Faras Ghani, 26 years
old, born and bred in Karachi, a resident of London and Manchester at times and currently pursuing
a journalism career in London.
My interests
lie in football, cricket, bird-watching, photography, eating, sleeping,
random theories and coming up with crazy ideas.
I can be found
on msn (yung_foo0),
on facebook, on twitter, on blogspot or by plain email (farasghani[at]yahoo.com) |
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Lost in Pakistan
Depression is defined as a
mental state characterised by a pessimistic sense of inadequacy and
a despondent lack of activity. Like any other serious medical
condition, it needs to be treated with care. Samia, an Indian born
and bred, is just one of many affected by it. Married at an early
age and moved to Pakistan,
Samia was faced with a severe case of depression, one that ruined
her marriage and life. Currently residing in the Edhi home for
mentally disabled women in North Karachi, Samia shares her travel
from her youth in India to her current abode in Karachi, her
marriage, children and how events unfolded in light of her
depression
including a desire to commit suicide
Where
were you born and raised and where/how was your childhood spent?
I was born and raised in Rampur,
India,
and got my basic education from there. I played hockey for District
Rampur and captained the side for several tournaments. I was
actually bound for the Indian national hockey team but missed entry
by a couple of points and at that moment, I was gutted to have
missed out. However, I did not let it bother me much and carried on
studying and did my Matriculation
You
got married at an early age to a Pakistani. How did that come about?
My
husband-to-be, who happened to be my cousin, came to
India
to see me with the intention of marriage when I was doing my
Matriculation. After seeing and talking to me, his proposal was
accepted by my parents. I got married in
Pakistan
after finishing my Intermediate and was based in Karachi
with my husband. I was ill after my wedding plans were finalised and
that put the marriage in jeopardy, but I managed to recover in time
and all went well.
What
kind of illness was that and how did it come about?
I first fell ill after
my Intermediate exams. It was a random feeling that I had all day
long, with no clue of how to go about things and the daily routine
in my life. We consulted several doctors and also elderly in the
family but no one could tell what was happening. I tried snapping
out of it but to no avail. Surprisingly, after I got my first-year
results, my condition improved. All of a sudden, I was back to my
normal self. Maybe it was depression, but nothing significant
preceded it so I was unsure myself.
How
did your early marriage life fare in Pakistan?
Things started
well. I went back to India
a year after getting married and gave birth to my son. However,
since I held a Pakistani passport, I over-stayed my visa duration
and my husband, from Pakistan,
notified the authorities. Not sure of the reasons, but he told the
authorities that I had run away from home and was in possession of
his son as well. Due to that, I was forced back to
Karachi
and had a deportation case filed against me.
Did
things improve at home from then on?
Not really. I
started getting ill again after getting back and, as before, had no
idea of what was happening. My husband thought it was something at
home since we lived with his parents so we switched homes and he got
another apartment. Things didn’t improve, however It was termed
depression and I had no idea how to cope with it. Since my husband
was a captain on a naval ship, we went on a tour to help me recover.
I sailed around on the ship for about five months before giving
birth to my daughter as we returned to
Karachi.
My condition, however, refused to improve and I could tell people
around me were getting fed up as I was ill for eight years without
showing any signs of recovery.
How
did you manage to end up at this Edhi home?
I think there came a
point when my husband had enough of me. He was a very nice person
and looked after me very well. However, one day, he got up and told
me he was heading on a long cruise for work and brought me to this
place. Citing safety concerns, he told me to live at this Edhi home
until his return. I wasn’t aware of what kind of people were given
shelter here and it was only after my arrival did I realised I was
tricked into coming here. And that was the last time I saw my
husband.
What
was your life after arriving here?
Horrible. Not because
of the place but because of my condition, not being able to see my
children and the fact that I was lied to and tricked into coming
here. He told me I should listen to my husband and I obliged without
thinking. He was a nice person and I thought he was doing it to aid
my recovery. But maybe it was my fault that I was ill and he was
right in bringing me here.
I
was admitted into the emergency ward upon arrival. The psychiatric
doctor here advised to keep me there not only because of my mental
status, but also due to the bruises in my back and leg. I have no
idea how I got those but they were there. My daily routine for the
first few months was to wake up, have breakfast, have my medicine,
walk around for a bit and then lie down all day. I didn’t do any
work and my life was in complete shambles.
How
did you transform yourself and bring yourself to where you are now?
I realised myself that
being useless will not help my cause so I tried changing myself
gradually. I made a routine, started working around the centre, took
part in various activities and since I was educated, started
teaching English, science and maths to the children. I was treated
for my illness as well here and got regular medicine and in fact am
still getting some. I was diagnosed with tuberculosis too and was
successfully treated for that as well. The staff here was really
helpful and played a huge hand in my recovery, not only physically
but mentally as well.
Are
you still in contact with your family?
The last I saw
and heard from my husband was when he brought me here. I have not
spoken to or seen my children either. I was told that my husband
informed them I had fled to India.
