So what's with this Doll thing?
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make something with a lovely light blue tint ... ------
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Well. You've dared to venture into the murky realms of my heart, here. I
certainly hope you don't regret the trip; hopefully you'll be able to make sense
of my semi-coherent babblings. Of course, you might well end up writing me
off as a total loon... So, where to begin, eh? It's really a rather long and involved thing, but I would imagine that it begins with my... hrm... psychological preference. In a general sense, there are three types of psych preferences: dominant, equal, and submissive. (I caution you on this: generalizations will invariably fail you at some point, but it works as an overview.) Most folks in the world fall fairly close to the center, balanced between the two ends and able to adjust back and forth as necessary. Some fall in the dominant end, and desire full control over personal matters. And no, that doesn't mean that that aggressive woman down the hall is a dominant. It's an emotional preference, and really can't be pinpointed by 'normal' actions. Just as there are those who fall in the dominant end of the pool, there is an equivalent group in the submissive end; they seek to be controlled, to surrender to another. Variety amongst people being what it is, a submissive may not simply -give- this control; they may instead insist that it be taken, and that the dominant prove themselves capable and responsible enough to be granted such authority. Complicated, isn't it? There are more variants and subtle layers than can be counted, truly. Somewhere towards the outer edge of the submissive zone is where you'll find, in my experiences, the dolls. Certainly for me it's the case, anyway. Given the nature of my preferred power arrangement, I'm hoping that this next section makes sense. Maybe. The actual mechanics of things are a bit more straight forward, I think. Dollies come in many varieties, just as people in any other group do. Some prefer a more stylized visual image, aiming for a look similar to the much trademarked plastic doll from a major toy manufacturer. Others prefer a ragdoll motif, complete with multi-colored baggy clothes and moppish wigs. And some prefer something in between the two, or wander from one end to the other. And falling within my classification of 'doller' is also the Kigurumi, or cosplayers, who chose to portray anime and manga characters. Others have detailed them far better than I could, and I'll leave it to them to continue to do so. My place is somwhere in the midst, wandering from point to point depending on my mood and partner. Mindset is really my biggest spot, to be honest. Being dressed up, posed, cuddled, loved... these are what I seek as a doll. To make someone's life a bit brighter, and mine more complete for doing it. It... is truly a spiritual high for me, something that I doubt I'd ever tire of. I can't live my life as a dolly, but when the moments occur I do my best to make the most of them. I honestly don't know if this has made any sense at all, but I've given it the best I know how. Maybe it's helped, maybe not. Only you can decide; in the end, each individual must choose what is best for them. |
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