by Marron Yuuki
Oh Hisoka… Why do you lock yourself away like this? I really wish you would open up… I hate to see how you hide your feeling and act as if you don’t care about anything…You think I don’t notice… but you’re wrong.
~*Close your eyes so your don't hear then
They don't need to see you cry
I can't promise I will heal you
But if you want to I will try*~
I want to help you Hisoka. I love you so much, don’t you notice? Of course I keep my feelings under lock and key so you don’t notice, so I don’t know why I think you should have…
I really wish you would trust people. No one here is a cruel as your parents. You don’t have to hide from us. Especially from me.
I know how you feel. I was betrayed. For about the same reason as you. Our families both deemed us to be demons and although I wasn’t locked up in an attack all my life, I still experienced much of the same thing as you.
We are kindred spirits. We belong with each other. We are the only ones who can understand each other completely without misunderstanding.
Please, look in my eyes and read my mind. I know what you need, let me give it to you.
~*I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Someone said the truth will out
I believe without a doubt, in you*~
I remember that time where I wanted to commit suicide. I called Touda and wanted to burn, I thought I deserved it.
But you came in after me, told me I was needed, that I was worth it.
You taught me so much and I love you for it.
You pulled me out of the darkness of my soul… you rescued me, and don’t you dare deny it.
~*You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity*~
I remember one time where you actually opened up to me.
It was shortly after the fire and I had just been emitted from the hospital. We went to a café and you let me have apple pie! You even bought it for me! I was so happy, you never would have believed it.
Then we went for a walk in a nice park. We sat down on a bench next to a lake and you just started talking… I guess you wanted to prove to me that I was special to you. Or maybe that you trusted me… or perhaps you just wanted to fill the silence. I really don’t know.
You told me about your past, your parents and how they treated you. How nice they were before they discovered your ‘gift’. You told me about how you hated being in the cage in the attack and that you’re still afraid of the dark because of it.
You told me about the people who visited, how your parents and family would come up and sneer and stare at you, telling you how worthless you are and how they wish you were never born; how much they hate you.
After you finished you lapsed into silence again.
But only for a short while; then you turned and embraced me, resting your head on my shoulder.
Oh how that made me happy.
~*Yesterday when you were walking
We talked about your mum and dad
What they did that made you happy
What they did that made you sad
We sat and watched the sun go down
Picked a star before we lost the moon
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon*~
You should never have died. You should have lived a happy life like any other teenager; surrounded by love and comfort.
But your parents ruined that for you.
And Muraki.
How I hate him for what he did. Not much for what he did to me, more so for what he did to you.
You didn’t want to see that murder; you were just at the wrong place at the wrong time.
But sometimes I feel thankful, because it brought you to me.
I hope you will stay with me always, always stay my partner, maybe as more.
You are so very important to me Hisoka, if you leave me or get hurt and die, I swear I will kill myself.
You are the only thing holding me here, my only pillar of hope.
~*You were there for summer dreaming
And you gave me what I need
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity...
For eternity*~
You are my savior, my angel. I will always love you.
Whether or not you return my feelings doesn’t matter.
I will always love and protect you and I hope you know that.
Maybe on day you will love me back, but till then I will be only what you want me to be; a good friend and partner.
~*For eternity
I'll sing this somber serenade
The past is done
We've been betrayed
It's true
Youth is wasted on the young
Before you know it's come and gone to soon*~
You just came over here a second ago, you told me you wanted to spend some time with me and would I like to eat lunch with you later today.
I answered yes of course, I am always happy to spend time with you. Maybe we can talk some more…
Maybe you’ll let me in, truly and tell me everything.
You have opened up so much in the past months, maybe I really do mean that much to you. I think I’ll tell you my feelings today… I hope you feel the same way.
~*You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I hope you find your freedom
For eternity*~
“Hisoka… I love you…”
“I know.”
A soft pressure on my lips, I close my eyes, enjoying the feeling of your lips on mine. Pulling you to me and embracing you tightly, consumed by my own happiness.
You pull back and look up into my eyes…
“You don’t have any idea how long I’ve wanted to do that… I love you too Tsuzuki… never leave me…”
“Oh, I do… and I won’t”
I lean in and kiss you again, you truly are an angel. And you saved a demon from his dark fate. I praise whoever sent this miracle that is you to me, for you are all I need.
And I hope I can give you everything that you need.
~*You were there for summer dreaming
And you are a friend indeed
And I know you'll find your freedom
Evenually
For eternity
For eternity*~