. He lied about having to do some work and left quickly. Once
inside his room he spent several minutes soul searching.   In the end, he
decided to change the program slightly.

That night, Cedric loaded more messages and images to the tivo system.
"I like playing tennis." "I enjoy dancing with a man." "I have fun being
the life of a party." "It's fun to be a hostess of a party." "I enjoy girl-talk."
"One of my hobby is decorating." These and similar messages were
matched with the manufactured pictures of the female character doing the
various activity wearing various skirts and dresses that matched the
activity. A feminine voice also repeated the messages out loud.   A barely
visible background with pleasant images surrounded the messages and the
pictures.

As before, additional messages, pictures and backgrounds were added to
the loop. "I admire powerful manly hands." "Strong hairy chests are
attractive." "I like looking at firm masculine ass." "My heart pounds
when a handsome man is near me." "Strong masculine arms and legs are
beautiful." "A penis is sexy." These and similar messages were matched
with pictures of Cedric's various body parts. A feminine voice that
sounded exactly like Jane's voice repeated the messages.

Within a few minutes, additional messages, pictures, voice and
background were added to the loop.   "It's fun holding hands with a man."
"I feel secure when a man holds me tight." "I like having a man fondle
my ass." "I like it when a man feels up breasts. " "It's fun to have a man
kiss me." "I enjoy touching a man's body." "It's pleasurable to touch a
penis." "I want to suck a penis." "I love being fucked," and other similar
messages flashed.   Several pictures of the female character with Cedric
were shown with pleasing backgrounds.

Jane woke up startled by a strange dream. She was ashamed to admit that
it was erotic in nature. Cedric's body mesmerized Jane. He was waking
around without a shirt. Oh, how she wanted to run her fingers in his hairy
chest? She approached Cedric and was instantly nervous. She didn't
know what to say. But thankfully he knew just what to say. They flirted
and then hugged. But the hug became an embrace and then they were
kissing.    Internally, Jane tried to pull away but her body would not
cooperate. She actually held Cedric tighter and kissed him deeper. She
allowed her tongue to touch his tongue as it explored her mouth.   As they
continued their kiss, his hands touched her body.   She felt his hands as
they slowly moved from her back to her front. She gasped when his hands
softly touched her breasts. Then she moaned into his mouth, as his touch
became firmer more demanding. She felt disappointment as his hands
moved up away from her breasts. She felt his hands touch her neck and
then her face. He moved his left hand away, but his right hand moved to
the back of her head gently pushed her down to the floor. She knew what
he wanted. She knelt before him and slowly took out his beautiful penis.
She licked it, tasting the manly taste. She put it in her mouth and
worshiped it. She sucked it. She enjoyed it. She savored it. Then as she
tasted the salty creamy discharge, she woke up from her dream.

Her dream embarrassed her to no end. She actually dreamt about sucking
some guy off. Not just any guy but her own roommate. Was she gay?
She couldn't deal with it. A part of her really wanted to cook Cedric
breakfast but a stronger part of her told her to avoid him at all costs. She
knew that seeing him would make her so embarrassed that it would be
impossible to hide the embarrassment. And what if he guessed about what
was in her mind? What if he found out about her dream? She would be
mortified. How could she ever face Cedric again? So she quickly took
care of her usual morning routine planning to leave for work right away.
But the bag of makeup kept drawing her attention. All the girls were so
nice to give them to her. She had to put them on. It took her a long time
to master the lipstick and even longer to put on the eye shadow and
eyeliner.   But she eventually looked good. Now running a little late, Jane
quickly made for front door and left for work.

Work wasn't as bad as the day before. Jane no longer minded the guys
accidentally touching her. She didn't even mind the spanker that much.
She guessed that she was getting used to the treatment. What disturbed
her was the memory of her dream and this nagging feeling that she wished
Cedric was the one spanking her.

