"I'm but an outcast hanging from a bridge; sitting there listening to all your bullshit. - Patiently waiting, anticipating the day you push me over my fucking edge.; sending me down to my bloody fucking death"
Fuck your society, Fuck your sobriety, Fuck all your conformities, Fuck what you think of me.
I'm not your programmed toy, I'm not your little boy, You're never going to change me, I'll never be what you want or need.
You're just a piece of shit, Fuck you and everything, I'm tired of this. You may have made me like that, But I've changed, and You can't ever fucking change me back.
I broke through the mold, I won't do what I'm told, You're not my fucking boss, To you I'm just another lost cause.
This is so fucking gay, When will I have my time? I know why I hate you, But I'm not you, so why is it directed at me, this hate of mine!!!
I'm an outcast! Just another mis-shaped color in your ball of shit! I'm an outcast! And I'll never ever make anything of it! I'm an outcast! And I'm tired of all your pathetic fucking lies! I'm an outcast! And I'm ready to fucking die!!!
Crawled upon:
by maggots and fleas;
Lost in the vanity
of today's new age humanity;
Crumbled walls of a kingdom-lost.
"The Kingdom of God is inside soul"
I thought I met God-
I thought I found Mecca.
In the end; in reality;
I found empty plates with remains of bullshit
-(crumbs)
Leaving me begging for more.
bleeding flowers in a field of shit
I fall down and cry
Cracked windows and unpaved streets
the poverty striken American
anything to get by.
Superman hallucinations -- straight out of mind
Lies in the thorns I now lay upon
cut me open and bleed inside...
No hope left - tired of trying - finally given up -
seduced by drugs of a common degenerate.
A love affair with blurred happiness
Unpure bliss -
purity that cannot be replaced.
No turning back to yesterday,
turn toward holes from pain staking cries to change.
NO REASON TO SURVIVE - NO REASON TO DIE
Struggled tries
brought to cry
Cannot win
a life of sin.
Never please
always tease
Just a lie
a need to die.
Intoxicate life... fill-in lies... burning sin... bitter ends.
Shaded faces... scorched in places... hateful and uncoragous, am I.
My love and recipes for a perfect waste of time...
just denial in strifes.
Seek and destroy... everything becomes a toy when there isn't a reason to feel anything anymore.
Cracking down... a screaming whore, am I.
Nothing but a distraught warcry... lost in timeless time.
May I ask?... Is there no mercy for me?
Negatives:
cold, harsh-world, this is my life.
tainted, cofused-blur, this is my time.
loved, hated, killed, this is my fate.
annoying, obnoxious, rude, this is me.
Positives:
warm, comfortable-earth, this is my dream.
lighted, realistic-enviroment, this is my wish.
disliked, worshiped, seclusion, this is my stake.
popular, outgoing, considerate, this is no longer I.
Jesus won't you save me!?!
I cannot live this life!
Everyday another innocent significant dies!
OBSCENE SUREAL ABBORTION!!!
Blown away by contortion.
I'm a lost fetus; (Dead and unformed)
looking for my father's grace.