A Fanfic of Gundam Wing by Midori Green ([email protected])

 

Disclaimer            : THEY'RE NOT MINE !!---there, you happy now..!!

Type                       : One-shot

Time line               : 4 years after endless waltz (AC 200?)

Warnings              : yaoi, romance, sweetness ?! (you've been warned)

Pairings                 : R+1, 2+1/1+2

Feedback              : Sure, why not?

 

 

WAITING FOR TOMORROW

 

 

[Relena]

 

Finally.

Tomorrow's the big day. The day I've been waiting for all my entire life.

Tomorrow I'll be yours.

And You'll be mine only.

Tomorrow I will be Mrs. Relena Peacecraft-Yuy, the one and only wife of Heero Yuy--the only man I've ever fallen in love with.

How could I be so lucky? I wonder...

 

It was like a dream that he finally asked me to marry him, it was two months ago--still it feels like yesterday.

I would never forget that day, a cold--yet so sweet afternoon--when the skies were filled with the most beautiful color.

We were just talking about the war (well, I do most of the talking, cause he was such a stoic man--but I think that's part of the thing a loved from him), and we're talking about the future too.

 

The peace has been regained in earth and colonies--soon not much we can do and maybe it was the time we start to think about making a family. His face was so indescribable as I said so. His gaze is somewhere far away, and he looked up to the beautiful sky, sighed something and finally he said the words, still looking to the sky above,

"Relena, will you marry me?"

 

[Heero]

 

It has been raining for hours now--and I think it will never stop. The water down the window outside, wiping all the dirt and dust.

But can it also wipe the burden inside me?

Tomorrow I'll finally have what I've always wanted--to have a real family.

To have a life of my own. A life with Relena.

The life I thought I could never have in a peace world. I am a soldier--and a soldier is only needed in war. After the war a Perfect Soldier is useless.

I wish I could just disappear after the war.

 

And why Relena? I don't know.

Do I love Relena? I don't know.

Maybe because she really cares about me--because she loves me.

She says the words over and over since I proposed her that day.

 

I never told her how I feel about her though. I mean, what should I say? That I didn't feel that way to her? I didn't even know whether I loved her or not...

And I'll never tell a lie..

Wait, that's not my words.

'I'll never tell a lie.' That's a familiar words came from the mouth of Shinigami.

 

Shinigami--I say the word in my mind.

I wish you could just take me away from this life--take me with you.

Which shinigami are you talking about, Yuy? I asked myself.

 

Do I really want this person I'm going to spend the rest of my life with--is Relena?

Why not?

Is there somebody else I could've turn to?

A person that loves me so dearly?

Why are the thoughts of love always take my mind to you..?

My friend--My partner--My...soul mate.

Shinigami--just take my life away.

 

[Duo]

 

I‘ve looked at the phone for the sixth times now. Should I call him?

No, bad idea.

Even I do call him, what should I say?

That I couldn't be in his wedding tomorrow?

That I'm thinking to go back to L2?

For what reason?

Broken hearted?

Bad--bad idea.

 

I shake my head and look around the room.

The room I've rented just late this afternoon after I arrived--the room I've rented for just two days. After attending the wedding I'm planning to go straight home.

But I've changed my mind just a few hours ago. I'm going tomorrow morning--I won't come to the wedding.

I mean what for? hurt myself even deeper?

 

I come all the way from L2 to find out ---what?!

Well let me tell' ya, I didn't find anything that I haven't found out before.

I remembered the day his letter plus the invitation arrived in my hands. He asked me to be his best man in his wedding ceremony.

My heart trampled, for the reason that I didn't know myself.

But of course I said to him that I'd be more than happy to be his best man--I mean *I am* his best friend, am I?

Me--Duo Maxwell--the loud-mouthed baka--become the best man of--Heero 'The Perfect Soldier' Yuy.

But I change my mind though, and told him that I already asked Trowa to replaced me, and that he's so anxious to do it.

Why? Heero asked me once.

I told him that I get nervous often in a wedding ceremony--and I didn't want to embarrass him in front of all the guests. He didn't mind with that--I supposed--But he soon remembered Relena and decided to use Trowa.

 

The night is getting colder every minute. When is this rain gonna stop anyway? It's okay with me.

Will they cancel the wedding if it keeps raining all day tomorrow?

I hope so..

What is that feeling I just felt inside me?

I feel like I'm losing something a part of me.

It couldn't be him, right?

I mean, who are you kidding, Maxwell?

But, like always, my heart knows better. It *is* him. All this time.

It's always been him.

 

[Relena]

 

I AM the happiest woman on earth--and colonies, of course.

Why can't I be? I'm marrying Heero Yuy-the love of my life, the man I have loved so long and so dearly since--I don't even know when it begun....

 

Since I saw those eyes. Those deep Prussian eyes.

