Disclaimer   :  Gundam Wing and their related charas are belong to Sunrise, Bandai, etc. I own nothing, only the story.

Pairing         :  1x2/2x1

Warning       :  shounen ai, if you couldn’t take it please leave now.

Timeline      :  After Good luck and Goodbye

Notes           :  This is a sequel for the fic Good luck and Goodbye, the title is inspired from one of Heero Yuy song title ‘Ore dake no kotoba de’ (only by my own word) but there’s no relation with it’s content (which I can’t find out exactly what..!!)

Kyaa-chan’s note: I’m sorry Midori-chan for taking so long to edit this story and its prequel!

 

ONLY BY MY OWN WORD

(Sequel for Good luck and Goodbye)

 

 

‘Good luck… and goodbye…’

 

He woke up and blinked, trying to remember the dream that made him wake up so suddenly.  All he could feel was the loneliness. 

 

Morning has always become his favorite part of the day, he didn’t even know why.  But lately he hated it, and once again he didn’t know why…

Maybe because nobody’s there to wake up beside him. Nobody knows…

 

He crept down from his bed and made his way to the bathroom without even noticing the tears left in his cheeks from his last dream.

 

*****

 

He remembered about his promise to Relena this morning.  He promised to be her bodyguard for some time until she could find someone else to replace him.  The last incident with Dekim Barton had really become world’s greatest catastrophe and they decided to use the Perfect Soldier once again to get into his mission--that is, protecting Relena.  She loved the idea of course, and Heero didn’t seem to complain about the new assignment they gave him. 

 

He walked to one of the biggest room in the castle to pick her up.  Relena was going to give her statement about the last incident which involved her and it was his duty to follow her everywhere she went.

 

He knocked the door and a maid opened it for him.  Smiled to him as she knew how much the vice minister had waited for him. 

 

“Come in, Mr. Yuy.”  She smiled.  No answer from the stoic man as he entered the room, finding Relena and another maid busily combing her hair.

 

“Ah, Heero. Wait a moment. I’m brushing my hair, it will only took a while.” She smiled, and the maids could she there’s a big blush in her cheeks.

 

“Hn.” He answered, paying his attention to the long silky hair of hers.

 

 

//Flashback//

 

 

He turned back his head in a single swift move as he heard the bathroom door slammed roughly. 

 

“Duo?”

 

“Uh-huh.”  There’s a voice coming from the bathroom.

 

“How’s the mission?”

 

“Don’t worry.  I could handle it.”

 

Silence.  Heero could feel something’s wrong with his partner but he couldn’t find out exactly what it was.

 

“Duo, are you okay? Are you hurt or something?”  He walked towards the bathroom door, tried to handle the knob.

 

“I’m okay, just don’t come here for a minute, ‘kay?”

 

Heero frowned.  There must be something bad happened to him.  He pushed the door hard and forced it open, and he could see Duo, frowning back to him with a very grumpy face.

 

“I said don’t come here.”  He said. His voice sounded disappointed.

 

“What happened?”  He asked worriedly.

 

“Hmmph,” he snorted. “Heero, my hair is a mess…” He showed the other boy his hair, which was by then covered by dirt and wet by some, well--stench water.

 

Heero couldn’t stop the laughter from coming out of his mouth, he never felt this way before, laugh, so free and relax, before he notice another cranky face of Duo Maxwell.

 

“You think it’s funny, dont’cha?”  He glared over to the Perfect Soldier.

 

“I’m sorry, Duo. But it’s just a hair. You just need to wash it.” He still chuckled.

 

“That’s exactly what I’m going to do, now would you mind stepping out of here?”

 

“Okay, I’m sorry.”  He’s still smiling but rewarded with another slam in the door. 

 

‘He’s really mad’ he thought ‘I’d better think of something to fix it…’

 

After one straight hour in the bathroom and almost half an hour using the hair dryer the longhaired boy finally came out with a very brand new face, his cheeks were red again and he was smiling from ear to ear. But when he saw Heero, his face’s back to the old grumpy face.

 

“You still mad aren’t you?”  Heero asked carefully.

 

“Nope.”  He answered without seeing the other boy’s face.

 

“Liar.”

 

“…”

 

“Here, let me comb your hair.”

 

“You’re kidding right?”  Duo snapped back to face him, eyes widened with surprise.