Cedric couldn't keep his mind off of Jane. He stayed up all night looking
at her as she slept. She kept moaning and squirming in her sleep. He
hoped that the final phase was behind the dreams. When she woke up, he
was pleasantly surprised to see her putting on makeup. When she
finished, he thought about approaching her. But decided against it at the
last minute. Patience was a key to success. He had to wait until she
approached him. It wasn't until he saw Jane leave for work that he laid
down to take a much-needed nap. But thoughts of Jane prevented him
from falling asleep.

When Jane finished her shift, Charlene and the other waitresses surprised
her again with a box of gifts. They were all hand-me-downs. Dresses,
skirts, blouses, shoes and other items that the girls thought would fit Jane.
Jane knew that the waitresses made little money and even hand-me-downs
were a great gesture. Jane thanked each and every girl for her generous
gifts. She couldn't help but think that she didn't deserve this kindness.
They were truly her friends.

Jane had a hard time carrying the box but finally came home. At home
she found Cedric sitting at the dinner table. She had hoped to find the
apartment empty. She was frightened about seeing Cedric again. She was
afraid that he might somehow guess about her dream. And she was
petrified that he would despise her for it.

In order to stall for time, she went into her bedroom and put away the box
of clothing and changed out of her working dress and put on a blouse and
skirt combination that one of her friends gave.

After changing she meekly reentered the kitchen and saw that Cedric was
still at the dinner table.    She avoided looking at him in the eyes, as she
cooked dinner and served it.

As they ate, Cedric complimented Jane on the new outfit. Cedric
intellectually knew that he had to be patient. But emotionally, he couldn't
wait another moment.

Jane blushed. It was really nice to hear such compliment. She told Cedric
how the other girls gave her nice clothing to wear.

Cedric decided to push the envelope a little and see where that led. He
said, "you deserve better than hand-me-downs," and smiled, "but you look
good in that skirt. It kind of looks like one of those skirts that a tennis
player wears."

"Now that you mention it," Jane said, "it does look like a tennis player
outfit." She was relieved that Cedric did not notice her embarrassment.
Her secret dream could remain a secret. She started talking about how she
used to play tennis all the time and how she missed playing tennis.

"Why don't we play?" he said, "I have two rackets and the apartment has
couple of tennis courts."

Jane thought that it might be good to have a distraction so she agreed. So
after they finished dinner and she cleaned, they headed to the tennis court.

As they played, Jane noticed how her competitive drive, the drive made
her the captain of her high school team, was no longer there. She just
wasn't that interested in winning. She wanted to have fun instead. In fact,
it seemed like she was barely keeping up with Cedric. In a way, it was
more fun for her to miss shots and then giggle about it.

Cedric was surprised by how bad Jane was. He expected her to easily beat
him. Was she throwing the game? Was she acting like a bimbo on
purpose?    It certainly wasn't part of the subliminal massage for her to act
this way. As a scientist, he had to gather additional evidence. From then
on, he looked for a way to get closer to investigate.

After playing for a few minutes, Cedric noted that Jane was holding the
racket wrong. This amazed him. Her tennis ability should not have been
affected by the subliminal massages. He jumped across the net and
offered to help her by giving her lessons. Jane smiled and thanked him.
He held her from behind as he showed her how to grasp the racket. As he
held her hands with both of his hands from behind, they swung the racket
several times as if to hit an invisible ball.   Each time they swung the
racket, Cedric's body rubbed against Jane. Soon she could feel his
growing male organ against her behind. He was grinding it against her
with each swing of the racket. Her mind focused on the intruder rubbing
against her, trying desperately to penetrate her.

"This is wrong," Jane thought to herself, "I am not gay, am I?" She pulled
away from Cedric and dropped the racket. She then said to him. "I need
to think things out." She then ran away.

Cedric saw her run away from him. It took every bit of effort he could
muster not to chase after her. His mind knew that she needed distance and
knew that he may have made a critical error by pushing things too fast.
Why did he push her? It was obviously too much for her. Patience, he
needed patience.   So he grabbed both rackets and decided to go to a bar to
give her some time alone.

