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| All you know about me is what I've sold you..... |
family, bubble gum pop, sports metal, people who don't say please or thank you, narrow minded people, fascists, the whole way America dealt with the Columbine shootings and their witch hunt- you make me sick!, people who spead bullshit rumours about me, people who force their opinions on me, hating people.. it's a waste of time that can otherwise be spent thinking about something or someone else.. ANYTHING else, people who go to awesome gigs like TOOL and go home and tell their churchy friends that there was 'the evil presence of Satan there"... moronic fucking idiiot., |
ART AND MUSIC! cofffffeeeee, waking up and falling asleep to a really fucking good cd.... like Lateralus by Tool, 'LATERALUS' by Tool hehehe, vodka , marlboro lights, poetry, coffee, good books, writing lyrics, rain and thunderstorms, snow, coffee, lightning, the beach at night time, stars, shooting stars, fire, coffee, building cubby houses,, motorbikes, making other people smile, spending time with people I care about, coffee, just cruising, the feeling you get when you lose yourself in a cd and you realise you're at the end of a song and you don't know how you got there, the build up and coming down after a gig, coffee, strawberry shortcake, Queer A Folk, crunchy guitar riffs, boys who wear make up!!!, COFFEE, |
| UNDERNEATH HER SKIN.. |
| LOST IN EUPHORIA |
| We dont really get along. They don�t try to understand me AT ALL, and I don�t try to make them. The system works fine with me |
| Kingsway Christian College. I was there from years 1-12.,I begged my parents to let me change schools but I�m glad they said no, because I learnt I NEVER wanted to be like those people. One incident that summed up Kingsway life nicely was the Marilyn Manson shirt incident. A shirt with the name Marilyn Manson written on it, with just his face, was deemed offensive. Fucking hypocrites. The fact that they took away my right to wear that shirt souly based on rumours they�d heard absoutely disgusted me. Fucking morons. It was another case of them trying to force me to accept their opinion as my own. I had to wear a jumper over it or face a 2 week suspension from school. I thought it was funny.. they drew more attention to it rather than had they just left it alone. That little story was just one of hundreds from the 12 years I was there. Now that I�ve finished I dont really see anyone from school apart from Fiona. Some people are cool, but when they band together to �do god�s work� .... that�s when you see the true little demons inside them. |
| I'm not against organised religion to be rebellious.. Im against being treated like a moron and a sheep. I'm against not being aloud to question ANYTHING. I won't accept that they're right and I'm wrong; that there way is the only way. Fuck that. I know better. The different perspective I approach life with is what makes me love it. Since I was 14 people have called me a witch. All because one day in my COMPLUSORY christian ed class someone noticed I was wearing a pentagram. I believe in karma, that you get back what you give out, I believe in treating people decentlly with tolerance and compassion, not discriminating against other people's religious or sexual preferences. And I believe in keeping an open mind. You cant do that if you close yourself off to the outside world, which is what I was expected to do. If you think that believing in all that and not being a christian makes me a bad person, then fuck you I'll see you in hell. |
| Sweet Irony. The people that pulled me away from church and helped my find myself were the people I met throught church. I met Anthony Jake and Janene in year 8, Jake He introduced us to Danny, just after my fifteenth birthday. We met Kobi six months later at the end of 1998 by scabbing smokes off him. Laura started hanging out with us around then too. We met Cory at a beach party through Danny and Jake around the same time. (End of 1998, beginning of 1999). That was when we started clubbing. I was just the baby :P , but Anthony ( my bf at the time) was 20, and working at Red Heads (Now the Palace- and shit!) And almost everyone else was 18 so there was no drama getting me inside. We saw Damon at the train station, and then when we�d all started hanging out at Dominion and Der Kellar he caught our attention and joined our little clique. Cory�s twin Lucas, a lil goth raver boy, started coming along too. He and his best friend Alex (Lex) would hang out with us before clubbing and raving til dawn. They were always smacked up, and when they weren�t always looking for smack. And that was all of us. We used to hang out at William Street Church mainly. Or Forrest Chase before it became a stinky/ baby goth hangout, or at Central Park with the punks and junkies (I later found out they were Peaknuckle. Huh. Who knew!?) . But if you sit there now longer that five minutes they fucking throw you out. It was great. Then no one threw things at you and called you a freak. People were too scared. We practically ruled the fucking city. We were the original snobby group. Thats how I got to know everyone. That�s how we all met. Now for the sake of me not bursting into tears for the next month, I�m not going to go into how we all split up. |