My friends always said that he didn't love me. But I didn't believe them. Never did, never will.

 

Cause I can see it in those eyes--The way he looked at those skies that day he proposed me.  It's so different with the eyes I saw years ago in our first met.  It used to be so dark and cold.

 

But it's all over.

 

We're together now, and he gave up trying to kill me long time ago.

I still remembered that day--when he trying to kill me right in my birthday--I think it's kinda ironic if he really did killed me.

But he didn't do it.  He didn't kill me that day.

Well, I supposed I have to thanks Duo Maxwell too for saving my life.  If it's not because of him, I wouldn't marry Heero tomorrow.

 

Duo Maxwell.

 

The name suddenly stutters me. Suddenly the thought of him scares me.

 

I can see it clearly. The way he looked at Heero, he teased him every time he had the chance too, smiled to him in the way--which I can never described.

And not only once I saw Heero looking back at him with the corner of his eyes, with those look.

 

Oh My God

 

The look.  The way he looked at Duo.  It was the same look I saw that day.  When he looked to the sky above.

And I remembered the color of the sky in that cold afternoon.

It was violet.

The same color that Duo Maxwell shared in his eyes. Violet eyed pilot.

 

[Heero]

 

The tuxedo is clean and neat as a pin. Perfect.

The alarm was set for 7 AM in the morning--the ceremony will be held at 10 AM. Perfect.

The ring was in my trousers. It was platinum, the way I always want it to be. Perfect.

Everything is perfect.

 

I lay on my bed, trying to remember what I have forgotten. And the answer is--Nothing.

The guys are supposed to hold a bachelor party tonight--but it was canceled because of the hard rain.

I'm sure they wouldn't mind.

Quatre was not in the mood in that kind of party, and so did I.

Wufei seemed so anxious and keep mumbling that 'injustice' word, wondered why?

Trowa surely didn't mind, cause he's nervous to death thinking that he would be my best man in the wedding ceremony tomorrow substituting Duo.

 

Duo. Shinigami.

 

ARGH..!

I'm not supposed to think about that baka again.  No, he's not baka. He's smart. Baka--Smart--Beautiful---Damn you, Yuy..!!

I thought I get over him years ago.

Well, maybe it's okay for me to think about him a little tonight, so I wouldn't have to think about him--much--in the future life.  The life I'd share with Relena.

 

Okay, so let see..where should I start?

 

The first thing pop in to my head as I try to remembered him was...

Of course--that chestnut braid of his--his trademark.

The second was...

A beautiful violet eyes--as beautiful as the sky.

A black outfit--resembled for his alias name--Shinigami--The God of Death.

The cocky grin--so annoying--but yet I'd missed it so if he's not around.

His high cheerful voice.

It's getting so much easier for me to remember how he was after a few minutes.

 

"Duo Maxwell..." I call his name in this cold--lonely room.

I really need to get some fresh air.

I decided to go to the veranda outside.

 

[Duo]

 

I sat up on my bed.

It feels like someone calling my name just a second ago. Heero?

Nah... you're delusioning..that's all.

Thinking about him too much starts to make you out of your mind.

I'm out of my mind years ago, I said to myself.

Since I realize..

No, I didn't realize anything back then, but you know that something's wrong. Something's not right every time you saw those deep blue eyes.

 

Maybe I should call him.  Tell him not to marry Relena and run away with me somewhere far away.

Yeah right..! Like he ever going to leave Miss. Former Queen of The World for you.

 

I lay back on my bed. Trying to remember all the silly things I used to do just to get his attention, wonder why I did all that?

Maybe--Just maybe he would have a crush for me too--

Get out of here, Maxwell...

 

Almost jump, I reached for the phone, without thinking I dialed the number of his house, It's been a long time since my last call--well, about six months ago.

 

The machine answered it.  So I hung up.

Hey, wait a minute, baka.

Maybe it's better this way.

Maybe it's better for me if he didn't answer the phone. He would have this message shortly after the wedding--even better--after the honeymoon. So I dialed it again.

 

"Hey there, Heero. It's me.." I paused.  What should I say? Don't marry her please..? No way..! But I kinda tempted to do that. I smiled widely.

"I think I'm gonna miss your wedding tomorrow, cause I....Umm I..had a call from the salvage business in L2, you know business and stuff, so I can't be there." Wow, that's a lying record for you, Maxwell. And you told people that you'll never tell a lie.

"Well, except you can postpone the wedding for me.." I smiled in a mischievous smile alone in my room.

"Or maybe cancel it..?" Okay, so I was REALLY tempted to say that. At least I'm not lying this time.

 

"Heero, I...." What? What are you going to say?? You--are--so--stupid--Maxwell.

I bit my bottom lip hard. Not speaking for a few seconds before I finally hung up the phone.

 

Damn it! I lose control--again.

