3:00pm
I just cant beleive the 1st time i write on my net diary there is something bad happen on me today. BUt i think i cant say anything, just me too stupid. The trip to Barcelona is cancel. Hayley doesnt want to go??? dunno why!!! i dun fccking understand. She told me she doenst feel so well. ummm... i dunno if this is a good reason. but why she told me at the last minutes. i have been soooo on 9 past few weeks ,,, just want to give her a special V's day present. Been looking at many many many places to find the best places to go. THen i found it, realise my passport needs VISA. asked all my friends even not friends how to get VISA! even my dad helps me too. At that time i was worrying abut her that if she knows we cant go, she will feel upset, which I will not let this happen. Luckily... my passport is ok. Thought everything is fine just wait... something make me really angry again. once i told her that we r going to barcelona, i asked her to find her passport, check if its expire... but she never did. one day when its about 4days b4 we go to the trip. She found her passport, and YEAH !!! its expired... i ddint give up. i help her read through all the police how to renew the passport ASAP. Ok! she can do it in ONE day, just need to book the appointment and get a form from post office and fill it in. Simple as that. but still took her ages to do it!!! 2 more days left. am sure that she still havent got the form. But thats ok. i booked the appointment for her, get the form for her. its ok~ my responsibilty...
ACtually i think she has been given me some hints that she doesnt want to go. but me jsut too stupid and on 9... didnt realize.. i dunno what to say. i was keeping asking myself that " Am not not THAT DIA LAM YEN " its not hard to tell me that u dun want to go. i have asked you if you dun want to go, pls tell me. so i have chance to cancel it. but she just doenst care!!! ANYTHING !!!
Another ON9 thing i did, i try to confirm the ticket last night... but no one answer. then i put it on near my bed, next morning i can check it again. But thenext morning when i read the msg she sent me... the feeling is like wowowowow... just shit. i was really angry.. and in the text she sound like i force her to go... i just want to have a special D D gei v's day jer... is not that hard right ???
after i read the msg... then i saw the ticket... want to fxxking rip it !!! one thing i dun understand at all... what make her doesnt want to go??? is it really becos she is sick that simple??? all my friends said me soo good pay my gf to go holiday ... the girls get really jealous.. even my ex said i never brough her on holiday... they all said my gf should be really happy.. but at this second.. i dont think so law...
i dun understand her.. dun understand what she is thinking....
Seun la... i dun want to type anymore... just get piss tonight... and forget everything about the trip.... everything ... i dun want to get angry or argue with hayley... cos i really dun want to lose her... she is a really good gf... just me too stupid.. need more time to get used about the way she is. ok la... stop here... tired...
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