| Too many to go into detail. You truly appreciate friendship ones you know you may lose it forever. I lost my cousin Sean in 1995 from a brain tumour . My friend Alisia was hit and killed by a car. I had a few happy years of friendship til 1999 when Anthony overdosed on heroin. It came out of nowhere, and turned my world upside down. The same week Dean, a friend of Jake�s killed himself, and two people I had gone to school with both died. Laura tried to slit her wrists because of it, and I nearly did too. In the next two years, a mutual friend of ours, Reagan accidently over dosed on heroin. Jesse, a friend of Cory�s since they were 5 years old, slit his wrists and killed himself on leavers. Cory and I saw him him the bathroom, and I freaked out, and I still remember him screaming to Danny to get me out of the room. Lucas ovderdosed on heroin (coroners report was suspected suicide) I spent the night of the funeral in the cemetery with Cory before going straight to a TEE exam. Four months after that Kobi�s girlfriend died in a car accident. 10 months later Lex od�d on heroin. I thought all of 2002 was going to go past happily.. but about six weeks ago Janene killed herself to get out of an abusive relationship. So there you have it.. Some people tell me it� s my own fault for being friends that are into such hard drugs, and maybe that�s true. But I would never ever change knowing them just for peace of mind. Never. Some things are just worth the sacrifice. |
| SUPPOSED BROTHERS- |
| (THINGS I LOVE) |
| (THINGS I HATE) |
| (FAMILY) |
| (ART AND MUSIC) |
| BRUISED AND BORROWED- |
| (FRIENDS) |
| TEMPORARY SANITY- |
| (TAFE) |
| CONSIDERATELY KILLING ME- |
| (SCHOOL) |
| CRUICIFY THE EGO- |
| (RELIGION) |
| SUPPOSED LOVERS- |
| (BOYFRIENDS) |
| TO LEARN AND LOVE AND TO CRY - |
| (THE OLD GROUP) |
| SLEEPING LOST AND NUMB - |
| DEATHS. |
| My first serious boyfriend, Anthony, over dosed on heroin a couple of months after we broke up. Cory and I have been on and off again for the last three years. Plus in no particular order there was Adam, a speed addict who stalked me for two months afterwards ; Ben, a try hard punk, who . I went out with cos he looked like Sid Vicious. I broke up with him and he belted me in the face.., Jesse, who wasn�t a boyfriend, just a friend who I had something going with when we first met... he ended up killing himself about a year later. And plenty of others who are just like the above mentioned.... Will, Josh, blah blah blah. Same old same old. And piercings- Shaun- eyebrow rings, lip rings, tongue rings, spikey hair, nail polish, lots of pvc, Matt, Kristian... no one out of the ordinary |
| In 2001 I was at the Fremantle campus, where I met Nichola, Lee, Bo, and Dane. It had a really cool atmosphere to it... having classes in old prison rooms and stuff. In 2002, I changed to Perth where I�ve also met some really funky people who I absolutely adoooore. Stella Shaun Kirralea and Madeleine! (Heheh Heh... They know I love them :D ) In 2003 I met Emma, Claire, Keenan and Rhett, and in 2004 I met Timmy, Tegan and a ton of other people who I love! I�m obviously meant to be doing this with my life.. |
| I'm not really friends with anyone I went to school with, I've moved right on since Kingsway, so it's a part of my life that's dead to me. I believe that everything, including friendships, happen for a reason. I think that once someone has taught that thing that only they can teach you, then their purpose in your life is finished. Therefore, to me, great friends continue to teach you over and over and over. Having said that, my friends are beautiful people. Who could one day very well end up as the great writers, thinkers, artists and philsophers of our time. Those are the kind of people I like to be with.. people who inspire me, not people who try and drag me down. |
| Art and music make my world turn. I've been studying art for 4 years at tafe, and playing a ton of instruments since I was six.. I love music that I can learn things from every time I hear it, and being able to fall asleep and wake up to something beautiful; and to know there�s someone else apart from me thinking and feeling the same. I love hearing a band play live,and getting shivers running up and down myspine. Art and music are the same for me.... and they both give me an outlet, whether I�m just listenin to it, or drawing or writing myself. |
| SWING ON THE SPIRAL - |
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