 

I lose control when I received that wedding invitation. Hilde looked at me worriedly that day and softly said. "It's not too late you know..."

"What for?" I asked dumbly, stared at the girl with a ridiculous look.

"To tell him." She smiled.

"Tell who?" I frowned. She's getting pissed of my attitude and almost yelled at me when she said, "Heero! You must tell Heero!"

"About what?" I'm getting enjoyed teasing her.

But she just touched my shoulder, sitting beside me and said slowly "You know what I'm talking about, Duo," she looked at me right in the eyes--I guess it shows."You couldn't hide those kind of things from your eyes, especially to me."

"W--What are you talking about?" I'm getting scared about my own feelings.

"You're not so happy about Heero and Relena's wedding are you?"

"Why shouldn't I?" I said in a husky tone--I couldn't even hide it in my voice now--Yes, I did hate the plan.

"Cause you almost tearing up the invitation."

"Ha? Oh---"

 

[Heero]

 

Was that Duo's voice I heard from inside my room?

I ran to the door and opened it hard.  I almost jumped inside to find---an empty room, of course.

No Duo.

Of course not you silly!

He's not here, he must've been in his hotel room.  Trowa said that he and Quatre picked him up from the airport this afternoon and take him to a small hotel nearby. The former pilot of Heavyarms slipped his address to me when we met just a couple of hours ago. Why did he do that anyway?

 

The message machine light is on. There's a message?

I turn it on, and after a few seconds a chirped sound echoed in the room.  That voice! Duo!

 

"Hey there, Heero. It's me.."

So, he did call. It was his voice I've heard just a minute ago--I'm not hallucinating--Duo.

His voice was still the same. He called every year but I never did called him even once--I only send short messages through e-mail. I'm not a talkative guy--so I didn't know what to say to him.

I didn't saw him for more then 4 years now, how I longed to see him.

But of course I could never say that through the phone.

 

"I think I'm gonna miss your wedding tomorrow, cause I....Umm I..had a call from the salvage business in L2, you know business and stuff, so I can't be there."

Strong--cheerful voice continued. The voice that I've missed so badly.

Duo, I didn't even have the chance to see you while you're here and now you're going back? You're leaving me--again?

Wait a minute--When did he ever leave me exactly. It was you who decided to forget about him. It was you who turned away, Yuy.

 

"Well, except you can postpone the wedding for me.."

Sure, Duo. For you--anything. So I can see those beautiful eyes again--See those smiles again--Please, just don't leave me.

Now, you're getting insane, Yuy.

 

"Or maybe cancel it..?"

It was a question, yet it sounds like a pleaded and a prayer.

Why, Duo? Why did you asked me not to marry her? What did you feel for me--exactly? Did you fell this burden inside too?

Another question suddenly came through my head.

Why not?

 

"Heero, I...." A long paused and he hung up on me.

I...

What are you going to say, Duo?

Why didn't you continue?

You now damn well why he didn't continue the words, Yuy.

Cause you're going to marry tomorrow. You're going to be somebody's husband tomorrow. You're going to live with someone else starting tomorrow. Someone who’s not me.

What the hell am I thinking about?!

 

My life...

What my life really was?

Mission?

It's over now, the war is over. Your mission is to protect Relena.

But she didn't need that anymore.

It was yourself you should think about now.

My life...

My life is him. I realize that now. Was it too late?

 

I have to see him. Now--or never.

 

[Relena]

 

The night is getting late. I couldn't sleep, I never sleep before big days. And tomorrow is MY big day.

Not just an ordinary meeting with the people in charge from other colonies or the president, but a meeting of destiny.

My destiny--and --Heero. The sacred matrimony that will bring us one.

 

In this kind of night-with the sounds of thunder and rain outside I could only think about you--my love--You--nothing else.

What are you thinking about right now?

Are you thinking about me too?

Are you thinking about someone else?

Namely---Duo?

No, no. I shake my head, I threw away that thought an hour ago. What they had--What ever it is--was over years ago, the same time when the war was over.

And there was only me now in his life. Heero loves  me.

 

Heero--loves--me--

Is he?

Oh God, please help me. The sky color was just a coincidence, I believed that.

So why does his name keep popping in my head?

Is it because the fact that they belong to each other? Is it so obvious what they've shared in front of my eyes years ago--which I refused to believe?

Was it *that* obvious that they had feelings for each other but they could never tell? even to each other?

 

God, don't took my love from me.

Shinigami, don't you take Heero from me.

But, what if Heero decided to go?

 

A knocked at the door startled me from those bad thoughts.

A maid came in with a sleepy face and told me that Mr. Yuy is waiting for me on the meeting room.

Heero?

What is he doing here in the middle of the night?

I thought we're not supposed to see each other before the wedding.

But if Heero had to come here, there must be something important. And I was scared to find out what it is.

