�Summer?� Mrs. Cohen declares snapping me out of my thoughts, �Do you want to go get the comic book with me?�
�I don�t think I will,� I reply not really wanting to go to the comic book store if I didn�t have to.
�Okay,� She says but I know she wanted me to go with her. I just can�t bring myself to go though.
After his mom leaves Seth turns to me and asks, �Have you seen Ryan yet?� I shake my head no.
�Will you go see him for me? Considering that I�m still trapped here and can�t see him myself. I just want him to know that I�m thinking about him,� Seth says.
�Okay, but you do realize that he is still in the coma� I reply and following Seth�s request I head to Ryan�s room.
�Yeah but maybe he�ll come out of it if he knows I�m okay and here for him,� Seth exclaims after me. At least this will give me a break from the rambling.
I walk in slowly. It is weird to find Ryan just lying there. Then again Ryan didn�t say much, so that isn�t as unusual. But he was always so strong and lying there, he just looks really weak. He still has the tube in his throat, and his eyes are closed.
I went and sat in the chair by his bed, �Ryan,� I say not knowing how else to start. He remains in the same position he was. �Seth wants you to know that he is thinking about you. He would tell you himself except that he is trapped.� Again no movement comes from Ryan. It�s almost like he�s not listening. Maybe this is why I have avoided coming to see him. After what seems like forever a nurse comes in to take vitals.
I get up to leave figuring I would leave them alone as the nurse says, �You can stay. I�m about done.�
�It�s okay I don�t know what to say anyway,� I reply.
�Just say what you are thinking,� The nurse suggests as she walks out.
�Okay,� I utter now to myself. I walk back over to Ryan and sit again. I realize now why this is so hard, besides the fact that he�s lying motionless in a bed.
�We have never really been friends have we?� I ask knowing I won�t get a reply. �You�ve always been Ryan, the kid from Chino, who was Cohen�s foster brother or Marissa�s on again off again boyfriend. We�ve never been just friends. I guess that�ll change now, considering�� I trail off letting it sink in.
I figure I�ll tell him about Seth now since that�s what I came in for, �Seth�s awake. He even got that nasty tube out. The swelling has gone down too. He can sit up and move his arms and head and everything�. He still can�t move� or even feel anything below his waist.� I�m crying at this point. I have never cried more than in the past two days. �They don�t know if he�ll ever regain feeling� They don�t know if you�ll ever wake up� They don�t know anything and it sucks. It sucks that this happened and that I can�t do anything. I realize that this is the most we�ve ever talked, well that I�ve ever talked to you, and I just totally broke down.� I stop for a moment with again no reaction from Ryan, �Seth needs you to wake up Ryan. The Cohen�s need you to wake up. I need you to wake up.�
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