| ~ What the oracle didn�t see ~ SEQUEL to: �Can a madman have feelings� How he felt during the incidents and when he found out. Maybe slight OOC I dunno. Crawford�s POV I watched Farferello from behind the paper, not intent on reading it for the last five minutes. I sighed softly to myself he was forever digging that knife of his into my table. "Do not do that, I am not replacing another perfectly good table". I went back to my paper, barely watching as he looked up and pouted. I think my eyes widened a little when he actually obeyed me and stopped. Taking a sip from my now cold coffee I heard Schu snigger as he walked in from his room. My gaze hardened and went back to the paper, I noticed them look at each other, Farferello�s gaze soon hardening as he glared and I blinked. This had been going on for almost four months. I had no idea what was going on between them. Sighing again to show my annoyance I went back to my paper, pouring the disgusting cold liquid of my drink down the drain once both had left. After finishing the paper I went to my office under the pretense of work. Unknown to them I wasn�t the workaholic they all thought I was. Rather it was a refuge to think alone, and away from their squabbling. My thoughts were confused. I had noticed how they�d parted, Farferello keeping away from the German like he would bite. This had been happening some time and I was more than confused. Dammit I�m their leader I should know these things I�d cursed slightly. I hadn�t noticed the hostility between them until I began to notice small things. How Farf�s hands would curl to fists or he�d jump almost away from the red head when he would be near him, and almost seemed to turn a begging gaze on me whenever I left the two alone for a mission. Nagi either with me because he wouldn�t distract me or play with the guests or doing homework. But if I started asking questions, I knew they�d be too many questions from them that I couldn�t answer. Like why the fuck did I care? I wasn�t the cold bastard everyone thought that I was. I acted it I admitted and didn�t put them otherwise straight. It was easier that way, although Schuldig teased me enough on many occasions, sick, twisted little�. But anyway I�m digressing. Sometimes I thought I could hear Schuldig yell for me when I was working but it was always so quite I thought I was hearing things, and it was only once. I assumed i was going crazy. Who wouldn't having to deal with Schuldig infiltrating your mind every chance he got or Farferello digging and cutting things or himself with those damn knives of his. But I was never angry with Farfie, though I should have been. In his more sane facades, or usual day where he wasn�t ranting or playing with knives I associated this innocence with him. Innocence he had lost at such a young age. I knew I was crazy to think this, Schuldig could find out, he�d been slipping under my barriers ever so slightly. It was a game, he�d get in and I�d build bigger and stronger boundaries to keep him out, a battle for dominance you could say. One mission we�d come home, just surviving, thanks to that annoying bastard, Abysinian had gotten pissed off and had slashed Farferello.... I remember making a pretty cruel heartless comment that I had regretted straight away. I�d told him not to ruin my car seats. Honestly I didn�t care about the seats; I wanted to make sure he was okay, but I�d never bothered before and knew it would raise eyebrows if I started now. I had to keep myself from not smacking Schu when he draped himself over me so he could yell at the Irishman. I sneered at him. the red head really did try my nerves sometimes. I began to regret ever getting him out of that Asylum in Germany. Farfie left to shower Nagi to his room and I didn�t notice where the German had gone. After changing myself, and writing up some of the report for the mission I sat back on the couch in the living room. Looking up a few minutes later as Nagi rushed from Farferello�s room, looking at me with wide, yet sad eyes and moments later Schuldig left the same room, bolting the madman in with a smirk and a whistle before leaving and wandering to his room. I blinked in confusion, wondering if Farferello had flipped out, yet hadn�t heard anything. I shrugged for a moment then went back to my book before going to bed, wondering how I kept myself sane in a mad house like this. Dinner next day was unusual, we didn�t sit together of course but by late evening Farferello still hadn�t emerged from his room. I began to worry that the wound yesterday was in fact deeper than I had thought, dealing with one of Schu�s tantrums I sent Nagi in. about ten minutes later he came out, with an odd look on his face. �He�s tired�. Was all he replied and before I could ask Schuldig was back to yelling and ranting in German because he�d missed his favorite programme. After we had more missions, they seemed to take my mind off the incident before. One night when both Nagi and I had a mission I�d gone into Farferello�s room before leaving. Dressed in a slate colored suit, and black shirt with dress pants It felt a little odd from my usual attire, but Takatori had sent me out to buy this stuff for this gathering, you obey orders or find yourself dead. �Are you okay?