Jane walked aimlessly for couple of hours until she found herself back at
her apartment. She decided to have a long talk with Cedric about her
feelings for him. Honesty is the best policy. When she walked in to the
apartment, she didn't see him so she went to his room. She knocked, and
to her surprise the bedroom door opened. It wasn't locked. Once it was
obvious that Cedric was not in his room, she almost closed the door. She
would have closed the door, except that she noticed her yearbook on the
floor. She went inside and was surprised to see the pages with Jake's
pictures marked. That's when she saw the wires coming from her room to
the computer. She turned on the computer and was shocked to find its
contents.

Cedric came home after spending all night at the bar. He was glad to see
that the lights were on indicating that Jane was home.   He was afraid that
she might have run away for good.   He decided to take it easy from now
on and let her make the first step. Noting that she wasn't in the kitchen, he
guessed that she must be either in the restroom getting ready for work or
in her room still sleeping. Deciding to avoid her for now, he tiptoed into
his room and almost had a heart attack when he saw her in front of his
computer.

"I know what you did to me," Jane said crying softly, "and I realize now
who you are. I had to look your name up in the yearbook after getting it
from your diploma, but now I remember."

At that moment, Cedric realized the full weight of what he had done to
Jane. He was so into changing her that he didn't realize the full extent of
how horrible this must have been for her. Cedric was speechless and just
looked at the girl sitting by his computer.

"I didn't know how much I hurt you in high school," Jane said, "it was all
a big joke to me. I guess I really didn't see it from your point of view.
But now� now, I do. Congratulations, you got your revenge."

"I am sorry," Cedric fell to his knees and started to cry, "I will change you
back, I promise."

Jane ignored the promise as she continued, "In a way, I have to admit that
I deserve most of what happened to me. I mistreated you and many others
including every girl that I dated. I was a macho jerk. But even so, I don't
think I deserved one of the things you did to me. Why did you make me
become attracted to you?   Wasn't your desire for revenge satisfied with
making me into a sissy?. Did you have to make me fall in l�"

"I am sorry," Cedric repeated, "you didn't deserve any of this. Your
youthful pranks don't excuse me for the horrible acts that I have done to
you. But it wasn't all about revenge. It started out as revenge. But,
without planning to do so, I became attracted to you. Since then I was
motivated by my desire to make you into my perfect girl. But I know
that's wrong, no matter how much I love you. I promise to change you
back immediately."

Jane thought carefully about what Cedric had just told her. "You, love
me?" she asked but did not wait for an answer.   She fell to her knees next
to Cedric, "then promise me three things."

"Anything," Cedric replied.

"First, don't ever use subliminal messages on me again," she said.

"But, I need to use it to change you back," he said.

"No buts," she said, "I must have your promise."

Cedric reluctantly promised.

"Second, promise me that you will completely forgive me for what I did in
High school."

"I promise," Cedric said.

"Third, promise me that you will make me an honest woman."

"I am not sure what that mea�" Cedric started but couldn't finish because
Jane kissed him deeply. Interrupting their kiss for just a moment, Jane
gently removed Cedric's shirt and motioned him to do the same with her
blouse. After their upper clothing were removed, they kissed again as they
got up from their knees together. Once up, Jane and Cedric fell into
Cedric's bed and continued to kiss. She loved the way he touched her
little bumps on her chest and loved running her fingers in his hairy chest.
He removed her skirt and then removed his own pants. She could feel his
manhood pressing against her through his underwear and her panties. But
soon even the underwear was removed so that he had free access to her
behind. She spread her legs as wide as possible and braced herself as he
slowly entered her from the front. It hurt quite a bit at first but as he
pumped in and out of her, she felt only pleasure. Soon they were rocking
the bed loudly as the couple moaned with pleasure. That night the two
lovers came several times before falling asleep in each other's arms.

Within one year from that date, Cedric kept all three promises to Jane. He
never used the subliminal messages on her again. He forgave her for
everything that went on during high school. Finally, he kept his promise
to make her an honest woman by paying for her sex change operation and
marrying her.