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I walked on the beach slowly, feeling the soft sand at my bare feet. The same softness I felt from the hand holding my left hand. The sun about to appear itself on the edge of the vast blue ocean. Giving me light to stare once again at the face I admire. The cold morning breeze sipping through my skin. Contrast to the feeling being near to somebody.

Then we chased each other like little kids trying to catch the other person. You can hear our laughter, which orchestrated perfectly with the sound of the waves.

I caught her facing me and held her tightly in my arms. I started tickling her by the waist. She giggled like crazy and begged me to stop. Why should I? I love her giggles.

We both collapsed on the sand, she on top of me still giggling. Then the world seemed to stop. I stared at her deep blue eyes and she stopped giggling. She too caught up and stared me through my brown eyes. Both were laying on the sand and nothing done for a few minutes except the staring thing.

I broke the silence and spoke while I carefully adjusted the hair that covered her rosy cheeks. She broke the chain that I wish would be forever and laid on her back next to me. She looked up at the blue sky and caught me looking at her.

She grinned. She patted my cheeks.

Suddenly our lips met. Her soft lips...

The ringing phone then made me come back to reality.

Shit! I'm tired of loving this way!

"..You got me twisted over you.." The song on its 5th playing so far echoed around my room.

Yap that's right. She really got me twisted over her. But it is a known fact in the world that there is always a big BUT in everything. This is no exemption.

I am laying here on my bed staring at the ceiling. It has some glow in the dark constellation, which I can't remember when I put it there. The open window gives me some air on this hot afternoon. I started roaming my eyes around the room. Stuff toy on the small table near my bed, pictures of me during graduation everywhere, reviewers and scrap papers on the floor and the electric fan which I chose not to use.

But those BUTs and IFs still ran across my mind. Won't it be answered or given clarification at all? I will never know.

All I know for sure is what I feel for her. Knowing inside me that she never will.

I then drifted to another sleep thinking that I would be meeting her in my dreams. Yep. I can only meet her in my dreams. She's from heaven while I from hell. But meeting on one exact place, paradise!

It's the only time that I could forget those BUTs and IFs. It's the only time I leave behind the problems I left from the other world. It's the only time I can enjoy her companionship even if it's only for a moment. And it's the only time she could see and know me.

I woke up hours later contented on what I had. But hoping someday those BUTs and IFs would be erased from my memory forever.