 

“Nope, come here.  I want to comb your hair.”  Heero was holding a comb.  Duo could sense that he’s really serious about it.  He couldn’t stop a sudden smile, which crossed his lips.

 

“O.. Okay..”  He giggled and jumped to the bed near Heero.

 

Heero smiled and started combing the long chestnut hair.  His hair was soft and sweet-scented, and Heero was way too familiar with the fragrance that brought him to paradise.  Slowly he felt Duo’s head fall on his shoulder, his beautiful violet eyes closed and all his muscles started to loosen up.

 

“Duo, are you sleeping?”

 

“Ummm…?” His voice sounded more like a mumble.  Heero sighed, he knew he had had a hard mission and it’s so normal if he felt really tired.  He carried the boy to his own bed and let him rest.  Heero never finished combing Duo’s hair but he’s happy enough watching Duo’s sleeping face all night.

 

 

//End flashback//

 

 

A smile rose in his lips, he didn’t even realize it.  Relena turned to face him and smile.

 

“Heero? What’s so funny?”  She asked suddenly, straightening her collar helped by her two maids.

 

“What?”

 

“You’re smiling.”  She said.

 

His expression turned to a stunned face. “Really? Uh…”

 

She raised an eyebrow, looked dazedly to the former Wing pilot.  “What are you thinking?”

 

“Umh, nothing.  Let’s go to the conference room, I don’t want you to be late.”  He opened the door for her and let her through.  His voice sounded husky as he answered.  Relena nodded and awkwardly waited for him to walk beside her.

 

“So, I hear you’re going to join the preventer after finishing your job with me.”

 

“Aa…” He slowed his steps so he could walks alongside with the girl.

 

“Sally was so excited that you’re joining, she said you’re the best agent preventer could have.”  She smiled.

 

Heero thought for a second “That’s the only life I know.”

 

She frowned “What do you mean?”

 

“To receive mission.  My life’s filled with mission and nothing else.”

 

“You have your friends, right?”

 

“My friends? Of course…” His gaze was somewhere out there.  “But now they are all got separate ways.”

 

“Oh so I’ve heard.  I heard Duo Maxwell’s back to L2, Trowa Barton’s back to the circus, Quatre with his business, but Wufei is still here in the preventer.”

 

“Hn.  Wufei is really stuck to his job.”

 

“Yes, he is.  Sally complains a lot about his over-seriousness,” she chuckled “But despite all that, they are a very good partner.”

 

“Yes, they are.”

 

 

//Flashback//

 

“Please remind me who’s stupid idea was it to made us partners?”  Duo frowned, looking at the deadly looking Wing pilot.  He put some antiseptic solution on his bruises that he had after blowing off one of OZ headquarters.

 

“Would you shut up.”  Heero glared while bandaging his own bruises.

 

“You who came up with the idea to set the bomb in five minutes and now you’re telling me to shut up.  Do you know we could’ve end up dead back there?”  Duo frowned and lay down to the bed.

 

“It sounds like a good idea that time.” Heero sighed and finished his effort to band his other hand.

 

“You just never admitted don’tcha ?!”  Duo shook his head and then raised his blanket. “I’m going to sleep.”

 

Heero rose on his feet and walks towards the bed, “move over.”

 

“Huh?!”  Duo blinked in confuse, and then  “I’m sorry, Hee-chan. I’m too sore, I don’t think I can do *that* right now…”

 

“Hentai!” He raised the blanket and rolled to Duo’s side “This is the only bed in the safe house.”

 

“Oh you’re right.”  He giggled and then snuggled to Heero’s chest.  The Perfect Soldier scooped the braided boy in his arms.  He sighed and let all his muscles loosen, holding Duo has always been his favorite thing to do.  The boy was awfully slender and warm.  In the other hand, Duo always loved to be inside Heero’s embrace, to hear the sound of his heartbeat.

 

They knew no matter how awful the mission bring them; it was always end up fine as long as they’re together.  They were indeed perfect partners.

 

 

//End flashback//

 

 

“Heero, good that I found you here.”  Sally Poe’s voice breaking the silence of the balcony.  Heero glanced back to her and nodded.

 

“What’s the matter?”  He asked.  Wufei came from her behind with Relena. 

 

“Ah, Yuy.  We’ve got good news for you.”

 

“Yes?”