My husband’s sister, however, keeps in contact and visits. Bilquis
mummy lets me
talk to my family in India
regularly. My mother came to Karachi
eight years ago and that’s when I saw her last. I’ve not seen my
father and siblings for 15 years now. They have probably forgotten
me now.
More
than anyone, I miss my children the most. You have no idea things
I’ve tried to console myself and its not easy being so far away from
my children and not being on contact. I miss them more than anything
in the world. Not so much my husband because I don’t like talking
about him anymore or even thinking about him. I was told he has
re-married and I have no reason to contact him anymore. I was
devastated when I was informed he has divorced me. That, and not
being able to meet my children, increased my depression levels on a
daily basis. But it’s all a thing of the past and maybe God has
planned better things for me.
What
are your plans now? Staying here or do you want to go back to India?
Ideally I’d like
to go back to India,
back to my family. But that doesn’t mean I hate this place. This
Edhi centre is like a home to me, the people here are like my
family. I love it. But there is no other place like home. I miss my
family; my parents, my sister, my brother. I want to see them again.
There are efforts being made to get me a visa so that I can do that.
However, the deportation case in the past is probably causing
hindrance to those efforts. Edhi sahib, however, is involved in the
process himself so let’s see what comes of it.
Now
that I think about it, there is not much point in going back other
than visiting. My parents have probably forgotten me (said jokingly)
and I have no intention of getting married again, I see no point in
that. If the application is sorted then I will head to India
otherwise I’m happy here. This place gave me shelter when I was
desperately clinging on to my life. I wanted to commit suicide at
one point, so fed up of myself I was. In fact, it was due to that
reason that my husband decided to bring me here instead of a mental
hospital since it would’ve been easier to commit suicide there. Such
is the level of comfort here that I don’t even like going to
relatives’ or even asking for their help with matters.
This
is like family to me and I owe them everything.
The
Edhi Foundation, with the help of the Red Cross, has been trying to
get Samia a visa for
India.
However, according to Anwar Kazmi, spokesperson for the Edhi
Foundation, the process is not an easy and short-one since it
involves a deportation case laid on Samia in the past after she
overstayed her visa length. Samia’s uncle in India
was contacted by the Edhi Foundation to seek help. However, his
refusal to take part in any activity proved a jolt for Samia and
other ways are being sought to help Samia get back to
India.
While all concerned individuals and parties carry out an earnest
effort, Anwar Kazmi, as willing an eager as he was to help Samia,
was unable to disclose how long the effort would take since it has
become a legal matter. For now, Samia must carry on her life as she
has for the last six years and hope things work out for the best.
© Faras Ghani 2008.
Published in Xpoze May 2008
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life as a
journo
I started writing at the age of 15 - much later than few I
know involved in the field of journalism - as a contributor
to an e-newsletter. I wasn't very good at it but kept
pursuing it, so much so that I was forced to change career
paths; landing into print journalism from computer science.
I have written on topics ranging from sports, politics and
news to IT, fashion, entertainment and the world of pharmacy.
Landing free concert passes, chance to
interview celebs and sports personalities and travelling around
the globe on company expense, I am in love with the world of
journalism.
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my travelling experience
Pakistan - Karachi, Thatta, Islamabad, Pindi, Lahore, Peshawar,
Gilgit, Murree, Faisalabad, Hyderabad, Multan
England - London, Manchester, Birmingham, Southampton, Portsmouth,
Oxford, Salisbury, Coventry, Warwick, Sutton, Winchester,
Liverpool, Bradford, Preston, Wigan, Suffolk, Stockport,
Bolton, Bath, Brighton, Horsham
Wales - Cardiff
Scotland - Edinburgh, Glasgow
Ireland - Dublin
France - Paris
Spain - Reus, Barcelona
Turkey - Istanbul
USA - New York, Philadelphia, Lancaster, Swarthmore, Chicago, St
Louis, Columbia, San Diego, OC, LA, Las Vegas, Washington DC
UAE - Dubai, Abu Dhabi, Sharjah
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the interest in photography
An
interest in photography developed randomly and grew into a hobby that I started
dedicating more than a few minutes to.
Covering cricket matches, fashion
shows, music concerts and
randomly walking around with a camera, I have taken,
and
edited, a few photos that I like.
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publications and employers
England
The Sun, Cricinfo, Asian News, Asian Woman, IWTV, Student Direct,
LiverFM, ALL FM, City Life, Sensazn, AMG, Cricket Bloggers
Pakistan
Cricinfo, Dawn, Spider, Images, Dawn Magazine, Books & Authors, Sci-tech
world, Star, Newsline, Herald, Xpoze, The News, getIT.pk, The Review, Right Solution
Also, IBM, Financial Times, Superdrug,
Woolworth's, Ultima Thule, Exxon Mobil, GSK, Big Picture, Gekko,
Frontline Focus, Barclaycard, 3G Hutchsion, JD Sports and many
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