� I asked, my voice a little softer than usual, eyes not so hard. He nodded from his position refusing to meet my gaze. I wanted to ask more, to stay there and hold him close, to tell him�to tell him something so much, but I knew we�d be late if I did. With a sigh and a nod I left his room, waiting for Nagi in the car as he went into Farferello�s room after and soon we joined me, leaving Farfie with Schu, something that hadn�t happened in a few weeks, during which Schuldig had thrown more tantrums. I didn�t know why till that night. The meeting itself was dull. Exceedingly dull. Hair pullingly dull. All it was, was Takatori sitting around drinking with some of his associates. Nagi looked at me with his �I have homework and I�m here so this better be good� gaze and Takatori yelled at me to come play poker. After two hours Nagi was asleep from boredom and everyone else was drunk, gone on getting there. Soon Takatori said he was leaving and that we could take the night off. With a nod and �Yes sir�. I coughed and Nagi woke slowly looking at me with blinking eyes and got up. We made our way down the stairs and out of the building, getting in the car and made our way back. After some silence I turned to Nagi slightly. �What�s wrong with Farferello�he won�t look at me, he JUMPS near Schu and has been jittery for months�. I trained my gaze on him, pining him to the seat. He knew better to tell me. �Crawford�. He�I shouldn�t tell you he asked me to keep it a secret.... No begged me�. �I don�t care, I want to know�. NOW�. Nagi, promising a secret? What the hell was going on that I didn�t know about? �Ok�but don�t say I didn�t warn you, if Farferello goes mad and you don�t want to know....�. He took a breath and turned to me fully. �Farfie loves you and has for sometime, Schu found out and has been making Farfie�. He.... He�s been abusing Farfie.... Making him.�ya know�..Pleasure him so Schu won�t tell you, and Farfie hates it, and Schu hurts him and�.� �SCHU FUCKING WHAT!� My hands tightened on the wheel, mind processing everything� �Wait.... Farfie loves me�. And Schu�. Put your seatbelt on NOW�. I hit the gas, breaking limits, if anyone pulled me over I was going to shoot them. �Crawford what are you going to do�. Do you mind that Farfie�.� �Mind? I feel the same�. I watched as Nagi�s eyes went wide before he smiled. �Shit�. What if Schu knew and didn�t say anything to keep using Farfie?�. I growled loudly. �He will get what he deserves for hurting him�. At break neck speed we arrived back at the apartment, I almost broke the door from its hinges getting inside the place and rushed to Farferello�s closed door. Nagi was first in and my eyes widened at the sight, bile rising up in my throat. I heard Schu, first and then his slight yell. "You'll enjoy it, not as if you can feel me when I rip you apa.... Eyaghhhhhhh". �You sick little bastard�. Nagi screamed out as he pulled the red head off of Farfie with his mind, thrusting him against the wall and proceeded to kick him. I moved to Farfie, wrapping a blanket around him as I pulled him into my lap. I praised the traffic free roads. If we�d been later Farferello would have been raped. I knew if Nagi hadn�t knocked the prick out I would have killed him. Just seeing and thinking about Schu hurting Farferello turned me blood crazy. I pulled Farfie up to me and gently out of his room to mine, placing him on the bed and against me, my arms tight around him. �Shhhh�. A moment later he grabbed his head in his hands, the sick little bastard was still hurting him. �Fight him�. I whispered gently, holding him tighter as he whimpered a little, the mews slowly ending when I heard Nagi yell, �Shove it� and then a thud. I realized Schu had been knocked out. �Let me up� He murmured softly to me but my arms tightened around him, scared he�d try to leave. I had to talk to him.�to tell him I loved him, something I thought I�d kept secret for so long and would never voice. �Why didn�t you tell me?� I whispered, stroking my hand soothingly through his soft white hair, the soft silkiness amazed me, it always appeared so spiky and wiry before. "It wasn't important, I could deal with it". I shook my head with a whisper of a laugh, he lied so badly. �Not that Farfie�� I ushered. �Nagi told me everything�. I felt him stiffen in my arms and respond with a scared and quite �Oh�. "I'm sorry you felt that you had to let him do that, for me to not find out, I wish you'd told me". I whispered to him, my hand at his back running across it gently to soothe him. "So you could laugh?" He choked out. I felt my heart tighten as I shook my head. �I�d never laugh Farfie�I feel the same�. I won�t let him hurt you ever again�. He looked up at me sharply, his wide amber eye shining with vulnerability and sadness. �Don�t tease�. He whispered, gaze wavering slightly from my gentle one. "I don't do teasing Farfie�. You should know me by now". I whispered, and turned his head towards mine, my breath ceased in anticipation as I lowered my mouth to his, brushing my lips against his incredibly soft ones, the scar adorning his bottom odd but not un-welcomed. He pulled away from me, and I knew if he cried he would be now. I smiled gently and he whispered my name as I pulled him closer. "I love you Farfie, I didn't think you could feel the same way.". He shook his head and buried closer to me, much to my relief. Holding him tightly I smiled as I felt him fall asleep in my arms. A few moments later Nagi knocked softly on my door before entering. �He�s tied up and secured Crawford�. He gave me a smile before closing the door gently, and I stayed awake, stroking Farfie�s hair like I had longed to do for so long. ~~~~~~~~ Now 6 months later, I watch Farfie rise from the sofa; he offers me a smile as he walks to his old cell, knife in hand. I know he won�t kill Schu�just make him suffer, an endless torment that he so rightfully deserves. Death would be too easy for him. Nagi smiles a little, he keeps Schu docile when Farfie wants to play. With a last look to me I watch as my lover disappears into Schu�s room now and listen to the clang of the metallic door as it shuts, an evil cackle sounds through the room that I love to hear. I soon tune the scream out as I turn back to my book. |