 

“We’ve found someone to be Relena Peacecraft’s bodyguard, you can join the preventer any time soon.”  Sally smiled to him. “He’s waiting outside if you wanted to give him some instruction.”

 

Heero nodded. “Sure, when he could start?”

 

“Sooner the better, we need you in the preventer.”  Wufei nodded and turned to look at a restless Relena. “Do you have something to say?”

 

Relena shook her head. “If it’s already decided, I couldn’t say anything. Do I?”

 

It’s so obvious, the disappointment in her eyes.  Sally smiled to her and nodded. “Don’t worry, Relena-sama. If you don’t like your new bodyguard you could always tell me and we’ll find you somebody else.”

 

She nodded, but her eyes betrayed her.  Of course, she would never like her new bodyguard. Cause all she wanted was Heero.

 

“And now, Yuy.  We’re thinking to set you a partner.”  Wufei suddenly said.

 

“I don’t need any partner, I could work alone.”  Heero said coldly.

 

“We know that, but still it’s better if you have someone to cover your back.”  Wufei insisted.  His dark eyes were straightly to his former pilot comrade.

 

“So, Heero?”  Sally had a slight smile on her face. “We’re thinking to ask you to pick up your new partner yourself.”

 

“Why?”  Heero frowned, not believing the mischievous smile playing in the woman’s lips.

 

“Because you know him most, and certainly he could never refuse you.”

 

Wufei snorted, “Maybe it’s not a good idea anyway, onna. I mean, I never really liked him…”

 

Heero had another frown in his forehead. “Who is this person you’re talking about?”

 

“Well…”  Sally grinned, “we’re actually talking about Duo Maxwell.”

 

 

//Flashback//

 

 

“Say it.”

 

He blinked, “Huh?!”

 

“Say it.”  Heero looked down to his lover who’s wrapped safely in his arms.

 

A wicked smile broke across Duo’s face. “You didn’t say the magic word..”

 

Heero snorted and leaned to kiss the boy hard on the lips. “Heero, I said the magic word, not the action.”  He chuckled.

 

“Duo…”

 

“I love you, Heero Yuy. Don’t ever doubt that.” He said solemnly.

 

Heero’s head tilted, he looks at him and gulped. “Duo, you know I *care* for you..”

 

Duo sighed, that’s not exactly the words he was hoping as a reply from Heero, but he nodded instead. “Yes, I know.”

 

 

//End flashback//

 

 

He didn’t remember what happened after the little meeting in the balcony, the next thing he knew he’s riding a shuttle straight to L2 to ask Duo joining the preventer, to become his partner again.

 

It’s been a week after he left Heero.  And Heero had to admit that he somehow missed the braided boy, not just his warmth in his arms, or his kisses in his lips, but more like his presence in his life. He even missed that evil grin he had or his non-stop chatter. And he realized it was more than a request to join the preventer could ever bring him back to his life.  It was those three words he been longing to hear from his mouth.  Heero didn’t know if he could say it right now, but he’d try.  Because he did feel the emotions inside. 

 

He didn’t know what love is all about, he had never fallen in love before in his life.  But he knew he couldn’t live without Duo, he experienced it the last week.  And if those feelings were not caused by love, he didn’t know what it was…

 

“Here is your stop, Sir.”  The Taxi driver cheered him, stopping in front of a big salvage yard.

“Thank you.”  Heero answered without even looking at him, eyes looking for a figure that he missed so badly. “Keep the change.”

“Thanks.”  And the taxi left him all alone there.

 

He walked to the yard, didn’t know what else to do. How could I ever found him in this salvage mess anyway? He thought, eyes trying to catch any living things he could spot.

 

Finally he saw it.  Long braid snaking behind the slender boy body, while the owner humming some new pop song and sorting some salvage materials.

 

“Duo.” He almost choked in a whisper when he finally called his name.  The boy turned around and almost rose in an instant when he’s looking at his figure.

 

“Heero.. What are you doing here?”

 

“I…”

 

Duo smiled cheerfully. “Long time no see, let’s see… a week?!” He chuckled.

 

Heero set a soft smile on his face. “A week and sixteen hours to be exact.”

 

“Huh?!” Duo blinked and then burst a laugh, “you count that?!”

