| Poems |
| Here are some poems I have written over the past two years. Most of them are really depressing so yea.... I am over that though. If you have the sudden urge to throw up after reading these I will understand because they are all really sappy and just expose the silly hopeless romantic that I am. Oh yea... since I wrote theses... they are mine so if you decide to be a jerk and steal them I will hunt you down and cause you great pain! |
| Unhappy I feel selfish I have it all A good life A happy family Love from all directions But that doesn't make the hurt go away Material things can't help me And thats all I ever seem to get Why can't someone look into my heart They would see what I truly need Nothing Its gone again I've lost the will to live It comes in fleeting moments Never staying long enough Good things happen But not the kind I need They don't understand What they do won't help Nothing ever makes it better Nothing ever makes it go away No Name Walking Thinking The cool air fills my lungs My stomach feels uneasy Something is not right Time Every night I go to the same place Where I dream of your handsome face Someday I hope that you will be mine But my heart tells me this will take some time Waiting is all I can do right now But I will make it somehow Lost Childhood I wish I could go back in time Back to when I was just a child I had it so easy back then Life was about candy and dolls I had dreams and imagination There were no boys or jobs I didn't have a penny I could have cared less Now I am almost 18 And my life is crashing down around me No more secure feelings So lost and alone The fact that I know nothing is catching up on me Soon I'll be on my own Ups and Downs Life has its ups and downs But why do the downs come so often? And the ups so few? My life is a mess at the moment I just want to cry But I already used up my tears Perhaps I have used up my happiness as well? Time goes by so quickly when I am happy Like I have been for such little time But now the happiness is gone And the sadness is consuming me Tomorrow seems so far away I am like... My eyes are like a portal They can take you to a new place A world of confusion Welcome to my world My heart is like a broken toy And no one wants the broken one It is to be tossed in the trash Never to be played with or loved My life is like a sad movie Full of pain and tears Always lots of drama And never a happy ending Used It hurts to know that those who cared don't When you find out its like a slap to the face It hurts so much yet I cannot cry I trusted them with my thoughts and dreams But they never cared I remember every word they say But they are off and focused on themselves They only talk to me out of pity Or when they need to use someone Go ahead and use me Because I feel nothing I am nothing because I am used You Don't Care There are so many things I want to tell you But I know you don't care The truth is, you don't even know me There are little things I wish you would notice Like how I love it when you call me Or how it turns me on when you play with my hair All you care about is what you want But I care about that too I know you only like me for one reason And the truth hurts I wish I could change the way you feel But I can't change myself to fit your standards The truth is all right here Except I know you will never see it You won't even take time to read this Because you don't care Split Emotions I love it when you call me I love how you kiss I love the way your kisses linger on my lips I hate it when you never call I hate how you lead me on I hate the way your kisses mean nothing My love and hate for you balance out And it confuses me to no end I don't know whether to let you go And to lose the friendship we have Or to hold on to you And let you keep breaking my heart I Don' t Know You I used to think everything you told me was a lie But what did you really tell me? I don't even know you We always talk about the same things But the next day it is all forgotten Well, forgotten in your mind that is I hang on your every word Which doesn't leave much to hang on I used to cherish our long talks But its obvious they meant nothing to you Whenn I think really hard about it It hurts to realize the truth The guy I thought I knew is gone And I don't know you Doors When the door opens my hear skips a beat Could it be you coming to brighten my day? Most of the times its not you But on the rarest of ocassions you grace me with you presence When you do appear it is only for a short while Because the door is soon shut in my fafce No goodbyes, just nothing And I sit here waiting for you to open that door again Not Good Enough I'm not good enough for you I don't fit your mold of the perfect girl And I never will I wish I could change for you If I could I would But I am me And thats how it always will be I can't help the fact that you don't like me the way I am I just have to hope your taste will change Maybe someday you will love me the way I love you But now that I think of it Why do I love you? Pain As the tears roll down my cheeks I wonder why I hurt so badly I know that people have bad times But you can on ly stand so much I keep the pain within me I hard but I have to be strong Life is hard when you have no answers Especially when nothing goes your way Too many pressures upon me And more are added every day Heartbreak It starts out as a small pain that won't go away Unfortunately this pain grows bigger every day Eventually its so bad I can't take it anymore This is something I have felt many times before I feel so alone with no love so me here The feeling of heartbreak is more than a fear Heartbreak will always be a reality for me I guess I bring it upon myself for the way I hace to be I can't help who I am, how I look, what I feel THis is how I am, I have to be real I want to be loved, kissed, and caressed For someone to experience with me my worst and my best I'll do what I can and even wait my whole life long But I wonder, If I find him, Will the pain be gone? Afraid I don't know how to show you I care But I love you more than I can bear Just talking to you makes my heart soar I know we are friends but could we be more? When I am with you there are so many things I want to say But my biggest fear is scaring you away Tired No one loves me so why do I even try? I'm tired of wasting time looking for a guy Why can't someone notice me for who I am? Is that just too much to ask of them? I'm tired of putting on this little show. If there is anyone out there for me I guess I'll never know Friends When I first met you I was afraid You were different than anyone I knew But our friendship was all ready made When I began to know the real you I realized you weren't all that bad I found out that you liked me But I am taken so now you are sad You need to see that friends are all we can be Because I am so confused You are both really great guys And its not fair I have to choose You are a friend in my eyes Never Again I loved you for so many years But my love you didn't see When I loved somebody else All you wanted was me So I chose you over him The thought of losing you made me scream We had the kind of love I wanted The kind you can only dream But then another girl showed up And you were overcome with lust I tried my hardest to keep you mine But you both left me in the dust So I sat alone for so many months And moved on with my life I found the guy I had left before And I won him back after much strife Then out of nowhere you came back And expected me to be yours But you missed out and lost your chance I will never mess up like I did before Okay... here is a song I wrote a few months ago. Someday I just wanted to tell you that I love you and that for you I would wait forever I know this might sound crazy but its the way I feel inside My heart has mislead me before but this time it is true You fill the emptiness in me and I hope you can feel the same way Someday.... Someday you will be mine our love will be forever Its all a matter of time for you to notice me Someday we will be happy lying in eachothers arms But for now I have my dreams in my dreams is where you are Everytime I think of you a smile appears on my lips Do I have the same effect on you or do you even think of me? Sometimes I have my doubts but my heart cancels them out I'm waiting for the right moment for your heart to fall for me Someday.... Someday you will be mine our love will be forever Its all a matter of time for you to notice me Someday we will be happy lying in eachothers arms But for now I have my dreams in my dreams is where you are To wake up in the morning with you laying by my side Would make my life complete because you mean everything to me I don't have a way to show you or tell you how I feel I just hope that you can realize that my love for you is real Someday.... |
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