 

I walk as slow as I can to meet my beloved fiance. I couldn't think something happy to drive away all this feelings I had.

Scared--Jealous--Pain--Hope--There's always hope.

 

"Heero.." I slowly call his name as calm as I always do. But my heart was pounding--hard--and even harder as my eyes found his.

Dark tousled hair are wet, all over his body is wet. Did he walk through the rain? Or running?

His eyes are cold as ever. Stared at me with the look. A look as if he was--sorry.

I couldn't ask--I couldn't even talk. Silenced.

 

He opened his mouth, and I know exactly what he said. I heard them though I didn't want to.

"I'm sorry Relena..I couldn't marry you."

 

There's no words in this world could describe how I feel inside.

Sad--Deep sad--Angry--Ashamed--Lost.

But somehow my heart could take it. I wondered why?

Maybe because I knew it all along.

I knew that this day would finally come--soon or later.

Heero Yuy wasn't belonged to me.

 

 

 

[Duo & Heero]

 

Duo loves the rain. The cold and sounds make him sleep better, at least that's what he thought hours ago. But he’s still awake now.

The bed is cold, but who cares? You can't have everything in a cheap hotel.

Anyway, 'I'm leaving tomorrow so I guess this is good enough for me.' He said to himself.

 

He was just going to have some tea so he could sleep better when he heard the door was knocked.

A very rough knock--indeed. 'I'm really going to kill the hotel manager,' he snorted.

Mumbling, he walked to the door, neglected his almost ready tea.

"What do you w--?"

His eyes opened widely as he saw the figure standing in front of the door. Never finished the words he said.

Brown hair, Prussian blue eyes, Heero. A very wet Heero, Duo frowned.

"Heero?" he tried to make sure. Incase he's delusioning--again.

He gasped slowly, and smiled--a slight smile.

"Can I come in?"

"Haa--o..sure, damn, sorry.." He mumbled to himself as he realized that Heero's waiting for his decision to let him in.

Duo ran to the bathroom and came back with a towel. "Here use this.." He said.

Heero took the towel and starts to drying his hair.

Duo eyeing him carefully, and the other boy noticed it. He looked to the braided boy and smile, this time a real smile. Duo blushed, so he decided to run away to his tea he's been waiting.

"Here, drink this. To warm you up.." He said while giving up his tea for the other boy and asks Heero to sit in the only chair he had.

"Arigatou.." He drank the tea in a very relief move.

 

"So, what'cha doing here?" Duo finally asked, his eyes not looking for Heero's eyes.

"To tell you that the wedding is off.."

"The wedding...WHAT?!!" He nearly jumped in surprised--real surprised.

"I thought that's what you wanted? I got the message."

"Wha--? But I was just kidding.." He looked down to his lap.

 

"I'm hoping you're not." Heero said.

"Haa---?"

"Being with Relena, make me feel wanted." Heero said softly, eyes straight to the violet eyes. "But it was a needed to protect someone, it feels more like a mission, not love."

Duo stared at the other boy. Couldn't say a word.

Heero's here. He's really here. The tousled hair, the deep blue eyes, the cold voice--yet so soft and--loving?

 

"Duo, why didn't you want me to marry Relena?--in the phone--you said that.." He asked solemnly, he wanted answers--NOW.

But Duo didn't want to say those words first. No way. He thinks he had showed it too many times just to get--well, nothing.

"I don't know," he answered," maybe if you could tell me why are you really here, Heero?"

Violet eyes shimmered with triumph. Heero know his game, and this time he just going to let him win. This beautiful violet eyed creature in front of him.

"Because it feels so right to be with you, Duo."

 

Duo looked at him. Couldn't believe he actually said that, that damn soldier inside him let him said that.

When he looked at him, he saw those deep blue eyes looked back.

He smiled to him, a happy smile. And he smiled back. Heero--smiled?

 

Could this be happening? He finally meet him after all these years, met this boy that always coming to his dreams--whether it was a good dream or a nightmare. And he said that he has feelings for him? Heero?

 

No way. It's too good to be true. Any minute now I will be awake in my little room back in L2 and find that this is just another dream. Make it better--the wedding plan was also a dream, He said inside his heart.

 

But the sound of the rain was so real. It couldn't be a dream.

Well, if it is, I would never ever wake up again.

If this is dream--God--let me sleep forever.

 

"I'm not dreaming--Am I?" Duo asked the Japanese boy, eyes trying to find Heero's eyes as he did so.

Heero smiled to affirm,

 

"Ai shiteru, Duo."

 

Duo smiled--a very wide smiled--jumped over Heero as he did so.

"Okay, me too.."

 

The tea spilled from the broken cup in the floor while the two pilots kissing passionately.

 

 

OWARI

 

Note       : Rain is great sometimes, Yeah...