Never have a meaningful conversation

��� spend all the time filling the emptiness

Spending time in school learning about everyone else

�� never taking the time to learn about myself

Playing soccer.

��� Taking showers.

Drinking coffee.

���� Smoking weed.

Eating burgers and pizza.

��� Watching movies.

Listening to Nine Inch Nails.

��� Reading books.

Staring straight ahead at my computer.

��� Writing shit down on paper.

Watching stupid TV shows and even more stupid commercials.

��� Doing homework, but more like copying it

Ditching Stats class.

��� Going to school, but not really there

Sleeping till 1.

��� Filling out the same goddamn college application over and over.

Taking the fucking SAT�s

��� And not even trying to study or pretending to care.

Inhaling hot smoke, ash and gas fumes

��� Paying taxes

and dying every day

��� Not that I think about it.

Haven�t even thought about how to use the rest of my life.

 

4 April 2004