 

“Hn.”  Heero gulped, all he wanted to do now was taking the other boy in his embrace and watch that angelic face smiled like it used to be. “Duo…”

 

“Heero, what are you doing here?”  Duo repeated, his heart beating hard, he couldn’t possibly think that Heero came to see him and he was finally going to say the words to him, but he’d hoped this day to come.  To see Heero again, and maybe…

 

“I come to… well, Sally and Wufei asked me to get you to join the preventer, and that we’re going to be partnered again.”  Heero gasped; he regretted his words of course and couldn’t help swearing to himself for saying those words first.

 

Duo sighed, his eyes filled with disappointment. “Oh…”

 

“Duo…?”

 

“Well, I certainly don’t mind joining the preventer and all, but what about you? I thought after the war over you would like to.. Uh--stay away from me?”  His violet eyes went heavenward.

 

“Duo…! Of course I want to be with you, cause uh.. I..”

 

“Yes?” Duo looked startled, hoping so badly for Heero to continue.

 

“I care about you.”

 

“Of course you do, Heero.”  Another disappointment tone in his voice, “I’ll think about that offer, you don’t need to worry. You could go back now and tell Sally and Wufei…”

 

“No!! You have to accept it now, or else…”

 

Duo turned his body from him and trailed off, walking away from the ex Wing pilot. He raised his head a little and tried to catch some air, they both needed it.

 

“Duo, don’t run away from me…”

 

“Oh? I’m running away from you?” He snapped back, violet eyes filled with anger and sadness at the same time. “*I* never run from you, Heero Yuy.  I always look at you right in the eyes, but you never give any response for that. Now you even come here to ask me to join the preventer, to be partner again, and to forget everything between us.  Tell me, who’s running away?”

 

“I never said that you should forget everything between us. I want you back..!!”  He exclaimed.

 

“Just like that? A new adventure waiting so you suddenly decided to take your old lover *back *to give some pleasure in the cold lonely nights?! Well let me tell you something, Heero.  I ain’t coming back for you, Damn it!!”

 

Heero grasped at Duo's wrist, jerking the boy to face him.  “No… I.. I.. I can’t live without you, Duo.”  He managed to say the words.  His eyes almost welled up with tears but he soon controlled himself.  “Duo, please come back with me. I need you.”

 

Duo stunned, feeling Heero’s arms lift to embraces him.  Soft but strong arms struck his back in a slow motion. He buried his face to Heero’s chest, bit his bottom lips and finally he said what he longing to say from the first time he saw Heero show up in his salvage yard: “Say it, Heero. Say what ever you wanted to say the first time you’ve decided to come here.”

 

Heero swallowed hard.  He couldn’t say it…

 

And then he saw it, the beautiful violet eyes that he was always longing to see looking back at him and he knew that he’s falling in love so deeply with the boy every time he saw him, never wanted to let him go.

 

And finally he found his way back home…

 

“I love you.”  He choked out and shut his mouth afterwards, but he said it. He finally said it.

 

Duo’s eyes widened.  Did he finally say the words? Oh my God, is this all real? He lifted his face and look at him confusedly.

 

“See, I managed to say it, Duo. I did it.”

 

“Yes, you do…” He touched the other boy’s cheek softly. “You know that it’s all what I need? Your love and nothing else.”

 

“I’m sorry, Duo. It took me so long to say the words, and maybe I could never say it again… but I want you to know that I’ll always feel that way to you.” He trembled; his Prussian blue eyes look solemnly to the violet eyes.

 

“No, I *will* make you say it again, Heero. I love you.” He smiled and kissed him in the lips. 

 

“Me too…”

 

Duo broke the kiss and pull away, “I guess I should pack my stuff right now, so I can join you immediately, partner.”  He winked.

 

“Yes, you should. Sally and Wufei are waiting back home.”

 

“Wufei ha? I thought he didn’t like me all this time…” He frowned, “you think he might have missed me?”

 

The Perfect Soldier snorted, pulled him back to his embrace and growled in his ear. “Baka. You’re mine.  I’m not sharing you with anyone.”

 

Duo laughed with satisfaction, tilted his head to kissed his lover again. “That’s all I need, Heero. Your words.”

 

 

THE END

 

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PS:  Thank you, Kyaa-chan, for everything. I could never do this without you, and please stop talking about that 13 x 2 and 13 x 1 fic or I’m gonna write you a 13 x 5, and I have soooooo many ideas in my head about it *grin*

Kyaa-chan’s answer: Try if you dare!