by ysth83
Part 1
Part 1/4
How difficult can it be to approach the person you love the most in the world and tell that person that you are in love with her or HIM?
Tsuzuki had been pacing in his bedroom for a good half an hour now. A while ago he had been tossing and turning in his sleep thinking of a certain green-eyed shinigami who has silk-smooth porcelain skin, yummy red pouty lips, long slender fingers, delectable enticing neck and shoulders, a slender waist, inviting legs and thighs... basically he'd been thinking of his androgynous partner in a not so friendly way. These thoughts had been the cause for his lack of sleep for the past two weeks.
He knew that he had been in love with his partner for quite some time. Those feelings were so faint before the Kyoto incident that he would just ignore them as mere feelings of care or fondness of a brotherly sort. But after that tragedy he finally came to terms with the emotional turmoil inside his head and his heart.
HE IS IN LOVE WITH HIS PARTNER! And being at Hisoka's side is the only reason that he chose to exist. Without him Tsuzuki wouldn't know how to continue on living his after life.
Admitting to himself that he loves Hisoka is tough. He's actually afraid that Hisoka might feel through his emotions (that he, Tsuzuki Asato, is in love with him) and push him away even after what they've been through and are still going through.
Being close to the love of his after life is the only thing wants most, even if Hisoka doesn't feel the same... or so he thinks.
Tsuzuki wants to tell him. No, he needs to tell him that he loves him. Only he's afraid of the consequences. It's a fifty-fifty chance. Be with Hisoka or lose him forever. Or hold his peace and let his feelings eat him up.
He also wants to know if Hisoka loves him the way he wants him to. Or if he at least has a chance. If there's any possibility of having 'us'. Tsuzuki let out a long sigh in defeat, thinking isn't doing him any good.
I didn't know that not being able to tell the person you love that you love them could hurt this much. He lied down on his bed feeling tired. I love you Hisoka. That was his last thought as sleep finally overcame him. And his dreams were occupied entirely by the green-eyed angel.
Late! He was late again for work. Lucky for him they haven't had a new assignment for a week now or else Tatsumi, Konoe-kacho, and Hisoka would have his head for being late. He was about to sneak inside the office that he and Hisoka shared to avoid seeing Tatsumi but just his luck because Tatsumi saw him and was standing behind him.
"Late again Tsuzuki-san. Are you trying to set a new record?" Tatsumi said with a hint of irritation in his voice.
Tsuzuki turned around slowly to face the furious secretary of EnmaCho with the genkiest smile he could muster. "ah...ha...ha...*gulp* Ohayo Tatsumi-san! How did you get there? I didn't even noticed you." He is now in his chibi inu form trying his best not to get on Tatsumi's bad side more than he already was.
Tatsumi immediately noticed the huge eyebags forming under Tsuzuki's eyes. "Tsuzuki-san, are you having problems sleeping lately?" He asked with worry, no longer bothered with Tsuzuki being late for work.
"It's nothing Tatsumi-san. Nothing to be worried about."
"If you say so. But if you want to talk about it you know where to find me."
"Sankyuu Tatsumi-san. I better get in now or Hisoka will be really really mad at me."
"Aa." Tatsumi turned around and chose not to press Tsuzuki any further.
Tsuzuki let out a long sigh of relief and felt thankful that Tatsumi had let him off the hook.
He was about to open the door when he noticed that Hisoka wasn't alone. Hisoka was talking to someone, Tsuzuki wasn't familiar with the voice so he decided to open the door just enough to peak inside.
Tsuzuki was surprised when he saw who Hisoka's companion was.
Hisoka's current companion was his newly acclaimed Shikigami, Kurikara RyuOh. Kurikara was the last person that Tsuzuki would imagine speaking Hisoka. But then that was exaggerating because Muraki would be the last person that he thought would be talking with Hisoka. That is if Muraki was actually talking and not maliciously harassing his partner.
But still, Tsuzuki found it unbelievable for Hisoka to summon Kurikara from Gensou Kai to talk. What could Hisoka possibly talk about with his Shikigami that he can't with Tsuzuki or the other Shinigamis like Watari or Tatsumi? Tsuzuki had no idea, and at the moment he couldn't help but feel slightly jealous. It was against Tsuzuki's principle to eavesdrop but his curiosity was winning. Just this once and I swear I'll never ever do it again. Tsuzuki pleaded with his conscience before straining his ears to listen to Hisoka and Kurikara's discussion. And they say curiosity killed the cat.
~Inside the office~
Hisoka was his desk bussily finishing all the files that Tatsumi gave him earlier, while Kurikara was sitting on Tsuzuki's chair with his feet raised on top of Tsuzuki's desk mumbling something incoherrent. Kurikara was just about to lose his temper with what his "boy-master" was doing, or rather not doing. He knew that the kid would be summoning him again today but unlike their previous 'Hisoka-seeking-advice' meeting, today would be the most annoying. Why? Because ever since he came the two haven't even started to talk except for the simple "Hi! Sorry to bother you again." by Hisoka before the said boy buried himself in paperwork.
"THAT'S IT!" Short-circuited RyuOh bellowed.
Hisoka jumped from his chair with the sudden outburst of the Shikigami. He blushed embarrassedly knowing that he caused Kurikara to be ticked off.
"Sorry." Hisoka silently apologized and fidgeted in his chair like a child caught in a naughty act.
Kurikara walked towards Hisoka's desk. "So you can still talk brat. I was already wondering if your tongue was cut out or something." He said as he settled himself on Hisoka's desk overthrowing all the folders to the floor. He glanced at the door and noticed that it was ajar. Kurikara knew that the kid always closed the door, especially when he was summoned because Hisoka wanted to keep these meetings a secret. Being the perceptive Shiki that he is, Who could it be? hmm... AH! The Idiot. Kurikara mentally snickered. This would be fun.
"Well? Do you now know the answer to my question?"
Hisoka just stared at him dumbly.
For crying out loud Veins were now popping on Kurikara's head. "You know. The question I asked you yesterday before I left and the only reason I'm here today. The one you said you'd think about last night." Kurikara rolled his eyes. "If you are in love with..." Kurikara said loud enough for the person 'OUTSIDE' to hear then he leaned towards Hisoka to whisper in his ear. "Tsuzuki."
Just hearing Tsuzuki's name made Hisoka blush crimson red. Kurikara smirked.
Kurikara asked again, "So?"
Hisoka gently nodded and blushed even deeper.
"As expected. Do you need something else kid cause I'm going now." Kurikara stood from his sitting position on Hisoka's desk. "Oh yeah by the way..." Kurikara turned his back from the door before leaning over Hisoka. "Tsuzuki's listening, behind that slightly open door." Kurikara said before he disappeared.
TBC